Second marriage itch

Chapter 187 I Was Originally a Zero

I was stunned!

Xu Yafei has already held my hand and walked in.

"I don't think you can sleep? I can't sleep either. Why don't you open a room and talk."

There is no reason for my trust in him, I just think he is a person who can hold the bottom line and is worthy of trust.

This is an ordinary room. Although the room is small, it is basically fully furnished, with an independent bathroom, TV, a double bed, a sofa by the window, and a small round table.

Most importantly, it looks clean.

There is khaki wallpaper with dark patterns on the wall, and the lighting is warm.

Xu Yafei went to the balcony to smoke a cigarette, and I followed suit.

There is a night market under the balcony, which is very noisy.

Fortunately, the floors are higher, and all the hustle and bustle sounds far away.

"Shen Yu."

Xu Yafei called me, but stopped talking.

I said, "You don't need to persuade me. It's not because of one thing or two things that I got to where I am today. It's the accumulation of conflicts all the time. I've been mentally prepared for it."

Xu Yafei supported the railing with both hands and looked into the distance.

"Then where are you going? No matter where you go, you start all over again. It's not easy for a woman to start from scratch."

I smiled wryly, "I was originally a zero."

"Actually, you don't have to go."

He rubbed between his brows, as if the effect of alcohol gave him a headache.

I shook my head, "I have no reason to stay any longer."

Xu Yafei sighed, subconsciously reached out to touch the cigarette.

In fact, I had seen him throw the empty cigarette pack in the trash before.

He seemed to have remembered, gave up looking for cigarettes, and put his hands in his pockets.

The wind on the balcony was quite strong, bringing a chill and a faint smell of wine.

I shivered.

"Cold?"

He seemed to notice it, and turned to ask me.

"A little."

I nodded and was about to turn around and enter the room, but was suddenly pulled into his arms by him.

"Little fish, I love you!"

He confessed in a low hoarse and affectionate manner with a hint of drunkenness.

I was trying to break free from his arms, but he hugged me tightly, not giving me a chance to escape.

"Don't be afraid, little fish, I won't do anything to you, I'm so afraid of you being hurt, why would I take the initiative to hurt you?"

I didn't move, and whispered, "Xu Yafei, you're drunk."

Xu Yafei's wry laughter came from his ears.

"Yes, I'm drunk. If I wasn't drunk, how dare I confess to you?"

The aroma of wine is lingering, mixed with strong sadness, stimulating my nerves little by little.

"Xiaoyu, I love you. I have loved you for many years. I wanted to say this to you a long time ago, but I couldn't say it. It doesn't matter if you call me cowardly. I just don't want to disturb your life. But now I see you don't Happy, I really feel distressed. Xiaoyu, give me a chance, let me take care of you, whether you leave or stay, let me stay by your side, okay?"

Little by little, I broke free from Xu Yafei's embrace. I was very moved and looked at him seriously.

"Yafei, you have been very kind to me since I was a child, and it is the same now. I am really grateful to you, but..."

"You don't need to say it, I know."

He took a few steps back, leaning his back against the floor-to-ceiling windows, looking up into the depths of the night.

"I've known for a long time that this is the result, and this is why I have never dared to confess to you. I have never heard your answer, so I can always hold on to hope, and I can always protect you as a friend openly and aboveboard. You, I care about you. Xiaoyu, do you know? The scars on your heart are no different from those on my heart. Thinking about it, I’m afraid. What would you do if you didn’t call me tonight? What are you going to do? Where are you going? What kind of life will you live in the future? Xiaoyu, I am really worried about you."

The moonlight shone into his eyes, shining brightly.

In fact, I was so moved at this moment, but moving is not love.

"Yafei, thank you for being kind to me. Everyone will grow. I can't depend on others forever. Even if the road is full of thorns, I should make my own way. I am not a child. I am a person with arms and legs. Adults who can support themselves, so don't worry about me. I just beg you don't tell him you saw me, okay?"

Xu Yafei looked at me with too much helplessness in his eyes, and finally he could only say "yes" with a wry smile.

A gust of cold wind blew, and he seemed to have woken up a lot. He patted me on the shoulder.

"It's cold outside, let's go in."

Walking into the room, Xu Yafei took off his coat and lay down on the sofa.

"You sleep on the bed, I sleep on the sofa, go to sleep."

There are two quilts on the bed, which are not thick, but fortunately, there is air conditioning in the room, so he won't be cold when he sleeps on the sofa, so I didn't greet him politely, climbed into the bed and lay down with my clothes on.

But after lying down, I didn't feel sleepy. Xu Yafei also kept his eyes open and didn't fall asleep.

This is the first night I left Xue Duyun, and I was very embarrassed.

But the embarrassment is just the beginning, and there is still a long way to go. For the sake of my baby, I must make tomorrow better.

At four o'clock in the morning, even the night market downstairs was completely quiet, and even the sound of breathing came from the sofa.

I got out of bed softly.

There was Xu Yafei's wallet on the small table. I took the wad of cash from his wallet, took the luggage out of the hotel, took a taxi and went directly to the train station.

When I first arrived in the county town of Linshui, all it brought me was malice, and I just wanted to leave quickly.

The train station was not very level, so I quickly walked into the waiting hall after getting off the train. The earliest train was at 05:30, heading for Qinggang City.

"How far is Qinggang from Nancheng?" I asked.

The conductor gave me a surprised look, "It takes ten hours to take a train from here to Qinggang."

A ten hour train ride is far enough.

After buying the ticket, I waited in the waiting hall for an hour, finally got on the train to Qinggang, and left this nightmare place.

