Perilous Deep Love

Jiantong stood in front of the plain white gate for a long time. Finally, she reached out and pushed the door open.

"I don't eat." In the room, a sickbed, Jianmo white looks haggard, these days, he lives in anxiety, the desire to live, let him struggle in the pain.

But too much pain, also with the passage of time, more and more despair.

Struggling with illness and despair, he wanted to live, to live, to enjoy the light and wine, and to return to the past carefree days.

Mrs. Jane has been washing her face with tears all day. She can't see that someone is weeping and sighing all day long. Mrs. Jane has been ill recently, but she breathes a sigh of relief. She can let the person who sighs in front of her eyes all day long leave her.

Only the Housekeeper will come to deliver food. Mrs. Jane has hired the best nurse for her beloved son. She will take turns to take care of her son 24 hours a day.

Jane Mobai has seen enough of the four white walls of the room, sober, then look out of the window of the scene, the spirit of the eyes, also left only gray.

The door opened quietly, and he subconsciously thought that it was the housekeeper at home to deliver things. His body was taking medicine. After a long period of chemotherapy, he had lost his taste in his mouth. What he ate was bitter.

Now, he doesn't want to open his mouth and swallow any food as long as he doesn't feel so empty in his stomach.

Because of weakness, I am not willing to speak.

Not to mention that someone pushed the door in and he was willing to turn his head and have a look.

Jianmobai was sitting on the bed, staring out of the window.

Until before his bed, there was a shadow.

Although he was weak and unwilling to waste a little more energy, his thin face still showed a faint weariness.

Yes, bored, tired of these healthy people, and then a look of care If he can, he is more willing to do the latter - a healthy body, and then a face of compassion to pity others.

"Get out." Jane Mo Bai's breath was weak, and she was a little agitated: "I'm sick, that's right."

"The body has been ill for a long time, has the heart been sick?"

A coarse female voice, faint ring.

Jane Mo white seems to be stimulated, half of the body is visible to the naked eye rigid.

He turned his head slowly, but from the window to the bed. The knowledge he learned in elementary school mathematics was just a mere 45 degree angle. However, his expression changed qualitatively.

Looking up at the figure beside the bed, for a long time, he laughed at himself: "are you coming to see me dead?"

Beside the bed, the woman did not speak. She pulled the chair beside her without saying a word and sat on the side of the bed. Her eyes swept over the back of Jian Mobai. She got up, picked up the pillow from the sofa, pulled out the upper body of Jian Mobai, and without saying a word, she put the pillow behind her.

"Why? Sympathize with me? Have mercy on me

Jian Tong looks at the people on the bed with sunken cheeks. After staring at them for a long time, she can vaguely see the natural and elegant facial features of the past. If she looks at the past with such a glance, she can hardly find Jane from the crowd.

She held out her finger and gently buttoned up the simple white patient's clothes.

"For what?" The latter hair white, pursed the white lip, a face vigilant.

The woman left the hand of jianmobai buttoned on the back of her hand, gently, but unquestionably untied the button of jianmobai, the collar slipped down, revealing the shoulder, faint scars, scars have been cured, but still left a ferocious scar.

"Do you remember, how did this scar come from?" The woman's coarse voice, slowly sounded.

Jane Mo's white shoulder trembled, and the scar rubbed by Jane Tong's finger abdomen was so hot that he instinctively wanted to avoid it.

"If you come to remember the past, you won't have to. I'm dying. You're going to tell a patient about the past? "

Ignoring jianmobai's sharp and mean words, Jiantong gently rubbed her belly and completely ignored her. She then said to herself:

"when I was a child, my grandfather was still there. I grew up in front of my grandfather since I was a child."

"You want to show off that your grandfather preferred you? Jane Tong, my grandfather is dead, and you have not spoiled your grandfather so much for a long time

The woman still ignored the harsh words and continued to say:

"at that time, I envied you very much.

Mom and Dad love you, when I was young, I didn't know anything, just thought I did something wrong, so my parents didn't like me.

So I desperately want to do well, I think, if I am better than you, then mom and dad's eyes will focus on me from you.

In fact, I'm stupid, grandfather said. You're smarter than me, but I'm not convinced. When you play, I learn things. I don't know what works or what doesn't.

