Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

……

This place remains as beautiful as ever; after the reforms and changes in power, the withered branches, broken leaves, and stagnant mud have all disappeared.

Only in this dreamlike place where spring reigns all year round, the gently rippling pool connects with the sky even during the day, reflecting another sun on the ground.

A gentle breeze, accompanied by the green leaves, plays a natural symphony, while the fluttering flowers are as beautiful and colorful as a fairy tale princess movie.

The story should have entered a dreamlike melody at the height of its climax, but it was rather inappropriate at this moment. The fairy, kneeling on the ground with only a deathly dimness in her beautiful starry eyes, seemed to be accompanied by the desperate cries of a supreme god with a wicked sense of humor.

This is a worse outcome than meeting Jiang Cheng under the tree on the back mountain, and the boy happened to turn on his weapon and listen to all the messages.

—The dreamlike light and shadow casts a shadow over an empty room.

Even under the tree.

Even if they already know that they have been hiding something.

There is still a chance to salvage the situation, even if it means telling more lies in order to salvage this glimmer of hope.

Under the empty tree before them, only the lingering scent of the boy remained, and the melody that had been awakened continued to play on repeat.

This only means that the boy has moved beyond unintentional exploration of the past and has truly embarked on a journey to find everything from the past.

Only when the suffocating feeling of almost dying came over him did he catch his breath briefly in the ocean through physical pain and endless mental torment.

True suffocation.

My body was struggling, my chest heaving violently.

He snatched a tiny bit of air from his throat, which was almost constricted to a negligible size.

Her slender hands had somehow gripped the long, white swan neck, and the girl could even hear the muffled, mournful groan emanating from her own neck bones.

The ripples formed by accumulated dew beside him clearly reflected his posture at this moment. His body, struggling naturally due to self-harm, looked ridiculous, and his face, flushed red from suffocation, was particularly comical.

This is the last vestige of the will to survive.

Ability that every living thing naturally possesses.

Having already experienced too much despair and sorrow, the body will instinctively seek a glimmer of hope in despair, even if it's just to hold on for a moment.

Just like self-harm by people with mental illness, it is essentially a way to share the burden physically, and to some extent alleviate the pain from the mind.

This is not a good thing. Just as a person who has completely decided to commit suicide will feel fear the moment they decide to jump off a cliff, the conflict between their emotions and inner sorrow at this moment will only make them more painful.

perhaps……

Dying here would be a better choice.

That way, we wouldn't have to face the reality that follows.

If only Herrschers could be strangled.

When she regained consciousness, her slender, soft fingertips not only did not leave that delicate neck, but instead intensified their grip.

Red marks, so delicate they evoked pity, appeared on her jade-like skin. The overlapping finger marks symbolized her brutality, and her gently turned eyes, filled only with sorrow, remained utterly indifferent to the torture she had endured.

Ultimately, it's all meaningless.

What happened was that after only three seconds, I naturally adapted to the suffocating feeling, and there was no pain at all, only a slight feeling of being oppressed.

It's like having your wrist tightly gripped, not by someone else's excessive force, but by your own hand tightly holding your wrist.

The pain caused by this action is so intense that it cannot even alleviate the slightest bit of inner turmoil, let alone cause one to cry out in agony.

Their physical characteristics far surpass those of humans, and they can almost be called gods from the perspective of ordinary people. Even if they were choked to the point of complete suffocation, they would at most abandon some of the common sense that belongs to humans.

Moreover, even among the Herrschers, the Herrscher who holds the authority known as Origin is only below the highest crystallization of the Cocoon—the End.

For Alicia right now, this is the most tragic thing; she can't even choose to escape if she wants to die.

If you can't do it when you're extremely excited or under the greatest shock, then you're even less likely to choose to escape reality when you've calmed down a bit.

I even...

Have we even lost this means of escape?

……

death.

It's not a very pleasant-sounding noun.

Over a long period of time, it has been continuously stigmatized and elevated to a pedestal, existing as the word that represents the greatest fear of any individual in human history.

No matter how many changes have occurred, whether it has been feared as evil or regarded as an inevitable operation of the universe and a reasonable change, the essence of existence called death will never change because of people.

Utter silence, no longer any connection with the world, unable to hear the wind, unable to see the flowers bloom, all the acts of mourning from others are merely comforting one's own sorrow.

Similarly, death is the most complete escape from this world, equivalent to this utter disappearance and the inability to experience all beauty.

This is the most courageous yet cowardly choice a person can make when they are in the most desperate situation and see no hope whatsoever.

