Why are you always thinking about dating me?

"What the hell do I know? To hell with love, love my ass."

Lin An answered crisply and decisively, but he also breathed a sigh of relief. He poured himself a glass of wine and clinked glasses with Xiao Chacha's. "You think I know everything? You think I'm good at everything? If I really knew everything, I wouldn't have any worries. Chacha, you... I'm not blaming you, understand? Why do you think I came to ask you to drink? Was it to scold you or apologize? Neither..."

"I was just thinking that, in a way, we're all the same, so we can have a drink together."

Lin An clinked glasses with her again, then muttered, "Alright, let's leave the arguing and discussing love here. I mean... don't you have anything to do all day?"

"My previous circle of friends consisted mainly of girls I had flirted with. I had almost no real female friends, and I was afraid of and didn't have any male friends either. Now I'm in a completely unfamiliar environment. The only people I know are you and Su Yuejin. You and Su Yuejin went on a sweet date... I stayed home playing games and lost all day."

"It's okay. You'll have to give back the points you earned by playing solo queue sooner or later. That's how it is."

Xiao Chacha felt very wronged.

"What you guessed before wasn't entirely true. The person I love does love me, it's just that there's a distance between us that we have to maintain now. I've figured it out, hehe, I really have figured it out... She's not stringing me along, she's not trying to control me. I understand what she wants, and I know what she wants to do."

Lin An was all smiles, while Xiao Chacha looked completely bewildered.

Then he moved closer to Xiao Chacha and said, "So, to put it bluntly, you're just too lonely. Wouldn't it be better to find a couple of friends?"

"It's not that easy to find someone in a short time... Besides, aren't you the same? You have friends, right?"

"I really don't have any," Lin An replied awkwardly.

"Are you thinking that you can't be friends with any of the people around you because you know they're doing the right things at their age, but they're all totally idiots, huh?"

"..." Lin An really couldn't refute it.

"So, finding a suitable friend isn't that hard. If it's just superficial and useless socializing, and you're only pretending to be nice to the other person, then it's better not to make friends at all," Xiao Chacha answered crisply.

“That makes sense. So until you meet your true friends, I'll be your good friend.”

Lin An said this.

What kind of person are you referring to?

"We can eat together in the cafeteria, chat, or play games together when we have free time."

“Add one more.” Xiao Chacha looked into his eyes.

"Ok?"

"When you feel empty and lonely, you can still roll around in bed." She said this seriously, but her expression was cautious.

"What if...you really fall in love with me? In the end, it will definitely not end well." Lin An kindly reminded him, feeling that his reminder was enough.

"Then you can choose to become the harem king, trick Su Yuejin into your hands, trick the person you love into your hands as well... and then, stay together forever, wouldn't that eliminate all your troubles?" Xiao Chacha's idea was particularly crazy and demonic.

"...You overestimate my skill level." Lin An's lips twitched. "I'm being serious. If you really fall in love with me, and then... I'm gone, will you feel heartbroken?"

"Yes, but I won't interfere with your life anymore. I'll just draw a circle and curse you, and then in the future... maybe I'll meet someone who loves me and whom I also happen to love a little? Life is always like this; until the next second, no one knows the answer."

"So, that's it?"

“It’s a deal. You don’t need to worry about how sad or disappointed I will be. I’m a selfish person. If I don’t get it, I don’t get it. I won’t force it. I’ll take things as they come. But if I meet someone I want to hold onto, I will still hold onto them,” Xiao Chacha said.

Xiao Chacha stood up from her seat and sat down next to Lin An, letting him reach out and wrap his arms around her waist. "Is your waist slim and smooth, sister?"

"...Is this why you're wearing a tank top in the middle of autumn?" Lin An complained helplessly, then let go of her, took off his coat, and draped it over her shoulders.

"You still dare to call me 'sister' all the time, you crybaby?" Lin An looked at her eyes with a mocking gaze.

"You're the one who made me cry. Never mind, it's all your fault."

"Oh."

"So you have to make it up to me tonight."

"Oh."

"Then I'll take that as a yes. One last question: who do you like? Xu Qinghuan, don't worry, I'm just asking."

I refuse to answer.

"That's it?"

Lin An sneered, "You would like someone you've spent over a decade with?"

"That's not necessarily true. I think I guessed right."

"Then you should treat her as a hypothetical enemy. I hope you don't provoke her. Don't let Xu Qinghuan torment you to tears again. She's much more ruthless than me."

So that's it?

"you guess."

"You're so annoying." Xiao Chacha pouted slightly. She was still wearing his coat, but she still said softly that she was cold and asked Lin An to hold her tight. Lin An was very obedient at this time and did not mind giving her a hug.

