Surrounded by sickness, I just want to live in daily life

"But it will not waste the time of my students, or even damage their future."

"This is the thesis she handed to me in the past two years. Take a look for yourself."

After Xiao Gong finished speaking, he spread his hands, closed his eyes and stopped talking, watching a proud student go downhill with his own eyes, which made this kind of academically focused teacher feel ashamed.

If he could have cared more at the beginning, wouldn't Xiang Xuezhen not go astray?

Chapter 29 Depressed Patients

Shen Yi is still a freshman, and he has only entered school not long ago, so he is not particularly sensitive to papers.

But if you have never eaten pork, you have always seen pigs running away.

When he got the things in his hands, even though he was as ignorant as he was about academic blanks, he still couldn't help frowning.

Even with his freshman knowledge, this paper is a bit too perfunctory.

The final thesis as an elective course is not qualified, let alone a graduate thesis.

The single-sided A4 paper is not very big, and Xiang Xuezhen's graduation thesis in the past two years only printed three sheets of paper.

This kind of learning attitude should be very difficult for any teacher, not to mention Xiao Gong.

"Professor, are you sure these are all of Xiang Xuezhen's papers?"

"Could it be a mistake?"

Ren Xueqing was a little taken aback. She turned over the several A4 papers in her hand, trying to see any flaws in the professor's eyes.

But, it didn't. Seeing that Ren Xueqing was not giving up, the professor sighed, then opened his teacher system, and retrieved the electronic version of the thesis handed in to Xuezhen last year.

Shen Yi leaned in front of the computer, and after a careful look, his face was a little ugly. The thing in his hand was indeed a thesis handed in to Xuezhen, and there was nothing wrong with it.

She was not graduated by Xiao Gongka, but she really couldn't graduate, or she didn't want to graduate at all.

If she doesn't want to graduate, then what is she going to do if she stays in school.

She was supposed to marry Yang Mu when she was in the third year of research, and then she graduated and left school to enter the society for another life.

But writing this kind of thing made the tutor have to delay her graduation, which revealed weirdness everywhere.

Shen Yi looked at the content of the thesis in her hand, while Ren Xueqing continued to communicate with Xiao Gong, maybe she could get some information about her daily life from her tutor.

Essay content, "Cajal's Butterflies".

[Like an entomologist who is constantly looking for colorful and beautiful butterflies, I am deeply attracted by the back garden of neurogray matter.There are cells with delicate and elegant forms, and butterflies with mysterious souls.Who knows, maybe one day it will be able to unravel the mystery of the spiritual world as soon as it flaps its wings. 】

The opening paragraph quotes from the work of the Spanish pathologist, Santiago Ramon-Cajal.

Shen Yi had some headaches, these were things he had never been in contact with, maybe he could barely understand them before he lost his memory, but now it's impossible.

But fortunately, it is the Internet world now, Shen Yi compared the information he could find on his mobile phone, and was struggling to chew on the paper in front of him.

Xiang Xuezhen is a finance student, but the graduation thesis she submitted has nothing to do with finance, so the content of this thesis is very valuable.

It is not a complete copy and paste, that is to say, this thesis is not a bad work used to prevaricate graduation, it has certain value.

In particular, the views in it are very in-depth. It can be seen that she still spent some effort on this paper, but this kind of thing is impossible for her to graduate from the School of Finance.

Cajal, as a pathologist, pioneered modern neurology.

For more than 100 years, the neuroscience community has recognized Cajal as the greatest neuroanatomist of all time.

As for the "butterfly" written by Xiang Xuezhen, it is different from the butterfly in entomology, and it is also related to the brain.

Cajal's achievements in neural anatomy are extremely high, and his most praised contribution is his contribution to brain science. The brain atlas he made is as detailed and accurate as human beings can do.

If you dissect the human brain along a fixed direction, what you see is not a bloody blood clot, but a butterfly-like picture composed of gray matter and white matter. This is Cajal's butterfly.

Why are there butterflies in the human brain?This kind of cruelty with beauty also has a certain degree of enthusiasm in the academic circle.

What's interesting is that butterflies are always associated with some metaphysical ethereal things in various cultures.

In Japanese culture, butterflies represent reincarnation. In Buddhism, monks become enlightened after seeing butterflies.

[Her brain is sick, you know what I mean. 】

Shen Yi looked at the information in his hand, recalled Yang Mu's performance just now, and silently understood the connection.

"Xiang Xuezhen does have some problems. She asked me for half a year's sick leave when she was in the second year of graduate school."

"At that time, the school hospital even called me, saying that she had gone to the school's psychological counseling room by herself, and after several conversations, it turned out that Xiang Xuezhen may be suffering from severe depression."

"depression..."

Ren Xueqing nodded, but she didn't comment on depression, she could only lament Xiang Xuezhen's misfortune.

Depression is misunderstood too much in today's society. The main reason is that many people are willing to give themselves this kind of judgment, which sometimes makes this disease seem so common.

