If we were not married

After dinner, I went back upstairs directly. I didn't want to stay with Gu Binyang.

What kind of repressed emotion directly oppresses me. I'm afraid I can't control my emotions. Go and ask Gu Binyang what kind of existence I am in his heart?

However, I was afraid that Gu Binyang's answer might make me collapse. I didn't have such a good temper.

To bear so many deceptions, but the heart that has been paid has been ruthlessly abandoned again.

Since no one wants it, I'll hide it well.

During this period, Gu Binyang didn't say anything. This was destined to be long. I lay quietly in bed and unconsciously my pillow was wet.

However, my heart is surprisingly calm. There is no Cinderella at this time. If Cinderella's shoes fit, they wouldn't have fallen off at the beginning.

Although the ending of the fairy tale story is beautiful, how many such things happen in real life.

I'm too naive, so I always can't see my identity and always want to find things that don't belong to me.

Now, when I am hurt by love again, I know what a ridiculous thing I thought before.

Obviously, I think I should rest now. Every time I close my eyes, the picture is full of Gu Binyang's shadow.

My mind is also surprisingly clear, but at this time, I can only hide some words in my heart and can't tell anyone what I think now.

I have no friends, and now I can't add any trouble to Xu Lei. I don't have anyone else to say these things from my heart.

Therefore, I can only bear these things by myself, and even if I cry, I can't cry.

Because I'm afraid Gu Binyang will hear me. I don't know what kind of reaction Gu Binyang will have when he hears my cry.

Because I don't dare to think whether Gu Binyang will care about my tears, and I don't want to take my tears to win Gu Binyang's sympathy comfort.

I really don't need it, but I don't have to be so depressed after tomorrow, because I have to go back to my house.

I'll move out tomorrow anyway. I didn't think I had to worry so much in the past.

Now I don't care about here at all. I can't wait to go out of class tonight. At least where is completely my place.

Where can I vent my emotions at will, and don't care about other people's eyes, because no one will see the frustrated me.

For such a long time, Gu Binyang didn't tell me. It seems that he doesn't say anything about his family, but there is no need to say it at all.

I naively thought that it was because Gu Binyang didn't have a good relationship with his family, so I didn't want to go to his family in advance.

It doesn't matter. I can't care about these, because my current ability is not enough. Therefore, I don't think I have the ability to be recognized by his parents.

Therefore, I don't care about anything or ask anything, just because I'm willing to believe that Gu Binyang won't lie to me.

Even when I saw that woman, I thought, maybe Gu Binyang would give me an explanation.

Just after coming back, Gu Binyang still didn't say anything. Has he really regarded me as a fool?

Think I don't care about anything? I am also a human being and a woman who yearns for love. I also have my own ideas.

However, why am I hurt by such love again and again? I can't help myself. Haven't I decided that I can't lose myself again?

If this had not happened, I would not believe that my love for Gu Binyang has reached this level.

But now, obviously Gu Binyang doesn't belong to me, and my love can't continue to give Gu Binyang, but now I can't hate it.

It's because I'm too stupid, so I don't have to blame others. It's all because I see you clearly.

The next day, I got up early and played for the first time. When Gu Binyang got up, we went to the company together.

After I cooked the meal, I didn't have the heart to wait for Gu Binyang here. I didn't have any appetite.

The reason why I cook for Gu Binyang is that I am still Gu Binyang's nanny, so cooking is my accusation.

It's just that I don't want to eat at the same table with Gu Binyang. I feel sick, especially when I think that I'm just when he Gu Binyang finds a substitute.

That feeling became stronger and stronger, so I left immediately and went to the company myself. I should have been used to this for a long time.

Last night, I didn't sleep all night, but now I feel that I have endless strength.

I haven't had such spirit since I came here. I've thoroughly figured out that emotional things are not suitable for me after all, so I'd better stay away from him.

I walk step by step and tell myself that I'm going the right way now. It's all for me to leave Gu Binyang.

I will, like now, step by step out of Gu Binyang's life, and don't look back at Gu Binyang, because I'm tired of it.

Tired of seeing Gu Binyang's face, tired of failure again and again, I have no strength to bear it.

I clearly want to find a place to hide myself, but now I can't do it. If I really do it.

Well, what I lose is not only Gu Binyang, but also my work and my home. I will become the one who has nothing.

Now Gu Binyang is really not worth me to do so many things. A man who has abandoned me will become completely unimportant here.

I'm glad that I know the true image of this thing now, so I still have a chance to forget Gu Binyang.

If, when I can't leave Gu Binyang completely and she comes back, the feeling of blow must be much more important than now.

I've been walking, the phone has been ringing, and I don't have the strength to answer it. Now my only strength is to let myself keep walking along this road.