Love's Gone

As soon as my brain exploded, numbness overflowed and filled every inch of my scalp. I seemed to be down from head to head by a bucket of ice. I held the back of the sofa to prevent my legs from getting soft and lying down. I forced myself to be calm: "Chen Hui, don't worry first and speak clearly."

My words didn't pull Chen Hui out of the vortex of panic. Instead, she was more nervous and stuttered: "Liu... President Liu... I just... Just joked with... Xiaoyan..."

She has already used the word "to kill people". How can I completely calm down? I interrupted her: "say the point."

Chen Hui suddenly cried more fiercely: "Xiaoyan, she doesn't know what's going on, suddenly fell to the ground, pressed her stomach and vomited. Now she's coughing and out of breath. Her face is all green. It's scary. I didn't respond to her. What should president Liu do?"

My heart was burning. I tried my best to keep my voice steady and said, "Chen Hui, don't worry first. You pick up Ma Xiaoyan, face down, make a vortex in the palm of your hand and pat her on the back. I'll arrange the rest."

This head hung up the phone. In the eyes of Zhou Wei's inquiry, I first hurriedly dialed and called an ambulance. Then I pulled up my bag and became a little soft with excessive worry: "I have something to go out..."

Zhou Wei opened the door directly: "your state is not suitable for driving. I'll see you off where you want to go."

People's lives are at stake. Where do I have the mind to refuse him: "Sha Zui."

Zhou Wei skillfully reversed the garage and drove out without my reminding and urging. He drove the car very fast at a safe speed. My heart was calmer and my reason took root. I quickly called the colleagues who came to my house for dinner last time and asked them to help me.

During the ordeal, I managed to reach Shazui. Ma Xiaoyan had been admitted to the nearest benevolence hospital. The two male colleagues helped run. She had been pushed to get an examination. I patted Chen Hui who was still trembling to comfort her, and then got Ma Xiaoyan's mobile phone from her.

Because Ma Xiaoyan has a clear and refreshing way of doing things, I easily turned to her home phone.

Contact Ma Xiaoyan's family and make sure they are in Dongguan. It took more than three hours to come to Shenzhen. I asked Chen Hui and the two guys to go back and have a rest first.

In a twinkling of an eye, the only people waiting outside were Zhou Wei and me.

After all, this is a hospital. My surging heart has sunk to the bottom of the valley. After looking at the time, I found that it was already 11:30 unconsciously. I looked at Zhou Wei with some apology: "I didn't expect this trouble at the end of the night, otherwise I'll give you the key to my house. You go back and have a rest, I..."

Zhou Wei glanced at me: "you haven't eaten your dinner yet. I'll get you what you want to eat."

I shook my head: "I have no appetite. Go and have some."

I'm still sorry to drag him here at night. I stopped and said, "I don't know what time I have to get tonight. Why don't you want to stay at my house alone..."

"Don't think about how to arrange me. I just want to stay with you." Shrugged, Zhou Wei said, "I'll get you some seafood porridge to fill your stomach. I'll be right back."

Without giving me another chance to beep, Zhou Wei went straight.

As the night grew darker and nearer to zero, the hospital became more and more lonely. Fortunately, the bright lights alleviated my anxiety of being alone. Through the mottled light, I sat in my chair holding my hands tightly, and my heart was full of waves, just staring at the door of the laboratory.

I was in a trance. A leisurely but disorderly sound of footsteps in my ears pulled my attention away.

I saw a woman over half a hundred years old and a young boy coming this way in a hurry.

I'm not sure they are ma Xiaoyan's family members. I didn't take the initiative to ask questions, just waiting for them to approach.

The visitor didn't have any communication with me. The two stood firm. The woman said to the young boy, "Da Jun, call your sister."

After a while, Ma Xiaoyan was shocked by the mobile phone I carried in my trouser pocket. I determined, took out the phone, pressed it, and then came forward: "Hello, aunt, are you Ma Xiaoyan..."

