Love's Gone

Exhausted, but I can't blame Zhou Wei even half a word. I can only take all the pots on myself: "don't talk nonsense. It's my problem. I just had a slow reaction, and I couldn't hold you. It's all my fault. It's because I didn't hold you that this scene got out of control. "

"Liu Duoan, don't comfort me."

Buried his face, Zhou Wei broke off my fingers on his arm one by one, and his voice became weaker and weaker: "my disease seems to be over. As long as there is a little stimulation, I will become a reckless madman. Liu duo'an, I hurt grandpa tonight. I will certainly hurt you behind me. Otherwise, you'd better go, stay away from me, give up me and let me live and die. Go find a man with normal psychology, Liu Duoan. Don't waste time and life with me. Don't stick to a loser like me. "

I sniffed fiercely. I repressed the lacrimal glands that became developed and about to get out of control. I was not allowed to shed even half a drop of tears. I was shy and wrapped around Zhou Wei's arm again: "if you do this again, I'll let you kneel and cover the beer when you go back. It's all agreed. We'll live together in the future and carry everything together. How can people eat grain without getting sick? Birth, old age and death are the most uncontrollable things in life. If you let me abandon you now, will you throw me away and replace me with a good one? "

I don't know whether I choked or my grandfather's illness filled my brain. Zhou Wei opened his mouth. He didn't say anything. To my comfort, he didn't break my hand again.

I didn't dare to make any changes or loosen Zhou Wei's hand. I kept a fixed posture and stood there with him for more than an hour.

Finally, Zhou Jinyang was pushed out.

He woke up, but his face was still horribly white. The doctor said he had to stay in the hospital for observation and let his family go to the hospital.

I wanted to let me go this time, but Zhou Wei insisted that he go. I thought he might not be ready to be alone with Zhou Jinyang, so I had to reluctantly agree.

While Zhou Siyun's rescue operation was still in progress, of course I was concerned, but at present, I can't let Zhou Jinyang stay in the ward alone. I had to follow him to the ward first.

I just placed this head and poured a glass of water for Zhou Jinyang. Zhou Wei called.

Slightly back to Zhou Jinyang, I picked it up and tried to keep my voice calm: "Zhou Wei, have you done it?"

The mood was complicated, and Zhou Wei tried his best to understate: "Liu duo'an, otherwise our soldiers are divided into two ways. You work harder and look after grandpa there. I'll wait here for Zhou Siyun to come out. Otherwise, the doctor will find his family later, and there will be no one. "

There was some acid in my nose. I said, "OK, let's arrange it."

After hanging up, I wanted to do something to hide my confusion. I said, "Grandpa, are you still thirsty? Do you want to drink some warm water?"

Zhou Jinyang was silent for a long time. His voice speed was slow: "Duo an, tell me frankly, Xiao Wei, what's the matter with him? Something's wrong with him. This child, I saw him when I was young. I can feel that he is particularly wrong. Even if he blames me again, he will never be as disobedient and reckless as tonight. "

I bite my lips, silent.

About three or five minutes of silence and stalemate with me, Zhou Jinyang's voice trembled: "is he mentally, what's wrong?"

There are countless ups and downs in my heart. I bite my lips harder and more painful, and I am still silent.

Because I found that my throat dried up like a huge desert. Even if I tried my best to spit out words, those dryness would absorb all the water, and I couldn't make a sound normally.

His shoulders trembled badly, and Zhou Jinyang quickly said in a clear tone: "Duo an, you don't have to be so silent to me. In fact, I've already made psychological preparations. Xiao Wei's grandmother, not long after giving birth to Tianquan, broke out schizophrenia. Heredity is a matter of force majeure. "

The viscera seemed to be shattered by this information. I finally had a voice to say, "what?"

With a wry smile, Zhou Jinyang stroked his forehead: "it's a long time ago. At that time, Xiaowei's grandmother robbed Tianlu's toys every day after her illness. Sometimes she would coax her with a pillow as a child. How can I persuade her not to put it down. Later, her situation became more and more serious. After being tortured, I was exhausted. As a last resort, I sent her to a mental hospital. "

It was like being struck to the ground by thunder. When I spoke again, my voice trembled constantly: "what happened later?"

"Her situation is good and bad. She can recognize me when it's good. When it's bad, she thinks I'm the one who wants to hurt her. Anything she gets will be used as a weapon against me."

Zhou Jinyang buried his face lower. He only used his gray hair to face me: "then one day, she suddenly became very sober. She asked the nurse to call me and say she wanted Tianlu and Tianquan. Let me take them to show her. I realized that her situation was not very good. I was afraid that once I met her wish, she would leave me and I went to see her myself. She was very sober that day. She was like being in love. She was bold and active. She held my hand and kept saying that I was thin and asked me to rest and eat more. She also said that both children were at home and urged me to go back quickly. I continued to stand off with her. Finally, she lost her temper and smashed everything that could be smashed. I had no choice but to compromise and I left. The next evening, the hospital called me and said she had gone. She didn't know where she saved a lot of tranquilizers. She took them all at one time and found them too late. "

As if I saw Zhou Wei's dark future, I was slow and stiff. I covered my ears with my hand: "don't say any more."

