Surrounded by sickness, I just want to live in daily life

He was very afraid, afraid of seeing the disappointed look in the girl's eyes, afraid of losing everything he had already gained.

As long as she speaks out, she should be disgusted.

"Say it! Say you remember it."

So what if you remember?Can you admit it yourself?

If Wu Kexin was the first to meet, Shen Yi might agree, but what about now?

Shen Yi obviously already has Zou Guqing, and that is her real girlfriend, this kind of thing is obviously not allowed.

Even if his heart feels like a knife is being twisted, even if he has understood the girl's appeal, how can Shen Yi respond?

Shen Yi is the protagonist of the tragedy. He made such a promise when he was a child, and he did have feelings for Wu Kexin that were different from friendship.

However, that is already in the past, he has passed the age at which he can ignore everything, how should he respond now?

Both sides are important people to me, do I have to make a choice?

"Kexin, I... remember everything, it's just..."

Shen Yi tried his best to restrain his expression, he is not a piece of wood, how could he not know the girl's dependence.

The girl's condition was very bad, she was on the verge of blackening, but Shen Yi couldn't stop her.

He was also used to it, used to the girl chattering in his ear, used to her confrontation with Shen Yan, used to her carelessness, used to her special consideration for him.

She shouldn't be like this, she shouldn't hide those things from herself, she shouldn't be sad about it.

Maybe she shouldn't like herself, so wouldn't it be painful now?

The past is like smoke, it's easy to say!

But after the wildfire burned, it did directly ignite the grassland in their hearts.

Fire!fire!The fire has consumed them.

Strictly speaking, Wu Kexin was actually his first love, but that was all wrong. In the past, it was to not lose the friendship, to make the girl not be so sad when he left.

Now, being fettered, he couldn't make a promise at all.

Relationships can't progress normally, and that greed, that suppressed emotion has to find an outlet too.

Wu Kexin was very afraid, she had already shown the weak side of herself in front of Shen Yi, she couldn't stand a little rejection at all.

Since the conventional way doesn't work, let's twist it together, if that's the only way to go.

Shen Yan is so presumptuous, but she can get Shen Yi's care all the time. Zou Guqing also made a big mistake, but she can deepen the bond with Shen Yi.

What's the point of my patience all this time? Although I don't want to hurt him, but...

As long as you can get it, as long as you can go further, as long as things can go according to your imagination, then you should be able to do whatever you want.

Wu Kexin's eyes flickered, and the arms embracing Shen Yi bounded Shen Yi like tight ropes, as if chili powder had been poured into the trachea, what he breathed was full of pungent and bloody.

She remembered the beginning of everything, the little boy who reached out to her.

[Don't call me Shen Yi anymore, it feels so serious, from now on you can call me Yi, it sounds better. 】

I remembered the young boy who confided his heart to himself, his brows were always open at that time.

He loves to smile, and he looks good when he smiles.

【If possible, can you stay with me in the future? 】

How did you answer it at that time?It seems that he refused to come, how shy, but if it is the current me, I will definitely agree.

However, neither of them could go back.

The current Shen Yi couldn't respond, so she longed for the past even more.

Now, it's too bad right now.

There were not so many smiles on Shen Yi's face. Only today did Wu Kexin realize that those things had bent the boy's back and gradually matured him.

Shen Yi waved his hand and left. The relationship between the two of them hadn't progressed any further in the past eight years. Instead, Shen Yi deliberately maintained a kind of inseparability.

He thinks this is good, but has he ever wondered what his own thoughts are?

I have been trapped in the past eight years ago and have not come out. I have been living in the past.

Shen Yi walked out a series of footprints on the snow, in order not to obstruct the road ahead, he continued walking forward without even looking at it.

But Wu Kexin was measuring the footprint on the spot, she firmly believed that the footprint was left for herself.

Are there new memories between the two?Of course there is, but the past is too profound, and she has never been able to forget it.

"Yi, don't think about it so much, okay?"

Saying this, don't think so much means asking Shen Yi if he can only think about her matters.

A beggar living at the bottom will not be jealous of the rich if he has never owned it before.

However, she once had it, but now she has lost it. How can she bear it?

