Second marriage itch

Chapter 215 The secret buried by time
All the things were placed beside the ruins, and Xue Li was tidying up everything that belonged to Teacher Yu while weeping.

I quietly put this diary into my bag.

After the on-site rescue was completed, all of Mr. Yu's belongings were sorted out. We took Mr. Yu's body back to Nancheng and stored it in the funeral home.

Yu Qian is rushing back, she should hope to see Teacher Yu for the last time.

In the past two days, everyone was panicked by the earthquake, and sadness filled the sky over the entire city.

On the second day, I didn't go to the company.

After breakfast, Xue Duyun went to work, while I went upstairs, took out the diary from my bag, sat down on a chair outside the balcony, and quietly opened it.

The reason why I didn’t open it immediately when I came back was because I had a strong anxiety in my heart. Recalling what Teacher Yu once said to me, I always felt that Teacher Yu knew something, but it was just inconvenient to say it.It is very likely that he will write things in his diary that are inconvenient to say.

After reading Teacher Yu's diary, I sat on the balcony for a whole morning.

The summer sun is scorching hot, but I am shivering when I sit under the sun, as if my blood has been frozen and no longer flows.

At lunch time, Miss Zhang came up and asked me to eat.

I didn't move, and I even felt that I had lost the function of vocalization, and the sound that came out was very soft.

"Eat it, I don't want to eat it."

After sitting for a long time, I took the diary and went out.

When I came to my father's tombstone, I knelt down straight.

The knees hit the hard slate, as if the kneecaps were about to be broken, but I didn't feel any pain, I just felt cold, cold to the tip of my heart.

In the photo on the tombstone, my dad's appearance was frozen when he was very young.

I can only see such a loving smile in my dreams for a long time.

Although my family was not rich, I still felt very satisfied and happy when I was young.For me, being accompanied by my parents is better than fine clothes, fine food, delicacies from mountains and seas.

But all of this was destroyed overnight.

I always thought that night was just an accident, and I complained countless times that God was unfair.But after reading Teacher Yu's diary, I realized that it was not an accident at all.

"Since I married Biru, there have been constant rumors and gossips about her. In fact, in the short days after marriage, I have realized that maybe this is a mistake.

There are many things that I don't know, I just pretend not to know.Having a daughter and a son successively did not make our marriage more stable, but it became more and more empty.

I would also drink when I was depressed. She took her son out that night and didn’t come back very late. My daughter was very good at observing my words and emotions. She probably saw that I was in a bad mood, so she took the initiative to cook.She is not much taller than the stove, with a small bench under her feet, but she looks good.Seeing my daughter so sensible, my heart softened.I took the spatula from my daughter's little hand, fried eggs and fried rice, and we, father and daughter, each had a bowl.

I drank some wine with egg fried rice, it was late and she hadn't come back yet.Emboldened by the drunkenness, I told my daughter to go to bed earlier, and went out by myself in a coat.I'm going to find her, I know where she is.

Boss Xue of the quarry built a house next to the quarry, and he lived there most of the time.A quarry is a place where men work, and every worker there is disgraced after a day of work.Biru is such a clean woman, but she runs to the quarry every three days. If I don’t know that there is something tricky in it, I would be stupid. I pretend to be stupid because I want to give my children a complete home.

There was an accident in the quarry that day, and the workers dispersed early.Looking at the light coming from the house of Xue's house, I was a little confused again.

Even if Biru is inside, what can I do here?Confronting someone surnamed Xue and declaring sovereignty?Or should he directly take the stand of being a husband and accuse her of faults?Or make a big fuss and let everyone have a good time?

I ended up doing nothing but approaching the house step by step.The footsteps were all hidden in the snow, and I came silently.

There was a faint voice of talking in the room with the light on, and I walked out of the window of that room and stopped in my tracks.

That night I heard many terrible truths outside the window, about the tragic car accident in the Shen family, about A Li's life experience.

I never knew that she had concealed so much from me, that the people next to me were so vicious, and they planned all this with their own hands.

I was so shocked, my feet seemed to be frozen, and I didn't move.Biru saw me as soon as she opened the door, and she was terrified.But she was very smart and reacted quickly. She immediately knelt down in front of me, crying and begging me not to speak out.

I was in shock and couldn't recover, and I didn't know how I brought her back that night.After going back, she pulled me into the room, begged me while kissing me, said that she had difficulties, and promised that she would never see the surname Xue again in the future, and live with me well.It was the first time she was so active and enthusiastic in bed, but I was not aroused a little bit of sexual interest, and finally pushed her away.