Leaning against the car window, I watched the dawn come slowly, watched the train shuttle through the fields and mountains, and watched the gradual melting of ice and snow to blooming flowers.

Qinggang is further south than Nancheng, and the spring here comes very early.

As soon as the train entered Qinggang, spring flowers bloomed everywhere.

When I found a random restaurant in Qinggang and had breakfast and paid the bill, I found a note in Xu Yafei's money.

"Xiaoyu, take good care of yourself, call me if you have any difficulties, no matter how far away, I will come to you as soon as possible."

His phone number, WeChat, email and other contact information are written on the back.

Looking at this note, I suddenly felt that every piece of money brought warmth and all my guilt towards Xu Yafei.

When you first arrive in a strange city, you need to find a job first, and survival is the most important thing.

Let's solve the Wenbo problem first, and then talk about the ideal of life.

Fortunately, my belly is not yet visible, no one can see that I am a pregnant woman.

Maybe God favored me, I soon found a job advertisement posted on the door of a Chinese medicine clinic, requiring a graduate with a nursing major and a certain knowledge of Chinese medicine.

I feel like this job is tailor-made for me.

I walked into this Chinese medicine clinic, and the attending doctor was a male Chinese medicine doctor who was about 70 to [-] years old. After seeing my diploma and asking a few simple questions, he quickly decided to hire me.

I was so happy at that moment.

This is a good beginning.

The doctor's surname is Huang. The building where he runs the clinic belongs to his family, and there is a three-story building in the backyard, which is his family's house.

Dr. Huang's children all study Chinese medicine. They all work in big hospitals and have their own houses, so the house is currently occupied by Dr. Huang and his wife.

When Dr. Huang found out that I had just arrived from other places, he offered to provide me with board and lodging, and even let me use an idle computer at home.

Since I am also a professional counterpart, it is very handy to do it, and I have really become a good helper of Dr. Huang. At the same time, he also taught me a lot of things, and these things are exactly what I want to learn in the field of Chinese medicine.

I still can't help but miss Xue Duyun.

I think about work, when I’m free, when I’m eating, and when I’m sleeping.

Seeing the same car, similar back view, my heart would beat violently twice.

So I try to keep myself busy and not think about it.

I remember Seagull telling me that if you are brave enough to say goodbye to the past, life will reward you with a new beginning.

A person who lives in the past cannot live a wonderful self.

Since I came to Qinggang, I have more contacts with Seagull.

I told him honestly about my situation, and often shared my current life and work with him.

I work during the day and spend most of the night studying those USB flash drives that Zhuang Meiling gave me.

I don't know why Zhuang Meiling gave me this gift at the beginning of the year, but now it seems like a kind of foresight.

At the beginning, because I was professional and experienced, Dr. Huang generously paid me 4000 yuan a month. However, when I paid my salary, Dr. Huang gave me [-] yuan, which I insisted on not wanting.For me, [-] a month, including my board and lodging, is already very good, but Dr. Huang insisted on giving it to me, saying that I deserve it.

At the end of spring and the beginning of summer, the clothes on my body were reduced layer by layer, and my stomach gradually became obvious.

I lived under the same roof as the Huangs, and I couldn't hide this problem, so I told them frankly that I was separated from the child's father and I had to rely on myself.

Since they found out that I was pregnant, they took great care of me. Another person was recruited in the clinic to share the work. Mrs. Huang often made chicken soup for me.

I don’t know when it started, but I no longer dislike greasy things. For the sake of my child’s good growth, I try to eat as much as possible every meal.

I don't know who said that everything is going to be reversed. When your fate is at its worst, it means that a turning point is coming.

Meeting Xue Duyun at the beginning was my turning point, and now leaving him and meeting the kind-hearted Dr. Huang's family is also my turning point.

I deeply believe this statement now.

I also communicated with them my idea of ​​doing TCM cosmetology.

Dr. Huang said very appreciatively, "I support young people to have their own ideals. When people are young, they should work hard, fight hard, and promote the culture of Chinese medicine. Very good, Shen Yu, I support you, you Let it go, I'll invest."

Dr. Huang's optimism gave me great encouragement, and my confidence increased.

When I am on vacation, I will research the market.

Qinggang is also a pretty big city, and its market potential is definitely not inferior to Nancheng.

At the same time, I bought some books related to business management to recharge myself.

I have seen many examples in the book. Many excellent entrepreneurs started from a small workshop. I think people really can't be too high and far away.

Entrepreneurship itself has certain risks. If you are not afraid of failure, you are afraid that you will not be able to stand up from failure.

If you refuse to take the first step, you will never know if you can do it.

I worked at Dr. Huang's for four months and got 2 yuan. I didn't spend money on food and lodging, so I basically saved it.

Dr. Huang invested 20 yuan, and I promise to give him dividends in the future.

I first rented a small storefront, did some simple decoration, purchased basic facilities, and then hired a shop assistant.

The second step is publicity. At the beginning, I set the target audience on the middle and low consumption groups. Dr. Huang suggested to me that Chinese medicine is not cheap. On the contrary, in foreign countries, they admire Chinese medicine very much.And those who are really willing to take care of themselves are precisely high-spending groups. I think what Dr. Huang said is very reasonable, so I made adjustments and defined the consumer group as a female group with more spending power.

At the end of May, I heard that one of the largest clubs in Qinggang was going to hold a reception, and all the famous people attended.

This is a great opportunity for publicity, but an ordinary person like me can't get in on such an occasion, not to mention that my belly is already obvious, and it's hard not to attract people's attention if I go to the reception with a big belly.

And just at this moment, an opportunity came before my eyes.

(End of this chapter)