I loaded the dream game

Fear comes from the unknown, while despair comes from knowing the current situation.

It is precisely because we clearly know that we are powerless to change that we feel despair.

only……

The girl hugged her knees gently.

Classmates and teachers don’t matter. I can adapt to the modern living environment I’m used to. But as long as I think about the possibility that I may never see that person again in my life, my only “family”…

"That kind of thing... I don't want it..." She buried her face in her knees, hugged her legs and murmured helplessly.

"To be precise, it was one thousand three hundred years ago." Xia Zhi corrected at the side.

What difference does the difference of two or three hundred years make?

The girl, who was immersed in her own emotions, raised her head and looked at him unhappily.

"Moreover, time is not constant and cannot be crossed... The theory of relativity tells us that as long as you accelerate to a speed close to the speed of light, go out to 220 and make a circle back, you can go to the future thousands of years later."

Xia Zhi kindly suggested a feasible method for the girl.

Is that any different than not being able to do it?

Xiao Xiazhi felt a little annoyed. Does this person even know how to comfort others?

However, it must be said that after the boy's interruption, her depressed mood did dissipate a lot.

Knowing that the other party had good intentions, she didn't say anything more. She just turned around sullenly and looked at the quietly flowing stream, sulking alone.

"Are you homesick?" Seeing her unhappy look, Xia Zhi asked.

Xiao Xiazhi hesitated for a moment and nodded slightly.

As if to relieve her inner boredom, or simply to confide something, she opened her mouth slightly and said softly: "I...actually I have a brother."

"Yeah." Xia Zhi immediately became interested when he heard the girl mention him. He nodded and continued talking without interrupting her.

“I don’t have a very good relationship with him.”

"Uh-huh."

"He always thought I hated him."

"Hmm...hmm?" Xia Zhi was slightly stunned.

The girl ignored him, as if immersed in her own memories. She hugged her legs tightly, looked at the reflection of the moon swaying slightly in the water, and continued softly:

"It's no wonder. After all, I was so cold to him. I never called him brother and ignored him. As soon as I got home, I hid in my room as if I was deliberately avoiding him. I didn't say a few words to him all day long..."

So... isn't this still annoying?

A question mark popped up in Xia Zhi’s head.

"Of course not, how could I hate him..." The girl buried half of her face in her arms and said sullenly, "I just... don't know how to face him..."

"..."

"At the beginning, I was in a bad mood because of some things. I didn't want such emotions to affect him who had nothing to do with the matter, so I chose to avoid him deliberately... In addition, I am relatively introverted, I didn't know how to talk to him, and I was embarrassed to take the initiative to speak, so it became like this unconsciously..."

Summer Solstice: "..."

Facing his strange gaze, the girl blushed and shouted in embarrassment: "I know it's my problem, but I'm just shy, timid, weak and useless. What can I do?"

You don't look introverted at all in your current state, Xia Zhi complained in his heart.

"I know he cares about me and gets up early every day to prepare breakfast for me. I know he cares about me and even though he is not good at cooking, he forces himself to learn and practice. So even if the food he cooks is terrible, I never say anything."

There were a few black lines on Xia Zhi's forehead.

I'm really sorry for forcing you to eat those unpalatable dishes.

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The girl's voice dropped. "I know he's clumsy and has been cut and burned many times. I feel bad for him, but I'm too embarrassed to ask..."

"I was really angry when I heard those people around me say bad things about him, and I was even angrier when I saw that he chose not to refute the theory for my sake... I know it's all because of me..."

"So, how could I possibly hate him..."

What she hated was just the weak and cowardly self who didn't dare to take the first step.

The girl looked at the stream flowing peacefully in front of her and thought gloomily.

"After all, he is my only family..."

But, I may never see him again...

The girl thought silently, then shook her head slightly.

...Forget it, why should I say so much to him?

Maybe it’s because he is so similar to his brother in many ways, and I unconsciously want to confide in him.

But, they are not the same person, so...

"I'm really relieved that you think so."

Just as she was thinking this, she suddenly felt a warm hand gently placed on her head, and the boy's soft voice with a smile came to her ears.

"After all, I was thinking about running away from home because I felt that you hated me."

"...Huh?" The girl was slightly stunned, a trace of confusion in her eyes.

What is this person... talking about? What does your running away from home have to do with me?

……etc?

She couldn't help but widen her eyes slightly.

"Although it may be a little late, let me introduce myself anyway... My last name is Xia Zhi, but Xia Zhi, you should call me brother." Xia Zhi said after thinking for a while.

"...Brother...Brother?" Xiao Xia Zhi didn't quite believe it. Her slightly trembling eyes and words revealed her inner trembling at the moment.

She remembered that she should have never mentioned her brother and her own name to him...

and so……

"I feel a little sad... We have lived together for so many days, and you have eaten the food I cooked for so long, but you didn't recognize me?" Xia Zhi continued to rub her little head, pretending to be depressed and said...

