Love's Gone

Suddenly there was an illusion that Zhou Wei wanted to say goodbye to me. I quickly wanted to get rid of his tricks and explore with him. However, Zhou Wei didn't give me a gap at all. He clasped the back of my head and put my face in his arms. His lips followed suit and rubbed me directly into the storm.

Like beating chicken blood, Zhou Wei kept moving. His outline was pulled out of the fuzzy sense under the dim light. The doubts held in my heart were gradually brushed away by the bone etching impact. I completely indulged in running to the clouds with his rhythm.

After repeated tossing and turning, Zhou Wei finally exhausted his strength. He half surrounded me with his hands, half lying on his face on the bed and sleeping very heavily.

We didn't get up until about 10:30. When I was making up, Zhou Wei determined the route. He meant that we went to bungee jumping for lunch, then strolled around, and then went to experience double jumping together.

In short, I'm still like that. I don't need to bother to arrange. Then I can obey. Naturally, I agree with both hands.

It's off-season. There aren't many people over there. We didn't queue up much after lunch. It's our turn.

Tie the rope. When I looked down, I saw the abyss and emptiness under my feet. I was a little nervous. At this time, Zhou Weilai hugged me: "Liu Duoan, let's jump? But if you're afraid, forget it. "

The money was also bought for the ticket. The price was expensive. I was afraid that the longer I stood, the more I dared not jump. At that time, I would drag Zhou Wei's hind legs and waste the ticket money. I had to bite the bullet: "jump, who is afraid of who."

His eyes fell below my nose, and Zhou Wei smiled: "silly girl."

I finally took a breath. I hurriedly pushed him: "jump, jump, don't beep."

According to the standard actions taught by the staff here, Zhou Wei put his hand on me and his voice sank: "Liu Duoan, if you are really afraid, you can close your eyes."

Most of the first jump was led by Zhou Wei. I didn't come back until my body fell and bounced back. In addition to my heart beating very fast and my breath was very fast, when I survived those panic, I only had the comfort of integrating with the vast land.

I'll look at Zhou Wei's face again.

His black stubble hair was blown back, and his exposed hairline was winding, which did not affect his face.

He is still what I love.

I couldn't help but look at him: "Zhou Wei, I love you."

Picking her eyebrows, Zhou Wei smiled implicitly: "I know. I love you too. "

Under such circumstances, we actually chatted happily: "let's still have a child."

With a gradual change of expression, Zhou Wei stopped: "Liu duo'an, let's go back to it later. I have something to tell you."

I couldn't hold my breath: "say it now. We're not wrapped in tape."

The corners of his mouth were shallow, and Zhou Wei held me tighter: "no, it's very serious. I need to be in a very calm and natural state before I can talk to you."

Or I became increasingly pessimistic, and my heart was filled with anxiety: "is it a good thing or a bad thing? If it's bad, don't say it. I'd rather I didn't know. "

First there was silence. Zhou Wei slowly said, "go up and talk."

No longer have the heart to feel the sense of freedom wandering in the open space. After all kinds of suffering, we can finally step on the ground. I speed up my steps and walk side by side with Zhou Wei: "you say, I'm ready."

When he became inky, Zhou Wei took a big step: "wait, let's go to a place with few people."

After stopping, Zhou Wei changed his mind again: "forget it, Liu duo'an, or let's go back to the hotel and go back to the room."

All the way, Zhou Wei was speechless. At the moment when he brushed the lock with the door card, the sweat behind me had been continuous. When the air conditioner in the room blew, I shivered. I stopped: "Zhou Wei, what do you want to say, you're about to say."

Put the door card on the table at the entrance. Zhou Wei swept me with his eyes down. He suddenly opened his hands to me. It was a bear hug. The strength he used on his arms was getting heavier and heavier. He kept me from breathing smoothly. He slowly released me. He took two steps back and took a deep breath. Then he said, "Liu duo'an, let's divorce."

