Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Love is complex; selflessness and possessiveness can coexist, and inferiority and pride can also coexist in conflict.

No matter how greedy, shameless, or vicious a person named Alicia may be, she could never wish for Jiang Cheng to be unhappy.

However, beneath this happiness, you can no longer accept the loneliness you face.

It's been too long.

It's been such a long time.

[It was even longer than what Vilvié experienced.]

[What Bivelvii experienced was even more painful.]

That girl had never been saved by anyone before, before meeting Jiang Cheng, and had never had someone who only had eyes for her.

Perhaps she has felt sadness seeing others happy, but the source of that sadness is definitely not the loss of her own happiness, nor the destruction of everything she once possessed without her own appreciation.

[What I never had and what I did have are completely different.]

The most painful thing in the world.

It wasn't just oppression, it wasn't just darkness, it wasn't that I'd never seen the light; it was that I acted instinctively, because I had seen the light.

If something is clearly impossible from the start, then there will be no expectation, no hope, and no effort will be made to achieve it.

Even if you try your best but don't believe you have a chance of winning, you won't have any psychological burden.

If one has never witnessed light from the beginning, living in darkness and high pressure, perhaps as the essence of life, one would still feel fear and inability to accept it, but would not truly experience suffering.

[They only become numb, only adapt, only treat it all as the norm, and endure and accept even the darkest darkness with tacit agreement.]

[But if one holds onto a sliver of hope, if one witnesses the light.]

Unable to accept anything as it is now, unable to continue living in darkness, unable to endure the immense pressure from those around me, the pain that weighs on my heart.

[Then the real hell has arrived, and the real punishment has reached its due place.]

[Vilvie lives in a human world, so she cannot accept everything she experiences as the norm, nor can she accept what has happened to her, because she can see the happiness of others.]

Even so, Vilvie never truly experienced that happiness; she was merely someone who gazed at the lavish cakes from outside the shop window.

Snowflakes from the winter month fell, adding a touch of silver to her long khaki hair; her body could only shiver in the biting wind.

It was really cold, and I was starving.

But without experiencing warmth, without stepping inside the shop window to taste the exquisite cakes, the fantasy will only remain at the limit of the mind.

Humans cannot imagine things that do not exist; everything we have is either a patchwork of what already exists, or the discovery of things that already existed.

Those who have never tasted cake can only fantasize about whether it's as sweet as granulated sugar, or even softer than burnt bread.

At most, Vilviu could only connect the cream-covered cake with the black bread she had eaten that was mixed with sawdust.

Just as Vervie, shivering in the cold wind while indoors, could only fantasize about the warmest times she had ever worn.

[All of this will only truly manifest when the person standing outside steps out of the shop window; the punishment known as "unattainable" will then be revealed.]

You're the one who walked out of that situation, because of your own mistakes, only to watch others take your place, enjoy your success, and not even have made one of the mistakes you once made.

You can't even be jealous, because it's your fault. Every time you're stabbed, it clearly explains why you had to endure it.

【so……】

Isn't all of this a good thing?

There's no longer any need to worry about Wilvie's memories reviving, nor is there any need to worry about the boy developing feelings for Wilvie.

You've taken over everything about this young girl, even filling in the void that had been there since she was twenty-one, a void that she couldn't express.

You no longer need to worry about a repeat of the previous mass gatherings that would evoke painful memories of Jiang Cheng.

【Yes. 】

You've always stayed by Jiangcheng's side; you've never left.

【Yes. 】

[That blurry shadow is yours. It's just that the shameless guy called Honkai altered Jiang Cheng's memories. In order to make Jiang Cheng a Herrscher, he lost all kindness towards humanity and all concern for the world. He destroyed the world because of the painful memories imposed on his heart.]

[Vilvie doesn't need to worry that her situation will cause Jiang Cheng to experience the same sorrow he felt during the Fire Chasing incident after his memories are awakened.]

Her final wish was for Jiangcheng to live a happy life, and she didn't care how she was trampled on for that.

[—Absolutely perfect.]

[A win-win situation.]

[Now all we need to do is use Vilvie's backup plan again; you've memorized Jiangcheng's strategy manual perfectly.]

……

Cherry blossom petals fluttered in the wind, like colorful butterflies flapping their wings. Accompanied by the flowing rhythm of the wind, they formed a natural musical instrument with the gently swaying branches and leaves. The delicate, long, soft, and melodious sound blew, stirring the girl's hem. The layers of princess skirts bloomed like flowers.

