Love's Gone

After breathing a sigh, Zhou Wei added, "I don't mean to pry into your privacy. I just suddenly feel that we will be relative day and night. We know each other's roots, so as to avoid stabbing each other's pain points because of ignorance. Of course, this is my own opinion. If you think it's bad, it's up to you. "

Over the past few years, I have covered the thing that almost shattered all my cognition in the wet bottom of my heart. I never dare to show people easily or expose myself to the sun. Over time, I think I have forgotten almost. I can finally get out of that gray darkness and move forward with vitality towards the broad road of life, At this moment, however, I realized that I was wrong.

Facts have proved that the deeper it is buried, the more it ferments in my heart, brewing infinite bubbles, waiting for a timely opportunity to break through the earth and become a sharp knife inserted into my heart.

Or ordinary people always follow selfishness, and so do I. I urgently need an emotional outlet that can let me temporarily relieve the coverage of that shadow on me.

Sitting on the floor, I lowered my eyebrows and eyes with a soft voice like Yan: "I once had a sister named Liu Duohui."

The tone was shallow and wrinkled, and Zhou Wei muttered, "once?"

The two hands were hooked together and attached to each other to support me. I continued: "Liu Duohui is three years different from me. She has been very different from my character since she was young. I am a tough and fearless person, and Liu Duohui has always been very weak and good. It is precisely because of her character that she relies on me. When I was in junior high school, the middle school was far away from my home and I had to ride a bike, but my home was a shorter women's bike. On the first day of my junior high school, Liu Duohui took her home from school and then from home to school every day. Liu Duohui relied more on me, so that I graduated from junior high school and was arranged by my mother to go to Maoming City to study technical secondary school, Liu Duohui cried at home for many days. She couldn't bear me. "

It was not easy to stop the tears. When it poked out its head to see the vast world, it also washed my vision into a blur. I curled my right hand into a ball and stuffed it into my mouth to stop crying. In addition, "the technical secondary school I read was closed, the management was very strict, and I couldn't go out casually. At that time, there were few telephone communications, and I wrote letters. At that time, Liu Duohui wrote me a letter every other week, saying that she missed me very much and wanted me to take her to the nearby agricultural science market to buy some gold and silver grass. She always told me that she was big or small, but it was difficult for me to get stamps. I usually return one letter to her every two months. I always rewrite three pieces of paper with gram, Liu Duohui and I just enjoy this and not that... Cough... "

Zhou Wei put his hand on my shoulder and patted. He comforted me in a deep voice: "speak slowly."

After choking several times, I said with a bitter smile: "on the eve of the end of my technical secondary school trip, the school revealed that our group of plane students would be assigned to Shenzhen. At that time, a county girl who had never seen the world was so happy that I immediately told Liu Duohui about it. She was already studying in senior one at that time. I happily said to let her study hard and study in Shenzhen in the future, So I can take care of her. Liu Duohui replied to my last letter. She said she wanted me to prepare for graduation. During this period, she won't bother me. I... I listened to her. "

Wiping the tearful eye socket with my hand, my shoulder shook badly: "after the graduation ceremony, the school began to release me that day. I went shopping with my classmates and took the money to save money. I bought Liu Duohui her favorite egg roll. I couldn't wait to tell her, so I called home. It's my mother. Well, call her Huang Fang. I don't think she's a good match. Huang Fang answered the phone. I wanted to find Liu Duohui. She took a long time to find someone for me. At that time, I used the public phone of the canteen. I looked at it and kept jumping fees. I was very worried. I was still complaining about Liu Duohui's ink now. Later, Liu Duohui still didn't answer my phone, but Huang Fang told me that Liu Duohui was ill and very serious. "

