Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

The expression in the eyes, which are the reflection of the soul, is one of unbearable resentment and an instinctive aversion to this cold reality.

Having been a top student in the past makes these somewhat convoluted statements not hard to understand, and the truth they reveal is something that you understand halfway through hearing. In fact, most people in the world are just limited by their perspective; it's not that they can't learn, it's just that they don't know.

Just as some swimming champions never touch water in their entire lives, they naturally cannot exert their athletic coordination and can only become ordinary people.

The girl, who was overprotected by her father Raiden Ryoma, could not possibly encounter such a cruel reality in her life so easily.

No one can sleep forever. Even with your eyes closed, the problem is still there. If you can't avoid it, you can only face it. Escaping is not a mistake, but it is not a permanent solution. Permanent escape is the real mistake.

If someone could always stand tall and block out the sky, then it wouldn't matter if we didn't know—but Father couldn't do that.

"If I hadn't been lucky enough to meet you, Jiang Cheng, my future... would definitely not have included the concept of self-worth."

“Before this sudden disaster struck, it seemed like I hadn’t had any time of my own for a very long time.”

……

As Raiden Mei seemed to be gradually drawn into memories of the past, the guilt and sense of collapse that had been clinging to her gradually disappeared.

Perhaps this won't be a permanent solution, but at least for now, self-pity won't be a thing of the past in this city.

Jiang Cheng was finally able to relax a little, and bent down even more, getting closer to the girl, showing his eyes and his emotions without reservation, revealing his distorted and biased views.

The palm, stripped of its luster, resembled a helping hand extended by an ordinary student to their classmate, as natural as assistance on a running track or sports field.

"What I'm saying may indeed be some kind of nonsensical riddles, but in essence, I just want to tell you one thing."

"Now you can do what you like and pursue what you love without feeling guilty. They are just fleeting moments, insignificant footnotes in your life's journey."

"Although you will naturally forget about these things as time goes by, I still don't want you to feel sad or upset because of them."

"To me, you are the only victim. Compared to those strangers, you are the only person I can call a human being."

"If you have to find a place to vent your guilt, then you can vent it on me. Just throw the problem at me, because I'll just throw it back at the real masterminds anyway."

"To be honest, the destruction of this city is actually related to me to some extent. At least I never denied or tried to save it, not even for a second."

Jiang Cheng did not believe that the destruction of this city could be changed, and he never had the slightest idea of ​​saving it in his plans.

In the end, he wasn't a hero or a great person; he was just an ordinary mortal who wanted to save the people he loved.

It's selfishness, double standards, and favoritism; it means paying more attention to those you like and helping and saving those you love.

There is absolutely no need to conceal these behaviors and principles, and embellishing the banner of saving the world is meaningless and completely unnecessary.

The individual named Jiang Cheng is just an ordinary person who is neither a bad person nor a truly evil one; he is neither entirely good nor entirely bad.

Or rather, most people in the world are neither good nor bad, but simply hover in the middle. That's why they hesitate between morality and self-interest. While considering their own interests, they are also persecuted by their inner kindness. However, if they want to do good deeds according to morality, they will feel pain because of the actual losses that occur.

Essentially, it's about not finding your own place. You just need to do what you can according to your abilities. If you have the ability, do what you can. If you don't have the ability, just protect yourself and the people you like.

More... that's beyond the realm of ordinary people. Whether it's finding pleasure in killing or harming others, or finding pleasure in saving or suffering for others, it's not something ordinary people can accept.

Even ordinary mortals should at least have some bottom line, and should at least avoid being ungrateful as long as their lives are not endangered.

Even dogs... and even wolves know that if someone gives you something, you should smile and bark softly at them in the future.

It's a pity that there are so few ungrateful people in this city, so few that it's like finding a needle in a haystack. So few that I haven't seen even one in all this time. So few that it would be obviously very troublesome to look for them.

It doesn't really matter. Those who are meant to live and those with resilience will still live, while those who can't survive will probably die even if they're thrown somewhere else.