It was like a big mountain was pressing against me. I was almost knocked upside down by the huge impact. The chill on my spine was even worse, as if it had increased several times. It stabbed into my bones and corroded my soul. I was numb for a long time before I returned to the world from chaos. I stared at him and pretended to be calm: "your joke was a special failure, It's not funny. "

There was a deep frown in Zhou Wei's eyebrows. Zhou Wei's eyes were occupied by layers of fog that I couldn't see through. His eyes flew laxly over my face. After a while, they were gathered up against my four eyes. Zhou Wei's tone was low as if he were crawling on the floor and stained with full ash: "Liu duo'an, I mean seriously, we're divorced. After the tour, we'll do it. As for the division of property, all the cash flow and all the real estate shops and other properties under my name belong to you... "

Holding my fist tightly, I bit my lips and broke the skin. There was a faint smell of blood rushing into my mouth, choking my nose. I interrupted him: "your uncle, who steps on a horse wants your stinky money. Zhou Wei, are you sick? Are you sick! What did you say a few months ago? What did you say when you chased me again? How nice you said it at that time. What did you say? What will you do to me for the rest of your life? Did you send monkeys to give me funny funny funny funny comparisons? How long has it been since you asked me to divorce! You said, "are you sick?"

"Yes, I'm sick."

In his misty eyes, there was always a pile of gloomy emotions. Zhou Wei's hands were intertwined. He seemed to be trying his best to be patient, but even so, his voice still trembled: "Liu duo'an, I have schizophrenia. It's confirmed. Now I have auditory hallucinations, accompanied by paranoia of victimization. Slowly, I will become more and more angry. Perhaps, with my unconscious tendency to violence, my situation will only move towards a worse and worse situation. The doctor advised me that I should be hospitalized as soon as possible. So Liu Duoan, let's divorce. You are still young, you leave me, you still have a good life behind you. I will also try my best to help you arrange the future while I am still awake. If you don't want to stay in Shenzhen and want to start over elsewhere, I can manage it. "

If I was struck by lightning, I was stuck on the ground. I didn't slow down until half a sound. I stumbled away towards Zhou Wei: "don't say any more. I don't want to listen. I don't want to listen. The doctor must be a quack. He must have read it wrong. You look so sunny and healthy now. How can you get that disease. Zhou Wei, let's not mess up. Let's not waste time here. Let's go back and find a better hospital and a better doctor. Let's have a review. Those before must be misjudgments. That must be misjudgments... "

Zhou Wei retreated quickly. He avoided my hand faster than I did. His expression gradually blurred in my eyes. Only his voice, his thick voice that often fascinated me, was full of Cruelty: "that doctor is the doctor my father had been using before his death. He has a certain authority at home and abroad. He has worked for so many years and has never misjudged. "

Just like a balloon, people poked many small holes in me, and my strength continued to overflow towards the outside. I became more and more weak. When I continued to take steps, my foot slipped, and I fell down and squatted down, landing on my knee first. I didn't care about the dull pain. I was about to get up, and Zhou Weihe finally took the initiative to contact me, He pulled me up: "Liu Duoan, are you okay? Did you knock anywhere... "

Before he finished, I hooked my hands and hung them around his neck. I endured all kinds of difficult tears and slid all the way down his neck: "Zhou Wei, I don't want a divorce. I want to be with you. If you are sick, let's treat it. Now medicine is so prosperous and advanced, which can certainly be cured. First of all, we can't be pessimistic and negative. We should be optimistic and positive, Later, you bring the doctor to me. I'll ask him what he should pay attention to. I'm not busy with my work. I take care of you. I'm sure I can keep you well. Zhou Wei, don't think about divorcing me. I can't promise to divorce you. There's no way! Don't make such an idea. You had to kneel down and beg me to be with you. Since I promised you, I can't plan to let you go again. You want to escape from me until I die. "

