Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

He was just an ordinary teenager.

There are no special ordinary people, nor should there be any.

Ordinary people should go to school, make friends with classmates of similar age, inherit their parents' business, and live a peaceful and happy life.

They don't need to have great power, they don't need to bear excessive responsibilities, they don't need to carry their expectations, and they shouldn't become Herrschers.

To live an ordinary life, to live hand in hand with one's loved one, and to enjoy every day of peace and happiness under the warm gaze of the other.

This is already a beautiful thing that countless people around the world expect, yearn for, and cannot achieve or reach in their entire lives.

Perhaps none of this is my fault.

Perhaps I'm just being too hard on myself.

Even if life continues peacefully, the catastrophe of collapse will inevitably arrive, and the boy's ordinary life will still be shattered by disaster.

Perhaps I can accept all of this.

Perhaps I can completely degenerate.

I don't need to become a real villain. I can have all of this just by becoming a little more like an ordinary person and being a little more selfish.

Jiangcheng's love, Jiangcheng's forgiveness, a beautiful and happy life... the beautiful dream that a person named Alicia longed for throughout her life.

The dream held in this heart, the paradise represented by this name—at this very moment, the greatest dream is already within reach.

The only thing comparable to this moment is that before the birthday party, now you can simply reach out and touch the boy standing in front of you.

I've already spent two years with Jiangcheng and experienced two wonderful years together. Do I really have to let go of this happiness so easily?

I really……

Is it necessary to be so hard on yourself?

At the last moment of making the decision, at the last moment after demonstrating her power, Alicia, who thought she was already prepared, still hesitated, and her heart, which had long been steeped in complete humanity, showed weakness.

Unlike when he resurrected Velvi, he was willing to give everything without hesitation, and even the fingertips holding the flowers trembled slightly.

In her pinkish-blue eyes, the shooting star, seemingly having burned out everything, still retains a trace of attachment to the world and a longing to be loved.

Unlike before, when she was just a childhood sweetheart, she was forced to distance herself from him, unable to control herself, and could only watch from afar as a third party.

Over the course of those two years, the girl truly lived with her lover, experiencing the beauty of the world and the fragrance of flowers together.

This feeling is completely incomparable to my past life; an observer separated by a pane of glass can never truly experience the beauty of flowers.

Only by personally strolling through a garden full of blooming flowers, carefully stepping over tender green leaves, and feeling a petal fluttering in the wind like a butterfly, can one truly realize the reality of this beauty from the bottom of one's heart.

People can easily give up what they cannot have, to belittle and trample on it, but they can never give up everything they already have.

Even if it's just a trivial thing, the instinctive desire to possess will still give every human being a natural desire to dominate everything.

That is why sharing is a virtue.

That is why sacrifice is noble.

Just like the seven deadly sins and the seven virtues.

The courage to transcend human nature, to suppress one's desires, and to be one's own enemy is the only courage worth promoting.

Alicia had become so close to human that every beat of her heart brought her joy, sadness, loneliness, and exhilaration.

All emotions are no different from those of humans, all love is the same as that of ordinary people, including negative emotions, which are already well-developed.

Even the most foolish person, after experiencing a life of wandering and hardship, should have evolved some resistance and understanding to match it after being beaten.

Even humans, who are born with all emotions and desires, cannot control their desires, so how can fairies, who learn these things later in life, possibly do so?

Can someone who has never possessed something and has spent their entire life striving for it, truly let go easily after obtaining what they desire most?

After looking at the flowers for so long outside the greenhouse, and pressing my face against the cold glass to look at the gifts in the shop window, can I really give up everything I already have simply by running away when I finally receive it?

In any case, Jiang Cheng's indifference was only part of the story; the lack of emotion only applied to others. His own wishes were fulfilled perfectly.

Even if you keep forgiving yourself, you can still punish yourself in the name of love.

Even if a Herrscher's body had barbs on its whip, it could be explained.

At worst, I can just pretend to be a masochist.

There are countless better ways to solve this problem. There's no need to adopt such a desperate approach. Jiangcheng certainly wouldn't be happy either.

Having already witnessed Vilvi's self-sacrifice, the mild-mannered Jiang Cheng would absolutely not accept or tolerate such a thing happening again.

I've already experienced the pain of losing all the important people in my life, so there's really no need to make a teenager go through it for something so trivial.

Why……

Why hurt yourself like this?

Actually, no one would be this harsh on me.

Even Mebius has accepted all of this, even though she now knows what's going on.

Yes, everyone has accepted it, and everyone will acknowledge it. There is no one in this world who would deny this sentiment.

