Love's Gone

I don't know when the rope was ready. Zhou Wei tied it to him with a hemp rope as thick as my small arm. He should have worked hard to tie the knot. On his hanging palm, there were traces of being dragged and ground by the hemp rope. Each one was like a bottomless gully, constantly preventing me from leaning towards him.

After a long delay, I covered my mouth and forced it for how long. I tried my best to finish the psychological construction for myself, and also tried my best to repair and improve the lacrimal gland that was about to collapse. Only then did I slowly come forward, squat and gently touch Zhou Wei's shoulder with my hand. I pushed him: "Zhou Wei, wake up."

I pushed Zhou Wei about three or five times in a row. Zhou Wei's body was inspired. He suddenly opened his eyes. His confused eyes flashed over my face for a few seconds. After he reacted, he was like a kindergarten child who did something wrong and was afraid of the teacher's criticism. He smiled reluctantly: "Liu duo'an, why don't you sleep well."

Burying my face, I silently pulled the rope on him with my hand. I had to prove my powerlessness in vain. Only then could I stop with despair in my heart. I still wanted to resist the emotion of breaking the embankment, but as soon as I opened my mouth, thousands of sadness poured out: "why don't you sleep well and run around in the middle of the night. Why do you tie yourself with a rope? You're kidding. I can't digest it. "

Without any intention to untie himself, Zhou Wei pressed my hand and said, "Liu duo'an, don't toss this. The rope is too hard. Don't rub your hand quickly. Go back to your bedroom quickly. It's windy here. "

In vain of his resistance, I continued to break: "Zhou Wei, I can't untie it. Come and help me untie these broken ropes..."

The harder she pressed my hand, the lighter Zhou Wei's tone seemed to come from a mosquito who had been hungry for many days. It was as thin as a needle and pierced into my heart: "don't understand, just tie it. I may have made trouble after taking antipyretic drugs. I had some bad hallucinations. I always felt that someone came into the house. I looked for it with a knife for a long time. Later, I went to the balcony, I woke up when the wind blew. I couldn't stop being afraid. What if I was delirious and hurt you. That's it. I'll tie it. When I feel like I'm almost in shape, I'll loosen it. "

The eye socket suddenly became astringent. I couldn't stop crying for a long time: "I don't care. I don't want you to treat yourself like this. Zhou Wei, step on the horse and help me untie these ropes. If I can't do it again, I'll get scissors and cut it open. "

There was a moment of silence. Zhou Wei turned his face away. He only used the back of his head to me: "Liu duo'an, I know what's going on with me. Just let me do it, or I won't dare to share a room with you again. In the past, I was only afraid of hurting you. Now I have to be careful not to hurt you and my children. I'm so good, really good. "

Suddenly, I felt that I would knock to death and make Zhou Wei have to untie himself. Instead, it was a more oppressive kidnapping of his spirit. I depressed all my tumbling emotions. I pretended to be relaxed and said, "well, you can be as happy as you are. I support you. I can't sleep. Shall we have a drink? I haven't drunk with you for a long time. "

The atmosphere I tried to create was somewhat useful. Zhou Wei's state was no longer so tight. He was willing to turn his face to see me: "don't drink any wine with your baby."

I hurriedly: "you drink, I drink milk."

Then I stood up slowly, "I'll find you a bottle of good wine and give it to you. Ah, there's still a lot of work to do. The milk is in the fridge. If I want to drink, I have to heat it up. I'll toss it first. "

Standing straight, I deliberately stopped my expression, and then I put my hand over my stomach and stopped.

Zhou Wei was slow for a few seconds. He stood up: "Liu duo'an, what's the matter with you? Uncomfortable? Is it uncomfortable? "

I slowly leaned against him: "Zhou Wei, I seem to be a little dizzy. Please help me to the sofa to have a rest."

Maybe Zhou Wei also had doubts in his heart that my body could choose the right time, but he still put me first. He supported me with one hand and pulled the rope on his body quickly with the other hand. He seemed to burst out of infinite potential. He opened those confinements in two or three times, He bent down again and picked me up and carefully put me on the sofa.