"The egg roll I was holding and the little bear slippers I bought for Liu Duohui fell to the ground and were broken. I left my bedclothes and other sundries in the dormitory. I stuffed the bag of egg rolls and slippers into my backpack and ran as fast as I could to buy tickets and take the bus home. Finally, I saw Liu Duohui, who was already skinny. She was very weak. Her mouth was dry and cracked, and red blood came out. Her voice was not as clear as before. It seemed that she was choking and stuck by something. It was very sandy and heavy. She couldn't eat her favorite omelet, and her favorite bear slippers couldn't arouse her enthusiasm. She was completely lifeless like an old man. I looked very scared and panicked. I asked my family to take her to the hospital. I also said that I could go out to work immediately to earn money to treat Liu Duohui. Those days at home, I either helped Liu Duohui sit on her bike and pushed her out for fresh air, or I ran to the nearby garment factory to see if there was anyone in need. I worked so hard to keep her alive. "

I squeezed my nose hard and rubbed it hard. I pressed those hot and astringent people who kept running sideways: "however, my efforts are always weak. Liu Duohui's situation is becoming more and more serious. She is angry that if the hairspring seems to be able to leave at any time, I can't be optimistic anymore. I know she can't hold up with her situation. On the day when I work and I earn a lot of money, I begged Huang Fang to take out all her family savings to save Liu Duohui. When Liu Duohui gets well, I will try to make money for her. Huang Fang didn't refuse or say yes at that time, or was afraid to interrupt my pouring beans. Zhou Wei didn't interrupt. He silently handed me a look encouraging me to continue.

When the chatterbox was completely opened, even without the support from others, I was still grinding my teeth: "she didn't have the money to treat Liu Duohui, but she had the money to marry Liu Duoming! It was only a year after Liu Duohui died. She was able to give Liu Duoming 60000 yuan as his wife's book, bride price gifts and banquet! She has no money to cure her daughter, but she has money to marry her son! In her opinion, her daughter's life is not as important as her son's marriage! In this way, the tears she had shed in front of me became a cat crying and a mouse pretending to be merciful and a show. Moreover, Liu Duohui has been gone for only one year. As the person who ruthlessly left Liu Duohui and cut off all the survival opportunities of Liu Duohui, she has started a new life. She married her son a daughter-in-law and gave birth to grandchildren, but Liu Duohui's life stopped in the most youthful years. When she left, she was alone on a strange mountain without her family. "

When I clenched my fist and loosened it again, I tried my best to rub away the running tears: "I hate Huang Fang, Liu Duoming, and even my henpecked father. I hate them and hate a pit. But I also hate myself. I hate my incompetence. I hate my incompetence. I even want to be a little older than Liu Duohui. I often think that if I am much older than Liu Duohui, I come out to work early. I have my own savings and I have the ability, I may change this situation. But ah, it's a pity that it never cares how sad I am when I step on a horse. It will always be rooted in my body and inseparable from me. It entrenches and becomes a part of me. It erodes and devours my flesh and blood. It makes me feel more insecure and arouses my desire for money. In recent years, in addition to money or money, I began to wonder what my original intention was. "

Around my shoulder, Zhou Wei directly put me in his arms, put his hand on my shoulder and patted calmly: "Liu duo'an, good."

His simple words have magical power. It seems to wash my soul swaying in the wind and rain. The big stone I pressed in my heart still exists, but it has been loosened for more than half because of his support.

This is the first time in a long time that I feel relieved.

Put my chin on Zhou Wei's shoulder and I said softly, "thank you for listening to me so much."

"You're welcome. It's my honor to hear you talk about your life so openly. "

Suddenly he became very good at chatting. Zhou Wei held me up and said, "the ground is cold and dusty. Liu Duoan, let's go back to the hall."

The dawn had not penetrated all the obstacles to reach the room, and the hall was still shrouded in obscurity, which was like plating a layer of fog on Zhou Wei's outline, so that I couldn't see his expression clearly.

But his voice was very clear. He said, "Liu duo'an, are you still in the mood to listen to my experience? If not, put it on hold and I'll talk to you next time. "

All of a sudden, I've been shuttling from my memory for so long. I'm really tired, but I want to know that Zhou Wei's inner desire is above fatigue. And he is always less serious now. I really don't know how long I will have to wait to touch his heart if I miss this opportunity.

