Love's Gone

Clutching the edge of the bed, I felt the pain that made me cramp. I kept pulling my face muscles that were frozen into a ball, and tried my best to squeeze out a few words: "save... Save... Pain... Child... Save child..."

I also want to shout louder so that Zhou Wei can get out of the violent walk, so that he can be merciful, temporarily put down his hatred for me and lend a helping hand to my children. I really want to wait until I get a complete rescue and then close my eyes, but I can't resist the shock caused by those pain.

As soon as it was dark, my consciousness was like being locked into a closed and dark box without seeing the sun. All the disturbances and cruel changes in the world were temporarily retreating from me, and I had to enjoy a short peace.

But those precious tranquility, which can give me less and less share, I always wake up.

The light from the white glare lamp complemented the white ceiling. It hit my eyes hard, and then mixed with the noise constantly pounding in my ears, which made me have a headache. I was dull for nearly three minutes before I suddenly returned to this world.

I raised my hand with a drip tube and watched a drop of blood being poured into my body at the same time. My heart trembled. I looked at the female doctor standing in front of me, who covered almost all her faces. I subconsciously grabbed her sleeve. My mouth opened and closed again and again. I clearly felt that I could spit out words to tell her that I was pregnant, I must not be infused with anti-inflammatory drugs and painkillers, but my ears can catch the noise from all sides, but I can't touch any of my own voice.

Maybe she saw that I wanted to speak but couldn't say it. The female doctor leaned over and fumbled to put the infusion tube I pulled disorderly. She said, "Mrs. Zhou, your uterus is under heavy pressure and has the problem of rupture and bleeding. The blood has stopped. In order to prevent re bleeding and infection, clean-up and suture surgery should be arranged for you immediately, and the anesthesiologist will be in place immediately. Your husband has signed and asked to do his best to keep your adult. "

Every word she said floated round and flat in my brain one by one. It seemed as if I could know their true meaning for the first time, and I seemed so dull that I didn't know anything.

I kept trying hard to open my mouth. I kept trying to tell the doctor the fact that I was pregnant. I didn't know whether she heard it or not. In short, her soft comfort was like a bunch of messy grapes, which fell on me one after another. It was so sweet that it was greasy and sour that it made me cry.

The strong anesthetic seems to fail on me. In the whole process, I can clearly feel that something has been cruelly stripped away from me. The bone cutting pain covers and buries me. Finally, the bright incandescent lamp reflected in my eyes becomes blurred, and finally shrinks into a small black spot. I can't see again. I sink into the sea of sleeping.

Nightmare is like a clip intercepted and put into the repeater. Fear is spread to me again and again. Sadness is rendered more and more profound. I can't resist this wave after wave of impact and brushing, and I can't stop climbing out of the nightmare.

The white light colluded with the pungent smell of disinfectant, wantonly pierced my fragile nerves, and I put my hand on my abdomen for the first time.

There was still a bulging feeling, but the emptiness that could be detected at the touch was like thunder directly covering my head.

Even through the thick skin bag, my heart was still burned to black. I didn't want to move. I just looked up at the long lights on the ceiling.

The dead silence deadlocked. I don't know how long it took. There was obviously some cautious composure in Zhou Wei's voice: "Liu duo'an, are you thirsty? Do you want to drink some warm water? Or, have some soup? "

I ignored it.

Or because he made me walk away from the painful gate of hell. Even if Zhou Wei continued to believe that I was the murderer of his family, he still gave me temporary patience and compassion. He continued without caring for my indifference: "Liu duo'an, would you like to have some soup? Just take a few drinks. It's still warm. Take a few warm drinks. "

His noise pricked my ears and I wanted to tell him to get out.

But for example, if I ask him to get out, I prefer to treat him as transparent.

That kind of hopeless despair, which overflows all over my bones and then floats on the surface of my skin bag, makes me reluctant to communicate with the devil who once used violence against me like a devil and caused me to lose my children.

In that way, I will feel sorry for the little life that once entrenched in my body and interacted with me with beating. I could have come to this world safely.

