If we were not married

Lingering, I couldn't sleep anyway. I just stayed in bed and looked at the moonlight outside.

"Lin Qi, when did you become so reluctant?"

I know I'm finished. I actually fell in love with Gu Binyang unknowingly. Since this has happened, I can't deny it.

But I don't have the courage to pursue Gu Binyang. He also has an ex who loves you. Now I go to him and say I like you. Isn't that self humiliating.

So, when I haven't sunk too deep, I forget him and clearly see the direct distance between us.

I don't know when I fell asleep. I just remember that it was close to noon when I woke up. Fortunately, Gu Binyang probably drank wine last night. He hasn't got up yet.

In fact, I don't want to see him now. I'm always uncomfortable, especially what happened last night.

I don't know how to face Gu Binyang. He got drunk by himself, but I'm still awake. He can say he doesn't remember anything the next day.

But when I saw Gu Binyang, I couldn't help being nervous. I didn't want to see him, but seeing him was inevitable.

Therefore, what I have to do now is to live in my own heart, so that I can not be too sad in the future.

Dong Dong Dong.

"Come in."

Until noon, Gu Binyang hasn't come down yet. I think he drank a lot of wine yesterday, so I'm a little worried to come up and have a look.

I didn't go in until there was a voice inside. Gu Binyang sat up, but his voice was a little hoarse and his face was a little redder than usual.

Maybe it's because I drank wine. Now I still feel a little uncomfortable when I see Gu Binyang. I can't tell what my mood is now.

"The meal is ready. Come down and eat."

I tried to speak calmly. I was afraid that my voice would reveal my mood. I was afraid that Gu Binyang would find something wrong with me. It seems that he doesn't remember everything yesterday.

That's good. It saves us from being embarrassed when we see each other in the future. I'll try to forget what happened last night. It's just a dream.

"Well, you go down first."

"Oh, good."

It's really ironic. This is the second time I've come to Binyang's room, but I've never had a good look here. Last night, I almost ran away and didn't want to take another second here.

Today, I dare not look here. I try to lower my head and reduce my sense of existence. Only in this way can I feel at ease and don't think about it.

I don't dare to see the expression on Gu Binyang's face now, but since he asked me to go first, I'll go. Last night, I had thought about it. I only have one identity, that is, her employee. If there are other identities, it may be her nanny.

I put it in advance, but now I still have no appetite. I doubt Gu Binyang was intentional.

Before I have to eat, I say some strange words or do something. Is it just jealous that I eat too much, so I do it on purpose.

But I was influenced by him once. When I knew about Qi Jia and Wang Keke in the past, I didn't want to be so sad now.

I almost look down on myself. I look down on my weakness. I can't let go of my own. I even look down on my other feelings for Gu Binyang.

This thing, which is not allowed, all happened to me, but Gu Binyang's body is like magic, so you can't help believing in him and getting close to him.

However, he is the most poisonous poison. Once he is contaminated with a little, he will die. If I hadn't heard Gu Binyang call another woman's name last night, maybe I would really think I was different in Gu Binyang's heart.

However, now in front of the living reality, I have to admit that I am nothing in Gu Binyang's heart. He has always loved others, but pity me. Maybe he is so good to every woman.

"What did you do?"

When I was immersed in my imagination and couldn't extricate myself, Gu Binyang suddenly walked down and pulled back my thoughts.

"Well, I simply did a little."

I suddenly felt at a loss. I didn't know what expression I should have to face Gu Binyang now. I could only squeeze out a smile.

Just this smile even I feel false, but now I really don't know how to face him. I say it can be completely forgotten.

But when you really do it, you really find that it is so difficult. You can't forget yesterday, especially when you see Gu Binyang.

Fortunately, Gu Binyang doesn't seem very comfortable. He should have been uncomfortable after drinking so much wine yesterday. I don't know when he would wake up without my bowl of sobering soup.

Just like this, he doesn't have time to pay attention to me. I can also have enough time to adjust my mood and face him in my best state.

Originally, when I stayed with him, I had fewer words. Now I don't know what to say. Even when I eat, I keep my head down for fear of seeing him.

"What's the matter with you?"

Maybe Gu Binyang sensitively found something wrong with my mood, so he asked this question, but now what I'm afraid of is Gu Binyang asking me questions.

"No, nothing."

I tried to eat the rice in the bowl. I didn't even dare to lift my head. I looked very hungry. In fact, I wanted to ask Gu Binyang why he wasn't with the person he liked.

Looking at his appearance last night, he should like that woman very much. In the past, some people in the company said that Gu Binyang once went abroad to find his ex girlfriend.

But why did Gu Binyang come back alone, his ex girlfriend? I don't think anyone in the world can refuse Gu Binyang.

What happened to them? I'm curious now. But even if I'm curious, I can't ask these questions.

I don't know what qualifications I have to ask Gu Binyang this question. What can I do if I ask.