Xiao Xiazhi: "..."

Indeed, the food with that flavor was unique in her memory. Coupled with some small daily living habits and that familiar appearance, she had actually had some guesses in her heart a long time ago, so she became so close to him unconsciously. It was just because it was too unbelievable that she dared not confirm it in the end.

But since he admitted it himself, does that mean he is really his brother?

"..."

The girl's body trembled slightly.

"……quick……"

"Huh? What?"

Seeing that she lowered her head and seemed to be saying something, Xia Zhi moved closer and asked curiously.

"Forget it!" Xiao Xiazhi raised her head and shouted at him with a red face.

That kind of thing, she didn't want anyone to know, let alone be heard by the person herself... When she thought of what she had just said, she felt like she was about to die of shame.

"Even if you say so..."

"I don't care! I don't care!" The girl shook her head vigorously, closed her eyes and rushed forward, but the boy held her head and supported her body. She could only wave her two little hands around and tried to hit his chest.

"Forget it, forget it, forget it!" she shouted with a red face.

I'm really sorry, but modifying memory and consciousness is one of the few things I don't want to do. If I really want to lose my memory, I guess I can only try to use physical amnesia, right?

Xia Zhi thought about it, sighed slightly, and gently embraced the girl in his arms.

Xiao Xiazhi's body trembled slightly, she lowered her head and stopped struggling, but with a red face, she quietly put her head on the boy's chest and also gently hugged his body.

"...Why... didn't you tell me earlier?" She asked in a muffled voice after a long time.

"Haven't I been wanting to tell you this for a long time? 3.2"

You just didn't want to believe it at the time, right? Xia Zhi thought to himself.

"Can't you just hold on a little longer?"

Although this is the case, it can’t be entirely my fault, right?

"That's your problem!" The girl raised her head and stared at him with dissatisfaction.

"Yes, yes~" Xia Zhi rubbed her head and said lovingly.

Feeling the gentle touch on her head, the girl pursed her lips and lowered her head again.

"How about calling me brother again?" Xia Zhi asked curiously, looking at the girl lying quietly in his arms.

"Never."

"Why? Didn't you just call me that?"

"Just don't."

Well, if you don't want to, forget it.

Xia Zhi thought with some regret.

In fact, he really wanted to hear Xia Zhi calling him brother at this time.

Seeing his somewhat depressed expression, Xiao Xiazhi secretly stuck out her tongue and gently leaned her head against his chest. She felt that all the previous uneasiness and worries disappeared at this moment.

elder brother……

She pursed her lips and murmured softly in her heart...

.......

Chapter 463: The Diary That Should Not Exist

In the dim room, the girl was sitting alone on the bed with her legs hugged.

There was a clear knock on the door downstairs, and a faint voice that seemed to be calling her name, but she didn't want to pay attention to it.

She didn't know how much time had passed outside. The blackout curtains were drawn so that no sunlight could be seen in the room. She was too lazy to check the alarm clock. She hadn't checked her phone for a long time. Some time ago, it would occasionally ring with message reminders, but she didn't know when it started to stop ringing. It was completely quiet. It was probably because the battery ran out and it turned off automatically.

Although she felt a little sorry for the classmates who cared about her, she just didn't have the mood to pay attention to them...or rather, even this feeling of apology didn't matter anymore.

That sunny, lively, considerate, gentle and lovable Xia Zhi originally existed because of her brother. Now that he is gone, it’s not strange for her to return to her original appearance, right?

"..."

The noise downstairs had stopped, as if the people outside had finally given up and left, and the house was once again silent.

Xia Zhi was still indifferent to this... She knew that she must look terrible now. She hadn't taken care of her hair for several days, her diet was very irregular, and she didn't get a good rest every day...

If her brother saw her like this, she would definitely get scolded, right? She thought to herself.

but……

"It would be nice if I could be scolded..." She hugged her legs tightly, buried half of her face in her knees, and murmured in a muffled voice.

In recent times, she has exhausted all methods, tried all means, and went to all possible places, but she can't find anything, even the slightest bit, related to her brother.

Whether it was the words of the people around her or the disappearance of the traces at home, they all seemed to remind her that the boy in her memory had never existed.

There were several times when Xia Zhi herself doubted whether it was really her problem, but she quickly suppressed such thoughts.

If even I deny the boy, doesn't that mean he has never existed?

That kind of thing...never.

But what else can I do?

A trace of confusion appeared in Xia Zhi's eyes.

If it was simply missing, there would still be a glimmer of hope and expectation in finding it, but if even traces of the past no longer exist, where should I start looking?

If only there were someone or something other than myself who could remember my brother, it would at least prove that his existence was not just my imagination...

"The past... records... prove..."

Xia Zhi murmured softly, the confusion in her eyes gradually dissipating.