But it was like falling into the dark tide of endless memories. The lighter Zhou Jinyang's voice was, he muttered to himself: "after so many years, I never dared to let all the children know about it. I digest by myself and carry those indelible memories by myself. I often have trouble sleeping and eating. I'm very afraid that this gene will bring destruction to Tianlu Tianquan. I pay careful attention to their growth. I watch them like walking on thin ice. Even if I'm strict with them, I have extra tolerance. I'm always afraid I'm forced too hard, Will make them look like I can't accept it. I tried so hard to avoid the dark road my sons and grandchildren took, but I couldn't escape. I don't know what evil I did in my last life. Only in this life will I repay these on my son and grandchildren. I must have done evil. "

It suddenly occurred to me that Zhou Jinyang came out of the rescue room not long ago. I tried my best to press down on the tumbling of my emotions. I hurried forward to appease: "Grandpa, well, don't think so much. According to the current situation of Zhou Wei, he is still excellent. He is just tired tonight and has a big temper... "

Shu raised his head. Zhou Jinyang's eyes were slightly wet: "Duo an, give me Xiaowei and give him to me. He is my grandson. I won't want him. You are still young. You can find another good place to go. I've experienced that. I know the suffering and torture. You're still young. You shouldn't live the life I've experienced. I won't blame you for your choice. I know you may not be rare, but I will try my best to settle your life... "

My heart was green and astringent: "I don't, I can never give up on Zhou Wei."

Zhou Jinyang tried to stop talking, and his tone was wrinkled: "Xiaowei still has to be hospitalized for treatment in order to control his condition..."

My feet lifted up involuntarily, and I went straight back: "no! I won't let Zhou Wei go his grandmother's way! I'll never leave him alone in a mental hospital! He's all right now. He's in control! The more he is now, the more he needs me! I can't just let him go to the mental hospital. What people are there! Zhou Wei's self-esteem is so strong, he is so strong. If you want him to go to that place, you will undoubtedly defeat him mentally! "

Zhou Jinyang seemed to swallow something. After a while, he said, "Duo an, you are still young."

I glued my hands together: "or."

Some youyou sighed for a long time. Zhou Jinyang said, "well, it's up to you. One day you regret it, you come and talk to me. What I said still takes effect."

Seeing that Zhou Jinyang was also exhausted, I couldn't face him again. I scribbled, "OK."

Groping for his mobile phone, Zhou Jinyang tampered with it with his hands and said, "go with the small one and I'll let him wear it."

I hesitated for more than ten seconds and finally stood still: "I'll wait until he arrives."

"I will pretend not to know Xiaowei's condition."

With such a jump, Zhou Jinyang turned to talk on the phone.

Not long after, he put away his mobile phone: "Lao Dai will be here soon. Go find Xiaowei. I still have doctors and nurses to look after me. If I really have something wrong, you can't help me. "

Although this sounds reasonable, I still stay where I am: "that won't work, otherwise I will scold me when I go to Zhou Wei."

After all, considering Zhou Jinyang's body, I added: "Zhou Wei wanted to look after you, but he didn't know how to face you for the time being."

"There's nothing wrong with you, child, except being too considerate."

Waving his hand, Zhou Jinyang said in a shallow tone: "go, Xiao Wei or be with you, he will be much better."

In this way, it's not a way for you to see me go. I have to raise my feet: "well, Grandpa, if you feel unwell..."

Raised his wrist and glanced at the time, Zhou Jinyang said in a faint tone: "my family doctor will arrive in two or three minutes."

Three steps and one turn back, I backed out of the ward with many presidents Chen in my arms.

My brain was still lingering. I rubbed my forehead back and forth in the elevator to find a moment of peace.

In the corridor outside the rescue room, Zhou Wei stood there close to the wall. He didn't move. The light poured down and hit a layer of white light on him. I walked over and touched his arm gently, and then called him.

It was only then that he came back from meditation. Zhou Wei's hand fell on my head: "Liu duo'an, how did you come here?"

I forced my face to smile: "Grandpa is OK. He asked Lao Dai to come with him. I feel I'm not useful, so I came to you."

The Adam's apple fretted, and Zhou Wei felt a little huff and puff: "then... Old man... Grandpa, did you mention me?"

I nodded: "yes, I said you were busy here."

After a long tone, Zhou Weishu changed the topic: "just now, the doctor came out and said something about Zhou Siyun."

My heart suddenly lifted up, and I hurriedly asked, "how is she? Out of danger? "

"Well, it is. However, the doctor said that her brain was badly damaged, the area was too large, and the nerves were injured. The impact of those trauma on her can't be estimated yet. She has to wait until she wakes up and then make an assessment according to her actual reaction. "

Zhou Wei patted my hand heavily. His voice gradually sank: "Liu duo'an, you'd better keep a distance from Zhou Siyun."

