Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

She must be very sad and upset right now.

As a lover, one cannot know the pain in the heart of the one they love, and can only watch as the false memories torment their lover.

The boy had no doubt that if it weren't for the fear of being seen by others and for the body no longer belonging to just one person, Alicia would have unhesitatingly performed the full-on ○-shigezu, using the most humble posture to win his forgiveness.

Regardless of dignity, and ignoring the proper demeanor from memory, at least after her resurrection, all that remains of the girl is humility.

They actively beg to be hurt, actively beg to be treated more roughly, and will even be guided and accepted by some extreme behavior.

So……

Are memories fake?

Was it really a mishap that occurred during the resurrection?

The recorded sadness, the cruelty of being ignored by the girl, the birthday party that should have belonged to her, which she had to spend alone in a corner.

Is all of this a lie?

Was all of this a nightmare from when I became a Herrscher?

……

"Yes."

Alicia nodded without hesitation, gently biting her rosy lower lip, her voice strangely soft as if veiled by a thin layer of gauze.

I did something that my former self would have absolutely condemned if I had seen it, completely flushing all my morals down the drain.

The once flawless girl has now lost all sense of shame; she's not just lying, she's gone so far as to blatantly blatantly lie.

It doesn't matter anymore.

Wouldn't I be condemned if my past self saw all the things I did and the many times I hurt Jiangcheng?

As long as the boy can stay by my side...

Anything is acceptable.

"After becoming a Herrscher, the Herrscher's essence will be forcibly implanted with memories of disappointment with this world. Even happy and joyful times will be buried and twisted into a sad past by a disaster called Honkai."

"Herrschers are transformed from humans, whether it's the First Herrscher or the previous Sixth Herrscher, including you, my dearest Jiang Cheng, who I will never leave."

"The world isn't that bad. How could there be so many madmen who simply want to destroy the world and carry out mass killings?"

"These Herrschers... they are all gentle and kind people. In the past, they were good people in every sense of the word and would never hurt others casually."

"If it weren't for the massive loss of emotions, if even your memories hadn't been deceived, you would never have hurt those innocent people, right?"

"I've been with you since birth, so I don't think I could possibly let you get hurt, right?"

"If you want to hurt me, someone has to take care of me first~?"

……

Whether in memory or in actual performance, everything is impeccable; the sadness in Alicia's eyes is by no means a fake performance.

This flawless fairy was never a liar.

I can't find a reason, I can't find any words to refute it.

The Herald is indeed a being born from negative emotions.

Normal people would not commit massacres without any rules.

Even after losing emotions, even after having their memories shattered like mine, aside from the initial Great Collapse, they never committed any unnecessary killings; they merely underwent a collapse in imitation of the process.

Without emotion, there is no subjective initiative, no drive to move forward, no motivation to take action, and not even the slightest desire.

Even if those Herrschers were truly indifferent and started killing indiscriminately, they could never be filled with anger, nor could they possibly display even the slightest emotion like a normal human being.

—The Third Herrscher has a little bit of emotion.

I can still piece together a few fragments of memories of the battle against the Third Herrscher, and I can see the numbness and despair in those crimson eyes.

Perhaps it is because becoming a Herrscher involves being stripped of a great deal of emotion and instilled with memories of calamity, turning beauty into pain, that a life called a Herrscher can be so violent and reckless in its killing.

People with the talent to become Herrschers are extremely rare.

Even those who come into contact with Honkai energy and survive are an extremely rare number.

Most people, even if they are only slightly grazed by a bit of Honkai energy, will inevitably face the fate of having most of their bodies completely paralyzed.

There may be more than one person who will not be treated kindly by the world.

It's impossible that only one person has experienced such a tragic situation.

However, if we were to add another layer of selection to this miserable population, only those with exceptional talent who could become Herrschers would be included, resulting in an extremely narrow number.

It would be far too much to say that such a small number of people all suffered such unparalleled blows.

The number of people who can carry out a massacre without rules is not a simple number. Most people, even if they suffer injustice, can at most accept that they have a grievance to settle.

This memory may indeed have been bestowed by the Honkai, used to fuel anger towards this world, and to turn the Herrscher into its accomplice.

"Can……"

"But……"

—It shouldn't be like this.

But the beating heart was doing its utmost to refute it; every beat was the greatest denial of those words, an unacceptable lie.

—The truth of the past should absolutely not be like this.

The guilt in Alicia's eyes was not a pretense, but a genuine sadness from the depths of her soul.

The sorrow that originates from the depths of one's heart and is ignored is not a false or delusional statement.

What, then, is truly real?

What, then, is truly real?

……

[You once thought your memories were fragmented enough, with only the part before you turned twenty-one. The only complete memory you could call yours was of Alicia. That was already pathetic, even pitiful.]

Until this moment.

Until this very second.

[Until the girl you trust, the one you're willing to love wholeheartedly, tells you herself—that even the memories you have now are false.]

what?

what?

"Was everything I experienced in the past a lie?"

"Were those ignored birthday parties just a dream?"

Jiang Cheng could no longer suppress his emotions. A surprised voice almost burst out of his mouth, and his deep, dark pupils reflected only incomprehension and bewilderment.

All other emotions were completely overwhelmed; this empathy had reached the point where even the feelings were exactly the same.

There is only one.

There is only one.

only one.

doubt.

Because that fairy, who should have been perfect in both memory and story, was forever chasing after her own eternal paradise...

—They are shamelessly telling the most blatant lies.

For that beautiful young girl, that vibrant and youthful fairy, even the act of putting on makeup was something she only did at her last ball before she died.

She was lying to her closest lover.

what……

what……

what……

This is really baffling.

Could it be that I didn't wake up properly this morning?

They clearly got plenty of sleep.

Coming to this prestigious school, even in high school, is not like what I remember, where it's all about wasting your life on exams.

How could I possibly become a walking corpse again, with a fragile body, extremely numb, and a useless person who could suddenly die on the spot at any moment?

The boy rubbed his eyes, then stretched out two fingers and pinched his cheek mercilessly, feeling the distinct, subtle pain.

This isn't a dream.

It seems I really didn't get enough sleep this morning.

probably.

Maybe.

Even if this possibility is incredibly narrow, even if this body is emphasizing the error, even if the healthy heart is still beating, compared to Alicia lying to herself, it's more likely that she didn't wake up in the morning, or that the simulation time was too long and she was dizzy.

That girl who even wanted the memory to bring a grand end to the heroes, that girl who wanted to build her own eternal paradise.

How could someone be so stupid and so malicious as to tell such terrible lies?

Incomprehensible.

Can not accept.

Can't admit it.

This is something like Alicia lying to herself, to the person she was just a second ago saying she'd never be separated from her for eternity...

No! Absolutely! Absolutely no!

This is the one thing I absolutely, not even a little bit can agree with!