The world experiences a lot of massive collapses; even highly defended cities can only withstand some medium-sized collapses from outside.

The Honkai that can give birth to high-level Honkai Beasts or Herrschers can rewrite an entire region with just its appearance. It requires years of repair using the Fourth Divine Key to make the land habitable again.

……

240. Please accept my virginity.

"You need to learn to treat some unimportant people like air. You don't have to become a bad person or a devil, but at least you can't be a great person."

"Because behind the scenes of this world is a villain who likes to manipulate other people's kindness and torment and hurt them through their emotions and love."

"It's also because you've never had a position or obligation to meet other people's demands."

"If someone is disappointed in you, it means that someone wants you to meet their expectations. But these expectations are their own issues. They have arbitrarily projected their own ideas onto you, rather than you accepting their wishes."

"If you fail an exam, you are only responsible for the result. That's tiring enough. You have no obligation to take responsibility for other people's emotions."

"They have no right to interfere in your life. Don't let other people's disappointment make you doubt yourself. It's really not worth it, it's a huge loss."

Jiang Cheng finally added what he truly wanted to say, and after removing the need to boost his self-confidence, he expressed his greatest hopes and expectations for the girl.

He was not reduced to being a yes-man or a plaything like a loyal dog; as an ordinary person, he was not suited to such things as those in high positions.

I would rather Raiden Mei be a friend than a subordinate.

Rather than a loyal dog, he would prefer Raiden Mei to be his lover.

Absolute loyalty may be something one craves in one's heart, but it is definitely not something one wishes to impose on others. At the cost of erasing someone's will, all one gets is an empty shell bearing a name.

People can eat well, dress poorly, and have no future, but they cannot live without love, care, or spiritual support.

True love can only arise between equals; those with unequal status are destined to produce only distorted and morbid emotions.

Just like the relationship between Wilvi and himself, if he really only wanted tools, he wouldn't have needed to go to such lengths to try to save her in the first place.

Perhaps I have indeed been living off a woman all along, and the effort I put in has never been equal to the reward I received. The gap in talent means that I will never be able to reach the edge of Wilville in my lifetime or even in ten lifetimes. No matter how hard I try, it will be meaningless. But this is by no means a reason to give up and give up.

He hoped that the love that Wilvi gave would be reciprocated in kind, and that if he didn't repay a small favor tenfold, he would at least give her something reasonable, so that he wouldn't just be seen as a useless freeloader. He believed that his existence in the world, and that his offensive act of interfering in the girl's life, had indeed brought Wilvi a better ending and a happier life.

It is precisely because I am pursuing and fantasizing about such things that I am willing to exhaust all my energy and time day after day and year after year.

Perhaps this is a sign of immaturity, a sign of cowardice, because one is unable to resist the surging emotions in one's heart, because one cannot bear to see one's loved ones hurt.

But there should also be room in this world for ordinary people, for the lives of ordinary people.

"so……"

"Please stop feeling sorry for yourself."

"I believe in you, just as you believe in me."

……

This is already the most sincere they can offer.

To display all one's emotions without reservation.

Because no amount of rhetoric can compare to the direct expression of genuine emotion, and nothing in this world is more efficient than direct feeling.

There was no deception in Jiang Cheng's words. His sincerity was a heartfelt expectation that could be felt without any effort. Just hearing it made one feel as if their heart had been warmed by the sun, and the color in their eyes was more dazzling than the stars in the sky.

At least at this moment, in Raiden Mei's eyes, which had quietly raised her head slightly, there was no longer any dimness or sadness in her pupils, which clearly reflected the boy's figure.

What kind of emotions can exist in the present moment?

What kind of discontent could possibly persist into adolescence and not dissipate?

do not know.

Unable to provide a response.

Because the girl really didn't know.

Today's despair and shadows vanished, and the only thing in his eyes was the boy so close at hand—the dark clouds disappeared, and the midday sun had risen again. Bathed in the brilliant light, even the lines of his face became soft. He seemed to have become the sun at this moment, letting the light flow past him, and his tousled hair, which had a hint of dark blue, was tinged with a touch of light yellow.