But since Xiang Xuezhen made the judgment given by the school hospital, there should be no possibility of misjudgment.

"Then you were at that time?"

"I must have given him a leave of absence right away, and told her to pay attention to her own state."

"Study pressure is very high, especially for us majoring in finance. After going out, the work intensity will not be small, but after all, people's health comes first."

After saying this, the professor put on his own glasses again, and what he said was like an elder, as if he really cared about Xiang Xuezhen's condition.

As for why it seems like, it might just be Shen Yi's feeling.

"You don't seem to be very surprised about depression?"

"Eh... is there any? It may be that I have been a teacher for too long, and more or less students I have taught over the years will have this situation."

Shen Yi listened to the conversation between the two, holding Xiang Xuezhen's thesis in his hand, and the picture album of Butterfly of Soul was projected on his mobile phone.

A picture has been slowly pieced together in his mind, and each character slowly stepped onto the stage and began to act out his own life.

Xiang Xuezhen died very happily, and jumped off without the slightest hesitation, but he must have struggled extremely during his lifetime.

She wanted to live a happy life with Yang Mu, but Yang Mu didn't understand her, and she never talked about her illness to Yang Mu.

She had already been diagnosed with severe depression when she was in the second year of graduate school, so her state must no longer be suitable for class or dating.

But until Yansan was about to graduate, she was pretending, which also caused Yang Mu to feel strange all the time, and didn't think about it.

Then the question came back again, as Yang Mu was her dearest person, she should ask Yang Mu for help when she was in trouble.

However, she never asked for help, or hinted at it, but was skipped by Yang Mu.

What Shen Yi didn't understand was, how could she hang around outside in such a state, and finally get pregnant?

Did she meet that important person when she was depressed, and then thought that was her salvation?

It just seemed that her so-called redemption could not save her now, and she died in the end.

As written in the lyrics.

[I don't trust you, not even myself. 】

If the condition has deteriorated so far, it may not seem so incomprehensible to jump from a tall building.

However, don't all the clues now prove that she committed suicide?Why would the souls of the dead find themselves again?

"Thank you professor, then we will not bother you for now."

Ren Xueqing had almost understood the situation here, she bowed and nodded to Shen Yi before walking out.

Shen Yi also stood up, gestured to the professor with the paper in his hand, and with the professor's affirmation, he put the paper away and put it in his bag.

Shen Yi and the two left, and the professor took another sip of water from the water glass. The conversation just now consumed a lot of his energy.

The professor's office is not big, except for a huge bookcase behind him, it is a desk that looks old.

Shen Yi's eyes fell on the professor's desk inadvertently, his heart was startled, and his brows were also frowned.

Didn't Ren Xueqing see it just now, or did she say that she was really suspicious?

In the upper left corner of the professor's desk, there is a gorgeous specimen of butterflies.

Chapter 30 Off-Campus Property

Shen Yi walked out of the professor's office, not forgetting to close the door when he left.

Although the butterfly specimen he saw just now surprised him, it was not to the point where he had to check it.

Xiang Xuezhen's thesis was confusing, Shen Yi didn't dare to exaggerate how much research he had on brain nerves, and he couldn't judge what was going on with Xiang Xuezhen.

For that butterfly, he may be a little nervous.

There is still a big difference between soul butterflies and simple butterfly specimens.

"Xiang Xuezhen must have her own plans for not leaving school for so long. We can go and see where she lives."

Shen Yi suggested so, at first it was just to get back his memory as soon as possible.

As things progressed step by step, he was attracted by the feeling of cracking the mystery, and he couldn't help but speculate on Xiang Xuezhen's psychology before she died.

"Her dormitory has been sealed off by the police, and we can't go there for the time being."

Ren Xueqing said in an apologetic tone, the proud girl lowered her head and clenched her hands tightly, as if she hated herself for not helping Shen Yi.

Shen Yi simply waved his hand, signaling that she didn't need to continue talking.

Ren Xueqing is a policeman, it must be easy for her to go to the dormitory, but her real meaning is that she cannot take Shen Yi with her.

It's okay not to go together, Shen Yi doesn't think he can see any clues that the police can't see, he just needs to wait for Ren Xueqing's description later.

The two investigated the case together today, which made Shen Yi know more about Ren Xueqing.

In his eyes, Ren Xueqing is strong, determined, has her own goals, and is a rare and good policeman.

Moreover, unlike her carefree style, her personal feelings for Shen Yi are actually very delicate.

In order not to embarrass Shen Yi, she also hid her emotions well, although that kind of concealment was easily exposed by Shen Yi.

Before Shen Yi had no amnesia, Ren Xueqing was just a good friend to Shen Yi.

Although he knew that she had feelings for him, he never actually took that step.

Now that Shen Yi has lost his memory, the past has disappeared, and things have a new development.

Ren Xueqing also secretly thought from time to time, if Shen Yi's memory doesn't come back, it doesn't seem too bad.