Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Rather, when I look directly into the boy's eyes, isn't the truth that will eventually emerge already quite clear?

Everything reflected in those dark pupils—the shimmering neon lights of the night, a cherry blossom petal gently lifted by the wind, birds perched on the perch, their calmed wings shimmering with the stuffiness of the starry night, watching the birth of a scene straight out of a light novel, chirping incessantly.

None of these can replace the absolute protagonist in the pupils; they can only become mere foils to the one person who dominates the boy's eyes.

--I.

—Vellwe.

No matter how much I belittle myself or feel inferior, I do possess talents that are different from ordinary people and can be described as surpassing most people.

Beneath that twisted inferiority complex might lie a hidden pride, capable of unleashing a terrifying, destructive rain of calamity if left unchecked.

The disappearance would make the boy feel very sad, very sad, a sadness that might take a lifetime to recover from, and now someone has appeared before his eyes.

If you can't even see this simple thing clearly, wouldn't you be even more incompetent than an ordinary person?

Alicia...

Perhaps they were just ordinary relatives from the beginning.

Treating her as an enemy is more foolish than foolishness itself.

But what if one day something unexpected happens that forces me to separate from the boy, forcing him to bear the pain of losing the most important person in his life?

Perhaps by then, even the relatives of the successors will be a necessary means to fill the emptiness in the hearts of the young people.

Well……

It's so hard to accept.

Like those guys who keep Jiangcheng company or something.

This is simply unacceptable!

It's too early to think about these things now. The threat of Honkai shouldn't be that terrifying. It's unlikely that the Moths of Fire would cause a major Honkai.

The importance of the backup plan lies in the fact that, given the Honkai resistance, it might allow us to explore the essence of Honkai and find ways to combat it.

……

The new chapter seems to have no problems at all, but it's still Vilvie's self-pity, and the ever-evolving new plans have long become routine.

Jiang Cheng felt something strange, and his gaze kept wandering to the plan with Alicia, as if an alarm bell had been rung in his heart, foreshadowing that what was to come would not be a heartwarming story, but a hell of despair.

Everything is normal.

Normal unfolding, normal daily life, normal dates.

Even their innermost thoughts are no different; the only difference is that this time, Wilvi was able to realize that she loves without feeling inferior.

This is a good thing, and it's inevitable.

Wounds will always heal.

No matter what you've been through, as long as you can be properly comforted, the wounds in your heart will inevitably be gradually filled and buried with the passage of time.

Apart from……

——Aliceia.

Usually, the appearance of a fairy-like girl is basically in the format of 'If I do this, how am I any different from Alicia back then?'

This was the first time since that birthday party that I had mentioned Alicia in a normal way, instead of using her as an example to admonish myself.

'But what if one day something unexpected happens that forces me to separate from the boy, forcing him to bear the pain of losing the most important person in his life?'

Perhaps by then, even the relatives of the successors will be a necessary means to fill the emptiness in the boy's heart.

Velvi...

What exactly do you want to do?

Jiang Cheng tried his best to suppress his strange emotions and gently turned the page with his fingertips—unlike the previous ones, even with the advanced technology of this notebook, it still looked rough and was covered with dust that shouldn't be there.

When a laptop is closed normally, it is very tightly sealed, making it almost impossible for too much dust to accumulate in the gaps between the pages.

Unless the diary is dusted while it is open, it is impossible for it to remain intact after being closed.

This was only a small part of the opening; in many other places, one could even feel a sticky sensation, as if the object was stuck to something sticky.

Is there something inside that can't be seen by others, or even that needs to be glued shut?

Why would someone hide things in their private diary?

Jiang Cheng took a deep breath and carefully tore apart the stuck pages using Honkai energy, gradually using the power of gravity to separate the glued parts.

The connection is not tight; it is only because of the passage of time and the nature of a diary that the two pages have almost merged into one.

If it's something kept secret, this method of preservation is far too crude, even for ordinary people. There's no smell of glue at all, only a slight fishy odor.

His teeth clenched tightly, as if he had foreseen the change in his emotions. The muffled grinding sound of his teeth clenching together was especially noticeable on the silent ruins, and even his dark pupils unconsciously became serious.

Until the moment it was completely torn open, the solemnity turned into blankness, and then it suddenly tightened, revealing messy handwriting that was different from its usual beautiful style.

There was no glue, no other adhesive, and Wilvi hadn't written anything shameful to hide.

This provides adhesion, and it's not just glue in the universal sense.

—It's blood.

—It was deep purple, almost black, blood.

……

Saying that might seem cowardly.

It will definitely disappoint you.

But I really can't imagine life without you. Just thinking about it makes me feel a pain spreading from the bottom of my heart throughout my whole body.

It felt as if all the nerves in my body were being gradually pulled out, and my heart was also punched hard. The feeling was both painful and indescribable.

I know that running away is bad, I know that I have to face difficulties, and I know that you have been working hard to boost my confidence and help me face these things.

sorry……

I'm so sorry.

No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I force myself not to think about it, I am completely unable to face these emotions, unable to face that possibility.

You wouldn't care about any of this. Even if I'm always this incompetent, you'll still pat my head and continue to encourage and help me. But I'll do anything, anything, and I'll try my best to do it, except for that one thing, except the possibility of losing you...

—I really can't face it.

The feeling of having my heart squeezed, the helplessness and soreness I felt in my limbs—just thinking about possibly losing you made me cry.

Dear Jiangcheng.

It seems I've disappointed you again.

I'm so sorry... I let you down.

Living alone is really tough, and I don't want to experience it a second time.

This plan, which I prepared for this reason, is something I didn't even tell you about. It's probably the saddest backup plan I've ever designed.

Even when I was designing it, I never imagined that it would actually be used one day. The disaster brought about by Honkai would be so fierce and terrifying.

That bow contains some things I prepared for Alicia. After I die completely, she will take my place and utterly trample me.

I believe she will do it. Although there is no sign of it, I have a vague feeling that Alicia is right beside us.

That girl actually cares about you a lot too, but her mind is probably more twisted than mine, and her mental breakdown is much more severe than mine.

If Alicia were there.

Even I can be replaced.

You will never see this diary, because I believe that as long as I say the words "give me my last dignity," you will never trample on me, and no matter how painful it is, you will endure the sorrow in your heart.

I forced you to trample on me so many times, yet in the end I'm going to take advantage of your persistence once again.

I'm so shameless.

what……

I still don't want it to end like this.

Really...

I really want to apologize to you in person, and I want to go on another date with you, to pop balloons together again, and to taste the cake you made one more time.

Knowing full well that continuing to struggle would not change anything, but would only add more pain to oneself, and that one would suffer even more torment before death, one's body has become so weak that even writing simple words has become difficult.

But anyway.

I guess I still...

—I don't want to die!!!

……

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There are pictures here, which can be viewed after the updated version

There are pictures here, which can be viewed after the updated version

There are pictures here, which can be viewed after the updated version

126. This is... the whole truth.

I don't want to die! ...

I don't want to lose everything after receiving love, and I don't want to be forced to face the final end before I've even had a chance to fully appreciate this beauty.

I want to love you myself!

I want to apologize to you on behalf of Vervi!

To plan to be forgotten by the person you love most? I must be out of my mind!

……