Love's Gone

"Liu duo'an, I beg you too. Please leave me quickly. I beg you, don't give me another chance to hurt you. I beg you to stay away from me and put me down. I beg you to do your best to develop a new life. Liu Duoan, I beg you, I beg you to live better than now... "

From the stunned inside, I was too busy to kneel down and tried to pull up Zhou Wei: "Zhou Wei, don't do this, you get up, you get up."

But he did not move with emotion. Zhou Wei's eyes suddenly became red. He raised his eyes and looked up at me: "you promised to divorce first, and I will get up naturally."

I couldn't persuade him. I had limited power to pull him. I was at a loss for a brainstorming. I leaned down a little. I held his face in my hands, and then put my lips on Zhou Wei's face.

Regardless of too much, I turned myself into an unskilled storm. I kissed him and picked my clothes with my hands.

When I was about to take off my coat, Zhou Wei pressed my hand. He gathered my hand to his heart: "Liu duo'an, don't be stupid again, don't do this."

Like thousands of leeches clinging to my heart, the more I feel that I can't breathe well, the more I squeeze his face: "I don't want to leave you, I don't want to leave you, I don't want to, just let me be stupid. Zhou Wei, we agreed before, let's share the wind and rain in the future, even if I listen to you and leave you today, I will indulge in guilt day and night in the future. I can never live a good life. I can't live better than with you. Zhou Wei is not as good as us. We want a child. We want a child. When you have children, you play with them every day. You are happy. Those who are sick are timid and dare not come. "

While talking, my hand eagerly slipped away from his face. I walked all the way down the river. After my stiff action wanted to lift his clothes, I went straight to his most sensitive position. I avoided his hand regardless of my face and skin, and I kept rubbing and touching it.

Even though he was so determined to leave me, his body could not refuse my warm call, and his impulse rose with my action.

Let it be the scorching sun at noon, let it be full of light in the room at the moment, and go to the fucking shame. As soon as I broke the button of my pants, I pulled it off and threw it away. I went to pick Zhou Wei's pants naked.

This reaction came over. Zhou Wei fumbled back to get my pants back. His tone was particularly difficult: "Liu duo'an, don't make trouble, put on your pants."

I don't accept his fault. I just continue to remove the obstacles that hinder my action one by one. I finally get what I want.

Yes, I sat on it.

The moment he fell into my body, all my panic was relieved. I hugged his neck, put my chin on his shoulder, put my lips on his earlobe, and I blew a breath: "dry me hard. I need you. "

The hardness inside my body seemed to double in vain. The expression on Zhou Wei's face was very tight. He put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me away a little. His eyes coagulated me: "Liu duo'an, are you crazy?"

I closed my lips and twisted my body slightly. My answer was not what I asked: "do you think it's cool enough for me to move like this, or is it more comfortable to move like this?"

His eyes narrowed, and he held them up again. Zhou Wei's hand moved slowly down. He pressed my waist between his two phases to prevent me from acting recklessly: "Liu duo'an, I'm afraid you'll regret one day. You'll cry bitterly. You'll sigh why you're so miserable. You chose a psychopath to be your husband. I am afraid that one day, you will despise me and you will scoff. I'm actually very selfish. All the retreats I consider for you are also the retreats I set for myself. I'm not so much for you as for myself. I want to keep my last dignity in front of you. I don't want to be seen by you. I'm actually an extremely selfish person, so Liu duo'an, We are all selfish... "

My hand covered his palm and I rubbed it hard: "don't talk nonsense, fuck me."

The atmosphere suddenly froze. Zhou Wei's body was getting hotter and hotter. His face was slightly deformed by enthusiasm and impulse. He pulled at the corners of his mouth, and he couldn't hold it. His hand carried my waist up and down crazily. His violent impact made my soul fly away every time, but my heart was occupied by strong bitterness. Desire was completely overridden and repulsed without a trace, This is about my close relationship with Zhou Wei, which makes me most uncomfortable and suffering.

The clearer the consciousness is, the more I can perceive that Zhou Wei is about to explode, and so is Zhou Wei. He wants to leave our city at the last moment, and his body is going to step back.

At this time, I surrounded him with my feet and then blocked him with my hands. I insisted: "give it to me."

At the critical point, Zhou Weizhong insisted that he was not the enemy or me, and that big heat almost burned me.

