Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Definitely.

Vilvi took another deep breath, her pearly white teeth gently biting down, creating a barrier between her soft, rosy lips like a lubricant, providing a slight pain to keep her mind calm.

She has been rescued so many times and searched for so many times.

It's about time I looked for one.

……

As they set off for the room, having finally made up their minds to see Alicia one more time, almost a dozen people simultaneously chose to move forward, guided by Vervi's first step, breaking the atmosphere of communication and dialogue.

“Alicia… she shouldn’t be like this. I’ve never seen her like this before. This is abnormal, and it shouldn’t be like this.”

Greta crossed her arms over her chest and gently nodded her head. She exuded elegance and grace, yet she stared blankly ahead, as if talking to herself or transcribing the emotions of others.

Transcribed is a singer who was once Alicia's best friend and was willing to transform into a completely collapsed state just to please the fairy.

It was merely an imitation, constantly tinged with the colors of others. When meeting that fairy, she would even call her "little sister." Everyone present knew that this elegant demeanor, like a classic incense burner, did not belong to her.

“Sister Eden, are you alright? If there’s anything wrong, let everyone know,” Padofilis took a few steps to the front, hesitated briefly, and then pulled at the hem of her wine-red dress, which was as gorgeous as a classical poem. “Your complexion looks so strange right now, it’s really, really pale.”

"Pado, let's not talk about this anymore; it's something we can't interfere with."

Su, who has always healed others as a doctor and whose ideals and dreams are to help others, intervened at the crossroads. For the first time, the fingers that had always been used to save and help chose to give up.

He lowered his head, avoiding the cat's gaze, and swayed to convey his denial—this was something he truly could not and should not interfere with.

"It's because we have a very shallow understanding of Alicia. We have never really tried to understand her in depth. Perhaps... we are not even qualified partners. It's just that she has been understanding and helping us one-sidedly."

……

The first time I saw Alicia, who seemed omnipotent and could always solve everything with a smile, make such a solemn request to someone.

It's even because of this kind of thing, like a love triangle in a third-rate novel, that some borderline perverted and erotic elements are mixed in.

simply……

Simply outrageous.

Incomprehensible.

It's even more unimaginable.

As an Awakened One, recognized as the supreme leader of a sect, a warrior bearing the name of Heavenly Wisdom, the second-best spiritual fusion warrior still existing today, and even possessing the ability to briefly foresee the future, Su has seen it all.

—He had never seen this before.

I never even considered it, let alone witnessed it with my own eyes. This possibility never even crossed my mind, not even for a second or left the slightest trace, because from the very beginning, it was absolutely impossible in my understanding.

This is something beyond imagination, beyond reality, beyond comprehension; it's as ridiculous as someone blowing up their own loyal subordinate.

This emotional blow has reached the level of being out of character (OOC), and it's not just the person involved who is experiencing it; even bystanders are starting to act out of character.

Shutting his mouth, Qianjie began to rack his brains to recall Alicia's previous behavior, hoping to find out the reason why the fairy had become so abnormal.

Kevin couldn't even eat noodles. He held the instant noodles in his hands, letting them cool down, and didn't even notice the fork that had unknowingly fallen into the soup.

Shocked by what she had just witnessed, Sakura's resolute eyes, those of an assassin, now held the clarity of a college student fresh out of university.

Startled, he began to actively think about the future, questioning whether the world was fake and whether he was still being experimented on by Möbius.

Originally, he would only remain silent and daydream, but now he was constantly babbling incessantly, whereas Kosmo, who had given up on thinking, was the one who was now pondering.

And then there's that idiot snake who started observing from the sidelines for who knows how long, and after watching the whole thing, he even forgot to hide himself—Mebius stared blankly, his mouth agape as if he'd stepped out of a comic book.

Aside from Aponia, who still had to take care of Alicia out of a sense of responsibility and had little interest in gossip, every single one of the heroes who came here was in a situation that could be described as out of character (OOC).

In comparison, Su and Pado, who are still able to speak, are already considered to be doing well. At least the shock remains in their hearts, without any direct expression of it.

For various reasons, they were not as close to Alicia as they were to others, or perhaps they thought that it was not surprising for the fairy to do anything, and were therefore less affected by her.

Out-of-character (OOC) only exists in things we know. If it's a stranger, then it's not surprising that they might do something out of line.

In reality, the so-called "ruining impression" or "ruining persona" is essentially destroying the image you originally believed in, or the personality you arbitrarily created for others.

Conversely, Eden, who understood Alicia better than anyone else present and was closer to the pink fairy, bore the heaviest shock despite believing himself to be so close.

In just over ten days, a change occurred that could not be compared to anything in all of my past life experiences and turning points combined.

"Alicia..."

"I really……"

Have you heard anything about her?

……

"When we meet later, you don't need to worry about me or ignore my mistakes. Just say whatever you want to say."

