Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

It was as if the tide was crashing in, simply pouring everything in without considering how much the dam could hold, or whether the small rivers could support the movement of the towering waves and the sea.

'What's wrong... Mei?!'

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The arrogance in their words has been lost.

The Thunder Queen's voice revealed a hint of worry.

The series of events that befell the girl shattered all her complacency; all her self-righteousness and strategic planning vanished without a trace.

No matter how he asked, he received no response. Even when the girl treated him as another voice from within, just like before, he remained dazed and frozen in place.

Until the Thunder Queen couldn't help but try to regain control of her body and search for the cause, until everything finally reached the critical point, the information was finally fully digested, and an unknown energy erupted from it.

Like a machine restarting, the precisely meshing gears creaked and groaned as they worked, pulling the bone away, and the hand that had been lying on the ground was lifted up once more.

In a daze, as if she had touched something, her purplish-red pupils flashed with a dim light for a moment. The lines that had covered her entire body and spread with her self-degradation and the collapse of her will disappeared in an instant, revealing her pure white skin again, an inhuman perfection without a single flaw or injury.

All the doubts were explained—the girl, who should have been the one being protected, touched something she shouldn't have touched at the moment of her collapse, and came into contact with everything that should have been touched by her other self.

That was the truth of everything, enough to fill all the emptiness in my heart, to tell me all the doubts and dissatisfaction before, and to cover up the complete collapse.

In a true sense, just feeling it was enough to make those extremely dim eyes light up crimson in an almost utterly self-destructive manner.

what……

what……

what……

Is this what it turned out to be like?

Is this what it turned out to be like?

So that's how it is?!

No wonder I'm disliked... I'm just a born villain!

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Raiden Mei had also wondered why she had been subjected to such inhuman treatment, and why she was the only one who had to go through so many hardships.

They weren't initially in darkness; rather, they were kicked into darkness after being nurtured by kindness under the light. They held normal moral values, even leaning towards kindness and gentleness, but what they experienced, encountered, and saw was the darkest of shadows.

Even now, even when you gently lift your fingertips, you can see some residual purple marks on the edges, preserving the final appearance like a brand.

There was no pain whatsoever; all I felt was comfort and an almost unsettling pleasure. Every cell in my body was craving more.

The girl didn't understand this kind of thing. No one had ever taught or imparted any knowledge about it since she was born. However, she had inadvertently learned some secrets because her father and her family's business had seen it before.

The girl knew nothing about the deeper aspects of it; she only knew that it was called Honkai energy, an energy that every household could not escape or leave behind, an energy more important than nuclear and electrical energy. Yet, no country or expert had popularized related knowledge, and most people did not even have the opportunity to understand it.

In terms of danger, it far surpasses the two mentioned above. To date, no energy has been more dangerous than Honkai energy.

At the beginning, while reading the comics, I even thought there was a major villain behind the scenes, and I went through a period of chuunibyou (adolescent delusions of grandeur) fantasies that I possessed great power and was destined to defeat the mastermind behind the scenes.

Not long after, my father was imprisoned for financial fraud and probably will never be able to get out.

Even one cannot be alone; there is no way to escape the malice directed at the entire city from all corners of the world, like a lone sail being confronted by a raging storm, a tsunami, and lightning.

Forget about fantasizing about being a savior; there's not even room for being a chuunibyou (a person with delusions of grandeur). Every day, besides being bullied, they numbly endure being bullied.

Raiden Mei thought she would never have anything to do with this in her life, until now, until just now, until she finally understood everything.

It is clearly an energy that will kill anyone who touches it, that will turn into ashes without leaving a trace, an energy that is lethal to any life, including humans, yet it stays on one's fingertips and throughout one's body like a pet, and can be controlled at will.

There was no instinctive danger, no subconscious vigilance; instead, the body craved more of this dangerous energy.

A hunger that only existed for a month or two after experiencing setbacks, when one had no money and no way to work, struck again.

The reflection in those deep purple eyes was no longer of a girl's flawless white skin; it was no longer possible to mistake the monster for a human.

The doubts of the past have been answered. Being bullied and treated with malice by everyone has become natural and understandable, and is no longer simply considered right.

All information has been disclosed, including one's own nature, the energy within oneself, and the power of this despair and disaster.

Isn't it normal to be disliked by humans?

—I am not human.

It cannot even be called a normal life.

—I am a monster.

A calamity demon born to kill humans.