She brushed past her well-defined, jade-like shoulders, her skin, smooth and delicate as if washed clean, shimmering with a captivating pink light. She lifted a strand of long, soft, colorful hair from her forehead, exuding a dreamlike fragrance, revealing a face that showed no change in expression, as if completely frozen in time.

Her cherry lips, which used to be so lively, uttering one tender greeting and blessing after another, were now tightly pursed, without a single gap, with streaks of blood hanging from them, giving her a touch of pitiful fragility.

Only a fleeting glint appeared in her beautiful pupils, like a shooting star tearing through the darkness, a dazzling pink light that burned itself out and illuminated the darkness for a moment.

Until finally, the central blue was completely burned away, leaving only a pink rhombus, gently lingering in the starry sea that resembled a paradise.

An immense energy, tightly surrounding the two, unfolded and, in that instant, fell like flawless crystal, creating a breathtaking paradise.

In an instant, it was as if I had stepped into another world. Everything around me became exceptionally vast, with countless stars hanging down like a flowing stream, connecting the sky and the earth. The flawless light transformed into the shape of waves, sprinkling down silver stars, which were dyed into a dreamy pink and blue.

"Feel sorry……"

"I'm really sorry……"

……

92. Alicia's All-Round Warrior's Submission

Alicia slightly raised her eyes, and beneath her fine, delicate eyelashes, they seemed to hold a suppressed and twisted emotion, like a starry sky reflected in water, hazy and misty, as if she were looking up in a foggy weather.

Wrapped in white gloves, the overly tight fabric accentuated her slender fingers as they glided through the wedding-dress-like gown.

Her fingertips gently traced the slender waist revealing soft, white flesh, the lower chest wrapped in pink gauze, the smooth underarms on full display, and finally to the jade-like neck and fragrant shoulders bound by delicate decorations and gently blooming triangular bouquets.

With just a light wipe, the dress, which showed no signs of being detachable, suddenly loosened and slipped completely off the girl's body.

"I really can't take it anymore, I... I can't accept it at all~?"

what?

I couldn't hold back anymore...

What means?

The scene before him felt strangely familiar, the girl's face felt strangely familiar, and the emotions contained within them also awakened a sense of familiarity within him.

It wasn't that I was moved, but rather a complex mix of emotions, like countless seasonings being casually splashed together.

If such a powerful stress response can occur, it seems there's only one like it in the world.

—Indescribable behavior.

If a young girl can make things a bit difficult for her current self, then if she were the annoying person she used to be, she definitely wouldn't have been able to handle it at all.

Although this situation cannot be considered a completely negative one, it is normal for the difference between a Herrscher and a mortal to create such a complex stress response when the physical differences are too great.

"You're not coming again, are you?"

"Even among Herrschers, there are differences?"

"You didn't always ask for things like this, did you?"

……

The boy's brows furrowed involuntarily, and he subconsciously took a step back. His lips twitched inexplicably, revealing a guilty conscience that even a Herrscher could feel.

It's not a lie in the literal sense; it's just that I don't know why, but whenever I do this, my heart feels a dull, piercing pain.

as if……

He did something absolutely wrong.

A wrong thing that even one's own instincts would resist.

Not right.

In my memory, I had done this kind of thing many times before. No matter how naive I was, I couldn't be that innocent.

Could it be that I acted too roughly, to the point that even my own heart couldn't bear it?

It seems that Alicia is indeed bleeding.

There was a lot of blood loss.

This problem, which theoretically only occurs in virgins, was recreated through brutal behavior that completely disregarded the physical endurance of young girls.

If possible, whether for his own sake or for Alicia's, Jiang Cheng hoped that the girl would change her outrageous XP before continuing, otherwise such a brutal behavior would hurt both of them at the same time.

If the girl in front of me hadn't pressed me so hard.

"If you really want to, you can, but I will absolutely not lay a hand on you again. I will even use gravity to bind my hands in advance."

"The person named Jiang Cheng will never cause you any more harm. You should change this ridiculously outrageous XP as soon as possible."

“I will not feel the slightest bit of pleasure from this. This kind of hobby should absolutely, absolutely not be present in me or in us.”

"If I cause even the slightest damage to your body, it will break my heart."

"It's true, I didn't say anything."

"I would never lie to you."

Facing those eyes that remained unchanged, it was difficult to discern any emotion within them at this moment. The dreamlike colors seemed to have erased both pupils and feelings. All the boy could do was lower his expectations and hope that the other party would agree to his request.