Mebius might always say that if I'm not good enough, she can take my place, but in reality, he has long since silently accepted it all.

Even if they know that I harbored despicable desires when I resurrected Jiangcheng, there's nothing I can do about the fact that it's already a done deal, right?

Seeing that even though he had lost a lot of feelings and even forgotten her, he still retained the last bit of emotion because of my wish, and still had the essence of Jiang Cheng, the doctor, who was tough on the outside but soft on the inside, could not really be so cruel as to take away the last bit of Jiang Cheng he had.

Regardless, Jiang Cheng was still Jiang Cheng, the same gentle young man who never changed. Even if his gentleness was somewhat fake, the only proof was that the person named Jiang Cheng had never harbored any resentment towards himself in his life, to the point that even his memories could not find the necessary material.

……

Isn't that why I'm doing this?

It's not a particularly noble reason.

There's no need to attribute it to any lofty motives.

All I want is to see the boy who brought me into this world.

Her rosy lips unconsciously curved upwards, and her slightly rosy face was outlined with the radiance of spring flowers in full bloom, as if she had just arrived in the world.

There's absolutely no need to force yourself to laugh or try to please others for any other reason... To laugh, just think about happy things.

Velvi...

Is this what you were thinking when you left your last words for me?

I can finally understand humans completely now.

……

All hesitation is shattered, for what is too close to human sin will also be utterly destroyed for what is too close to human virtue.

Just as the flawless light and perfect flowers were in full bloom, a darker, deeper night sky suddenly descended, swallowing all the light like a black hole. A hand gently pressed down on the flowers held by the girl's hands, the fingertips pressing tightly against the back of the hand, forcibly closing the blooming flowers.

why?

Didn't no order have been issued?

Wasn't there no notification or requirement?

The boy's actions, taken without any prior warning, momentarily halted what should have been a smooth act of self-sacrifice. But before the fairy's mind could fully process what was to come, something far more urgent was already looming.

The power of origin is not something that can be easily stopped. Even when it is transformed into a memory, it still possesses the ability to seize and erode in an instant.

In the initial description, it was even born on the moon along with the End, possessing the power of guidance, and was an existence that surpassed ordinary Herrschers.

The flawless starlight was suppressed for only a moment before it turned around and resisted the approaching pressure, using its raw power to tear apart the heavy celestial bodies.

Gravity, capable of engulfing light, can also be limited by the difference in levels and sink into the power of a higher level.

The reflection of the light even made the boy's outstretched hand appear somewhat transparent, and the force of the resistance was already rising from his fingertips.

But before that, the master of the power stopped his counterattack. His slender fingertips immediately came together, forcibly suppressing and restraining the Origin.

The moment Alicia realized the boy was approaching, she did her best to stop her instinctive resistance and fought against herself alongside him, the outsider.

No...

We cannot harm Jiangcheng.

Even the slightest possibility is unacceptable.

There's no time left to think about why Jiang Cheng had initiative in this matter.

The forceful retraction and interruption of the release of primordial power were undertaken even if it meant the body had to withstand the full reaction force and fall helplessly backward.

Without any unnecessary thought or wasting time, everything that might bring danger was stopped, causing that brilliance to fade into the shadows.

The endless, deep darkness eventually swallowed all the light, bringing together slender fingertips and pressing them against the steaming, warm, white back of the hand.

Alicia's face, forced to be raised, revealed a hint of weakness and helplessness in her dreamy pink eyes, which saw the boy so close to her.

That overly calm face, when turned upside down, seemed to possess a different charm; the slightly upturned corners of his lips were the last thing one could see from that angle.

"Excuse me, could you please stop for a moment?"

"I'm far from wanting to part ways yet."

……

The sudden interruption of her power caused a shock that the exhausted and battered girl could not withstand. Her soft, fleshy thighs buckled, and she felt the world spinning around her as she involuntarily fell toward the ground.

His body, which had been completely drained of all its strength, was in a state of utter exhaustion. He couldn't even do something as simple as raising his hands to cover his face, and could only let the dusty ground in his sight keep getting closer.

Not wanting to harm the boy, the act of forcibly interrupting the energy felt as if every cell in the body was being brutally cut apart with a saw.

I even...

Is there really no way to fix this?

It seems they hadn't considered this possibility at all.

The girl bit her lip in self-reproach, letting streaks of blood seep from her pearly white teeth, her pink eyes almost turning into circles that symbolized fainting.

Subconsciously, the regret of having accomplished nothing once again arose in my heart, turning into a sharp blade that wanted to hurt that fragile and wounded heart.

—It's going to fail again.