Never deeply in love

The servant was used to it and went down to prepare without saying anything. Mo-tse han took the child from Cai Shuya's hand. "You eat first."

Cai Shuya looked at the child reluctantly. When Ming Yue was carried to her side, she was also such a small soft ball, and her child. Now that she thought about it, she didn't even know how she had made up her mind to do that.

Mo-tse held the child in his arms and was about to hand him over to the nanny to take him back to his room. The moment he turned around, he saw Bai Mingyue standing not far behind him, who had just come out of the room, and he was stunned.

When cai shuya saw her coming out, she was also stunned. Her eyes were sore and she called her subconsciously, "Ming Yue."

Her voice trembled violently, and her trembling body seemed to be carrying an unbearable weight.

Bai Mingyue was in her home clothes. She had just woken up and her hair was still a little messy. She stood there, slim and thin. Before the moon had finished sitting, she had lost a lot of weight. With so much nutrition during pregnancy, the weight gain seemed to have been reduced at once.

She looked at Cai Shuya calmly, at her guilty and uneasy expression, with no joy or sorrow on her face. She looked into her eyes and did not speak. Ever since she gave birth to the child, she had been avoiding something.

This was the first time in so many days that they had seen each other like this. This was the first time that she had looked at her like this without avoiding her. But now, they are no longer mother and daughter, how ridiculous.

As if she didn't know how to face her, cai shuya looked away and stood still, at a loss. Bai Mingyue didn't look at her anymore, but at Chen Chen in Mo Zihan's arms. "Let's eat."

She said, her voice very soft and almost inaudible. After that, she went straight to the table and sat down. She hadn't come out for a long time and had dinner with them. There are some things that you have to face sooner or later.

The nanny carried the child back to her room. Mo Zihan didn't say anything but greeted Cai Shuya. "Mom, sit down and eat together."

Cai Shuya hesitated for a long time and finally sat down diagonally opposite them. She kept her head down and kept eating the rice in the bowl. She wanted to take a good look at Bai Mingyue, but she didn't dare. Bai Mingyue did not say a word and ate in silence.

The three of them sat down to eat together. The atmosphere had never been as quiet and depressing as it was today. It was very uncomfortable. The meal was so tasteless that it ended without knowing what to eat.

After dinner, cai shuya was about to leave when Bai Mingyue stopped her. "I have something to tell you."

Cai Shuya froze and nodded. After so many days, this was the first thing Bai Mingyue said to her. She looked at Bai Mingyue, her face expressionless, as cold as she had never been before, and her heart felt a twinge of pain.

Mo Zihan looked at Bai Mingyue, obviously surprised. Bai Mingyue looked at her again. "I want to talk to her alone, okay?"

The man pursed his thin lips tightly, a flicker of hesitation in his eyes, but he still nodded. "Okay, I'll go to the study to deal with something first."

He turned and walked away, his heart heaving as never before. Bai Mingyue's indifference and politeness were like a blunt knife on his heart, dull pain, but no way to attack.

After Mo Zihan left, Bai Mingyue and cai shuya were speechless and did not speak for a moment. After a moment of silence, Bai Mingyue walked to the living room sofa and sat down. His eyes fell on the suitcase beside his hair, and his eyes paused.

She looked at Cai Shuya, and Cai Shuya's eyes flashed with uneasiness. "Are you leaving?"

Bai Mingyue asked, frowning. A glimmer of light flashed in Cai Shuya's eyes, and Ming Yue was still reluctant to part with her. A glimmer of hope rose in her heart, but she felt sad. She nodded and explained incoherently, "No, I, I just moved out. I'm here... It's not convenient."

Bai Mingyue lowered his eyes and smiled faintly. "Okay."

The smile quickly faded from the corner of her mouth, and there was no expression on her face. Cai Shuya froze, his heart filled with sadness. After all, she lost her daughter. Her throat was blocked so badly that she opened her mouth but did not make a sound.

Bai Mingyue lowered her head, her eyes unfocused. She was silent for a while, then she asked very clearly, "You are not my mother, and Bai Guoqiang is not my father, right?"

Clearly, the truth has been revealed, but why, there is always some inexplicable unwillingness in the bottom of my heart. Without hearing her own admission, she always felt that something was missing. After all, it was not easy for her to accept and digest the fact that her parents were not her own.

Cai Shuya felt a tear in his heart, almost numb from the pain. "Yes, Ming Yue, you are the daughter of the Shangguan family. Yingxue is my biological child."

