Surrounded by sickness, I just want to live in daily life

Shen Yi listened to the movement in the room, and didn't know what happened, so it's better to tell the truth now.

"Kexin, it's me."

Shen Yi replied, after saying that, the room became quiet again, and after a few seconds, he got the girl's affirmation before he entered the door.

During the previous meeting, Wu Kexin was in a strange state. Did he receive a call again today?

Shen Yi was thinking about it, and at the same time he also made a plan in his heart on how to comfort the girl.

Originally, he had already imagined the situation in the room, but when he opened it, Shen Yi couldn't help trembling in his heart.

The girl was sitting cross-legged on her own bed, the room was dark with no lights on, and she seemed to be used to being in the dark.

Her breathing was slow, but it inevitably accelerated after seeing Shen Yi, the person in front of her could disturb her heartstrings at any time.

If Shen Yi didn't know that there was someone there, or even didn't find out at all, he might just skip it.

But even under the sun, didn't he just ignore this childhood sweetheart?

"Kexin, isn't it already late, why don't you rest?"

Shen Yi slowly closed the door, saying this was nothing but self-deception, he naturally knew that Wu Kexin was waiting for him, but it was a bit too embarrassing.

Wu Kexin didn't speak, but quietly watched Shen Yi approaching, her fingers had tightly pinched the quilt where she couldn't see.

Do you really want to do that?She's still rocking.

"A lot of things have happened in the past two days. If you have any worries, you can tell me."

Shen Yi didn't choose to turn on the light either, he was talking about the phone call, and he was a little bit concerned that Wu Kexin didn't tell him about that matter.

He naturally wanted to comfort the girl, but if it became bright at this time, he really didn't know how to deal with the relationship between the two.

This matter is not as simple as consolation. What is really complicated has always been the relationship between the two.

Although Shen Yi was slow, he was not stupid. Wu Kexin had been by his side for such a long time, no matter what he did, he could subtly and slowly understand the girl's mind.

In the past, she couldn't respond well, and couldn't express her thoughts frankly, so Shen Yan's blackening and Zou Guqing's blackening were all caused by herself.

Now Wu Kexin, whom he cared about, also showed signs of blackening, and Shen Yi didn't know what to do.

Even if this so-called is futile, he can only try his best.

"It's nothing...just, Shen Yi, are you really all right?"

"I?"

Shen Yi didn't expect Wu Kexin to ask back, and after a moment of daze, he understood what the girl said.

Wu Kexin looks carefree, but she has always cared about herself. What she said should be her strange experiences.

"What you said, it's all over, and generally speaking, isn't it quite interesting?"

"No! That's not what I said!"

The girl's tone suddenly became sharp, like a cat whose tail was stepped on and instantly exploded.

But after frightening Shen Yi, she took a few deep breaths and tried to calm down her tone.

"Then you deliberately alienated me because of those things?"

Listening to Shen Yi's heartless answer, Wu Kexin's voice trembled a little, and some old events slowly flowed out from the depths of his memory.

Deliberate alienation?Shen Yi frowned.

The atmosphere in the room also dropped to freezing point in an instant, the air was as thick as the sap flowing in the blood vessels of the trees, flowing, but not smooth.

Looking at the familiar figure in the darkness, my heart seemed to be trapped in a thick drum, rushing from left to right but unable to break through, something was clamoring deep in the body.

He never thought of this description, but now it seems that what he did is different from deliberately alienating?

"You don't deny it? You know it too?"

"However, Yi, I won't blame you, I know your difficulties."

Before Shen Yi could speak, Wu Kexin was already helping Shen Yi to excuse himself, but the more this happened, the stronger the guilt in Shen Yi's heart.

"We were so close before, Yi, do you remember?"

"Including the name Yi, you let me call you that, you said you like to hear it."

Wu Kexin knelt on the bed, slowly moving forward.

She has tried very hard to restrain herself, she has listened to Zou Guqing's words, and she doesn't want to cause trouble to Shen Yi, but what should she do if her heart is so uncomfortable.

If it wasn't for the person in front of him who was more important to him than his life, if he hadn't lighted up his hopes and made an unrealistic promise to his childhood self, how could he be so uncomfortable?

"Yi, have you forgotten all these things?"

"You said that you will always be together in the future. You said that I am the most important thing to you. I remember it in my heart, and I haven't forgotten it at all."