The woman was also acute: "I am. I am. You are my Xiaoyan's colleague, aren't you? You just called me?"

I nodded and was about to tell her that Ma Xiaoyan was still doing an examination to reassure her. The door of the laboratory opened. A nurse asked Ma Xiaoyan's family with a stack of lists.

Coincidentally, Ma Xiaoyan's mother and I came forward side by side.

Speaking quickly, the nurse said, "the patient has acute cellulitis appendicitis. The situation is not particularly good. He already has local peritonitis. He must be operated on immediately, otherwise the consequences will be unimaginable. The family members understand. Come on, sign these lists for me. "

Ma Xiaoyan's mother said, "what do you mean, tell me again."

His temper was very good. The nurse took the trouble to change those words into more understandable terms and said them to Ma Xiaoyan's mother again.

When I didn't expect it at all, Ma Xiaoyan's mother suddenly exploded: "what? You said you wanted an operation? I see. You hospitals are asking for money. If you have a small problem, you say you want an operation. You are a young girl who also swindles money with the hospital. Do you want to face it? My family Xiaoyan is in good health. She's not cured. You get someone out for me. I'll go to the drugstore and buy some tablets for her. "

Or the nurse is still good tempered when she is used to questioning people who don't understand: "aunt, the patient's situation is very urgent. If it is not handled in time, it will cause more complications, and the patient will suffer more..."

Her eyes were wide and wide, and Ma Xiaoyan's mother stared at the nurse as if she wanted to eat people: "I'll tell you, I said no treatment! I have no money! And those I don't recognize that you just checked. Don't think about asking me for money if I don't recognize that account! "

As she said, Ma Xiaoyan's mother also stretched out her hand to try to grab the documents from the nurse.

After the nurse stepped back from her hand, she greeted the boy who came with her: "Da Jun, hurry to help mom grab those lists and tear them up, so as to save the hospital from sucking blood with them."

That big Jun, who looks good and looks good, doesn't look like such an unreasonable person. He actually listens to Ma Xiaoyan's mother's command and rushes up to rob him.

Waking up from a trance, I stopped in front of the nurse's door in three steps and shouted at Da Jun: "stop it!"

This was stopped by me. Dajun hesitated and nailed there. I made room and said to the nurse, "give me the list that needs to be signed."

Or when she saw me, she ate and lived with Dajun. The nurse was very cooperative and gave me the list and pen together.

Not in a hurry to speak, I patted the list on the nearby guide table and said to Ma Xiaoyan's mother, "come here immediately and sign!"

Although Ma Xiaoyan's mother was temporarily stunned by me, she was a seasoned veteran. She just showed her sincere gratitude to me and stared at me with her enemy's eyes: "I see your little girl looks handsome. Why is her heart so vicious? I think you are the support of the hospital. Together, she took money out of my pocket. I'll never sign this word. Give up. I'll take my Xiaoyan out and I'll fix it for her myself... "

Even though I almost tried my best to restrain it, I still couldn't control the surge of anger in my heart: "is money important, or is your daughter's life important?"

Ma Xiaoyan's mother was shocked when I yelled. She frowned: "this is my family business. You are an outsider. You don't pay your money. You're so easy to say. Anyway, I don't care. Even if you tell me a hole in the sky, I won't cure it. Buy some medicine for more than ten yuan and have an operation. It won't cost tens of thousands of dollars. I don't have this money. "

Looking at her face, I can no longer hold the door of memory from being rushed open. I can't stop my nausea. My anger is completely diluted by these nausea. I'm inexplicably depressed and have no strength to confront her.

He covered his mouth and nose with his hands and rubbed them. I said, "you sign. I'll pay for the medical expenses. I'll pay for them all. You sign."