In this hot summer, Zhou Wei felt cool all over. The skin he pasted with me was cold to the bone. He was dull for a while and still wanted to break me off from him: "Liu duo'an, stop making trouble. You don't realize what schizophrenia means. I will slowly fall into more and more serious hallucinations, I will have auditory hallucinations, and I may also have depression. Even if you are just a very small action, it may stimulate my crazy reaction. I may become more and more stubborn, my temper will become worse and worse, I will start to be angry, and I will run away, I may even wake up in the middle of the night and suddenly forget that you are my closest lover. I will doubt that you want to harm me. I will slowly become more and more terrible, I will slowly destroy all your life, I will slowly not only can no longer take care of you, I will become a madman who hurts you. Liu duo'an, I will become a madman whose actions are not controlled by consciousness. I will become a madman. I will destroy everything you have. Our best solution now is to isolate you and me. We are divorced, you are still young, and you can find a good man... "

My eyes were salty and painful with tears. I stubbornly resisted Zhou Wei's actions that tried to separate me from his body. I still wanted to hug him: "I don't need to predict the possible consequences in advance. I only know that I want to be with you. I only know that I can't leave you when you are sick. Zhou Wei, don't talk about those bastards. I'm still young. I can find a good man. You fart! You are not good, not bad, you are not perfect, and I also have shortcomings. We have experienced misunderstanding and confrontation, mutual injury and life and death. There is only one person in the world who is so closely connected with my life. I can't let go of you, and you will die this so-called good heart for me! I don't need you to be so thoughtful for me. I don't need you to be so resourceful for me. I know what kind of choice is best for me. You can't help me make a decision! I can't divorce, never! "

I wish I could get some strong glue on my hands so that I could stick my hands to Zhou Wei's body so that he couldn't take it off. But at this time, I had nothing but the empty wind in my hands. I could only arch my body into Zhou Wei's arms. I kept coming together, but the more so, the more I could feel Zhou Wei's determination, no matter how hard I tried to get close to him, His warm and powerful arms, but no longer active enthusiasm to embrace me.

My heart is like a shortage of soldiers and horse chaos. It is so shaky that it seems that it can be crushed with only a straw. I grabbed Zhou Wei's decadent hand and put it on my waist like crazy: "Zhou Wei, just think I beg you, I beg you, I beg you to give up the idea of divorce. This is my choice. Even if there is a vast abyss waiting for me, I will still move forward, This is my choice. As long as it is you, as long as that person is you, I can bear any consequences that may need to be endured and suffered. Let me accompany you. Let's go to the doctor together. I'll take care of you when you are hospitalized. As long as we cooperate with the treatment, you will recover one day. Zhou Wei, you can't give up the hope of cure so early. "

The stiff state lingered on Zhou Wei for a while, and the rich expression on his face gradually faded. Soon, there was only a cold cold corner of his mouth. Zhou Wei broke off the fingers I hung on him one by one with great hand strength. He coldly raised his injured wrist a few days ago, and his eyes were lax. He swam around and fell on me again, He gritted his teeth: "Liu duo'an, you fool, look at me. Look at me. Now I can tell you frankly that I didn't cut my wound accidentally. I stabbed it deliberately with a knife. My first knife didn't break. The second knife broke the skin after finding experience. I saw the moment when the blood came out, All my tension has been relieved and relaxed! I already have the tendency of self mutilation, Liu duo'an! I'm just self mutilating now. If you don't get away from me quickly, maybe the knife in my hand will stab you one day! Do you understand! It's your business whether you're afraid or not. It's really OK, but I'm afraid I'll be able to stop attacking you one day! Liu Duoan, I have caused you enough suffering. I don't want to destroy your life for the rest of your life! "

He pushed me away again. Zhou Wei's abrupt knees were facing the ground. With a plop, he knelt down!

Well, happy today, 10:00 plus one watch. For this joy, I got up at five in the morning, mengmengda.