Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Just a little bit of hope.

Her pink eyes held the last vestiges of emotion, her pupils devoid of any superfluous thoughts, even reflecting the boy's face, awaiting the angry words that would soon be uttered against her.

"That's it."

The boy nodded in sudden realization, readily acknowledging and admitting to the lie that was so convincing even the street-side bluffers could understand it.

“I knew it. The personality of Vivi described in the diary is very similar to yours. How could there be two people in the world who are so similar?”

"Writing this diary must have taken a lot of your energy. I really liked today's surprise. Let's go home together."

"I'm open to whatever kind of fun you want to have tonight, I can keep being exploited until late at night~"

—It's meaningless.

This struggle is pointless.

Jiang Cheng accepted it all calmly.

I accepted everything with equanimity, even things that didn't make logical sense.

Even the fingertips that were initially pressed against her chest did not waver at all; her fingers did not tighten their grip on any strip of cloth after hearing those lies.

"I don't actually know you at all, and I don't love you at all. I've never even met you. All our memories of being together are fake. I was just toying with your feelings. Your memories have been a complete lie from the very beginning, including your feelings, which disappeared because of me. Even Vilvie died because of me!"

Having reached a dead end, the girl, disregarding all methods and repeatedly spouting new and false lies, grasped at the last straw, even contradicting her previous lies by repeating them once more.

The consequences of the mix of truth and falsehood no longer matter, nor does it matter what happens; there is no longer any strength left to keep the secret.

As long as you persist in showing even a little bit of emotion, as long as you retain even a tiny bit of humanity.

Regardless of the emotion.

Whatever the outcome

As long as it's not gentle.

As long as I can prove that I did at least one thing right.

however……

The scenario she imagined—a boy becoming enraged and ultimately resorting to verbal and physical punishment without mercy—did not materialize.

The boy simply bent down, his palm pressed against his chest, wrinkling the exquisite dress, and all that came into view was the slightly upturned corner of his lips.

"—Then let's start a new life from now on."

……

……

……

Dead.

Alicia is going to die.

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130. Ellie, yes, I will forgive you.

Why are you still hesitating?

"this is not your fault."

"That's all in the past. There's no need to dwell on it. Now it's our story, and I'll forgive you no matter what."

Jiang Cheng reached out his fingertips, which met the despair in the girl's lowered head. He tried to take the girl's small hand and place it in the morning light between them.

The light at this time was not yet clear, lacking the intimacy of midday, carrying a hazy quality that made his face appear somewhat indistinct as well.

In a daze, it was as if what was in front of me was just a photograph in a camera, a picture forcibly taken from an animation that had long since ended.

It's clearly something beautiful, something I once longed for, yet there's a strange sense of dread about it, a resistance within me to this dream I once had.

unacceptable.

Can't admit it.

It cannot be confirmed.

If I were to let all of this end like this, just how badly would I trample on that boy?!

"It's clearly because of me... Jiang Cheng, you shouldn't have lost your feelings."

"Why can you forgive me?"

Why are you still laughing?

"Why are you still so gentle?!"

Alicia clutched her clothes tightly, letting her exquisite long dress be torn to shreds, revealing a bit of her fair skin. Her feigned calm finally shattered completely, and she almost hysterically vented her emotions.

I'm already completely exhausted.

Vilvi's expectations, Jiangcheng's tenderness, the love in her heart, and endless memories—everything from the past has become a heavy burden.

A flaw created by oneself brings no beauty; each time it is displayed before you, it only serves to repeatedly remind you that it is a mistake made by your own hands.

"Kill me! I'm the biggest mistake, you shouldn't and can't forgive such a bad person—"

The girl, terrified of what was about to happen, almost desperately craved the outcome she had feared most before coming here.

If you truly forgive and accept everything, then kill me as you said you would, kill the worst person.

Even if it's an escape, I no longer want to endure such cruel things in this world.

But before those delicate lips could utter words of self-denial, icy fingertips had already gently touched a touch of cherry blossom.

"Please stop feeling sorry for yourself. The lovely fairy and Vilvie are different. There's no need for two people with different personalities to try to imitate each other."

