Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

245. Wilvi: Jiang Cheng is doing it with someone else...

Gazing at the ruins scattered across the city, and even extending outwards to the entire country, the thick, muddy clouds that had just begun to dissipate, Velvi's fingers unconsciously tightened, even adding wrinkles to the fabric of Alicia's dress as she gripped it, the smooth long skirt being forcibly damaged, almost torn apart.

The road surface was so cracked that not even a matching stone could be found; the overpass had collapsed; the shops were still endlessly exploding; and the high-rise buildings had melted in the heat of lightning, leaving only half of them standing.

Jiangcheng is now in this godforsaken place that is almost a ruin, filled with intense Honkai energy, and where even the outside world is shrouded in a strong electromagnetic storm.

Hoo... Ha...

call……

Can’t think...

First, we need to find Jiangcheng.

The boy... wouldn't have a problem so easily.

It is no longer as weak as it once was, no longer as powerless as it once was; the boy has long since become one of the most advanced life forms on this planet.

The girl subconsciously ignored the chaos around her, trying her best to use her memories to stop the fluctuations in her thoughts. However, she couldn't control her frantic movements, and her behavior had completely lost its rationality, composure, and calmness.

Although Alicia had previously mentioned when recounting her past that Jiang Cheng had long since become a completely inhuman being, having undergone a resurrection ritual and made a deal with an unknown entity, and was now a Herrscher on the verge of his limit, someone even she needed to look at twice, her concern for her lover was something that no amount of strength could hinder.

Even though the meteor that fell earlier had a radiance that could penetrate even the paradise of the past, she was still worried. Or rather, if the boy hadn't already demonstrated his power to escape from humanity, the girl would have gone completely insane when she saw the shadow of the Great Collapse.

The fact that she can still hold on now is a result of some changes; she can barely maintain a little bit of rationality and try to find the boy's location.

Step by step, little by little, I tap the strings, little by little, searching for that place where I instinctively feel at ease and happy.

Until that feeling was so close, after clearing away the rubble that was blocking their view, the silver-gray eyes saw the boy and girl lying on the ground.

River……

Jiangcheng?

……

……

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For the first time in his life, Jiang Cheng thought about death, not because he was affected by the loss of his emotions, but because he was not suffering any torment, nor because he was facing an invincible enemy, nor because he didn't want to continue playing the simulator. It was simply because he met his lover.

In this situation, encountering Velvet and Alicia while having sex with Raiden Mei... it would be more swift to just kill myself.

Raiden Mei was still on her body, and now she was getting tighter and tighter. The teeth marks left from before were still visible on that white patch.

What the hell is this drawing?

I want to faint so badly, I want to escape, any method will do, as long as I can pass out... If I had been knocked unconscious or seriously injured in the fight, I probably wouldn't have to face all this.

No...

No!

Absolutely! Absolutely not! This is the only thing that absolutely cannot be avoided, no matter how cruel or difficult it may be.

By injuring herself to force herself into a coma as a way to escape, she only makes everyone sad. Raiden Mei will be sad, Alicia will be heartbroken, and Velvet is very likely to blame herself for this, thinking that it was her fault that she did something to hurt herself.

That outcome is absolutely unacceptable. Wervie cannot afford to suffer another blow, not even the slightest possibility, let alone something that is almost certain to happen.

It's quite possible that choosing to escape, never see oneself again, or even commit suicide to ensure one will never be harmed again is a very real possibility.

We can only face it, bear it, and try our best to find a way to resolve the conflict... but resolving this is something that humans simply cannot do.

what……

Kill me.

……

despair!

Overwhelmed by the despair of impending collapse.

collapse!

It is even worse than the collapse that leads to the end.

Not only the boy, but also Vilvi, who came full of love and expectation, witnessed a scene that was enough to drive anyone mad.

The person I love most is with a stranger, and they're still doing it now...

what……

what……

what……

I must be dreaming.

I must be dreaming!

I must be dreaming!!

……

The girl tried to escape from herself, even subconsciously wanting to turn around and deny this hellish drawing, but she had no room to deceive herself and was driven forward by the owner of the corner of the clothes that her right fingertips were tightly gripping.

——Aliceia.

Despite her unwillingness and refusal to move forward and leave, she couldn't let go of his fingers no matter what. She preferred to be dragged forward rather than choose to let go.

It was as if Alicia had deliberately used her power to hold back the girl who wanted to leave, a small act of revenge that forced her to witness this scene.

She approached the boy step by step, getting closer and closer to the purple-haired girl who was still clinging to him, seemingly without any sense of shame.