What's more sad is that although Zhou Wei didn't directly intoxicate me, he was the one who spent the night with me that night, but I already knew everything from his indirect metaphor. No doubt it was my poor child. He died under the fist and foot violence of his own father, which made him bear such grievances. How could he be reincarnated into the next life, and how could he be reincarnated to bond with me, Be my child again!

Biting my lips, I even held my breath.

The shackles of silence trap everything. Like Zhou Wei, he always loves people who love how with his personality. One day, he will tie his hands and feet. He will speak carefully. His tone is softer and lower. He continues to say to me: "Liu duo'an, can you make a sound? I'm afraid you ignore me like this."

fear?

You are omnipotent and fearless. You don't always have the ability to turn your hands over clouds and cover your hands with rain. You always easily control all difficulties in the hands of the stock. What can you fear.

The person who is really afraid should be me. I once gave up my life to you, but I can't get a cheap sense of trust. The evil root of human nature shows a ferocious face to me. I should have had such an awareness, but I lost my vigilance towards you, and my ending today will be so sad.

My heart was sad, white and embarrassed. The sad cry rang in my heart. My hand spread out and held it again. The emptiness inside made me loose again.

Zhou Wei still tirelessly wanted to get my response. He was not smooth in his voice piled up with guilt: "Liu duo'an... I... I don't know... You're pregnant. If I know, no matter how bastard I am, I can't take you... I... Liu duo'an. If you're not happy, you hit me, you kill me. You hit me, you hit me as much as you want. Can you pay attention to me. I'm very flustered that you don't say anything like this. "

Struggling to support my body, I turned sideways and turned my back to him.

Or after he realized my resistance, Zhou Wei finally calmed down temporarily.

But I didn't feel better because of this. The more I was in a silent environment, the more my thinking spread, and the easier it was for me to go to a dead end. I thought again and again of all kinds of connections between the child who had no chance with me and me in this short time, and the pain it overwhelmed me.

When people are in a state of resentment, they will step on the door. I feel very tired and tired, and my eyelids start to fight again.

I don't know how long it took to sink and float in my dream. I was awakened by a rustling sound and opened my eyes. When I saw a little nurse moving the stranded needle on the back of my hand to give me infusion, I directly pulled my hand back and said, "Hello, I want to leave the hospital. Please tell the doctor for me and let me write a discharge form."

"This..."

The little nurse was quite embarrassed. She looked at Zhou only once, and then she looked back at me: "Mrs. Zhou, I'm sorry, with your current physical condition, you haven't met the discharge requirements. If you need to transfer to another hospital according to your personal wishes, your husband needs to sign a certificate of voluntary discharge at his own risk. You can negotiate with your husband first, and then ring the service bell to find us when you come to a conclusion. "

Kick the ball to Zhou Wei. The little nurse helped me adjust the dropping speed of the needle water. She helped me raise the lifting plate at the head of the bed so that I could sit against it. She went out.

In an instant, there were only Zhou Wei and I left in the sealed space.

There was another stalemate. Zhou Wei stood up suddenly. He went straight to the bedside table. He made a rustling sound while fiddling with the meal bag. He said, "Liu duo'an, you can't keep eating and drinking. You have to eat something. You are obedient first. You don't want to talk to me. I promise not to make a sound later. I promise you. "

While talking, he came to me with a bowl of soup. He didn't choose to sit down. Instead, he bowed his body and leaned towards me: "come on, I'll help you sit straight. You're good. Count a few drinks."

I twisted my face to the other side in silence.

It should be to put the soup back on the table. With a slight pause, Zhou Wei leaned over to me again: "Liu Duoan, I'll help you sit straight."

Biting the dry lips of the whole desert, I still didn't speak, just stared at him with cold eyes.

Confronted with my eyes for a while, Zhou Wei was about to extend his hand to me. He hung awkwardly there for a short moment. He smiled back: "you blame me. But don't mess with your body. The doctor said... "You lost too much blood and need some nutrition."

I closed my mouth and hooked him with indifference.

The atmosphere became more and more tense, as if there was a smell of gunsmoke.

