Why are you always thinking about dating me?

"I'll have my mom see you off," the class monitor said in a clear voice.

Lin An shook his head. "No, you go first. I have something to do later, so I'm not in a hurry to go home."

"Go see the woman who gave you hickeys?" The class monitor's voice trembled slightly.

At this moment, Lin An seemed to have finally shed some kind of disguise. He narrowed his eyes slightly, his voice tinged with amusement, and nodded, "Yes, goodbye."

The class monitor hurriedly left with his backpack, and Lin An began cleaning the classroom, moving chairs one by one, wiping the blackboard, sweeping, and mopping the floor. It took him half an hour to do all of this. When he finished, he felt a little dizzy.

Maybe I caught a cold because it was cold today? I probably also have a fever.

Lin An locked the classroom door, glanced at the rain, which didn't seem to be getting any less rainy. Since he didn't have an umbrella, he couldn't walk now. He thought about walking down the teaching building first, but when he got to the stairwell, there was a person sitting on the steps, with a cigarette between his slender, delicate fingers.

Amidst the swirling smoke, Lin An passed by her, but after taking just one step, his clothes were tugged at.

Lin An turned around and met Su Yuejin's red eyes.

..............................

"What's wrong?" Lin An stopped and looked at the hand that was gripping his clothes.

"Everything that happened that night, the way you acted, was all intentional, wasn't it?" Su Yuejin's voice trembled slightly. She wanted an answer, she wanted a definite answer.

Lin An paused for a second, pondering how to answer.

Following her answer, that's probably how it ends, right? But Lin An doesn't like taking the blame for things that aren't her fault, so it doesn't matter anymore.

Anyway, his sister is going to keep tormenting him for a long time.

"What do you mean by 'deliberately'? Do you mean to entice you to hug and kiss me, or to entice you to say that I would take you home? But none of these were intentional on my part. You asked for them yourself. When you were kissing me, I pushed you away."

"If you're going to say I'm playing hard to get, then there's nothing I can do. After all, no matter how I try to explain, it's pointless. The outcome is what it is, what can I do to change it?"

"If you think it's my fault, I can apologize to you. I'm sorry, Su Yuejin, I shouldn't have had those thoughts about you that day."

"Is this okay?" Lin An's eyes showed some confusion, but it was genuine.

"Sit down!" Su Yuejin tugged at his sleeve, and Lin An had no choice but to sit down on the steps next to her. He then smelled the different perfume she was wearing, which smelled wonderful.

"Then what do you mean by transferring that extra dollar to me?!"

"Because I still have 261 yuan in my WeChat account, I'll transfer 161 yuan to you so I can avoid the 101 yuan figure that drives OCD people crazy," Lin An answered honestly, looking so innocent.

...Because he didn't want to be hit anymore, he couldn't very well say, "I just had a weird sense of humor and wanted to insult you, could I?"

...Getting slapped in the face hurts a lot.

Chapter Eleven: Dump her, be with me.

A torrential downpour was hitting the playground, with raindrops flying everywhere. The trees swayed their leaves in the strong wind, their lush green leaves a delightful sight.

Sometimes torrential rain feels like the end of the world, but Lin An really likes this kind of heavy rain. He always thinks, "Let it rain heavily and flood the city."

Su Yuejin was arrogant and willful, but she wasn't an unreasonable person. She understood that she had insisted on putting herself in his arms that night, and the blame couldn't be placed entirely on him.

But why is this wrong? If, after waking up, he added her on WeChat and chatted with her, then everything would be right. But the story didn't go that way.

"Then why don't you want to add me? Lin An." Su Yuejin read his name aloud.

"But why did you add me?" Lin An turned his head and looked at her porcelain-like face and the white smoke she exhaled. He had quit smoking a long time ago.

I don't dislike the smell of smoke, but I don't like girls who smoke.

“Because I told you, I like you.” Su Yuejin’s voice was clear and frank, and she didn’t even flinch as she stared directly into Lin An’s eyes.

"I'll teach you a method. Go back and get some sleep now. In two days at most, the thoughts in your mind will cool down, and then you'll realize what you really want." Lin An's voice was calm, and his expression was indifferent.

"I didn't add you because my social circle is very small, and I hardly ever add strangers. It feels like too much trouble. We were never meant to have any connection in the future anyway."

