If we were not married

Gu Binyang patted me on the shoulder while I was vomiting. At the same time, he stood beside me and handed me a thin paper towel with a faint fruit flavor. He quietly asked me, "how's Lin Qi? Do you feel better?"

I sipped my lips, swallowed the bitter water on my lips, and was about to shake my head and say it was all right. I suddenly remembered what Gu's mother said to me in the afternoon. I pushed Gu Binyang away from me and refused the paper towel he gave me. I opened my mouth and said to Gu Binyang, "Oh, I'm all right. Don't be here. I'm fine alone."

"Really?" although Gu Binyang was obviously pushed away by me just now, which made him a little surprised, he quickly adapted and said to me, "Lin Qi, that's my child. I also have a share, so how can I go?"

I know, Gu Binyang didn't expect that I had begun to want to alienate him, so I didn't take his words, but said to Gu Binyang, "well, I want to be quiet now. Can you go out first?"

As soon as I finished, I frowned. I was inexplicably upset about Gu Binyang. The expression on Gu Binyang's face was obviously stunned. He didn't seem to think that his considerate care for me would be pushed away and rejected by me, but he turned his mouth and said to me, "well, I'll be outside. If you have anything, call me."

As soon as Gu Binyang said it, he turned away from behind me. Although I knew that Gu Binyang was kind to me, I didn't accept or refuse his kindness.

After I vomited several more times, I calmed down and left the bathroom here. As soon as I got out of the bathroom, I found Gu Binyang's tall and handsome figure leaning against the sofa in the living room.

I pursed my lips. Although I knew Gu Binyang was waiting for me, I didn't know what to say to him, so I returned to my room and shut myself in my bedroom.

In the evening, when I was lying on my back with a pillow in my arms, there was an urgent knock at the door. I pursed my lips, but I heard Gu Binyang's figure at the door.

"Linqi, Linqi, open the door," I listened. Gu Binyang called my name at the door and said to me.

My heart was inexplicably stunned. Although I knew that my favorite man's voice came from outside my bedroom, I still held my pillow in bed and leaned back.

"I'm already asleep. Please leave first." for a long time, I listened to the knocking outside the door and continued. Although I had deliberately wanted Gu Binyang to leave automatically, Gu Binyang didn't seem to see me. He still didn't die. He knocked at my door and said to me again.

"How about that? You haven't eaten anything at night. I sent you a snack. Open the door." but Gu Binyang's voice still cares about me.

I listened to Gu Binyang's words. What happened today made me feel very tired, so I was unconsciously and inexplicably agitated. I wanted to refuse him, but the sound of Gu Binyang knocking at the door outside the door came for the third time.

"Well," I reluctantly stood up with both hands and went to open the door for Gu Binyang, but I still didn't intend to say anything more, so when I just raised my hand and slightly opened the door, I suddenly saw that Gu Binyang had raised his hand and opened the door I half pushed open more obviously.

"Lin Qi..." I was stunned. When I subconsciously wanted to close the door again, Gu Binyang came in from the outside with a white bowl. He resisted the door, which made it difficult for me to close the door.

I saw that Gu Binyang bit his lip at me in front of me and said, "Lin Qi, what's the matter with you tonight? You don't feel very good. I cooked you some tremella lotus seed soup. Will you try it?"

"Oh," I turned around and nodded to show that I knew it. "Then my body suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, so you go out and let me be alone, okay?"

I bit my lower lip and said to Gu Binyang. As soon as I finished speaking, Gu Binyang suddenly stretched out a pair of white hands and gently put them on my forehead. I felt as if he was touching me, but soon I saw him again and closed his hand to touch his forehead. I realized that he was making sure to see if I had a fever.

"Don't worry, I'll be fine, so you just let me be quiet," I said to Gu Binyang. As soon as I think of the man who appears in front of me now, he will soon not belong to me, and my heart will be inexplicably tangled and painful.

But how can you feel again? Even if you get something that doesn't belong to you, you will lose it. And people live in this life, destined to some people and some things, even if they don't give up, they can only become yesterday.

For example, although I once really thought Gu Binyang was stupid, and Gu Binyang and I were just as stupid, we don't care about the outcome, at least we had it, didn't we?

I whispered and comforted myself quietly in my heart, but I opened my mouth to one side and still didn't want to leave. It seemed that I had something to say to me. Gu Binyang smiled and said, "I'm fine. I'm really fine. Go back to my room first. I'll sleep in my room tonight."

Gu Binyang listened to my words, pursed his lips at me and said: "Lin Qi, my wife, just now, I thought a lot in the living room alone. I think I'm really not good enough. You're obviously pregnant, but I haven't done anything for you. Although I keep saying that I always do it for you, compared with you, I don't do enough."

I nodded, indicating a relaxed face. Although my heart was dripping blood and the tears hidden in my eyes had never disappeared, I turned my lips and said to Gu Binyang, "it doesn't matter. Let's not make it so complicated, okay?"

"Oh, is everything all right?" Gu Binyang was still a little worried about me, but I saw him turn around and return to his room. I thought Gu Binyang left like this, but when I looked at the bowl Gu Binyang left me with tears, it was really filled with tremella lotus seed soup he cooked for me.

Although I had never seen Gu Binyang cook before, he did it himself this time. It was because of me. Although I saw lotus seed soup, it didn't look very delicious, but I was a little sad. When I tasted it, I felt like tears in my heart.