At that time, I felt that I had to learn something. If I learned it, I would be excellent. My parents would love me just like you.

That's what I think and do.

But later, when I became more and more outstanding, I found that my parents didn't like me more and more. I only knew that Mom and dad didn't want me to be that good.I'm not convinced. You're a mom and dad's kid, and so am I.

I'm not convinced, so I'm just as angry. I'm more busy and become a top to learn more things.

I also comfort myself, what's the matter? My parents don't love me, but I still have my grandfather.

At that time, my grandfather was my most important person.

For a long time, one of the things that made me live a valuable life was to get the affirmation of my grandfather, which made me feel that I was valuable and loved in that home.

It's not that nobody loves me.

I know once,

once, my grandfather said, in fact, your brother is smarter and more talented than you. And I saw what my grandfather expected of you. I knew that my grandfather didn't love me more.

But it doesn't matter. My grandfather loved me. That's fine

Jane Mo white from can't believe, to gradually quiet Listen.

In the ward, only the coarse GA female voice, slowly but with its own rhythm, tells her own story.

"But I hate you even more. For a time, I thought it was you who robbed your parents. You already have parents. Why do you want to rob my grandfather with me? I only have grandfather."

It seems that a woman is not telling her own story. She is like a bystander, telling other people's stories.

"Do you remember how the scar came from?" She raised her eyes and fell on the brown scar, gently stroking her index finger.

Jianmobai was too weak, his face was like white paper, wriggling his lips. After a long time, he said: "forget..."

Beside the bed, the woman gave a slight smile: "when I was in primary school, I concealed my family background, and then I was bullied by senior students.

Later, you found out that you caught me and dragged me to my bedroom. You rudely uncovered my clothes and exposed the scars under them.

Jane Mobai, I knew at that time that you handled the wound so well.

You take care of my wound and throw me out of your room.

I'm afraid you tell my grandfather that he will be disappointed with me and think I'm useless.

As a result, I was terrified all day. Seeing my grandfather didn't blame me, I believed you didn't complain.

And then for a long time, I went home with injuries every day, and every day you caught me, you threw me into your bedroom to deal with the wounds. "

The woman's fingertip slightly forced, pressed on the scar on Jianmo Bai's shoulder: "you, this scar, was hurt by fighting with the social scumbag, in order to block that knife wound for me. Later, I felt that my brother was very good, and my brother would protect me

Jane Tong asked the opposite Jane Mobai: "do you remember what you said when you were fighting?"

Jian Mo Bai's eyes flickered.

Jian Tong continued:

"you said: only I can bully my sister, no one else can do it."

The woman finished.

On the bed, Jane Mo Bai pressed the white lip more tightly.

"From then on, I didn't hate you that much. Because I know that not only my grandfather loves me, but also my brother will protect me

Jianmobai smell speech, shoulder a tremor, do not know what is thinking of, gray eyes, more than a trace of other emotions, he suddenly buried his head, almost buried in the chest.

"We used to be good." Jane Tong is facing the brain spoon in front of her, there is a sentence, she blocked in the throat, eyes gradually red, then choked asked: "why do we become this way?"

Jane Mobai grabs the bed sheet under her body, and her heart beats up in a stall.

Strange Clearly, what did not eat, how the mouth more bitter and bitter, he staring at his body's bedding, eyes a little dull up.

"Where is my brother who said that no one else can bully me?

The more my brother thought I was, the more I grew up

Jian Tong asked with red eyes. Even though she had experienced some disappointments, she did not have red eyes. Even though she had just experienced the expiration of Shen Xiujin, she could still maintain the most basic demeanor.

Jane Tong also feels strange, clearly she has been indifferent, clearly she has been a master of emotion control, clearly has already been indifferent, why red eye.

"Grandfather gave you everything." For a long time, Jane Mo white breath weak said.

Jane Tong stares at his eyes for a long time Is it money?

Because of power?

Because of the glory?

"I envy you, too." Jane Mobai was watched by the eyes filled with too much emotion that he couldn't accept, and his scalp felt numb. Finally, he also said the psychology that he had never expressed for decades:

"you say that my parents care for me, but every time I see my grandfather's guidance for you, I'm the eldest son of the Jane family, but in my grandfather's eyes, you are the only one I.

