Love is the most attractive

Father began to drink, trying to walk through such a long drunk life, mother sigh tears abuse for a man who has been sleeping in his dream, no influence. The quarrel continued.

Therefore, su xiaojie stood downstairs and looked at the scattered lights on the first floor, but she couldn' t take that step anyway.she was afraid and had a deep fear for the family. This fear runs deep into the marrow.

Looking at the dark night again, su xiaojie felt even more depressed. She gritted her teeth and decided to go home.

Su xiaojie stood in front of the door and touched the key in her bag.although she hadn' t been back for a while, she still belonged to her own family. At this time, she didn' t know if they were asleep or not. She gently turned the key and opened the door. The living room was still brightly lit. The two people who were standing in the living room glared at each other in surprise as the door was gradually pushed open.

Su xiaojie pushed the door open and walked in.

"Little one? Why are you back. "The mother turned back, somewhat incredulous of her eyes.

"Yes. Su xiaojie lowered her head and quietly changed her shoes.

"Humph, didn' t you go home to beg for food when you were out of your league?" His father smelled of alcohol and looked at su xiaojie with disdain.

Su xiaojie suddenly felt a sharp pain in her heart.she suppressed the urge to leave and said to her mother," I' ll stay at home for a few days." "Said he, walking heavily towards his room.

"You ..." Her mother was also stunned for a moment. She did not know what to say but just watched her daughter walk into the room. Now that her daughter had returned, why did she feel that she was far away?

When she turned around, it was all this frustrated man! After being laid off for so many years, she only knew how to drink without learning anything else. The person who drank every day didn' t look like a ghost or a ghost, so why was it his turn to suffer so much?

"You stupid old man! My daughter just got back. What are you talking about? After all these years, when did you earn a penny for your family? Now that my daughter has grown up, how dare you say that? I was blind enough to marry a coward like you! "

"After all these years, I' ve been working on my own for this family and only served you and your father. Now that my daughter is not related, my husband is like this again! How am I supposed to live? How can you live? No more! No more! "

"Shut up, you bitch! "Bang!" The bottle fell to the ground.

"Well, how dare you call me a whore? I wash and cook for you, and have a little white - eyed wolf, I am a bitch, see who is the son of a bitch. "One by one, the sound of a fight, intertwined with each other. Su xiaojie told herself that it was just a dream.when she woke up, her mother would sit in front of the sewing machine and sew her clothes.

Su xiaojie had long gotten used to the noise.

Those voices were like the groans of a ghost that could not be avoided in the middle of the night.

Therefore, he had been studying hard and struggling hard to get into a university. One day, he would be able to stay away from the moans of these demons.

Perhaps she had never left this place.su xiaojie remembered that on her first night in university, she was very happy.she secretly sighed in relief and thought that she had finally left that suffocating place.

However, that night, when the fight came as planned, su xiaojie cried out in surprise.

The others in the dormitory asked," what's wrong with su xiaojie? Did you have a nightmare? Everyone was still sleepy.

"No ... Nothing. Su xiaojie smiled awkwardly, but she couldn' t help but turn pale. However, under the moonlight, in her sleep, no one would notice how others looked. It was just a small episode of the night, and no one would care. At most, it was just a conversation after dinner, and then a pale smile appeared on su xiaojie's face.

This nightmare can only be understood by oneself. Su xiaojie kept telling herself in her heart that you couldn' t break free and could only bear it.

Even if it turned out that all his efforts were in vain, there was nothing he could do. We live in this world, too much body not to oneself, with blood with sweat can not change the situation, this is helpless, silently endure.

Su xiaojie sometimes thought that she was afraid of losing a child, but she was even more afraid of getting one.

The deskmate wrote the four words" the thirsty one" on the white one. Su xiaojie felt desolate at that time.

She did not know if the word" thirst" was coined by a deskmate, but she suddenly felt that the word was undoubtedly the best portrayal of her. Su xiaojie didn' t have any special friends and didn' t interact much with her deskmate, but these two words made su xiaojie feel like she had seen through her.