"If possible, could you please stop bringing up the issue of Jiangcheng's safety?"

On the other side, contrary to everyone else, the "memory body" Ellie, unaware that some of her own had entered a state of existential doubt, stood in front of the door, gently biting her rosy lips, and bowing her head with her hands clasped together.

That was a plea.

—A plea to the genius of the spiral.

“Don’t worry, I’m not the kind of person who likes to take my anger out on others…” Wilvi just shook her head gently, staring at those panicked eyes—the girl who was always so carefree was unusually uneasy, her pitiful face almost making people want to pity her, and there was even a feeling that the pink in the middle of her pupils was about to replace the blue.

Perhaps feeling that his affirmation was too direct and left no room for maneuver, he added the second half of the sentence after a brief silence.

"Big……"

"probably."

The girl was unsure whether she could persevere.

The girl was even less certain whether she could act gently.

Despite all the truth proving that Alicia had given her all, the strength of a single special Herrscher was simply not enough to overcome the End.

Deep within my heart, where my soul resides, in a place beyond words, restless and uneasy, repeatedly denying this idea.

"All I can say for sure is that, barring any other circumstances, I will try to be as gentle as possible, at least like I would treat a younger sister."

"In short, as I said before, this is not her fault alone; in fact, I am more at fault."

"If I hadn't kept those things without permission, she probably wouldn't have had to bear this burden..."

"—That's completely untrue!"

……

The girl's voice, which had been subconsciously starting to wallow in self-pity and push all the blame onto herself, was abruptly interrupted as a pink figure entered her silver-gray eyes—it was the disgruntled "Memory Entity" Airi, who made no attempt to hide her displeasure, even raising the tips of her eyebrows slightly.

“Jiang Cheng is my family, and protecting him is my duty. Asking me to protect him better is not wrong at all.”

"Whether you intervened or helped, failing to protect him is my fault. I failed to protect my family."

"Jiang Cheng has lived with you for so long, hasn't he always wanted to change your mind? Why do you still want to disappoint him?"

……

Arguments like "I've actually become very proactive" are meaningless and serve no purpose other than showing off how abnormal you are.

What's the point of proving that you're someone who can't feel empty and lonely just from being warmed by a boy's love in a way that destroys your very being? It's all in vain compared to that fairy declaration...

what……

They're family...

Yes.

Regardless, Alicia was Jiang Cheng's family, a very important member of his family. Even before his death, she still held a great deal of weight in his heart. In fact, if it weren't for this, he would never have entrusted the boy to someone who had already betrayed and ignored him once.

There is more than one candidate for the backup plan; even Möbius would be a much better person to take care of than someone with a bad record.

Both were scholars unknown and unexplored, whose only influence on others was fear, and both were saved in every way by the boy.

She may not be as perfect as I am in every aspect, but for her only friend, that oddball who is somewhat similar to her in some way, no matter how tough or arrogant she is, she will definitely change herself for the boy, even if the change is in the direction of taking care of him, she will not hesitate at all.

They were all outcasts whom no one cared about. Let alone being friends with them, even if someone treated the doctor like an ordinary person, it would probably make the doctor, who seemed to have never had a good day since birth, feel flattered.

Ultimately, could the few short years I spent with Jiang Cheng really surpass the long time Jiang Cheng and Alicia had spent together since childhood?

Even if they could surpass each other, even if they could be overtaken, and then they were given the medicine to reconcile by their own hands, and then they lived to a time when the end was very likely to come, and the two of them had been together for at least several decades, more than ten years.

I was already dead at that point in time.

There is no other me to fill the gap in technology.

We will no longer drive the Honkai growth due to technological advancements.

With my death as the most outstanding genius, technological development will stagnate. In addition, with the existence of the Origin, the time it takes to reach the end will definitely be much longer than this world's, at least a dozen years.

……

204. Alicia: Jiang Cheng was killed because of me.

The entire Firemoth was almost wiped out; the destructive power of that massive collapse must have at least paralyzed the brain of human civilization.

Even in this relatively radical world, it took a long time for the end to come, let alone for those whose legs were broken and who couldn't run away.

A marathon where you vomit blood is certainly a desperate situation.

The prerequisite is that you must be able to run a marathon.

While a race walk with a limp will ultimately result in exhaustion, the time spent in between will be significantly longer.

We were childhood sweethearts, and I even gave her a complete guide to winning her over. We also lived together for an unimaginably long time.

Does he still hold any place in Jiangcheng's heart?

Won't it really be used as a stepping stone for Alicia?

This is a completely unknown quantity.

Even the genius girl couldn't give an answer—or rather, dared not give an answer, because it was far too obvious.

Teenagers are undoubtedly ordinary people, not only in terms of talent, but also in terms of morality and emotions. They crave affection and the establishment of close relationships, but this craving is not pathological. They will not completely shut down their hearts and love just because they lose an important person.