Shen Yi froze in place, were those words he said?Yes, these are undeniable.

Wu Kexin's state was very wrong, he opened his eyes wide in the dark night and wanted to see the person in front of him clearly, but he couldn't.

The night is as thick as jelly, and the mist grows from an impossible place, which is my heart.

It has always been like this, it has always been like this, you can clearly see it, you can clearly follow him, you can clearly communicate with him, but he has never belonged to you.

Even for a second...

"Things from the past..."

Shen Yi opened his mouth, but did not make a sound several times.

At this time, the already mutilated voice seemed to be choked by someone, and whatever was said at this time might be a kind of cruelty to the girl.

Have you forgotten yourself?Of course not, those things are also very important to me, how could I forget them.

Wu Kexin is Shen Yi's first and best friend.

When such a tragedy happened and she thought she would never be able to get out, she was the one who forcibly dragged herself out.

[If Yi doesn't want to live, just take me with you. 】

[Because you've always been in a daze, you probably won't be able to live well down there, I can take care of you. 】

Was that what the girl said at the time?

Shen Yi always thought that young girls at that time had no concept of death, after all it was too unbelievable to accompany someone to die.

However, looking at Wu Kexin now, he suddenly understood something.

It's not that they have no concept of death, children are the ones who are most afraid of death, and it is precisely because their understanding of death is better than that of adults, the weight of what they said at that time made Shen Yi feel extremely heavy.

"I still remember everything... everything, I still remember."

He couldn't deny his past, even if he seemed to have done something wrong again, Shen Yi had to admit it.

If Shen Yan suppressed her feelings for eight years, what about her feelings for Wu Kexin?Is it because I am also deliberately resisting.

Wu Kexin received Shen Yi's reply, and the confusion in his eyes became more intense. If he knew everything, then... what about that matter?

Shen Yi should still remember that incident.

As long as you remember, you don't have to care about the past, and the two of you can start over again, after all, they both liked each other once.

I can't wait any longer, I can't bear it any longer.

Must get an affirmative answer now!

"Yi, you said at that time that you would be with me, do you remember?"

Chapter 69 "The Past Is Like Smoke"

If Shen Yi were to use one word to describe his past, it would be chaos.

life, confusion; feelings, confusion;

Everything about him is like those cases, which look glamorous, but it is only after actual contact that he knows the darkness.

Life in the past eight years is not as simple as he described. How a child can engage in dangerous things and profit from them to support himself and Shen Yan's life, this kind of difficulty can be imagined.

What was more difficult was actually his own emotions, and he endured that kind of inner torment for eight years.

He just re-displayed these things today, and he had done many wrong things before that.

I am guilty of hiding the truth from Shen Yan, just to keep her by my side.

And I am timid, I don't know which commission I will miss and die.

If you are destined to die, wouldn't it be better to have as few people as you can interact with?

There shouldn't be many people who will be sad when they leave like that.

What Shen Yi wished was that when he died, he would not have any relatives and friends by his side.

There is such a concept that tragedy is the destruction of valuable things for people to see.

Shen Yi hates watching tragedies, he doesn't know the value of watching dramas that he knows the ending is already doomed.

Isn't it the same for the protagonists in those bloody Korean dramas? When they are terminally ill, they will leave their loved ones, and the deeper the love, the farther they will be.

It was too close, and I tried my best to control it, but the girl and the girl were like magnets attracting each other, and now I realized that it was too close.

So close, so heavy, he couldn't bear it.

"Yi, you remember right, tell me! You do remember!"

Calmness is gradually taken over by rage, and the girl will apologize immediately after roaring.

To what extent is it cherished and humbled to make such a move.

It was late at night, and the girl had suppressed her emotions for a long time, and she hadn't waited for the answer from her beloved.

At this moment, her emotions finally reached an unstoppable peak. She moved forward a few steps, and she was about to fall off the bed.

Shen Yi's pupils shrank, and he instinctively rushed up to hug Wu Kexin, but threw himself into the trap.

But what's the difference? He was already in the net.

The girl's body was as hot as a branding iron, stinging Shen Yi's skin, and her fingernails even plunged into flesh and blood.

But these are not worth mentioning compared to distress, physical pain can be tolerated, but distress is unbearable for Shen Yi.

He closed his eyes tightly, not daring to look into the girl's eyes, he didn't dare to meet her eyes.