Everything became calm. I rolled my face and buried it in Zhou Wei's arms. I stabbed his heart with my hand. I wanted to stretch my voice before I spoke, but my voice was hoarse: "follow your heart, say you love me very much, and say you are actually afraid to leave me. Say it, I want to hear it. "

Zhou Wei's body got up. He wanted to get out of the state of being close to me: "Liu duo'an, you're on your way to eternal doom."

I pressed his thigh again to prevent him from moving: "I am an adult. I can decide who I will live with, eat together, laugh together, even cry together. I can decide who I will experience the wind and rain, the test, and all the unexpected blessings and misfortunes in the world. Zhou Wei, we are husband and wife. We are husband and wife who love each other and fly in the face of disaster. Such a thin and cool result should not appear here. I still say that, I won't divorce, even if you tie me, even if you hold a knife around my neck, I can't divorce you. That's my attitude. "

I coughed and cleared my throat. I tried my best to restrain the sadness and confusion in my heart: "Zhou Wei, otherwise we don't stay in Shenzhen. Let's stay away from this place of right and wrong, go to a quiet place and take good care of our body."

"Unless I die."

Zhou Wei slowly squeezed out this sentence from his teeth. "Otherwise, Zhou Tianquan won't stop fighting with me unilaterally. He is still afraid that I will rob him one day. As long as Zhou Tianquan gains power one day, I can't be quiet. Liu Duoan, if you join me again, you will still be the focus target of Zhou Tianquan's sniper. You... "

I was so upset that I pretended to be calm: "don't talk about divorce anymore. I won't listen. "

Touching his hands everywhere, Zhou Wei finally touched his coat, but he took it and put it on me first. His cold front turned: "Liu duo'an, don't you blame me for hiding from you these days? In your heart, do you think I'm afraid of you, so I'll have a showdown with you after careful consideration? You think I'm too noble. I'm still selfish. I don't want to let you go too early. I've been procrastinating. I can't procrastinate now. I have to face it. I just... "

"I don't need you to be noble. You are just an ordinary person like me. All your thoughts can be forgiven."

Catch up with Zhou Wei: "since you don't want to let me go, don't let me go forever. That's the end of this topic."

When I got down from him, I threw off the clothes he had just covered me. I walked to the sofa naked. Then I lay on the floor and hung my feet against the back of the sofa.

Soon he took a blanket and covered me. Zhou Wei was very helpless: "Liu duo'an, what are you doing? Do you want to protest against me in a cold way? "

In fact, in the interval when I stopped talking, I thought about the right way to communicate with Zhou Wei. At the beginning, I thought about whether I should be more careful to avoid accidentally touching Zhou Wei's minefield, but the more I thought about it, the more I felt that if I immediately showed that I was different from before, it was whether Zhou Wei would think nonsense. I had treated him differently.

All the green in my heart has withered. I have to pretend to be the same as before. I riveted my strength to lift my two legs higher. I tried and deliberately walked my consistent style to the Black: "don't talk to me, I'm working hard for our bright future."

The eyes were dark and complex. Zhou Wei was puzzled: "are you confused by my anger, or are you in a bad mood by my disease..."

I was very satisfied. He restrained his recent determination. My eyes flashed over his face for a few seconds and then floated to the side of the bed. I immediately gave him orders: "go and help me bring my pillow."

Grab the corners of the blanket and tuck it in. Zhou Wei looked at the side of the bed. He looked at me again. He suddenly realized something. He couldn't stop reaching out and wanted to hook my upright thigh back to the ground: "Liu duo'an, you really have a pit in your head. You hurry down. You hang upside down like this. Those who didn't run deeper just now, how can you really win the prize?"

I knocked his hand off: "take it, take it, don't touch me, or I'll worry you. I'm ovulating these two days. Don't make trouble. "

"Liu duo'an, do you have a big heart or lack of heart? I told you not long ago that I was ill. You want to have children at this time. You are an immature impulse. These are not desirable."

With a deep frown, Zhou Wei was worried. He wanted to talk and stopped: "if you are really pregnant, what can you do in the future? And I have this disease now. I probably can't get a normal child... "

As if there was something holding back my heart and trying to separate the regime, I pretended to be relaxed and joked: "why can't your child be normal? You have three heads and six arms? You're afraid he'll double you and have six heads and nine arms? "

Worry is still lingering on her face. Zhou Wei rubbed her eyebrows: "Liu duo'an, you should follow the reality and follow the facts. I have schizophrenia and diagnosed diseases. People like me, in common words, are neuropathy..."