However, when he looked at her, the deskmate looked like he didn' t care. Did she see through him, or was it that she could be easily seen through by instinct? Su xiaojie suddenly realized that perhaps everyone had seen through her, but she was still in the mist, not knowing who she was or what she was going to do.

That's right, she was a person who longed for love. It didn't matter if she was weak or weak. She just longed for it and then immersed herself in her own world.

I don't know where I have seen a saying, is: how big the world of the individual, no one can find out. Su xiaojie completely agreed. Just like that, she walked into her own world when she didn' t know that year, then walked around in her own world, but couldn' t see the direction.

A man's world is lonely, but safe, so rest assured. Su xiaojie told herself this. Then, she tried her best to become an extrovert and cheerful person, but su xiaojie knew that the person she created was never her real self.

She was just hiding in her own world, unwilling to come into contact with the world that had hurt her. One day, su xiaojie saw sandal chen standing in front of the jewelry store. The dim yellow light from the shop shone on him. It was so warm.

Su xiaojie understood that it was someone else's warmth, and it had nothing to do with her, but it was unexpected. At this time, they had an intersection, so after touching the warmth, they began to be greedy.

It was not until one day that she was burned by the warmth and turned into powder and shattered in the earth.when she woke up, she realized that she was just the moth that put out the fire. Before the flame could see her clearly, it was already gone. She just looked at the lampshade with the green light as usual, which was sad.

As the night grew darker and darker, the voices outside gradually dropped. They would be tired too, but after resting, there would be endless quarrels. Sometimes quarrels and fights are better than painful lives.

As she fell into silence, su xiaojie gradually fell asleep on her bed. Many sleepless nights, in those unfamiliar places, but still lingering noisy dreams, and really back here, the nightmare is not going to appear. So, that night, su xiaojie slept soundly.

That night, just before she fell asleep, su xiaojie saw the face of tan chen.she was still affectionate and gentle. He looked at himself with a smile and did not say a word. Sue reached out her hand to him, but he shook his head and walked away. So, su xiaojie in the dream tears.

When su xiaojie woke up in the morning, her mother had already put breakfast on the table after she washed up. Su xiaojie sat in front of the table, drinking porridge, and suddenly felt a sense of peace in her heart.this kind of peace had not been experienced for a long time, and it was tempting. Her mother also moved to the bench and sat next to su xiaojie.

"Where's dad? Su xiaojie had just asked when she began to regret asking.

Sure enough, when she heard su xiaojie's question, her mother's expression instantly became harsh and disdainful." Me." How? I don' t see anyone early in the morning every day, and when I come back from drinking at night, no one will come back to take the money. I' m really sorry for both of you, father and daughter. I really don' t have anyone to worry about ..."

Su xiaojie knew that her mother wouldn' t stop complaining for half an hour. After living in this so-called home for more than 20 years, su xiaojie had learned to keep quiet and do her own thing at this time.

Mother herself did not need to make any comments, but she needed an outlet to express her resentment towards the world. Therefore, su xiaojie only stirred her porridge quietly, lowered her head, and silently sipped her spoon. When su xiaojie finished her last mouthful of porridge, her mother's grumbling stopped.

Su xiaojie gently leaned the spoon against the bowl, and her mother asked," do you want some more?" A little more. "Her voice wasn' t very high, but it sounded like she was speaking to herself in a low voice.she looked a little nervous and careful, and su xiaojie nodded quietly. Then, her mother got up, and the feeling seemed to have disappeared for a long time, making su xiaojie feel a little surreal.

Su xiaojie took the bowl and asked," mom, did you eat? "

"Eat it, eat it. You don' t have to worry about me. Just eat it yourself." "The mother smiled, with the folds of years on her face.

The scene was very warm, and su xiaojie suddenly realized it.

"How was work? "

"Yes, I'm doing a sales guide at a jewelry store. The boss is very nice and treats me very well. When she said this, a smile suddenly appeared in front of su xiaojie. She didn' t see him for the entire night, but it seemed like a long time had passed.