The body was stiff and bent for a while. Zhou Wei was finally far away from me. He opened his dry and white lips and said to me, "OK, OK, I won't touch you. Liu Duoan, don't stick your neck. It's so uncomfortable. I don't touch you. I'll never touch you. Relax and don't be so nervous. It's not good. "

Then he looked at me with complex eyes. Zhou Wei turned and tried to walk out of the door.

But when his feet crossed the air, he didn't know what he was thinking. He turned back and stood by the TV, hanging his arms, wondering what he was doing.

He no longer wanted to touch me, and I was too lazy to pay attention to what he wanted to do. Once again, I regarded him as nothing, looked at the ceiling carelessly, and let time tick forward.

I was like a walking corpse again until the door of the ward was pushed open and Ma Xiaoyan appeared in front of me.

Don't think about it. Ma Xiaoyan doesn't have a thousand mile eye, let alone a pleasant ear. She can't know that I'm lying here half dead by watching the sky at night. She came back here. She should have just been notified by Zhou Wei.

He may see that I don't want to talk to him, so he asked Ma Xiaoyan to be the gunman.

Like a whirlwind, Ma Xiaoyan rushed to the bedside. Before she could put down her bag, she looked at the hanging drip rack and the back of my hand swollen by drip. She felt here and there. She was at a loss.

Or my state at the moment is really embarrassed and too sad. Ma Xiaoyan's eyes suddenly Red: "Sister Liu, are you okay? Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Even if I have no desire to speak, I won't lose my heart, go crazy and lose my reason. I can anger people all over the world.

Barely opened my mouth, I spit out a few words: "I'm fine."

Ma Xiaoyan naturally didn't believe it. She gently touched my arm: "there's no meat on your arm. It's all right. Sister Liu, would you like something to eat? You have to cheer up and replenish some energy at this time so that your body can get better quickly. Come on, shall I feed you? "

With that, Ma Xiaoyan wanted to turn around and carry the bowl.

I raised my feeble hand, tried several times, and finally grabbed Ma Xiaoyan's clothes. I said, "Xiaoyan, please help me go to the doctor and give me a note. I want to leave the hospital..."

Ma Xiaoyan immediately held my hand. She was extremely embarrassed: "Sister Liu, don't think so much first, take good care of your body first. Your current state is really not suitable for discharge... "

Just then, the door that Ma Xiaoyan had just opened was pushed open again.

Following a cold wind, Luo Zhizhong's face appeared in front of me.

Or I saw doubts in my eyes, or maybe I noticed that Zhou Weichao looked at her. Ma Xiaoyan whispered: "well... Just this noon, president Luo asked you for something urgent at work. He couldn't find anyone when he called you, so he told me to let me know when I can contact you. When I received the news that you were hospitalized, I... Told President Luo. "

My brain is chaotic enough. At this time, I really can't spare my passion to pay attention to Luo Zhizhong's job. I bite my shriveled lip and place my hope of leaving the hospital on Luo Zhizhong.

After passing Ma Xiaoyan, I leaned over in the direction of Luo Zhizhong. I begged: "Lao Luo, will you help me? I don't want to stay here. I don't want to stay in the hospital. Help me out. I'll pay you back later. "

Luo Zhizhong dozed off his eyes. There seemed to be an inseparable fog in his eyes to lock the darkness. His face collapsed like a rigid piece of paper. He responded to me without expression: "do you really want to go?"

I said a few more words and still felt tired. Even so, in order to express my strong determination to escape to Luo Zhizhong, I nodded: "I don't want to stay here. I want to leave the hospital. Will you help me go through the discharge formalities?"

But he didn't answer me immediately. Luo Zhizhong posted it on the head of the bed. He lifted the medical record sheet hanging on the wall with his hand.

After watching the silence for about five minutes, Luo Zhizhong spoke again. In his tone, he had added a bit of hostility: "I can take you away, but before I take you away, I have to do something I think I must not control myself."

As soon as he spoke to me, he suddenly looked like a furious lion. Luo Zhizhong darted on Zhou Wei who didn't make a sound until he appeared. He swung his fist and threw it heavily on Zhou Wei's face: "fuck your whole family, you bastard! A fool like you should die! "