Re:Zero - Starting from Zero (Natsuki Subaru)

Rem could sense that Ram was in danger.

Crusch also indicated that something dangerous seemed to have happened near Roswaal's territory.

A portion of Roswaal's territory has been placed under martial law.

Natsuki Subaru never expected that such a short time after he was separated from Emilia, an accident would occur there.

Why is this happening?

Crusch was not surprised.

On the contrary, Crusch even guessed that Roswaal's territory might be in danger.

After all, in this world and in this country, everyone knows that the Witch of Envy is a half-elf.

In addition, Emilia's appearance and identity are too similar to those of the Witch of Envy.

Therefore, from the moment Roswaal announced his support for Emilia, being targeted was inevitable.

Subaru Natsuki gritted his teeth slightly.

"They just broke up, and this happened already?"

"The only one who can save her... is me."

Subaru Natsuki's lips curled up slightly.

Since arriving in the royal city, Subaru Natsuki's mindset and thoughts have been strange.

A crisis has arisen on Roswaal's side.

Natsuki Subaru believed his chance had come.

By returning from the dead, he turns the tide, saves everyone, and reverses all previous failures.

…………

Natsuki Subaru, inside the Tower of Sages, couldn't help but cover his forehead. Looking back now, he could honestly admit it.

At that time, he desperately wanted to prove himself.

To prove that I am not weak, to prove that only I can do everything.

Natsuki Subaru recalled the shameful, pathetic, and laughable thoughts that had previously occupied his mind.

This crisis has given me the opportunity to show my skills.

Natsuki Subaru had to admit that during that period, he encountered setbacks everywhere, which caused his arrogance and inferiority complex to become intertwined, and his mind became somewhat twisted.

"So it's because all the enemies before this could be dealt with using the 'Return by Death' method?"

"However, back in the royal city, if I relied solely on my own strength, solely on returning from death, I probably wouldn't have been able to solve the problems of Sloth and the White Whale even if I died a thousand times..."

Natsuki Subaru only now realizes that he was indeed forced to grow up a lot back then.

He was forced to admit that he wasn't a special hero, but a weak, ordinary person who needed help from others.

I've come to understand that love is unconditional.

How ridiculous it was that he used his one-sided, self-serving sacrifices for Emilia to blackmail her feelings.

This transforms Subaru Natsuki from someone who acts strong and never shows any vulnerability to someone who is willing to admit his vulnerability to those around him.

This led Subaru Natsuki, who was so arrogant at the time that he looked down on all the rules of the world, to choose to understand the meaning of the rules.

Although that period was painful, it also transformed Natsuki Subaru from a…

A delusional teenager who thought that as long as he risked his life and relied on death to return, he could solve everything.

He grew into an ordinary person who is "willing to admit his incompetence, humbly ask for help, and not to blackmail others out of love."

Although Natsuki Subaru was somewhat exasperated by his past self, he couldn't help but sigh that it was indeed the kind of unforgettable pain that made people grow the fastest.

Emilia's gentle eyes held a hint of worry.

"Subaru... I know your memories only extend this far... This is definitely a part of your past that you don't want to face. If you don't want to see it, then don't!"

"Don't worry, at that time, I really didn't know anything. I was completely unaware of Subaru's sacrifices and the pain he endured... That's why I acted that way..."

"I'm sorry, Subaru." Emilia looked apologetic and guilty.

"It's alright, Emilia, I was wrong back then."

I was the one who chose to help you and make sacrifices for you, but in the end, I used my selfless devotion to blackmail your feelings.

"I was so ugly back then."

Natsuki Subaru scratched his face somewhat awkwardly.

"Subaru, your expression is calmer than I expected."

Beatrice, sitting on Subaru's lap, looked up at Subaru's face.

"Oh? Really? I think if I don't try my best to control myself, my expression will definitely look terrible, right?"

Subaru shrugged.

Natsuki Subaru's expression was much calmer than expected.

If Subaru Natsuki's memories only extend back to this period, then he couldn't possibly be so calm, right?

Beatrice has begun to suspect that Subaru Natsuki has regained more of his memories, but she chooses to keep it from everyone.

However, Beatrice didn't bring it up herself.

Since Subaru made this choice, he must have his reasons.

Betty just needs to support Subaru.

……

The sky curtain.

Natsuki Subaru smiled confidently, then stood up from the sofa.

"In that case, we should go back and save them!"

Rem quickly spoke up to stop him.

"Wait, Subaru, we must follow Lady Emilia's instructions."

"Subaru should stay here and get proper treatment. Rem thinks so too!"

Rem anxiously grabbed the hem of Subaru Natsuki's clothes.

"Rem, we're the only ones who can help Emilia and the others."

Subaru Natsuki said firmly.

Rem was also worried about Ram, who was also in Roswaal's territory.

Rem wanted to rush back, but right now, Roswaal's situation was fraught with danger.

Rem desperately didn't want her hero, Subaru Natsuki, to be in danger.

Subaru Natsuki told Crusch that he wanted to leave and return to Roswaal's mansion.

Crusch interrupted Subaru Natsuki.

"Lord Subaru Natsuki, once I leave this place, you will be my enemy."

Crusch explained that the reason she kept Subaru Natsuki in the mansion and provided him with treatment was because of the existence of the contract.

Emilia paid a price by signing a contract with Crusch, which obligated Crusch to do this.

Crusch's words seemed to be a reminder to Subaru Natsuki.

Everything that Natsuki Subaru is enjoying right now comes at a price; it's not something he got for free.

"If you leave here now, even if it violates the contract, Emilia and I will naturally be considered enemies."

Crusch said this.

What were perfectly normal words were, in Subaru Natsuki's eyes now, a blatant declaration of war, a blatant attempt to hinder him from saving Emilia at this critical moment.

Natsuki Subaru's eyes flashed with hostility: "I originally thought that if it were you, we could get along peacefully."

"Yeah, that was just a joke at the dinner table, right?"

"I was so stupid to accept the enemy's suggestion."

"If I rush back now to save Emilia and the others, you'll be in a lot of trouble, which is why you don't want me to go, right?"

Natsuki Subaru's words were so offensive that even Felix, who was standing nearby, couldn't stand it and spoke up with a hint of anger.

"Please don't misunderstand, meow."

"Because even if you go, the situation won't change because of you; going won't make a difference!"

"Don't you understand what you went through in the royal city? You were beaten so badly and looked so pathetic by Julius, and now you still want to go back? Staying here to receive treatment was the best choice you could have made."