It has reached the sensitive level of grass and trees. I'm too afraid that if I don't take one step, I will drag Zhou Wei into the abyss and darkness, and let him get into the tip of the ox horn and can't get out completely. I still need to resist the great sadness. I hold my head with my hand: "maybe I'm hungry, my head is still dizzy, Zhou Wei, can you help me warm a glass of milk."

It seemed that I commanded him and gave him great support. Zhou Wei's expression was soft and half. He whispered, "I'll go right away, Liu Duoan, wait."

The date of the imported milk Zhou Wei bought specially is still so fresh, but I can't eat the sweet taste in my mouth. Only endless bitterness and astringency stick to my throat. My eyes are red after being choked several times. I have to sniff to suppress the milk that I can't move. I usually only need a few minutes to destroy it, I drank it for almost half an hour.

As like as two peas, he looked at me. He looked at me. He used his light to see the light and shadow projected on the ground by his light. He stood still as straight as a white poplar tree that did not know how to bend around and turn around, just like the night I first saw him.

But time, time, reality, reality, lovely and cruel, we can never return to our first meeting.

Not confused about the future, but I feel countless fears. I dare not imagine what Zhou Weihui will look like in the near future. I dare not touch and peep. I can only pass the cup to Zhou Wei with full bitterness and smile as if nothing had happened: "I'm much better after drinking cow's milk."

Put the cup back on the tea table. Zhou Wei hesitated to move half a step towards me. He stretched out his hand and waited a few seconds before it fell on my head: "Liu duo'an, you silly girl."

The meaning of his words was ambiguous, like a painting splashed with ink and sprinkled with water, which constantly rendered a blur in my heart. I didn't have the strength to study whether he had seen through my little trick. I just climbed up and hugged his hand: "Zhou Wei, I want you to sleep with me."

The breath was hurried, and Zhou Wei answered for a long time: "I have a cold."

"You hold me from behind."

I quickly blocked his reason. I was afraid of losing him gradually. The panic made me entangled and cheeky: "it can't be infected, and the cold virus won't run."

There was silence for about three or four minutes. Zhou Wei was more powerless than me: "Liu Duoan, I'm afraid I'll hurt you."

Pretending to be strong, I smiled: "how can you hurt me? Do you have a blade or a thorn in your hand? What nonsense."

Then I broke his arm down and rubbed it with my face: "you haven't slept with me for many days. I'll think about whether you don't love me anymore. I occasionally wonder if you don't even touch me because I'm pregnant and can't do anything with you at the previous stage. "

Finally, Zhou Wei lost the battle. Zhou Wei's voice was very soft: "silly, what do you think? How can I not love you. Go back to your bedroom and go to bed. "

Lying side by side on the bed, Zhou Wei pulled over the quilt and covered us. He or held his breath. The sound of his breath was very weak, and I tried my best to restrain it. We kept silent.

From the moment he held my waist in his hand, I closed my eyes and didn't sleep anymore. I walked to dawn with the darkness in my wake.

When I got up in the morning, no one mentioned the farce in the middle of the night, but my stickiness to Zhou Wei went up another ladder. I didn't want to let him go out to buy vegetables alone. Even if I was half tired, I had to drag my body with him. Slowly, Zhou Wei was afraid of my hard work. He simply didn't go to the vegetable market. He didn't know where to find an aunt, Deliver things on time three times a day every day.

In addition to making food for me, in Zhou Wei's spare time, he will go to the study to deal with some big and small things at work. He should still take medicine. He avoids me. I occasionally clean up the trash can and see some small tinfoil containing drugs crumpled and thrown on the top.

Every time I see it, I always deliberately take a few paper towels to cover it, pretend I can't see it, and then put the garbage away and mention it outside the door.

In the quiet days, it was time for me to have a prenatal examination.

Maybe I came to whatever I was afraid of. When I finished the examination, the doctor familiar with Zhou Wei looked dignified and asked the nurse to call Zhou Wei to his office. He said that the baby's data was too much higher than the normal value, and there was a risk of chromosomal abnormalities. Then he brushed out a pile of lists for me, Let me do something noninvasive to further determine whether the fetus is dysplasia.