Looking at me, Ma Xiaoyan's mother was skeptical: "did you take it out? You're just trying to be frank. You take it out? "

Anxious, I couldn't resist the urge to slap her to death, and stuck my throat: "I'm Ma Xiaoyan's boss. I'll pay for the money. You sign it quickly! Treatment can't wait! "

In her eyes, Ma Xiaoyan's mother seemed to be excited about discovering the new world: "you, you are Xiaoyan's boss, then I have to tell you, my Xiaoyan, this is an industrial injury, you have to pay for nutrition... And the medical expenses you said, otherwise you give me the money and I'll deal with it myself..."

Ma Xiaoyan's situation was unknown inside. As the person who gave birth to her and raised her, she could not be impatient and bargain with me. This woman refreshed my new understanding of the ugliness of human nature. The anger I tried hard to suppress was raised again. These anger hoodwinked my reason. I grabbed her hand and forced her to hold the pen: "I asked you to sign for me, you sign for me, Don't make so much nonsense! "

What I felt was intense, so that Ma Xiaoyan mother howled like a pig, "let go, you nerve, how can you be a person like you, Xiao Yan is my baby, how can I has the final say, what do you think?"

The more she scolded, the higher my anger was. I almost wanted to crush her wrist bone and squeeze her hand on the table. Her uncontrollable scream was like a sharp thorn floating out of her mouth and drilling into my ear, which made me more upset and furious: "scum, you are scum! Ma Xiaoyan is your daughter. Why didn't you save her? Why didn't you save her? I asked you why didn't you save her! Money is more important than human life. You will have a bad conscience all your life. I tell you! "

I roared louder and louder. My own voice mixed with Ma Xiaoyan's mother's curse was like beating a drum or hurting me. My tears were endless like the misty rain in the south of the Yangtze River, directly covering my head.

Finally, Zhou Wei separated Ma Xiaoyan's mother and me.

One of the few, he was very gentle to me: "Liu duo'an, calm down and leave it to me."

The tone was particularly gentle, but Zhou Wei's execution was beyond doubt. He forcibly sent me to a chair to comfort me to sit down. He turned back and whispered something to Ma Xiaoyan's mother. After a while, he successfully asked Ma Xiaoyan's mother to sign.

When I got the confirmation, the nurse who was stunned by my abnormality eased up. She told me to keep quiet and went inside.

And I recovered from the excitement. I saw my hair through the Milky glass baffle on the opposite side. I looked at Ma Xiaoyan's mother and Da Jun inclined me with crazy eyes. I recalled the scene just now. I was embarrassed. Zhou Wei, who had settled everything and returned to me, asked, "am I particularly out of shape?"

Zhou Wei's hand covered my head and patted it: "fortunately, you're just warm-hearted."

After a pause, Zhou Wei said in a relaxed tone: "I asked. Acute appendicitis is a common problem. Liu Duoan, don't be too nervous. Ma Xiaoyan is fine."

In my heart, I felt terrible. My nose was too sour. I rubbed it hard for several times, but I couldn't completely suppress the acid. I finally buried my face in an attempt to hide my loneliness under cover.

He didn't pierce me, but he didn't give me a chance to fall alone. Zhou Wei buttoned around my shoulder: "how about some porridge?"

I bit my lip and said, "I don't want to eat."

I really have no appetite.

The power of bad memory is amazing. It sweeps thousands of troops like a roll. I can't get rid of it anymore. The feeling of cold is like a shadow. I just want to buy a bottle of Erguotou, drink it wantonly, and then cry wantonly.

But I don't have that right now.

And I can only choose another way to vent.

Standing up, I said, "I'll wash my hands."

With this handy excuse, I shut myself in the dark bathroom alone. I took out my cell phone and dialed my mother Huang Fang.

At this point, she may have fallen asleep completely, but she didn't answer.

If you don't give up, I dialed my brother Liu Duoming again.

The result is still the same.

With the emotion that could not be vented and the depression that could not be responded, I returned to the door of the operating room lazily.

Ma Xiaoyan's mother and that big Jun are still sitting there. She is afraid that I will let Ma Xiaoyan lose her job. What's the matter? She doesn't dare to face me openly, but there's something in her eyes that can't be covered up. She completely treats me as a psycho.