I quickly answered him, "say it now."

Instead of being coy and making jokes, Zhou Wei calmly said, "before I met you, my life was very simple, all rules and regulations were relatively pure."

I believe him.

Although at the beginning of my acquaintance with him, he did flirt with me across the Internet, his flirtation at that time was the difference between primary school students and doctoral students.

Think of his eyes as pure as a farmer's mountain spring that year, I believe him more.

Similarly, in order not to interrupt his thinking, I said, "you say, I listen."

Zhou Wei's voice was even deeper: "although I didn't worry about money from childhood, my education since childhood was very harsh. My father is a slightly rigid but pure person. He is afraid that I will learn bad. He rarely lets me play with my peers from the same family. He also tries to control me from those bad habits. It can be said that in those days before I was 25, I had been over protected. I didn't know that the society was complex and people had evil intentions. "

With his hands across my hair, Zhou Wei spoke a lot slower: "it is precisely because he has been scoring little for more than 20 years that I met you on the Internet that night. Your enthusiasm and boldness soon beat me. I suddenly had a lot of imagination about you. Later, I made an appointment to meet you. I think you look very beautiful. The enthusiasm for chatting on the Internet is instantly transferred to reality. "

Well, didn't he say he wanted to tell me his experience in the past two years? Where did it go?

Although I was quite happy to listen to him analyze his mental journey before and after he met me, I was more interested in the two years he seemed to be secretive, and when I saw that he was in good condition, I naturally said, "why do you pave so much?"

The palm spread out and covered my head. Zhou Wei rubbed heavily and was a little lonely: "I want to say something easy to ease the atmosphere and give myself some buffer time."

Following his words, I looked into his eyes. I found that as long as I tried my best to stare, I could still find that his eyes were clearly endless desolation. He seemed to be wrestling with something.

I suddenly couldn't bear it: "if you don't know where to start for the time being, next time."

Shaking his head, Zhou Wei said faintly, "that won't work. It's my proposal to be frank. I can't listen to your sharing. I'll be a shrinking turtle. "

After a pause, he pulled out his hand and curled up into a ball. He buried his face and stared at his fist: "Liu duo'an, can I briefly let you know without talking about the detailed process?"

I think that after six years, I still can't get away from it. I can better understand that it's not easy for Zhou Wei to fight with binding. I nodded: "yes, it's up to you."

Not in a hurry to raise his head, Zhou Wei said, "my father died. I missed seeing him for the last time. He died more than three hours before he was found. Before he died, he was alone and there was no one around him. "

His voice was as light as a cloud, but it was as heavy as a kilo. It hit my heart. I felt it, and I felt his sad vein from his words.

No matter how good the comforting words of others are, they can't offset the polishing brought by the real pain. I know this well and can't help but hold his shoulder.

Zhou Wei responded to me. He leaned against me and took me as a support. He said slowly: "then, less than a month after my father died, my mother, no, no, no, I should learn from you. I should call her Mao Jieqiong more comfortable. Mao Jieqiong remarried within 26 days of the death of the man who had spoiled her for more than 20 years and was responsive to her demands and tolerated her lawlessness. "

Even though Zhou Weiquan sketched these words with an understatement, it was like a heavy hammer smashing the air into pieces, and I felt uncomfortable.

I really can't say that everyone has the right to start over.

Mao Jieqiong's amorous feelings made me stunned when others listened, not to mention Zhou Wei.

Just grasp his hand, I weighed and tried to say something, but Zhou Wei's hand wrapped around my neck like a vine and climbed over. His chin suddenly rested on my shoulder. After he was perfectly staggered opposite my four eyes, he bit every word as hard as cutting it off with a knife: "of course I know that the dead are dead, and so are the living, Of course I won't ask Mao Jieqiong to indulge in the pain of losing her husband for the rest of her life. "

After a few seconds' pause, Zhou Wei poured a big pot of dog blood on his face with a simple sentence, which made me stare and sigh that I was ignorant at the same time.