"Do you... still look down on me?"

"Then I must first have the right to look down on you, Sister Su Yuejin. Although I don't have much money, I still know how much that bag you were carrying cost that day. We are not from the same world. It would take me a long time to work part-time to treat you to a hot pot meal. As for you, you wouldn't want to eat a single bite, and you wouldn't feel bad about wasting it."

"I don't like girls who go to nightclubs. It's not discrimination. I think there's nothing wrong with girls going to nightclubs. It's just that I personally don't like it."

"I don't like girls who smoke, nor do I like girls who dress too revealingly. I'm what feminists on Weibo call a straight man who doesn't respect women or give them freedom. That's who I am, so we're not compatible."

"Besides, your affection is too cheap; I can't afford it."

Lin An finished reciting these words in a murmur. Su Yuejin felt stung by his words, but no matter what she did, she couldn't refute them.

"One last thing, I'm not the kind of gentle and sensible good kid you want. I really am not. At least I used to enjoy being irresponsible to others and just enjoying the feeling of being liked by others."

Su Yuejin tried her best to hide her sadness, took a deep drag on her cigarette, and coughed violently twice. Lin An gently patted her back. Su Yuejin asked, "Have you had many relationships before?"

Lin An paused for a moment, then said, "Ah...yes."

Actually, there weren't that many, maybe two at most, but Lin An had to push Su Yuejin far away to avoid any real entanglement. He was a little scared, afraid that he wouldn't be able to control his greed.

"So this isn't your first time, is it?"

"If I were you, I could have sprinted straight to you that day and killed you with pain, you idiot." Lin An shrugged, looking at the world where the rain was pouring down.

Su Yuejin's eyes widened, and she subconsciously punched his arm, but Lin An didn't care. He just sat there watching the rain. He was originally going to wait for the rain to stop before leaving.

"Why are you being so rational?" Su Yuejin lowered her head slightly. In her heart, a picture of Lin An's personality had already taken shape based on various factors. However, there seemed to be many mysteries surrounding him, which made her unable to resist her curiosity and want to know.

"It's not rational, it's just... sigh, girls become anxious and insecure after their first time with someone, they become unlike themselves. You'll calm down soon, and you might think, 'Just think of it as being bitten by a dog.' If you're really upset, there's nothing I can do but apologize," Lin An said self-deprecatingly.

Why are you comparing yourself to a dog?

"You hate me so much, fine, I'll do whatever makes you happy. But don't hit me again, it really hurts." Lin An shook his head, seemingly lost in thought.

"I don't hate you that much," Su Yuejin murmured.

"Oh? That's good too." Lin An nodded.

"You seem to know more than I do," Su Yuejin muttered to herself, as if she had just thought of something.

"Children from poor families mature early; if they don't know much, they're easily bullied." Lin An shrugged helplessly.

"Aren't your parents coming to pick you up?" Su Yuejin asked.

“My adoptive parents were in a car accident two years ago, and I have been living alone ever since.”

It was an agreement between Lin An and Xu Qinghuan that they would not tell outsiders that Lin An had an older sister.

Su Yuejin froze for a moment. She saw the sadness and loneliness in Lin An's expression and subconsciously apologized, "Yes, I'm sorry."

"It's alright, it's over now." Lin An shook his head.

"What about you? Aren't you going to call your parents to pick you up?"

"They're busy, so they told me to take a taxi myself, but there aren't any taxis around right now. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to wait." Su Yuejin's voice also had a hint of self-deprecation. She hugged her knees, pulled up the hood of her sweatshirt, and let her long bunny ears droop down.

"I see." Lin An nodded without saying anything.

Just the night before last, they were still embracing each other, lovers entangled in each other's arms. Now they speak to each other like strangers. But that's how reality should be; two people's lives should never intersect.

If I hadn't wanted to find my sister that day, I probably wouldn't have run into Su Yuejin, right?

Neither of them spoke; they remained silent.

"Actually... I'm not as bad as you think. I've only been going to nightclubs in the last few months, about once a week. I started smoking a few months ago," Su Yuejin suddenly murmured.

"I can tell."

"How did you figure that out?"

"That place wasn't a good place to begin with, especially for a pretty girl like you, who's as innocent as a blank sheet of paper. If you're unlucky enough to run into a skilled player, you could be taken down in eight hours. You'd be scammed and still have to help the other person count the money until they get tired of you."