The cotton wool, which had never been washed and was extremely dirty, had an unpleasant gray-black color, like thick, unyielding sewage. But at this moment, it suddenly turned into a clear, blurry, glassy color.

It seemed that even the gods were pleased to see this scene, and the halo became just right at this moment. The aftereffects of the continuous thunderstorm had not yet completely dissipated, and the refracted light was just enough for the boy to scatter onto the world.

A gentle breeze stirred the hem of his coat, and the dazzling trench coat, now fully awakened with the Divine Key, resembled a flowing sea of ​​stars, reflecting an ancient and timeless light.

Like the prince in fairy tales, he always rides a white horse, overcomes all difficulties and obstacles, and rescues the princess from the darkness.

No matter what kind of demon king or difficulties they may be, the prince will surely be victorious in the end, and he will surely spread the light of hope to the world.

There was no reason, no cause, simply because he was a prince.

If you absolutely must ask why...

Just look up at his face.

In that case, you'll definitely know the reason.

……

Then take a look.

Raiden Mei cautiously looked at the hand that was outstretched towards her, at the smiling, expectant boy. Even though she had been ignored repeatedly in the psychological world before, and had never felt anger or dissatisfaction even after being ignored twice in a row, she still chose to help him no matter how many times, as if it were only natural, just like a prince who was born to save a beautiful princess.

It was so abrupt, so obviously no one in this world is born to save anyone else, so obviously the two people had no connection whatsoever, and their meeting had only lasted a month, yet the boy helped them time and time again as if it were only natural, and would eat when they were hungry, just like the simplest and most basic principle.

The girl recalled her first encounter with the boy. It was a beautiful day, with sunlight streaming in and the clouds on the horizon just beginning to disperse. Through the twilight, the clouds had a transparent, glass-like quality.

Although it was getting late, it didn't feel like the end of the day. The twilight simply added a touch of gold to the pristine white, and when it shone on the ground, it looked like a golden garment with a hint of dark pale yellow.

The grove of trees, in perfect season, uses countless overlapping branches to block out some of the sunlight, leaving the remaining light to shine on the ground like thousands of lights on a stage. The thick layer of fallen leaves has covered the soil, and stepping on it feels like walking on a velvet carpet.

Deep within the grove, the deepest and most unfathomable part of the school grounds, a place steeped in countless terrifying legends and almost no one ventures there.

He was there, avoiding everyone's gaze, waiting for someone to save him, clinging to the last vestige of hope that he might be helped.

But when they start to feel sleepy and tired, no one will venture into the grove filled with countless ghost stories and waste the beautiful evening.

If things continue like this, it will be another day without any change. I will be hiding from everyone's gaze, avoiding being bullied, and only after most people have left will I be late to work, finding a secluded little shop, and returning to my rented room far from the city after finishing my work.

They endlessly repeat this kind of life until one day they completely break down and can no longer tolerate the harm from others. Perhaps they will choose to jump off the school rooftop, or perhaps they will do something they cannot even imagine themselves doing.

Until a pair of hands gently lifted a drooping tree branch, pushed aside the leaves that were obscuring the view, and walked leisurely into the grove from the exit.

—It's Jiangcheng.

A gentle breeze stirred his clothes, making his tailored school uniform look particularly elegant against his perfectly straight tie. His untrimmed, slightly long hair danced in the wind, and the new buds and blossoming flowers of the cypress trees seemed to be there to adorn this moment. His youthful face was still untouched by the chaos of the world, unburdened by the mistakes he had made, and unaffected by the exhaustion that had set in when he was trying his best to solve problems and save himself.

In that unique radiance of youth, in eyes as clear as the night sky, there was a reflection of surprise and excitement, as if seeing an idol with the same anticipation.

Finally, after a period of continuous rain without any change or fluctuation, the sun shone for the first time.