Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

No wonder they conduct experiments day and night.

Leaving Jiangcheng... must have been something more painful for her than death.

……

In the end, "Memory" Ellie could only take a deep breath, give up the idea of ​​arguing for her other self, and accept the bitter consequences that awaited her. She bent down and helped pack the luggage.

The items have already been delivered by an autonomous robotic arm; all that's needed is to install them—a trivial matter that requires absolutely no intelligence.

Essentially, it's just physical labor: picking up tools by hand and putting them in a box—a simple three-step process, much like putting an elephant in a refrigerator.

At least that's the only thing she can do.

Since Velvi was angered by 'Alice'.

Then let another Alicia lend a hand.

Everything that follows is beyond the reach of a dead person; the conflict between the other self and Velvey is definitely not that simple.

Perhaps because she was able to maintain a semblance of clarity as an outsider and hadn't been completely overwhelmed by emotions, the "Memory Body" Ellie was able to make a relatively clear judgment about the relationship between her and Velvi from another world.

Those all involve things more important than life itself, and in a sense, they can be called the only reason for us to still be alive and continue living.

Jiangcheng...

What a wicked man.

One person alone can cause so many conflicts.

It can cause conflict and disputes between oneself and geniuses, and the resulting entanglement is a level of anger that cannot be quelled even if it crosses the world.

Even compared to her other self, Vivi's condition is relatively good; at least she can talk to people normally and pack her luggage normally.

It's really hard to imagine what kind of despair, what kind of crazy things and changes my other self went through to become this monstrous state.

Those events cannot even be described as a simple outbreak of collapse or the ugliness of human nature, because for 'Alicia', she has seen too many stories between humans and between humans and non-humans. Simple malice is simply not enough to cause her to collapse to this extent.

Nothing I can recall, no combination of disasters, could possibly reach such a level of despair. It's not that it wouldn't collapse, but rather that no matter how much it collapses, it could never shatter into sand like this.

Even describing how heartbroken, how sad, how painful it is is impossible; it's something that cannot be described in words.

However, as merely a memory entity and not from the same world, "Memory Entity" Ellie felt she couldn't really offer any evaluation.

After all, love was something she had never experienced before; it was a completely uncharted territory, and she hadn't even dipped her toes in.

Even the most basic and ordinary things weren't touched upon, let alone the current love triangle—this is far too advanced and unimaginable for a fairy who has been single for 50,000 years.

"Memory" Ellie really finds it hard to imagine that she would compete with Velvi for a boy, and that she would fall into madness because of something called love.

They even have the audacity to do such shameless things. Normal lovers don't act like this, do they?

She couldn't even blame Jiang Cheng, nor could she complain about her other self's poor judgment, because most of the time it was her other self who took the initiative to transform into that shameless pet and do those messy things.

This is something only pets would do, and what's the point of using the following phrase? What's the meaning of using a whip? Isn't this for punishment?

So many random props, how come you prepared them all yourself? Doesn't it hurt when you get hit? Why do you need even more?

When she first received the information, the girl, who only knew the most ordinary missionary, was stunned for a moment. "Memory" Ai Li was already beginning to doubt whether her nature had been tainted with a bit of perversion and masochism.

He's not good at getting close to people or striking up conversations quickly; what outsiders might perceive as harassment is actually the literal meaning of being a pervert.

If it weren't for the lack of time and space, "Memory" Ellie would have really been tempted to join the battle and take a few hits to test it out.

After all, regardless of whether it appears wicked or perverse, it is a possibility that exists within the being named 'Alicia'.

……

Based on what I know about the other Vilvie, her interests are wide-ranging—this lovely fairy knows every hero, and even more than just her companions, very well. In order to have a pleasant conversation with everyone and not to add any extra burden to others, she never has the mindset of just casually chatting about anything.

Despite being one person short, Velvet, who should have been packing her own luggage, stood frozen in place. Even when she tried to move, she was like a puppet. With the help of "Memory" Ellie, her luggage was quickly packed.

After all, although the time spent here may seem long, it is not that long in the grand scheme of life, and not even as long as some of the trial participants.

The insecure young lady, who was only thinking about returning to her original world to find the boy, had no interest in buying or making anything unrelated to that.

After packing everything that seemed portable, it turned out that it couldn't even fill a small suitcase. There were no changes of clothes or toiletries, and nothing else needed for daily life.

At any other time, the fairy, who always pursues beauty and happiness, would surely have reluctantly given over some of her everyday items. But now, after experiencing so much, even the fairy, who seems to never lose her smile, feels exhausted.

She simply took some cosmetics that she thought were useful and acceptable from Paradise, and a few pieces of clothing that Eden had designed before, and stuffed them in with the idea that Wilvi wouldn't object now anyway.

Consider it an act of atonement for another version of yourself.

I did not participate in the chaotic battleground that resembles a vulgar light novel.

They don't even have a physical body, nor the means to walk in the world.

Although it's somewhat inexplicably sad, these symbols of the dead, which in a sense resemble graves, seem to have become slightly better at this moment, not as bad as they appear.

At least for those who are already dead.

—I can certainly stay out of this, can I?

Her slender, soft fingers gently pressed against her chest. The simulated heartbeat felt incredibly fake to the fairy who yearned for humanity, for the happiness and beauty that belonged only to humans, and who fantasized about becoming a complete human. No matter how open-minded she was in reality, there was still a hint of melancholy on her lips at this moment.

Every story eventually comes to an end, and a good ending is a blessing in itself. But what if we can never see those wonderful people again?