The wire rope twisted in my heart. I opened my mouth and said, "I..."

The strength buckled on the back of my hand was heavier, and Zhou Wei slowed down: "when she called for help in distress, she must be looking for the most convenient and fast number, or the number she found in the call record. According to my guess, she should have called grandpa first. Grandpa didn't answer. She retreated and asked for you. This shows that you have been in contact recently, and your relationship with her has been eased and improved, which is not as unpleasant to each other as before. Liu Duoan, am I right? "

Being picked up by Zhou Wei on the dot, I was a little chatty: "I didn't talk like you said, just two more words."

"Liu duo'an, we won't discuss what you and Zhou Siyun talked about before. Let's just discuss those key points. "

The body pasted to me, and Zhou Wei half encircled my body: "no matter what you and Zhou Siyun reach, you forget, when nothing happens. No matter what the situation is, don't come to see her alone. Some human cruelty will surpass your imagination. Liu Duoan, sometimes people are selfish and cruel, so they can always be invincible. "

It seems that I can't digest it for a moment. Zhou Wei slowed down his tone: "if you really want to see her, next time you follow Grandpa, you should pretend that you're just in the way of friendship."

I opened my mouth again and wanted to say something. Zhou Wei has made a summary: "that's the topic first. This place is really not a place to chat. "

I had to swallow the words in my throat. After I had given them enough, Zhou Weiqian and obedience: "OK, don't say it first."

No one was talking. It was quiet again. The smell of disinfectant flew into my nose with the wind from time to time. I held Zhou Wei's arm and put Zhou Jinyang's recent words into a picture again and again in my mind. It was just that the protagonist in the picture who had nothing to do in the mental hospital was replaced by Zhou Wei without authorization, I was almost scared to death by the picture so imagined. I needed to tighten Zhou Wei's arm again to survive the destruction brought to me by the outbreak of imagination.

At about 5 a.m., Zhou Siyun, who hovered on the line of life and death, was finally pushed out. The doctor said her vital signs were temporarily normal.

Zhou Wei Ran again and arranged Zhou Siyun to the VIP room of intensive care. The families there could only have a short visit time, and Zhou Siyun didn't wake up. We looked at her for a while, went back to see Zhou Jinyang, and tossed back home. The sky was white.

Originally, Zhou Wei said he would go back to sleep. He caught me in bed. He still couldn't sleep like beating chicken blood behind him. He tossed and turned like fried salted fish for a while. I couldn't listen any more. I patted him on the arm: "otherwise, let's not force ourselves to sleep. Let's get up and have breakfast and run again. How about?"

After pretending to be dead for a while, Zhou Wei sat up and said, "OK, just as you said."

I thought that if I went out to a place with good air and enough open space, it should be more conducive to Zhou Wei's health. I suggested: "otherwise, let's go to shendaha? Anyway, it's close here and there's more food there. "

Nodding, Zhou Wei stepped on his slippers: "just listen to his daughter-in-law."

We cleaned up and went out to Shenda. The sun slowly rose. All the flowers and willows were shrouded in peace. Zhou Wei and I had breakfast in a small restaurant in Wenshan lake. I stamped my feet and said, "come on, let's not be lazy and run."

I asked to run, but I didn't run more than ten meters. I suddenly felt my stomach pulling and falling. I quickly covered it: "Zhou Wei, stop, my stomach is uncomfortable."

Suddenly stopped his steps, and Zhou Wei hurried back: "what's the matter?"

I grabbed his arm: "I don't know. I just feel faint pain. But it's not too painful. It may be that you're too full and your stomach is uncomfortable when you run. "

Reaching over and covering my stomach, Zhou Wei said, "don't guess. See a doctor. Go to the hospital and rest assured. "

I'm still reluctant: "I have such a slight pain in my stomach. I'll run to the hospital. Dare you open the hospital. Don't pay."

Zhou Wei suddenly bowed down and tried to pick me up: "if you're uncomfortable, go and see it. What's the money?"

I quickly hit his hand: "don't hug blindly. It doesn't affect the campus well."

After using brain cells for several days, I was not sure and said, "it should be all right. It is estimated that my old relatives are ready to come. Before I came here, I occasionally felt a falling belly. "

After listening to me, Zhou Wei began to break his fingers there: "one, two, three, four... No, Liu duo'an, what did you finish on the fourth last month and today is the ninth. Your what has always been very accurate. It hasn't come yet and has been delayed a lot."

I took a breath from the corner of my mouth: "I can't remember when I came. You can remember better than me?"

Picking his eyebrow, Zhou Wei said: "I certainly remember correctly. On the 5th of last month, we either did it or you did it right away. I can remember it wrong. You were very passionate and cooperative that night. You forgot to toss until 1 a.m.? "

I have a black line on my face: "go away!"

Suddenly, Zhou Wei smiled in vain: "Liu duo'an, aren't you pregnant?"