Reincarnated as the Death Spider Queen, sacrificing Bibi Dong at the start

Nan Feng stood up and dusted himself off.

"You're wrong? You can be wrong?"

Nan Feng looked down at her.

"I was wrong. I shouldn't have presumptuously tried to change you."

“I should have kept quiet from the beginning. I should have been a mindless accessory, letting you do whatever you want, instead of being so ungrateful as to cause you trouble.”

Chapter 284 My existence has never been a good thing for you.

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Faced with Nan Feng's indifferent and unmoving attitude, Bibi Dong's eyes reddened slightly.

"You're not going to believe me anymore, are you?"

Nan Feng looked at her, his eyes calm and unwavering: "What can I use to believe you?"

“This isn’t the first time we’ve argued; I’ve lost count of how many times.”

“Over the years, you’ve never really changed. Every time you have a hysterical outburst, you apologize afterwards, and then before long, you start repeating the same mistakes.”

Nan Feng said indifferently, "I've seen through it all. It's not that you can't change, it's that you're unwilling to change at your core."

"You are too proud. You instinctively resist any external force that tries to change you. To defend your pathetic self, you would rather go your own way and go all the way to the dark."

“I was not thinking clearly before, and I always thought that I hadn’t done enough.”

Nan Feng shook his head. "But now I understand. My biggest mistake was trying to change you."

“My attempt to change your preconceived notion has already offended your pride.”

He pointed at Bibi Dong's trembling shoulders, "Your current apology and bowing are not because you genuinely want to change, but because you are afraid. Afraid that I will really abandon you completely."

“Your essence hasn’t changed. You still resent the past, you’re still hiding in that secret room and can’t get out, and... you’re unwilling to come out from the bottom of your heart.”

"If I forgive you today like I always have, and let this matter go, it won't be long before you turn back into the unreasonable madwoman you were last night."

Nan Feng coldly analyzed: "This is inevitable. It's just the inertia of thought."

"Just like this world that is always increasing in entropy, the transition from order to disorder is an ironclad rule. It takes a lot of effort to restrain oneself, but indulgence and depravity are only a thought away. The instinct of human nature is laziness."

I don't blame you.

Nan Feng withdrew his gaze. "Because I'm the same way."

"Your unwillingness to accept change and my desperate attempt to change you are essentially the same thing. We are the same."

"We all made the same mistake—arrogance."

"I arrogantly thought that with my scheming and hard work, I could change you. But you arrogantly refused to be changed by anyone."

Nan Feng turned around and faced the sea.

"In that case, let's end this vicious cycle of mutual torment today."

“From today onwards, I will no longer try to change any of your decisions, and you no longer need to be wary of me or resist me like a hedgehog.”

"This tug-of-war was my fault. I was the root cause of your attempts to interfere. Now I surrender, and you can do whatever you want with me."

Nanfeng's voice drifted away on the wind.

"What can truly change a person is never external force, but only himself."

"It is easier to change mountains and rivers than to change one's nature. Ultimately, human arrogance has never supported such imposed change from the very beginning."

"This is not your shortcoming; it is an objective fact. Even those who seem to have been changed have the same underlying logic."

"This is the true nature of humanity."

Tears welled up in Bibi Dong's eyes.

She looked at Nan Feng, her voice trembling, "Are you... going to leave me?"

Nan Feng shook his head.

"I just don't want to see you like this."

Nan Feng said calmly, "I've always hoped you could change, but not for me. I hope you change for yourself."

"Whether it's going completely crazy or heading towards something beautiful, whichever it is, as long as it makes you truly happy, I will support you."

"But you chose to torture yourself. That's why I was so angry."

Nan Feng looked at her,

"You always seem to be able to tell whether I'm telling the truth or not, but you never seem to really understand my purpose."

"What I want is not simply to live. I want to live a valuable life, one that I recognize as valuable. If I just exist numbly like a walking corpse, then for me, I'd rather die."

"To put it bluntly, I am a person who lives purely in a sense of accomplishment. Everything I do and everything I desire stems from this."