“I already told you that I have forgiven your behavior. It was Wilvi who took the initiative to ask for help and hoped that you could take care of me.”

"If you still can't let go of the guilt in your heart, even I, who am devoid of feelings, will be tormented by something called sadness."

The voice was almost like honey, threatening to drown Alicia in her despair.

A face was forcibly inserted into those pink eyes, and the black, tousled hair blowing in the wind, slightly drooping, outlined a serious look in the pupils.

—It's Jiangcheng.

The boy still harbored such a false yet genuine tenderness, like a wisp of light attracting moths, who rush towards it for a ray of light, only to end up being consumed in body and soul.

But before it is completely burned away, you can indeed feel a bit of warmth, a warmth of the heart that is different from the celestial-like coolness that you feel on your body.

Like transforming into a burning sun in an instant. That warm light could even penetrate the depths of an empty heart, as if filling even the void.

For a moment, Alicia even mistakenly believed that the emptiness in her heart had been filled.

So close.

too close.

Having physical contact with him was no longer a rare occurrence. After taking advantage of his vulnerability to become lovers, their intimate contact had become so frequent that even Jiang Cheng, the Herrscher, wanted to avoid it.

At this very moment, the slight blush on her flawless white face made her look like an innocent young girl experiencing her first intimate contact with her lover.

No matter how much he felt that Jiang Cheng was being trampled on, the boy who retained only the desire to love himself was still essentially the same Jiang Cheng.

In the forest bathed in morning light, Jiangcheng extends an inviting hand to the girl who has fallen to earth, accompanied by smiles from the flowers, birds, and wind.

what……

My body went limp.

It felt like my bones were being pulled out.

After the extreme catharsis fails, what follows is only an even more extreme sense of powerlessness, where even control over one's fingers can be easily taken away by others.

In the end, all one could feel was the approaching breeze, a slight chill, which evoked a sense of remoteness and mystery, like watching a sky full of stars at night.

"Or do you feel that I'm not the same as I used to be? Then I'm sorry, because I've lost my feelings, I can't imitate them very well."

"Don't worry, my dear Ellie, you don't need to worry. I don't feel anything wrong right now, and I'm not in any pain."

"You really don't need to put too much pressure on yourself about feelings and memories. I can see your emotions, so I forgive you."

"Material actions are unchanging, but there is ample room for maneuver between hearts. Isn't this precisely the opportunity the world gives humanity to repent?"

Why do you keep blaming yourself for everything and making yourself bear all the burden?

……

With the final question, Alicia closed her eyes, avoiding the gaze that was too similar to Jiang Cheng's yet too different, using her breath to prolong the tension in the air.

She blamed everything on herself, and even after the boy pointed it out, she still couldn't stop herself from doing so.

Kind people are bound to be treated more cruelly than ordinary people and evil people from the very beginning. They have to put in much more effort to achieve what normal people can easily obtain.

Ordinary people find contentment in being natural and at ease, while bad people only care about themselves and don't care about the thoughts or possessions of others.

Only kind and good people will delve into all the questions and all the little things, and only they will be so cruel to themselves and unwilling to let up.

The more you carry, the more you have to bear. Caring about other people's lives, feelings, and opinions inevitably means suffering more wear and tear.

Moral and kind people are unwilling to do things that harm others, and even if they have to trample on others, they will feel guilty and experience psychological internal conflict.

Even if it's just something that isn't particularly wrong, as long as it's not perfect, it will stay in my mind and I'll hold a grudge.

Even if they possess great power, they will not use it to do evil, and they may not be threatened by weak or despicable people.

With the lives of ordinary people.

Use everything that kind people care about.

Using malicious means to force good people to surrender and bear everything themselves because of some disasters that were not inflicted on them.

Just like in real life, people who cut in line are usually faster than those who wait patiently in line. In fact, the time that those who choose to wait in line normally may be wasted by those who cut in line.

It's not incomprehensible that the girl accepted this love, and no one would point out that she was making selfish choices on her own.

No one ever intentionally pays attention to another person they meet on the street; for most people, their only audience in life is themselves.