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In the original storyline, the girl, who should have continued to feel sorrow for her actions and fear for the atrocities she had committed even after the collapse, and wanted to commit suicide, allowing her kindness to last until the lament of sinners, now seems to have broken down.

Crimson... no, it's hard to describe it as pure purple anymore. Even the fine, lightning-like arcs have vanished without a trace. At this moment, the pupils have turned a decadent, eerie red.

There is still cowardice, there is still sorrow, there is still confusion; these weak emotions are simply shrouded in a deeper darkness.

Her delicate lips drooped unhealthily, tearing into a cold arc. The distorted smile proved that something deep inside her had completely broken down, like a leaky faucet dripping water.

"Ah……"

“That’s really bad.”

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217. The Third Honkai Impact – Arrival

It turns out that none of this happened without a reason.

It turns out that the series of disasters was not due to bad luck.

what……

I didn't realize it so late!

Jiang Cheng's departure is actually quite normal.

I had a premonition that I would come, and I was driven by instinct to leave my room, and may even be staying in a hotel that I absolutely do not like.

I even have the ability to dodge monsters. While those other people would just yell at me or approach me with cold faces, only Jiang Cheng would realize my true nature.

Jiangcheng is indeed as outstanding as ever; those praises were clearly just polite formalities...

fair enough.

At least I don't have to worry about hurting him anymore.

In any case, the boy never truly hurt himself, and even if he didn't like the gift, he never showed that he didn't like it.

The joy he felt upon receiving the box, the hesitation and surprise in his eyes—his acting even made me believe for a moment that the boy was truly happy.

really...

Why work so hard?

I'm just a useless piece of trash.

She was nothing more than the daughter of a financial fraudster, the descendant of a sinner, a piece of trash that everyone in the world would laugh at.

Why do people like me have to maintain politeness, comfort me, make me happy, and then think that I, too, can touch the light?

If the boy hadn't acted so realistically, would my heart... have been less aching?

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'Eh……'

'Ya...Ya Yi? ! '

Still out of touch with the times, the Queen could only show an expression similar to Eden's when he saw Alicia and Velvet fighting in Paradise, and he was even stopped by the "Memory" Ali.

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The Raiden Queen, who was theoretically not long born and was still too young and inexperienced to share knowledge and common sense with Raiden Mei, felt for the first time that her brain was not quite up to the task after countless experiences where she thought that all she needed was power.

Although compared to the completely incomprehensible and unknown events that happened to the girl, a more personally relevant question has already arisen.

The lightning, which used to move freely like an extension of the hands and could be controlled at will, seemed to jam for the first time, losing its control.

It's not just lightning, not just the way power is manifested, but also the energy itself seems to have been divided up and a great deal of authority taken away by others.

what happened.

Why isn't the energy listening to me?

My Honkai energy... my power!

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The night sky, which had blocked out the sun, was replaced by sunlight that pierced through the clouds. The tender grass, not yet accustomed to yesterday's dampness, was forced to reflect the colorful brilliance of the dewdrops hanging on its fresh green leaves, which exuded the fragrance of the soil.

The light transforms from the dawn's first rays into the blazing sun, its aggressiveness and penetrability increasing dramatically in an attempt to pierce through all shadows.

Through the treetops, it casts its light without reservation upon the bed of leaves, adding a touch of yellow to the fresh, green nature.

"The lingering smoke dissipates, spring departs in stillness, and rain falls on the high rooftops. The green jade pendants on the wall are washed clean of leaden frost, and the tender shoots touch each other, moistening the strings of a zither. The cold seeps into the pillow, and insect webs are blown and stick to the bamboo curtain."

The morning mist vanished instantly, and the world dispersed.

The boy lay alone under a large umbrella woven from thousands of trees. The woven bedding was slightly lifted due to his restless sleeping position, and his blue pajamas were blown by the wind carrying the scent of last night's rain.

The spring rain, though unable to overcome the barrier of gravity, can still mix the dampness from the pattering soil into the air, accompanied by the timely spring breeze.

At least the pure black hair had taken on a bluish tinge reminiscent of the deep sea and starry sky, with a few strands of hair emitting a faint glow that would be manipulated from time to time.

Even with its instinctive self-protection mechanism, which can almost be understood as literally tearing out its own heart and placing it outside, it cannot isolate itself from all wind, rain, and air, nor can it dry the surface moisture without being discovered, affected, or harmed.