Nan Feng pointed to himself, then pointed in the direction of Martial Soul City:

"I want to change you, I want to help you, I want to change the entire Spirit Hall. All of this is because I want to gain a huge sense of accomplishment from changing others and changing the world."

"In my understanding, being a tyrant who only knows how to kill is too easy. You can put a dog in that position and it's not difficult at all, so it naturally doesn't bring me any sense of accomplishment."

“I’m inherently drawn to challenges. Only things like that can interest me.”

"Why am I so persistent with you? It's because of the difficulty you present. The more you resist, the more determined I become."

Nan Feng chuckled self-deprecatingly.

"If I were sober, I would definitely be able to see the truth behind this vicious cycle at a glance."

"You are not unchangeable. You are simply unchangeable by me. Your pride makes you reject me from the bottom of your heart."

"Unfortunately, over the years, I've been driven to madness by the evil thoughts of those demons you've brought me, and I haven't even seen this most basic truth. I've been making a racket like a madman all day long."

Nan Feng took a deep breath, his eyes returning to complete calm.

"Now it's all good, my mind is finally completely calm."

"That kind of boring game of mutual torment is over."

"I will no longer torment you, nor will I force you. I will no longer offend your pride or provoke your ridiculous rebellious tendencies."

"I respect all your choices."

Nan Feng looked at Bibi Dong and delivered the final verdict on this long and morbid relationship:

“Bibi Dong, it’s time for us to have boundaries.”

Bibi Dong's tears finally broke free and rolled down her cheeks in large drops.

So... you don't want me anymore, is that right?

Her voice trembled as she stared intently at him, "You're going to abandon me, aren't you?"

Nan Feng looked at her quietly.

This time, he didn't hug her as softly as before, nor did he try to comfort her.

"Don't want you? Abandon you?"

Nan Feng twitched the corner of his mouth. "Listen to what you're saying. You're acting like a little kid."

"Your life seems to have been frozen in that secret room forever. Your youth, your beauty, everything you cherished, all came to an abrupt end on that day."

“All that followed was pain for you. Even after you killed Qian Xunji with your own hands, even after you devoured his soul, you were still in pain. You found no relief.”

"Because what's broken can never be put back together. I want to help you piece it back together little by little, but you won't even let me touch it."

"You are such a proud person."

Nan Feng sighed softly, "My self-righteous good intentions have lasted for so many years, it's time to stop."

"I finally realized that good intentions lacking personal boundaries, once imposed on others, seem to be no different in essence from the malice Qian Xunji showed you back then."

Ultimately, we're all doing the same thing—forcing you to accept it.

Bibi Dong's lips were pale, and her body swayed precariously: "You're gone... what about me? What am I supposed to do?"

"If I stay, will you change?"

Nan Feng retorted without hesitation, "Isn't all these years the best example?"

"The vulnerability you're showing right now is just because of fear. You're afraid of being abandoned, just like when Yu Xiaogang abandoned you and ran away back then."

Nan Feng looked directly into her eyes.

"But just like back then, even if Yu Xiaogang had stayed, he couldn't have changed anything. What would be the point of me staying now?"

"Will you stay with me and continue struggling and torturing each other in this quagmire?"

Nan Feng turned around.

“If it were the old me who was out of my mind, I would definitely have stayed. But now, my reason is so clear that I oppose continuing this absurd entanglement.”

"Bibi Dong, face reality."

"My existence has never been a good thing for you."

Chapter 285 Two mental patients can't huddle together for warmth; I suggest trying with a child.

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"You stop!"

Bibi Dong suddenly called out to him, her voice tinged with a hint of anguish, "If you just leave like this, how are you any different from Yu Xiaogang back then?!"

"Didn't you always despise him the most for being a coward who only knows how to run away from problems?!"

Nan Feng stopped in his tracks.

"the difference?"

Nan Feng chuckled lightly without turning around, "It seems there really isn't much difference."

"Yu Xiaogang lacked self-awareness and insisted on provoking you, which led to an uncontrollable situation. He then chose to run away, leaving you to bear all the consequences alone."

"And me?"