Tears almost kept running again. I tried to twitch my nose to suppress the continuous sour meaning: "are you stupid? You're definitely not congenital, right? You're a disease caused by the great pressure of life and the complexity of things you face. This can't affect the next generation. Don't think I have no common sense. Besides, when we have children, you may be busy tossing children every day. If you want to take time to worry, you don't have time. Your broken problem can't be cured. This heart disease still needs heart medicine. "

It was almost time to pinch. I put down my thighs and wrapped the quilt tightly. I leaned towards Zhou Wei: "I'm going to take a bath, and you are also one."

There was a flash of light in his eyes. Zhou Wei soon wondered, "Liu duo'an, no matter how hard I begged before, you didn't agree to wash with you. What's the matter with you today?"

How can I say that I'm afraid he will disappear while I take a bath? I think he has been confused by my so-called beauty trick of bitterness and astringency for a short time, but his shaking is not enough to make him stay completely. Naturally, I still have to continue to work hard.

Glancing at him obliquely, I said, "just one piece for you. Don't be so wordy."

The Adam's apple stuttered and Zhou Wei swallowed desperately. He hesitated: "forget it."

I immediately raised my eyebrows: "are you a man? You just joined me. You're not very firm and resolute. You've played and now you're grinding, aren't you? You still want a divorce, don't you? Well, if you want to leave, you can go and find me a man to take a bath with me. We'll wash with the door open. If you can stand and see the whole process, I'll help you. "

Either in Zhou Wei's heart, he is far from being as determined as he appears, but in his world, or I have become the only one who can go the same way with him. His attachment to me goes beyond his so-called integrity and selflessness. After hesitating for a moment, Zhou Wei tends to keep pace with me. We just got into the bathroom and got together, Continue to indulge in the passion of desire.

Later, we stayed in Macao for three days. In these short three days, I followed Zhou Wei wherever he was going. In the end, he was very embarrassed. He confessed to me again. He would not leave me without saying goodbye.

My uneasy and cramped heart was comforted. Although it was not enough to completely dispel the haze in my heart, it could make me smile more easily. I pretended to be happy and slept with Zhou Weidi's face every night. After he finally fell asleep, I turned my face and wiped tears on his back, Then I covered my cell phone with a quilt and inquired about schizophrenia on the Internet. The more I stripped my cocoon to uncover the mystery of this disease, the colder my heart was.

I'm not afraid that I may float and sink in the restless life of wandering for the rest of my life. I just think of Zhou Wei, who is so proud. He has to be accompanied by such an disgraceful disease. He may be slowly deprived of his intelligence and soberness by this disease. The more I think about his life, the more I feel the more depressed and short of breath, The more I think about it, the more sleepless I am in that long night, insomnia all night.

About those heavy sorrows are enough to support my body. When the dawn breaks the sky and the sun is pouring bright, I can open my eyes like chicken blood and continue the next forced smile.

When I came back from Macao, I thought that the house in Xixiang was wide enough for me, but it was the lowest standard configuration for Zhou Wei. Its narrowness was not conducive to Zhou Wei's recuperation and would also make him tired. So I found an excuse that I wanted to move to the peninsula city-state.

Maybe he felt he owed me. Zhou Wei quickly agreed to my proposal. He found a moving company and packed everything in one day.

After tidying up all the scattered things, I didn't listen to Zhou Wei's urging to go back to work. Instead, I continued to walk around with him. After Zhou Wei couldn't urge me, he was helpless and had to follow me.

I followed for ten days.

At more than five o'clock in the afternoon, the weather was not very good. Zhou Wei said he was going out to buy vegetables. I quickly put my mobile phone on: "I'll go too. I'm tired of staying at home."

Looking at the heavy sky outside through the windowsill, Zhou Wei insisted: "it's going to rain. Just stay at home and don't go anywhere."

I also want to argue that Zhou Weiyi is positive: "Liu duo'an, the doctor told me that I'd better keep a happy mood recently. I can't get angry in a hurry. That will have a bad impact on my condition."

Well, as soon as he hit this stone, I didn't dare to say anything. I had to let him go by himself.

And I didn't stay at home. I paced back and forth, pinching my mobile phone, and almost pulled out of the pit. Just when I was uneasy and hard to be quiet, there was a sudden noise outside the door.

I thought Zhou Wei had forgotten his wallet or something. I rushed over and opened the door with joy.

Unexpectedly, the person standing outside the door is Xie Wei.