I'm fond of playing. My grandfather won't stop me. If you play for a while, my grandfather will be on the spot.So I was more playful, and I wanted my grandfather to pay attention to me.

I can't figure out why my grandfather is so kind to you and ignores me like that. As I grow older, I will pay more attention to my grandfather's care and teaching to you. My grandfather did not teach me that personally.

The older you get, the more jealous you will be. You just don't know

Jane Tong's eyes a little surprised, this is the first time she so quietly put aside any prejudice, seriously listen to Jane Mo Bai this period of hidden in the heart for a long time.

Until Jian Mobai finished, a slight irony appeared in her eyes:

"you are wrong.

Grandfather didn't give me everything.

When my grandfather was alive, he used to tell me sternly more than once. Jane's family was your brother's.

When my grandfather gave me "love only", he said that if you can make it bigger, you will have a place in Shanghai beach.

If you fail, you have only one dowry.

Jane's, not for you.

It's my grandfather's word. "

Jane Mobai couldn't believe what she heard.

He suddenly raised his head, looked at the bed side, touched the familiar face, which was as unhealthy as he was. In a trance, he saw the 18-year-old Jian Tong, who was proud of himself and looked like a peach and plump face That's his sister!

"You I knew my grandfather for a long time Jane Mo's white Adam's knot rolled slightly: "then why do you still care about grandfather? Even if his grandfather died, he still came back here from Erhai Lake because of his grandfather?"

Jian Tong gently picks up a smile, but his eyes are rarely gentle. He looks at Jane Mobai:

"because I have only grandfather. I know, grandfather's love, there is a price, but I still enjoy it. And when my grandfather passed away, I was able to know the truth and still cheat myself

Her eyes twinkle in the light that Jane does not understand, so complex: "compared with never had any love, I am more willing to deceive myself."

At this moment, after more than ten years' absence, he was so painful that he couldn't speak for his sister who was once a thorn in his eye.

The little boy didn't say that she once thought she would protect her brother, but she forgot her promise to her sister. She was only jealous of her sister. Under jealousy, she deliberately ignored her sister Jane Mo Bai suddenly closed her eyes.

The scar on his shoulder was hot and hot. For the next ten years, he had treated the scar as if it were from other fights on his body, but it was just a scar.

Now, it is more painful than when the knife was stabbed in.

Jian Tong takes a deep look at the sickbed, sunken cheeks, closed eyes, and frowns painfully. After watching for half a minute, she slowly takes out the mobile phone in her bag. When she opens the mobile phone, she jumps out a series of missed calls and many short messages.

Just a cursory glance - it's the man's.

She silently glides across the screen and clicks into the address book. She knows the number back and forth. In fact, she doesn't need to open the address book at all.

The thumb lightly touched the number, and there were two rings. The other side said, "Hello, Miss Jane."

"I want to ask, my brother's bone marrow matching, is the probability of finding the right person, very small?"

The other side was silent for a while, and then said like a machine, "we are still fully following up on Mr. Jane's matching. Miss Jane, we believe that as long as we don't give up, we will have a chance to turn the tables even at the last minute.

Miss Jane is so concerned about her brother that she believes there will be a miracle. "

Jane Tong droops her eyelashes Believe in miracles? How different from no hope at all?

"I'm calling today to inform you formally that you don't need to keep looking. We have found it. "

"Found it? If we can't find all the formal institutions in China, we will not lose all the authority. "

"As for the cost, I'll have it settled with you."

"It's not about the cost Miss Jane, you're not looking for the black workshop, are you?

It's against the law... "

"Please rest assured that we do not do illegal things, not black workshops, but regular channels."

"How could that be..."

She did not want to say more, unilaterally ended the call, allowing the female voice in the phone to be cut off mercilessly.

Jane Mobai doesn't know what feeling she is at the moment and looks at the people beside her bed I thought she was too impersonal and cold-blooded to know that she had done so much for him in private, but she never said.

Jian Mo Bai's mouth is more and more bitter Yes, his sister, Jane Tong, never boasted of her merits, but did nothing about it.

He thought of his mother's curse in his ear. He cursed his sister for being insane. He cursed her for having a black heart. He cursed her not to die easily."Little boy, I'm..." He wanted to say something, but he couldn't say it.

"Brother, you will live." She laughed and stood up.