"Oh." Bai Mingyue looked at her, his eyes bland. She was no longer as excited as she was when she learned the truth on her wedding day. At this moment, she was very calm and calm.

"Ming Yue, I'm sorry. I was confused for a moment, and I just..."

"You knew Shangguan Yingxue's parents were my real parents?" Bai Mingyue was a little absent-minded, muttering softly, as if asking her, as if telling himself that the sadness in his eyes was finally irrepressible.

"No, no, Ming Yue." Cai Shuya looked up at her with tears in her eyes and quickly explained, "I didn't know who your biological parents were at first. Back then, I only saw your own mother in the hospital with a servant taking care of her. She looked very rich, and I didn't have time to ask, just..."

As she spoke, she looked at Bai Mingyue and thought about how he had changed her back then. Her heart felt like a knife, and the pain was almost unbearable. Back then, she was alone in the hospital giving birth to a child, and Bai Guoqiang owed a lot of gambling debts, and no one knew where to hide.

Holding her newborn child in her arms, she thought that she would be with her in the future, living like that with a man like Bai Guoqiang. In all her despair, she did not even think much about it, so she decided to give her to someone else, at least better than following her.

Therefore, she did not care, and did not spend much time to inquire. To her, being with anyone was a hundred times better than being with parents like her and Bai Guoqiang. Not to mention Xuan Rouxin, who was in the same room with her at the time, and her servants called her madam without asking. They knew that she was a man of status, but they didn't know why she came to such a small hospital to give birth.

"... I only know that your birth mother's name is Xuan Rouxin. I guessed that she should be the wife of a rich family. I don't know her real identity. After Yingxue found me, I recognized her. It was only later that I realized that she was now the daughter of the Shangguan family."

Her fingers tightened and Bai Mingyue's eyes were sad. She needed a mother's love for her child so that she could recognize the child she had never seen in more than 20 years. Is this the reason for the biological relationship? What about her biological mother, who didn't recognize her just because she didn't know that her child had been replaced that year?

"Is that so?" Tears welled up in her eyes. Bai Mingyue bit his lips and forced back the tears in his eyes, but he couldn't help but ask her sadly, "So, if Zi Han didn't tell me about this, how long are you going to keep it from me? Hmm?"

"Ming Yue, I..." Cai Shuya choked and looked down guiltily, not daring to look at her.

"Are you going to lie to me for the rest of your life and never let me know who my biological parents are?" Bai Mingyue asked again in a mournful voice.

Tears fell, and Cai Shuya felt that her words weighed so heavily that she could barely lift her head and gasp.

"No wonder you treat Shangguan Yingxue so well. You see how much pain she is being treated like a darling by my own mother, and how much peace of mind you have. After she took over the love of my parents, and you loved her silently behind her, you don't think I'm so pitiful. When you see me, don't you feel a little bit unbearable? Huh?"

Bai Mingyue's voice was not loud. Her eyes were full of tears, but she could not bear not to cry. The questioning was enough to make Cai Shuya break down.

"No, Ming Yue. I'm sorry. I... I'm sorry too. I feel sorry for you, but I don't know... I'm sorry for Ming Yue. I'm sorry for you. I'm sorry for your parents."

Bai Mingyue shook her head and suppressed what she had said for so many days. Although she was sad, she seemed to put something down. She interrupted her. "You don't feel sorry for me. You miss your own daughter after seeing Shangguan Yingxue, and you want to recognize her, right?"

It was a question, but she no longer needed an answer.

Cai Shuya shook his head with tears in his eyes, but did not know how to explain it. How could she explain it so that Ming Yue could believe that she had hoped to hear Yingxue call her mother in her lifetime?

But she was the child that she had brought up with her for more than twenty years. If yingxue was going to lose her, she would rather keep the truth forever. Unfortunately, there was no ifs.

Bai Mingyue did not look at her. She closed her eyes and the tears in her eyes finally fell. She curled her lips and smiled. The smile was so bitter that she realized how ridiculous and pathetic she had been all these years.

No wonder bai guoqiang had such intentions towards her. Perhaps that man had already discovered that she was not his biological daughter. It turned out that he was not her biological father, but she had been living in deep shame for having such a father.

"It doesn't matter. I still want to thank you. At least you raised me and worked hard for me to study. At least, you once truly loved me. Now that you want to recognize your own daughter, there's nothing wrong with it."

She said softly, looking at the suitcase under her feet. "What are your plans for the future? Go hit Shangguan Yingxue. After all, she's your real daughter."