"Yi, I know, you still like me, I know."

"Can you look back at me? Can you stop going any further?"

Different from Shen Yi's imagination, the chaos in the girl's eyes has reached a certain level, but there is no heart-piercing pain.

On the contrary, the exposure retreated, she calmed down, and even asked Shen Yi's opinion.

"Kexin...I'm sorry..."

Shen Yi didn't know what else he could say besides being sorry, just like what Wu Kexin said, he still liked her, but he didn't dare to take another look at her, afraid that he would make a wrong choice if he took another look.

I have already made a choice, I already have Zou Guqing, I... am I too rubbish...

"Is that so, you rejected me again~"

The girl said regretfully, smiled reluctantly, and took a few deep breaths to keep herself from crying immediately.

"It's late, Yi, rest."

"When I wake up again, everything will be fine."

Wu Kexin said so with utmost gentleness, but her voice was trembling, making people heartbroken.

She finally made up her mind, reached out and grabbed the thing under the quilt, and waved it vigorously, a cold light flashed in the room

Chapter 70

Love, what should it be?How should it be expressed?

For ordinary people, love is a topic that may not be so serious, but just a word to express feelings.

Young couples who have just fallen in love will say "I love you" to each other like in the movie before they have experienced anything.

So the girl falls in love, but they don't understand anything, and there is a high probability that they will separate in the end.

However, what they told each other two days ago was "I like you".

What's the point of this kind of love?

Shen Yi never told Wu Kexin that he likes, let alone love, it might just be wishful thinking all this time.

And then again, what is the difference between love and liking?

Wu Kexin once thought that she liked Shen Yi, but later she thought that she fell in love with Shen Yi.

Love should be more serious, more formal.

That should be sacred and beautiful, and it should be a word that can only be spoken in a lifetime.

When the priest stands in front of the couple, after they've said their vows to each other, the words "I love you" count when they kiss.

A new couple is officially together after saying "I love you", but they are only given a chance to prove their love.

They must have experienced wealth and poverty, birth, old age, sickness and death, peace and pain together, in order to add that gorgeous color to love.

A man should be patient with a woman's petty temper, forgive her caressing, and be more tolerant.

And women should also endure the man's minor problems, forgive him for watching the ball alone late at night, and give him more free space.

They will have a lot of fights, but they will always make up, they want and love.

Undoubtedly, they are all lucky and happy.

They found the right person, and that right person happens to love you.

If, just saying, the person you love doesn't love you, what should you do?

What if you've found the right person, but you're just passing through to him?

For another person to love, don't continue to waste time on him?That is not love.

Wu Kexin also couldn't tell if she loved Shen Yi or not, but she could only know that Shen Yi's figure was always in her head, and she had indeed longed for the scene of two people growing old together.

I will miss him when I can't see him, I will worry about it when I encounter difficulties, and I even want to suffer for him.

When he doesn't look at himself, he will be jealous, and there will be another voice speaking in his heart.

When other girls enter Shen Yi's life, she will also go crazy, and she will sharpen her claws secretly, just to consolidate her territory.

She can do anything for Shen Yi, but the only thing she can't do is to hurt him and give up this emotion.

So, time and time again, he restrained his emotions and followed him as if nothing had happened.

Even if her situation is extremely bad, even if she has nothing but Shen Yi, she still believes that Shen Yi will give her an answer.

Is my emotion wrong?Is my persistence for many years wrong?

Shen Yi didn't answer, but he didn't even give himself an answer, isn't that what he thought;

Others said the same thing, they wished they could leave quickly, and Zou Guqing, who had missed her once, could find her and tell her that love is depression rather than indulgence.

Is it depression and not indulgence?Should I keep suppressing myself?Even if he was already so uncomfortable that he was about to die.

However, she was still very obedient in front of Shen Yi.

No matter how uncomfortable she is, it is impossible to hurt the person she loves the most. After listening to Zou Guqing's words, she has already made a decision.

If Shen Yi will definitely reject him, then he might as well let himself refuse once, as long as he doesn't hear that tone of rejection, he can pretend that Shen Yi loves him.

So after Shen Yi was silent again, after such a cold light flickered in the dark night, the knife was aimed at herself.