I hate people like her. I don't want to have many entanglements with her and simply ignore her.

Later, I drank a few mouthfuls of porridge under Zhou Wei's soft grinding and hard soaking, which can be regarded as a supplement to my physical strength.

I want to stay and wait for the results of the operation. Zhou Wei refuses to go back to rest by himself. We cling to each other to kill the fatigue caused by the slow passage of time.

Watching him stay with me when he was sleepy, there was a strong emotion in my heart, like a layer of thick honey flowing and scouring. These subtle boiling made my love for him seem to rise several degrees.

His quiet hours with me made my inner feelings surge and pushed me towards him, which successfully made me completely relax in front of him, and the tight nerve was soft.

At more than four o'clock in the morning, Ma Xiaoyan was pushed out. Her anesthetic strength had not passed, and she slept very heavily. Her mother knew that she didn't need her to pay thousands of yuan for medical expenses. She took good care of it. She wiped her face with hot water and did it quite hot. And I see Zhou Wei running around with me, choosing to retreat temporarily.

After tidying up the dinner table, I took turns to take a bath. The sky was already bright. My complex and active thinking could not cope with the ensuing sleepiness. Zhou Wei and I countered face to face and fell asleep quickly.

In recent years, my dreams often haunt me. There is no suspense to invade again. The familiar scenes are superimposed layer by layer. I wake up with breath when I am about to be suffocated.

Coincidentally, my mobile phone screen went out, and those small lights danced into my eyes.

Looking at Zhou Wei, who was sleeping soundly on his side, I grabbed my mobile phone and went straight to the balcony.

Huang Fang's voice was a little hoarse: "Ann, why did you call home so late last night? What's up? I was surprised to see that you called in the morning. I thought something had happened to you. "

Or Huang Fang's words really hide a mother's deepest worry about her daughter, but these things can't shake me.

And when I calmed down, those passionate emotions that needed to be vented by attacking her were too quiet to turn over ripples for the time being. I said coldly, "it's okay, that's it. I'll hang up."

But she called me anxiously. Huang Fang said anxiously, "Ann, wait first. Let me tell you something. Your brother wants to buy a house... "

Well, she succeeded in arousing my anger. I was dominated by anger. I was unscrupulous: "Huang Fang, in fact, I've always wanted to know that if the person who got sick was Liu Duoming, would you break the pot and sell iron to him?"

There was a moment of silence, and Huang Fang shouted loudly as if someone had pinched her tail: "what are you talking about, cursing your brother early in the morning, your brother provoked you, why are you so..."

Holding my mobile phone tightly, I trembled all over and my voice floated high: "I just want to ask you, have you slept well in recent years? Do you eat well? Do you have nightmares, dream that she came back to you, dream that she cried in front of you and said she wanted to live. She begged you not to leave her. Do you have any, do you?"

After gritting my teeth and falling those two words, I squatted on the ground and cried bitterly. I let my mobile phone fall to the ground, but I didn't move, just wantonly crying and howling.

The running tears blurred my sight. The sobs from sobbing temporarily disturbed my hearing. I didn't notice Zhou Wei's approach. He had hugged me from behind.

His voice was as soft as a cloud on a sunny day: "all right, all right, stop crying."

The line of defense I had built over the years was easily broken by him with such a sentence. I turned around and hugged his neck, but wailed even louder.

Zhou Wei showed his strong patience to me for the first time. His hand patted on my back and calmed me silently.

When my eyes were soaked with tears, I finally stopped this scene. I was vaguely sprinkled for too long. I was full of apologies: "I'm sorry to wake you up."

He shook his head indifferently. Zhou Wei's eyes and eyebrows condensed on my face. He looked like he wanted to talk and stopped talking with me for about half a minute. He seemed to make a great determination and said, "Liu duo'an, otherwise we'll have an open talk. How about you tell me the thorns you can't let go, and I'll tell you the changes I've experienced in the past two years?"