The Secret of Second Marriage

My name is Jiang Man, and I am a housewife.

After giving birth to my daughter, my husband and I had almost no sex life.

I tried to contact him several times, but he always made excuses and refused to touch me. I suspect he has a problem in that area.

During the day, when he wasn't home, I secretly went to the study to check.

One time, I accidentally found used toilet paper in the trash can in the study. I also found some adult films on his computer that only adults could understand.

It turns out he also has physiological needs.

During that time, I did skincare and beauty treatments and dressed myself up to look especially beautiful in an attempt to attract his attention.

When my husband comes home from his business trip, we'll feel like we're reunited after a long separation.

I am very happy.

After taking a shower, I noticed that my waist was a bit thick, and the marks left from childbirth were quite noticeable.

But my skin is much fairer, and my figure is much fuller.

Although she may not be as captivating as she was before having children, she can still be incredibly charming.

After I finished showering, I drank some red wine, put on some light makeup, changed into a black lace camisole nightgown, tiptoed to the study, hugged him from behind, and affectionately called out, "Husband~".

My husband stiffened for a moment and said, "Honey, I'm not in the mood today."

I couldn't help but complain, "Honey, don't you love me anymore?"

My husband actually said, "I've worked all day, I really don't have the energy for that kind of thing."

The air suddenly froze.

Is it still the same husband who used to say he loved and cherished me? Who did I have the child for? I've already made a sacrifice. Did I really want this?

I had dressed up carefully, looking forward to a great night, but I was rejected so hastily.

My tears dripped down like a string of broken beads.

My husband's name is Xue Fan, and he is a mid-level manager at a financial company.

He often travels for work and comes home less and less often, so we gradually have nothing in common to talk about.

I feel that sometimes the way he looks at me is perfunctory, without any desire, just like looking at a cabbage or a glass of water.

But I'm only in my early thirties, the age when I'm still very sexually active. I still experience physical desires from time to time.

Sometimes I have erotic dreams.

In my dream, I could even hear my own moans, but I couldn't see the man's face clearly.

But when you wake up, you'll always find tears on your pillow.

Isn't it ridiculous? I'm a married woman, yet I'm living a life of loneliness in an empty house.

To resolve my unfulfilled desires.

I even ordered toys, wrapped them tightly in newspaper and hid them in the closet. Then, when my husband wasn't home, I would play with them by myself in the bedroom late at night.

But I quickly lost interest.

Because those little trinkets simply cannot fill the void in my emotions.

Not long after, they threw those things away.

I don't want to deceive myself, and I'm also afraid that if my daughter or husband comes home and finds those little things, they'll think I'm a promiscuous woman.

I gradually developed feelings of inferiority in my marriage.

Until Valentine's Day, I found a delivery box in his car.

When I opened it, it was a high-end skincare product my husband had bought—a black bandage that cost over 3000 yuan.

But he said it wasn't for me, it was for a client.

What kind of clients need to receive such expensive high-end cosmetics as gifts?

I suddenly had a feeling that he must have bought it for another woman, which is why he spent so much money.

His unusual behavior caught my attention.

I started secretly following him while I was picking my daughter up from school.

It wasn't until I saw him with my own eyes going out to eat with a woman, and his hand was on her waist.

The woman looked very young, only in her early twenties, dressed in designer clothes, and exuded a pure, innocent charm.

I was completely stunned. I always thought he was a good man. Now I know he'd betrayed me and had a mistress?

I didn't rush up to tear at them or question them, because I was stupid at the time.

My husband didn't see me looking like I'd fallen into an ice cave in the distance. After they finished eating, they held hands and cuddled together, chatting and laughing, and were incredibly intimate.

That image was like a sharp knife constantly stabbing into my heart.

I saw with my own eyes the two of them get into my husband's expensive Mercedes after finishing their meal. My heart is shattered...

That day, I almost don't know how I got home.

When my husband came home, I didn't know whether I should ask or not, and if I did, how would things end? I felt terrible for several days.

I stood by him from scratch. We didn't have you when we got married, and we didn't have a wedding house. We've struggled to get to where we are today.

So this incident hit me like a devastating betrayal.

I just can't understand it. How could a mature, stable, and family-oriented man like him do something like this? If even he isn't loyal, what else in this world can I trust?

From that day on, I began to observe him intentionally.

I discovered that my husband goes on a business trip every month, and I have no idea where he goes.

He always had a faint scent of jasmine perfume on him, and once, there was even lipstick smudged on his shirt collar.

I asked him why he had lipstick on him.

He said it was because your colleague bumped into him and accidentally brushed against his clothes, and told me not to overthink it.

Moreover, he manages all the money he earns himself. Apart from the 5000 yuan living expenses he gives me every month, I have no idea how much money he has.

I felt a chill run down my spine and decided not to alert them for the time being.

This morning, as usual, after my husband finished breakfast, he took 5000 yuan out of his briefcase and gave it to me, saying, "Honey, this is for this month's household expenses. I'm going to work now."

"Honey, our expenses are pretty high this month, can you give me 1?"

I said it suddenly.

My husband was taken aback, because I've always been frugal and have never asked him for more money.

My husband gave me 5000 yuan in cash.

I added, "We've been married for so many years, and I haven't bought myself any jewelry. Can you give me a bank card? I want to go shopping with my best friend today."

"Honey, don't you dislike shopping?"

My husband seemed a little reluctant.

I asked him directly, "What woman doesn't like shopping? You're never home with me, are you even stingy with your money? Do you have another woman on the side?"

"Nonsense, I don't have any other women outside of my marriage!"

My husband gave me a supplementary credit card and said, "You can use this card."

After giving me his credit card, he couldn't wait to go to work.

It seems he really felt guilty.

After dropping my daughter off at school, I gritted my teeth and went to the mall to buy myself some gold and silver jewelry. I also made an appointment with my best friend to get a yearly membership at a high-end beauty salon.

Throughout my marriage, I have always been very frugal. I pay off the mortgage and car loan, and buy the most expensive clothes for my daughter's schooling, but I am reluctant to spend money on myself.

I was still wearing an old sweater from a few years ago, and my hair was unkempt. To make housework easier, I just tied it up with a hair tie. I spent all day washing clothes, cooking, and mopping the floor.

I've almost forgotten that I used to be a stylish, elegant urban woman who would often go to the movies, have afternoon tea, and eat hot pot with my girlfriends.

My best friend Juan said to me, "Man, you need to go out and spend money. Don't stay at home all day like a haggard housewife. Men may not care about us, but we women need to know how to love ourselves."

I nodded.

My best friend and I enjoyed a spa massage from a beautician.

My best friend suddenly asked, "What are you wearing to the class reunion tonight?"

"What class reunion?"

I was a little surprised to hear that.

My best friend Juan said, "So you didn't know? Didn't your boss, Mr. Xue, tell you?"