Even that figure was displayed too obviously in front of her eyes, so dazzling that Vervi couldn't help but lower her head and look at her fingers that were tightly tearing and pulling. As a result, the beautiful long dress that belonged to Alicia was torn - the so-called forward movement was just a voluntary act from the beginning.

Without being driven or forced by anyone, the fairy-like girl simply stepped forward on her own, heading straight ahead.

The act of not letting go and moving forward was merely Vervi's own choice; he was simply being honest and proactive in approaching the boy.

Yes.

How could I possibly leave?

How could someone named Vilvi possibly leave Jiangcheng?

This is a false proposition that was impossible from the very beginning. It cannot be asked as a question at all, and there has always only been one answer.

Even if the boy finds someone he likes more.

Even if the boy says things like "I hate it" or "I don't like it".

Even if it's shameless, she still has to hold onto his leg tightly.

We must never be apart, never separate. Only by staying by the boy's side can we stay together, no matter what it takes, no matter the cost, no matter how lowly our status.

Bending down, she once again displayed her old signature move, ignoring the presence of Alicia and the unknown girl from last year. Velvi simply displayed her humility and frantic flattery.

"Even if you start to hate me, even if you fall in love with another girl, that's fine, but please... please don't abandon me!"

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Humble...

Too humble.

It was a point that could be easily manipulated. No matter what happened in the future, just mentioning this incident would make the boy back down unconditionally, and it would be easy to even establish some unfair treaties. Yet, the girl, who was the world's top genius, simply lowered her head so humbly, bowing down along with Alicia and the fairy who was atoning for her sins.

It was worse than expected. Not only was they caught in an awkward atmosphere, but the flames were also unexpectedly ignited, making it even harder to quell. Even their attempts to explain to Vilvie were blocked.

Compared to being misunderstood or anything like that.

It is precisely this kind of relapse of old illness that makes it more serious.

Even being slapped or told a breakup—something that's impossible—would be infinitely better than the current situation.

I really hope that Vilvi doesn't start becoming withdrawn again!

It's really going to be a disaster, a really big problem.

Even if you are truly disappointed by this and start to hate yourself, there is still a chance to salvage the situation. However, a breakdown of the mind is almost incurable. No matter how much effort you put in, you can only offer some possible help.

The boy took a deep breath, and after briefly closing his eyes, a rare look of utter exhaustion and collapse appeared in his deep blue eyes when he opened them again.

I can only act like a villain or a fool, because the current situation simply doesn't allow for any attempt at patient persuasion with gentle words.

"This is beyond what emotions and words can achieve."

"No matter what words are used, they all seem too pale. Someone like me was never able to coordinate everyone's abilities from the very beginning."

"Even though just one person would be enough to exhaust all my energy, I shamelessly and greedily demanded so much love."

"Sorry……"

"I'm really sorry."

"However, if I say it this way, no matter how many times I apologize, no matter how sincerely I express my remorse, I'm afraid it will not satisfy you."

"What you needed from the beginning was not an apology, not politeness that creates distance... intimacy, that's all you needed."

What a girl who fears abandonment needs is never an apology; the politeness of others only creates a barrier. Although this sense of distance is insignificant, it is more frightening than an abyss and more difficult to climb than a mountain for Wilvi, who cannot even take a step forward.

In contrast, even harm involves direct contact, and even coercive or rude demands are still a form of physical intimacy.

Moreover, compared to Wilvi, who was merely afraid of being abandoned, there was a girl who only developed feelings because she saw her lover fall for someone else.

The fairy who has been abandoned twice, abandoned by both humanity and inhumanity, is probably the one who is truly and almost beyond redemption.

Not only were they abandoned when they were human, but even when they were Herrschers in their inhuman form, Herrschers without emotions still chose to leave.

Perhaps at first, it could be explained by incompatibility, but later, when they were just playthings, they reached the cruel point of parting ways, even with their lives. For Alicia, there is probably no other reason than to explain it by her own incompetence and worthlessness.

"so……"

"I will not apologize to you for the time being."

……

His teeth, which were gently biting his side lip, had already drawn a few drops of blood. An instinctive sense of disgust prevented him from uttering such insulting words. Just forming a complete sentence made him feel like vomiting. Yet, the boy could only stare at his lover with as much dissatisfaction as possible, and softly utter his willful, shameless, and capricious words.

"Just consider it a small act of revenge that you only found me now, and dragged things out until I was already in despair and subconsciously denied your existence before belatedly inserting yourself into my life."

"I ask you all to join this 'Flashpa' event."