Jobless Reincarnation: The King with a Mental Problem

The chat we just had was really scary. I was held tightly in Luo Qixi's arms and didn't dare to move at all...

But being supported by someone you like always gives you courage.

After taking a deep breath, I held Luo Qixi's hand, which was around me, and was about to start dumping my trash on the person I liked...

Those words had been bottled up in my chest for so long, and now that they were about to spill out, I didn't know which pile to pour out first.

The witch didn't urge me either.

Her fingers slowly combed through my hair, one stroke at a time, very gently.

"At that time... after landing with you and seeing that you were safe, I should have been happy. But... seeing your beaming face, I was really angry..."

Just like you said before...

You have everything I cherish, yet you leave it aside and still come to get in my way...

I paused here, my fingers unconsciously clenching the blanket beneath me.

Because what follows are the truly nasty things...

"Back then... I didn't want to say a word to you because I was afraid you would lie to me with some excuse. I knew you were just blinded by love and did things without thinking carefully. You just gave yourself a reasonable excuse to do those irresponsible and dangerous things."

I am angry.

I'm angry at you for being so immature. Is dating really that important?

Then I remembered the last time we wrote to each other, you were still rejecting me. But this time, I was just playing along with your game of hero saving the damsel in distress, and you turned out like this.

Then I realized, you're so casual...

Then I started to doubt myself again, wondering why I would fall for someone like you?

How long have we actually spent together?

What exactly do I like about you?

Is it because you're good-looking?

This terrifies me...

Because this makes me too...

Because I want my lover to be the person she is, not just someone whose appearance is pretty.

This makes me feel disgusted.

Moreover, our relationship is like having a button that, once pressed, makes the other person fall in love with you.

I just happened to press that button.

But what exactly do you like?

Is it just that I like the act of pressing that button?

This is so fake, and so disgusting...

Even if you believe you like me, and everyone else thinks so too, I can't fool myself.

"Trevor..."

Her voice was soft, but she didn't interrupt me; she just hugged me tighter from behind.

The person you like isn't the real me...

This is where I'm truly heartbroken...

She didn't reply, but simply rested her forehead against the back of my head.

"That button for a hero to save the damsel in distress is not a beautiful story, but a vicious curse."

For you, it's manipulation, guidance, and distortion; for me, it's desire and control...

In any case, this is not love...

But I'm a pure lover...

But what exactly went wrong?

My first thought is: Isn't what I like the complete you?

But no one's feelings start out as deep love; feelings need to be cultivated slowly. How long have we been together in total?

Then another reason came to mind: the real reason...

It must be that I can't accept that what you like is my [king] mask, right?

What I hope is that the person who likes me can accept me, accept everything about me... even my dirty and unsightly parts.

But I dare not...

But......

Hearing you cry last night broke my heart...

I like you......

I don't want you to cry...

But what should I do?

The only way I can think of is to spend more time with you, hoping to spend more time together and have more long-term companionship so that you can fall in love with the real me.

But......

This is wrong...

The main task now is Senis...

But I...

"Yet I'm so lowly, snuggling up with you..."

I was completely speechless when I got to this point.

My eyes are very sore.

I didn't wipe it, because her hand had already reached out and gently touched the corner of my eye with her knuckles.

Her hands were cold, as if they had just been pulled out of the night wind.

As I poured out my heart, my grip on Luo Qixi's hand tightened unconsciously. Then, realizing I might hurt her with my strength, I quickly released her...

She didn't speak immediately.

The only sounds in the air were the wind blowing across the lake and the occasional chirping of some unknown bird in the distance.

Then, Luo Qixi's helpless sigh came from behind.

Then those hands, which I had gripped until they turned white, moved to my white hair...

"You...you really have a sharp tongue..."

"Yes, that's the kind of person I am. When I was learning swordsmanship at the Holy Land of Swords, I could make people cry just by talking."

"Actually, I almost cried because of your scolding..."

"sorry......"

"I should be the one apologizing... I always used to say you only cared about yourself, but I did the same thing back then..."

I...I won't do that again...

"...So what exactly is our relationship?"

"Didn't we say before? Let's just be like older sister and younger brother for now. I also want to take some time for the person I like to truly love me, to love that silly and selfish me... So let's take it slow, okay?"

"...Then it's a deal, little sister Rosie."

"Yes, it's a promise, Trevor."

"Pfft~~~" x2

"Speaking of which, what do you think of our first story after we started traveling again?"

"It was alright. Although we rushed it a bit, the result was pretty good."

"We need to hurry even more now. I don't plan to waste any more time on the road. Let's go straight to the Labyrinth City."

"I understand, I'll try my best to help. Besides, flying a plane is quite simple, we can take turns flying it on the way."

"Yes, that's great."

"Well, it's time to say goodnight."

Goodnight... x2

He turned over and faced her again.

Her eyes shone brightly in the starlight, neither looking like she had cried nor laughed; she was just quietly looking at me.

I didn't say anything, I just reached out and, like many nights before, pulled her closer to me.

She naturally leaned closer and rested her forehead under my chin.

We still have so much to say.

But... there's no need to say everything at once, because there will be many more opportunities in the future...

The campfire had completely died out, leaving only a faint ring of ash.

I peeked through my eyes and glanced at the sky again, and I realized that the stars are really beautiful tonight...