Seeing her pitiful appearance, I can't bear it. Even though she has been restless, she is still the woman I love and the mother of two children.Even though Ah Li is not my flesh and blood, but the child is not wrong, how can I make the two children accept this matter?
After a few days of calm, I finally kept silent.In the past few days, I felt Bi Ru's virtuousness for the first time.She keeps the house clean, cooks delicious meals, bathes the children, braids Qianqian's hair, and helps them with homework.The children were delighted, and I was almost immediately captivated by the warmth,

So I kept my own selfishness and buried all the secrets. "

"Shen Yu is a very sensible girl. Her sensibleness makes people feel very sad, because she shoulders all the burdens that she should not bear at her age. I feel distressed, sympathetic, and guilty.

Although she is bitter, she is simple, kind, and filial.Maybe hiding the truth is not a bad thing for her, so that she will not live in hatred, her world is still pure, and her heart still has love.

What's more, even if she knew everything, what could she change?Nothing will change.

I care about her in life and study, take care of her, and give her all the love I can give her.I even wanted to adopt her very much, but I was afraid that my performance of atonement would be too obvious, and people would see the clues.

Tribulations make people grow. Fortunately, she has been working hard to get out of the haze, live positively, and live like a little adult. "

"Since I found out the truth, I haven't touched Bi Ru very much. I always feel that there is a knot in my heart, and I also feel that being happy is a sin, because that little girl named Shen Yu is suffering.

Bi Ru has been in peace for several years, but I know that she has never broken up with that person.I don't care much about these anymore, as long as she returns to this house every day.My marriage to her is dead in name only, and everything I do is just for the children.It was because of the child that I concealed the crime for her at the beginning, and it is also because of the child that I silently forbear now.

But she became more and more over the top later, often staying out at night, probably because she was determined that I would not tell the truth for the sake of the child.This kind of marriage is absurd, I don't want to be absurd for a lifetime, and the child is older and has the ability to judge rationally.So I took the initiative to propose a divorce and planned to set her free. After all, it doesn't make any sense to keep a heartless body.

She left, Qianqian gave it to me, she took A Li away.I was so drunk that night, a big man hid in the room and cried, it was very useless.I don't know what I'm crying about. I obviously couldn't make it through, and I took the initiative to ask for a divorce. I obviously wanted to let her go and myself, right?I'm probably crying for the absurd years of these years!
Qianqian came to knock on my door and called out to my father. I hurriedly wiped away my tears, afraid that she would see me crying, so I didn't turn on the light when I opened the door.Qianqian hugged me and said, Dad, you still have me!At that moment I couldn't control my tears anymore.

This night, the family of four became two, but life still has to go on. "

"On Christmas day, I found out that Shen Yu was with the Xue family's son, should I say that good luck tricks people?
The eldest son of the Xue family is a capable young man who has created a world by himself. He is mature and stable, and his character seems to be good.I can't say that Shen Yu and him will not be happy, but I always feel that God's arrangement is too ironic.

But it's done, what else can I say?I can only hold good wishes, I hope Xue's family can treat her better, and repay all the debts to her with love.I also hope that the original truth will become a permanent secret buried by time. "

At noon in summer, with the scorching sun above my head, I knelt in front of my father's grave.

That diary, that truth is also placed in front of the tomb.

I think my dad must be blaming me all these years, blaming me for living a muddleheaded life and never finding out the truth.Blame me for marrying the son of my enemy and having children for him.

"Dad, I was wrong!"

My eyes are astringent, but the tears can no longer flow out, as if they have been dried, and my lips are so dry that there is no saliva.

I kept kneeling as if I was punishing myself, and my limbs gradually became weak and dizzy.

The moment I lost consciousness, I even felt a sense of relief.

It’s also good not to wake up like this, I can go to my parents.

I had a messy dream, I dreamed of Teacher Yu, my parents, Xue Duyun and Nianfeng Nianyin.They come and go like slides in my mind.

It seemed that after a long period of suffering, I finally woke up in a daze.

The head was heavy, as if the whole head had been poured over.The first thing you see when you open your eyes is the hanging bottle.

But this is not a hospital, but at home, I am lying on my bed.

Hearing the sound of turning the pages of the book, I turned my head and saw Xue Duyun sitting on the small sofa and flipping through the diary.

(End of this chapter)