Re:Zero - Starting from Zero (Natsuki Subaru)

Emilia... why does she suddenly seem so strange?

Natsuki Subaru took a few deep breaths, and when he opened his eyes again, he found that everyone in the room was looking at him with an extremely strange and complicated expression.

"Huh? Everyone? What's wrong?"

The shadow of Otto's hat obscured the expression on his face.

"Mr. Natsuki...you..."

Julius wore an expression of disbelief and heartache.

"Subaru... I didn't expect this..."

After witnessing all this, Garfield, who was known for his fiery temper, was left with only silence and fear.

The hint of despair emanating from the sky made it hard for the 15-year-old boy to breathe.

Even though General Ming is only an 18-year-old boy.

Why did the general have to go through all of this?

"general……!"

Garfield gritted his teeth.

Ram's expression was extremely gloomy, even terrifying.

"Rem...! That damned Witch Cult!"

"Barus...you've been through so much, it must have been tough for you too, thank you for everything..."

Dona seemed to have just snapped out of the image in the sky, panting heavily.

"Ha...ha...ha...Are you kidding me? What's going on? How...how could any human being possibly bear all this?"

Dona's gaze towards Subaru Natsuki completely changed; it was the look of someone staring at a monster.

It's no wonder Dona was so shocked.

After all, it's not something you can truly experience.

What the sky revealed was less than 1% of the pain Subaru Natsuki endured at that time.

This alone was enough to make the people watching the sky unbearable.

"How is this possible?... I'm starting to doubt whether you're even human anymore, big brother..."

Mary's tone was filled with deep fear.

"Subaru..." Beatrice looked at Natsuki Subaru with sad eyes.

Beatrice finally understood why Subaru Natsuki would hurt her from time to time, and why he would hurt her in that way.

He would scratch his arms until they bled, always showing a pained expression.

Beatrice only now realized that after all that had happened, Subaru Natsuki was already incredibly powerful for merely engaging in self-harm.

Beatrice dares to say that 99.9% of humans don't have Subaru Natsuki's strong mental fortitude.

They certainly won't be like Subaru Natsuki, whose mental defenses are shattered but who can quickly regain their spirits.

That's why Beatrice felt even more sorry for Subaru Natsuki.

Why did all of this have to happen to him?

He's just an ordinary person, why do you have to impose these things on him?

If the sky were to fall, let the tall ones hold it up.

Why force an ordinary person to become that towering hero?

Beatrice thought, if only Natsuki Subaru could live his whole life as a carefree ordinary person.

Saving others, killing Witch Cult members, slaying the White Whale, facing enemies, liberating the Sanctuary, saving Watergate City...

These things can all be left to stronger people, why force an ordinary person!

Speaking of which...

Subaru Natsuki is not from this world.

Subaru's parents, who are in another world, must also be very worried about him and miss him very much.

Similarly, Subaru Natsuki must also miss his hometown very much.

A child who is pampered in another world.

They were forcibly and inexplicably transferred to this world.

And they suffered so much in this world.

Even Beatrice couldn't stand it anymore. What right did they have to do this?!

Why should Subaru Natsuki have to go through all this?

Beatrice tried her best to control her emotions so as not to worry Subaru Natsuki.

Moreover, when Beatrice saw that Rem was willing to go to such lengths for Subaru Natsuki, all her previous resentment towards Rem completely dissipated.

Beatrice's previous resentment towards Rem completely dissipated.

Although Rem did indeed cruelly kill Subaru Natsuki several times before.

but……

The good outweighs the bad.

Furthermore, Beatrice no longer wanted to be prejudiced against her companions, especially Subaru Natsuki's companions.

That's not what Subaru Natsuki wanted to see.

The perceptive Subaru Natsuki noticed Beatrice's change in mood.

Natsuki Subaru gently tugged at Beatrice's two spiral twin tails.

"Betsuko, don't keep looking so gloomy!"

"And everyone else, why do you all have such a sour face?"

……

Xia Wula remained silent, squatting in the corner with her head down as if deep in thought.

His expression shifted between anger and ferocity, calmness, confusion, and sadness.

"Master... Master... Master..."

Xia Wula murmured to herself, now fully realizing that her master was just an ordinary person with the ability to return from death.

If that's the case...

When Master approached the Tower of Sages earlier, did he also...?

Xia Wula fell silent; she dared not think any further.

Meili quickly went to Xiawula's side and tugged at Xiawula's braid.

Xia Wula looked at Meili with displeasure.

"Half-naked older sister, don't make that face. It'll only worry Subaru Natsuki, won't it?"

"Merry said."

Shaula glanced at Subaru Natsuki, who was looking at her with concern.

Natsuki Subaru seemed to be organizing his thoughts. After all, compared to his long-time friends, Natsuki Subaru didn't know Shaula very well, and for a moment he really didn't know how to comfort Shaula.

"Shawula..."

Xia Wula saw the look in her master's eyes, a look of worry directed at her.

Xia Wula instantly perked up, stood up from the ground, and waved energetically.

"I'm alright, Master!"

……

Why...?

"How can you, after experiencing all that pain... still smile and comfort everyone?"

Rem whispered.

Natsuki Subaru deliberately put on a thoughtful expression.

"Perhaps it's because all of this is in the past for me... no, because my memories haven't fully returned, so these things are like they never happened to me?"

Natsuki Subaru's heartbeat quickened.

That was close! I almost let it slip!

"That's why I can talk like this without feeling the pain."

Subaru shrugged.

Then Subaru looked at Rem.

"I'm sorry, Rem, it's because of me that you..."

"No, Subaru doesn't need to apologize." Rem shook her head, interrupting Natsuki Subaru.

"If anyone should apologize, it should be Rem."

"Rem only regrets that she was too weak back then, that she couldn't protect Subaru, that Subaru died in the end, and that Subaru suffered so much in the end."

Natsuki Subaru chuckled softly.

"They're all a bunch of idiots." Natsuki Subaru's voice was very soft, only he could hear it.

"I'm an idiot too."

……

Priscilla: This is truly hopeless. Although Subaru Natsuki is in a terrible state right now, I believe he is someone who can find a path to hope even in such despair.

[Felix: Oh my god... Did Subaru really experience something like this, a scene straight out of hell?]

Felix: Is the ability to return from death a blessing or a curse...?

Echidna: ...I want to see something else.

Crusch: Subaru...you are truly a powerful person.

[Felt: Huh??? Does this world even treat Subaru like a human being?]

[Mimi: Wow! That's scary! Big brother must be working so hard!]

Petra: Subaru-sama... why does such a good man like Subaru have to endure so much pain and torment?!

[Reinhard: Subaru... just how much suffering have you endured...?]

[Roswaal: Subaru really has a strong mental fortitude~]

Wilhelm: I admire Subaru more and more... He has managed to stay true to himself and come this far after experiencing so much despair and pain.

Wilhelm: How rare, how magnificent...

[Gluttony - Subaru Natsuki: Ahahaha! So that's how it is, so that's what Subaru Natsuki is like!]

[Gluttony Natsuki Subaru: I feel like I'm almost there, almost there is the hero Natsuki Subaru! When "Natsuki Subaru" returns, everything can be salvaged!]

[Angry Natsuki Subaru: ...What...? Huh... How is this possible...?]

[Sloth Natsuki Subaru: I'm sorry, Rem, if I had realized sooner that I was just a useless ordinary person, and taken you away sooner, you wouldn't be like this now...]

[Arrogant Natsuki Subaru:? 】

[Desire Natsuki Subaru:...Echidna...! 】

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