I was so frightened by this result that I didn't dare to go out. My whole body was as soft as water and grass. I changed the Department with the support of Zhou Wei and continued to toss and toss. After a series of inspections, the final results didn't come out so soon. My whole person has been beaten half to pieces. I look like a vegetable. I don't know to what extent the Lord wants to joke with me.

But I don't dare to be too presumptuous and sad. I have to take into account Zhou Wei's feelings and pretend to be optimistic: "Zhou Wei, don't worry. I checked online before. Many Baoma shared experience and said that even if NT didn't pass the inspection and did non-invasive, generally in the end, the baby is healthy. Don't worry too much."

About him, like me, he also had to take into account my feelings. He also needed to take measures. Zhou Wei wanted to stop talking. After a while, he smiled reluctantly: "let's talk about the results. Maybe it's just a scare."

Maybe he will mutter in his heart. Is it his reason that will lead to the abnormality of the child? Zhou Wei said this, and he was as quiet as a sculpture. I was afraid that when I said more and more mistakes, I was not in the mood. We were kidnapped and returned home in silence.

Zhou Wei tried his best to amuse me. He moved a lot of cold jokes and wanted to save me from sadness. I couldn't bear to see him work so hard. I could only bury all my worries and face Zhou Wei with a forced smile.

After two days of such suffering, there were some ripples.

Early in the morning, when I was on a business trip to Vietnam, Chun Tang, the docking person arranged by the United Nations General Assembly, called me and said that he had met his fate. He married his wife. His wife yearned for China. He also wanted to come to Shenzhen. He said that among many colleagues in the United Nations, he got along with me the most happily. He thought that since he was in Shenzhen, he wanted to have dinner together.

Although I left the UN General Assembly long ago, I can still clearly remember my discomfort when I first arrived in Vietnam. It was Chuntang who took me so quickly to adapt to the environment there and the way of communication and reception there. Therefore, even if I am bothered by a lot of bad things, I can't bear to refuse him.

Originally, Zhou Wei said he wanted to take me to the airport to meet people and have dinner together, but he temporarily answered the phone from Baolu and said that a channel had collapsed to negotiate with the advertiser. He had to go back.

Afraid of delaying Zhou Wei's time and his work, I said I hadn't gone back to the studio for a long time. I can go back for a walk first, and then go to the airport with Ma Xiaoyan to wait for Chuntang to have dinner.

Zhou Wei couldn't resist me. He sent me back to the studio. At my urging, he withdrew and did what he should do.

Breaking off with Ma Xiaoyan to finish the cases accumulated these days, I saw that the time was about the same, so I went out with Ma Xiaoyan.

I told Ma Xiaoyan about my pregnancy, so she came out of the elevator and asked for my car key: "Sister Liu, give me the key and I'll drive the car. I can't make you a pregnant woman to be my driver. I also want to wait until you have a big fat boy to recognize me as a godmother. "

I don't know if I can leave the child confused, but I haven't determined the bad news. I don't want to drag it out and nag about it, which affects Ma Xiaoyan's mood. I reluctantly put the key in her hand with a smile: "here, take it. I'm glad you don't have to work and enjoy it until you get your driver's license."

After receiving the car key, Ma Xiaoyan playfully turned around in a circle. She took the lead in going to my car: "ha, I'm old Yu. He's going to buy me a car. I haven't seen it yet. When I see it and pick up the car another day, I'll take you for a ride. Although I am a novice driver, my skills are also strong. Pregnant mother, take your time. I'll start the fire in the car and put on some music to listen to beauty. "

I didn't dare to walk too fast. I followed Ma Xiaoyan slowly. When I was about to get close to the car, my mobile phone suddenly rang. I quickly took it out and looked at it. It was Zhou Siyun's name.

There was a bad feeling in my mind. I clicked. I hurriedly pressed the answer button.

Zhou Siyun, who once faced me in a dull state several times, pressed her voice like a thief. Her tone was logical and clear: "Liu duo'an, you leave your car, your car is equipped with a time bomb, you leave your car, come on!"

I was terrified. I didn't have time to ask Zhou Siyun. I subconsciously dropped my cell phone and rushed to the car. While running, I shouted: "Xiaoyan, there's a bomb. Come down, Xiaoyan! Get out of my car, come on! Come on! Come on! "

However, it's too late.