To be able to accept death so easily, to accept regret, to no longer see the people I protect, and to not know if my efforts will be rewarded.

In this respect, perhaps that other self, who seems unreliable from any perspective and whose tragic torment and suffering could not be imagined, is more human than this divine figure.

Next, we'll have to face Virvi's wrath.

It would be perfectly normal for someone to slap you.

Just like when I went to fight another version of myself.

Because.

I did something absolutely outrageous.

……

"I want you to take another version of me with you to find Jiangcheng."

"Memory Body" Ellie gazed calmly at the girl so close to her. Her gently blinking blue eyes held sadness, shame, unbearable pain, and self-loathing, but there was no hesitation, not even the slightest doubt. She simply stated her request in a calm manner.

“If I can’t see him again, ‘Alicia’ will definitely break down, rot from the very core of her being, from the very depths of her soul.”

"Please rest assured, I did not hide anything in our previous conversation because I wanted you to do so. Everything I said is accurate."

Perhaps in order to avoid suspicion of making a deliberate request and to prevent being perceived as having concealed or deceived someone beforehand in order to achieve this goal.

The fairy from another world pressed her full mounds, letting her different colored eyes meet, conveying her inner emotions—true purity, untouched by foolishness and arrogance.

Holding fast to the belief that she was born into this world and, upon being adopted into the orphanage, grasped the meaning of existence through a book given as a gift, she continued to walk with this meaning in mind, never hesitating, never doubting, and never being interfered with by other higher-ups. She steadfastly walked her own path until her final death, until she transformed into a new flower.

Despite being essentially the same, and knowing that she would definitely behave exactly the same way when experiencing the same things—a fact she had already recognized when she met her other self—Vilvie still found it difficult to remain serious and rude when facing a fairy who, at least for now, had not yet committed those wrongdoings.

The only remaining doubt, or rather, the idea that I knew from the beginning but simply wanted to find a reason to convince myself, still exists.

The girl was compelled to meet those eyes without hesitation, and she asked her question with extreme coldness, showing no trace of emotion.

“I know this is the only thing you wouldn’t do, but since you didn’t forge anything, why add that extra sentence? You should know that I only have one choice, and Vilvie has only had one choice from the very beginning.”

……

"Perhaps... it's for my own sake." Her smile was somewhat bleak, perhaps because even saying these words made her feel a deep sense of self-examination.

"It's not a double entendre; it's just that, no matter what, we're essentially the same kind of people. Who in this world would want to live a bad life?"

"I know that my other self/Alicia made a huge mistake and failed to protect the people I should have protected, but you should also know about the greatest test of the Honkai, the existence of the Herrscher of the End, right?"

……

202. Please, forgive Alicia.

"I know that for that enemy that humanity can never overcome, although I am single-mindedly thinking about seeing Jiang Cheng, it doesn't mean I won't study what we know about the Honkai here. At least we'll have some ready-made information so that we won't be scrambling to deal with the Honkai calamity when we get back."

"As a despair that transcends the Herrschers, I have even considered how it is possible to confront the End."

She gently closed her eyes, recalling everything she had found in the database. She seemed to be pondering, but it only took a moment. Her silver-gray eyes, which were like a hazy mist, suddenly opened, filled with a heavy unease like a surging tide, accompanied by an answer that could almost be called despair.

"—It's zero."

……

"This is something that no human can overcome, not even a Herrscher. Even if I, as the Origin, were to actually take the field, I would be easily defeated. The other me is definitely not slacking off; she has become very strong."

"She really put in a lot of effort, and you can see that. Her strength is even greater than when I was at my strongest."

"The other one I have reached the limit of the origin is the strongest power under that End, which cannot even be called a Herrscher."

"Even in the theoretical form of Kevin, it is probably impossible for him to be stronger than another version of me. This level of strength is not something that can be achieved through ordinary training. It is a power that even another version of me cannot reach."

"I didn't see much of her/my memories, so I don't know how much effort she put into this power, but it must have been something I can't even imagine, since it all ended with a dance."

It is not a false lie.

It is not a false or erroneous statement.

It's not a lie fabricated to help another version of myself.

In matters like this, "Memory" Ellie would never act falsely; she is simply stating the truth.

Whether it's the sheer power of the force, the insurmountable nature of the end, or even the seemingly exaggerated, unattainable power of another version of oneself, everything is real, without a single exaggerated description added.

As a result of extreme infighting between humanity and the Honkai, even a small child on the ground possesses the combat power to fight and even defeat higher-level Honkai beasts.

The power possessed by ordinary Herrschers would be almost as unattainable as the end of the world if placed in this world; a single Great Collapse would be enough to destroy the world.

As someone who already surpasses ordinary Herrschers, and is the most special below the Central, possessing the highest authority besides that of a master, the power he holds will expand infinitely and wildly even if he does nothing.

Moreover, it's not that Alicia can't do nothing. She hunts her own kind and the Honkai with weapons in hand. Countless killings have given her a unique understanding of the Origin, unlike those in other worlds.

He embraced his true self and essence early on, accepted his own depravity and incompetence, accepted himself as a calamity, and recognized his status as a Herrscher through the mistakes he made with his own hands time and time again.

Even among those of such high caliber, there are differences due to varying levels of proficiency. Those who only cram at the last minute and choose to become Herrschers can never be compared to skilled Herrschers from the start.

They neither shirked their power nor their authority, ultimately creating an ultimate monster that could not even be described as a Herrscher.

This strength itself is proof of hard work.

Even though the direction of our efforts was misjudged.