They have the ability to face the greatest despair and fear known to humankind, but not the ability to face a life that has lost all meaning and offers no possibility whatsoever.

The moment you decide to muster the courage to face death, all the calamities you've experienced and all the devastations you've had to confront in your life will pale in comparison.

—This seems contradictory.

This world is inherently full of contradictions.

The greatest fear on a material level does not necessarily mean the greatest fear on a psychological level. Sometimes, for people who are so exhausted that even surviving is torture, silence is actually a good thing.

Survival can be a blessing, a wish for a wonderful journey, or it can be a curse, a continued existence in this cruel world.

This is so chaotic that it cannot be described simply with words. It requires combining everything the individual has experienced, felt, and thought to truly understand the unique meaning of death for that person.

For the young girl, this greatest struggle and cowardly escape that everyone should have was a complete luxury.

Unable to die.

One cannot die.

They are completely indestructible.

……

128. Alicia: It's over, it's over.

Even if one were to engage in self-harm during the most emotionally charged moment, the body of a Herrscher, a being of godlike caliber, would not be harmed by such a physical attack, nor would it weaken in the slightest.

There is almost no way to harm a young girl in this world. The already inflated power has reached an astronomical figure with the development of technology.

When this power even surpasses imagination and deviates from the original trajectory, how could a girl who is not a warrior, has not experienced so many battles, and focuses more on emotions, passionate love, and struggles, possibly achieve this...?

—Kill a god?

The mushy, rotten thighs instinctively struggled, causing the jelly-like soft flesh to throb. Even though it was tightly bound by white stockings, it couldn't be suppressed, and instead, some of the flesh color was revealed.

Her slender fingertips could only let go in the end, and her flawless, white jade-like arms hung limply, leaving only the deep red marks overlapping on her swan-like neck.

Despite her disregard for life and even her suicidal tendencies, her delicate skin had turned a purplish hue, a sight that evoked pity.

Each rise and fall of her overly full breasts seemed intense, as if desperately trying to deliver life-giving oxygen to her poor, suffocating neck.

It's only on the surface; the Herrscher's life won't be interrupted in the slightest by this behavior, and it won't cause anything that can be called harm.

When even death, the last and most absolute means of escape, is lost, what kind of limitless calamities will life experience?

Alicia once heard a story about an immortal person who was cast into concrete and thrown into the ocean.

The narrow concrete space, with absolutely no room to move, made escape impossible. Drifting in the endless ocean, there was absolutely no chance of being rescued, searched for, or salvaged by anyone.

So for that person...

Undying...

Instead, it became a painful thing.

Every moment of life is a moment of death, and death becomes the only peace. When you wake up again, the suffocation of lack of oxygen will come again. In a world where no hope can be found, there is only endless pain and despair.

That person didn't even have a chance to escape, or even a chance to die completely. They could only endlessly live in the dark concrete, constantly suffocating and rushing towards death.

Until one day you become so numb that you consider this pain to be normal, until one day you completely lose your ability to think, and all the personality, thoughts, and will you have accumulated in the past disappear without a trace.

This is an extremely long process; before death in a personal sense, endless torment awaits the immortal.

and so……

There was no choice left at all.

……

Escaping is pointless, because apart from choosing death and eternal rest, all escape in this world is nothing more than a futile game of hide-and-seek. The things called the heart can never be deceived or escaped.

That delicate heart, that soul riddled with wounds hidden beneath a glamorous exterior, can only be concealed by utter death.

[But death is an absolutely unattainable dream for you. Even if you were to plunge into the Earth's core now, you probably wouldn't be able to die completely.]

[The excessively inflated power reached a limit it didn't even know it possessed, an ineffable essence, and after the transaction was completed, it crossed the critical threshold.]

Even you can't kill yourself. Honkai Beasts might not even be able to touch you, and ordinary Herrschers can only inflict some damage.

You can only face the ending where the mere thought of such a thing happening makes you want to rip your own heart out.

Option 1: Embrace your destiny.

Option 2: Embrace your mistakes.

Option 3: Prepare for your end.

It's all over, it ...

—Deep within my mind, a desperate scream was emanating from within.

It was as if a talkative myna bird was circling the girl, proclaiming the established fact, its dry and rough voice awkwardly and ridiculously recounting the arrival of death.

Thoughts, will, and even personality are suffocated by this sudden disaster; everything that constitutes 'Alice' is crushed so easily.

click-

Something inside me has shattered.