"I'm not as bad as you think..." Su Yuejin's words trailed off as she realized that she herself had only known Lin An for less than four hours before they were in bed together, and her expression turned self-deprecating.

"Yes, you're right! But I still want to go, I insist on going! Anyway, I've already lost my virginity, and even if I get scammed again, I won't feel guilty. At least they'll make me happy, and I'm willing to do that!"

At this moment, Lin An turned his head, gently placed his hand on her shoulder, and looked directly into her eyes.

Su Yuejin's tone was slightly crazy and had a hint of self-abandonment.

"But who are you taking revenge on?" he said.

"Or is it that you're so happy to degrade yourself?" Lin An's voice was finally no longer so indifferent, but had a bit more emotion. "What? Huh? Is it cool to willingly degenerate? Is it cool to sleep with men early? Is it cool to have a lot of people like you?"

"You think you're high enough? When people go out to hook up with girls or boys, it's a mutually beneficial arrangement. What are you? Can't you even use your brain to play with other people's brains? Huh? You like it?"

"So you like being decadent? So you like being a whore? Then go ahead and be a prostitute, it'll be more fun and exciting. Hey, why don't you find a boyfriend and cheat on him? That sense of immorality will be even more exciting and interesting, isn't that enough?"

Su Yuejin listened to his words, one by one, and raised her hand.

"What, did I touch a nerve and you want to hit me again? Go ahead and hit me, I won't lose anything and I'll even let you vent your anger. If you like hitting people so much, go to the BDSM community. There are plenty of men who would willingly let you hit them. Tsk, go ahead and do it."

In fact, Lin An immediately received a slap on the face, and her cheeks turned red, but Lin An didn't seem to care at all, looking at her red eyes.

“You don’t like being told this, but that’s the truth. Why do you have to be willful and demean yourself? Who are you trying to get revenge on? If you’re really lonely, go and date. Find a suitable, gentle, and right person, and have a good relationship with them. Isn’t that great?”

"If someone truly loves me... I'm willing to make changes for him."

"So first, let me sort this out for you. What qualities would someone who truly loves you like? Do you like clubbing or you're a chain smoker? What would someone who likes you like that? What do they want from you?"

"People attract each other. Once your traits are labeled, you'll attract that kind of people. It's such a simple principle, don't you understand?"

"What's wrong? Are you going to cry? Have I wronged you, Miss?"

Lin An muttered irritably. He didn't want to say these nonsense because, as far as he was concerned, other people's lives and deaths were none of his business. Sometimes, the more you try to persuade someone, the less they listen and the more they complain that you're just nagging.

"What else can you do besides bully me?!" Su Yuejin's tears fell from her eyes, and her voice became unreasonable.

"Did I bully you? I'm talking about what might happen next, what else can I do? Even though you go clubbing, smoke, and drink every day, you're still a good girl."

"Huh? Is that what you want me to say? Do you want me to encourage you? Huh? Did I influence your plans to fall into depravity? Well, I'm really sorry then." Lin An spoke sarcastically without any restraint.

Su Yuejin just cried, thinking as she cried. She figured it out, but she still felt wronged. "Why are you pretending to be a good person? You're my brother! You're supposed to be lecturing me? What right do you have to lecture me? You still slept with me, didn't you? Even though I seduced you, would it kill you to hold back?"

"..."

"So I was just being delusional. It's because you're naive, because you're actually quite innocent, because you believe that there will always be someone who will come to your side, accompany you as you grow, and teach you to be sensible. You're clinging to hope, so you're adorable and worth looking forward to."

“But you haven’t even met the person yet, and you’re already thinking about turning bad. If it’s because of me that you suddenly think like this, then it’s my fault. But I can’t let this mistake continue, so I want to say a few more words. I want to keep an eye on you.”

"Who are you to tell me what to do?!"

Su Yuejin's tears fell drop by drop, but she reached out and hugged his neck, making him look at her, his forehead pressed against hers, and she read each word carefully. She was crying, yet she was also smiling.

"Then date me, be my boyfriend, and let me control you."

Lin An looked into her eyes, feeling her breath on his cheek, and replied, "I have a girlfriend."

Su Yuejin paused for a moment, but her embrace tightened, almost pulling him into her arms, her soft, pink lips close to his.