Xiao Chacha was still slowly drinking with him; alcohol really is a wonderful thing.

"What new tricks do you want to try tonight?" Xiao Chacha whispered in his ear, her voice very soft, though her ears were also flushed.

"I'm going home tonight, Miss Xiao Chacha."

"What? Afraid your wife at home will eat you up?"

"No, Miss Xiao Chacha, I think... I've figured out that guy's behavior patterns and what his hidden logic is. So, if we're going to be scumbags, let's go all the way. It's 10 o'clock now, and I'll get home at 2 a.m. Let's say we finish drinking and get home at 11 p.m., then we'll have two hours to do something interesting."

"Are you looking forward to it?" He looked into her eyes.

"I'm really looking forward to it."

“I’ve realized Su Yuejin is right, you’re a little slut.” Lin An pinched her ear, and Xiao Chacha pouted, arguing, “You’re saying Su Yuejin is different. Ha, that girl was a cold and aloof rich girl in junior high. Look at her now. She’s the silly girl now, and it’s all your fault.”

"I don't think I did anything wrong to her. Although there's never a right or wrong, all I want is to make her happy and help her get better... I think I do like her a little, but that little bit of liking isn't enough for me to stay for her, to work hard and plan for our future."

"You...do you really like her even a little bit?" Xiao Chacha asked blankly, feeling a pang of jealousy in her heart.

"Yes," Lin An replied frankly, but also calmly.

"Then you have to say you love me later, say it many, many times, many, many times." She murmured to herself, looking a little dazed and silly.

Do you believe lies?

"I just want to hear you say you love me... even if it's fake."

“Then I’ll tell you… As for Su Yuejin, you wouldn’t understand. A girl like her is hard to be loved.”

"Is she hard to be loved?"

"Yes, she is hard to be loved. I suddenly understand her behavior pattern. Believe it or not, if I call her now and tell her I love her, she will dump me in less than a month."

"……Why?"

"It's okay, it's just her psychological mechanism. A small number of people have this kind of psychological flaw, but there's nothing we can do... She dumped me, and in the end, she's the one who's sad. So I thought I could use a gentler approach to help her get better little by little."

"After all, she's been really good to me, and I don't want to owe her anything," Lin An said earnestly.

"Could you take a picture with me so I can post it on social media?"

"I don't think it'll work." Lin An shook his head decisively, but seeing her jealous look, he reached out and gently pinched her nose.

"Rather than thinking about who should see it, it's more accurate to say that this is a secret relationship that we all know but don't talk about."

"Romance?"

"You can use a different adjective," Lin An quickly corrected.

"No, I like this word."

As she said this, she laughed especially happily, then hugged Lin An's neck and kissed him on the lips.

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P.S.: My cold has gotten worse, so I might only be able to update once tomorrow. I'll just post a long chapter today to make up for it.

Book recommendations for yuri (girls' love) genres

Recommending my good friend's new book

"I, transformed into a beautiful girl, refuse to be their doll."

It's a very interesting novel; those who like this genre should check it out!

...I forgot to mention this at the end of the chapter, so I'm adding it here.

I think I understand something in Chapter Three.

People probably only let their guard down and speak when they're drunk.

Most of the time, Lin An hid from Xiao Chacha. This hiding was not a resistance to being with her, but rather a way of hiding his true self from her.

But now Lin An was too lazy to hide anymore, or rather, he understood that children who are loved are always full of confidence, as are children who have support and reliance. So he spent a night or two thinking about it and decided to go out with Su Yuejin.

It's good to go out and have some fun. Su Yuejin is so cute. She's adorably silly, but she can somehow manage to put a gun to your heart and hit you right in the heart.

As for Xiao Chacha, this thing must be a shotgun, it's very powerful!

"Don't you think about the future, Mr. Lin An?"

Xiao Chacha sat beside him, staring intently into his eyes, seemingly particularly curious about his future plans.

"Huh? What do you mean by the future? Studying hard and getting into a good university. My grades aren't bad. I've always worked hard at studying. Then, in university, I'll understand more things, and then I can be with the person I like."

His voice held a longing for the future, a longing that he had always fantasized about over the years. But he only recently realized that he had been anxiously anticipating the future, forgetting how to live beautifully in the present.

"What about Su Yuejin?"

"I'll make sure she understands these principles I want to tell her before then, whether they're right or wrong. We'll have to part ways then, maybe we can still be friends. If not, there's nothing we can do." Lin An smiled gently. His words were always carefully considered, so they were accurate and trustworthy.

"what about me?"

"Oh? Let's be friends."

"If that day really comes, will you still go out?" Xiao Chacha asked frankly. In front of him, she seemed to have never known what shame or face was. She would unscrupulously show him her unrestrained side, and only to him.

"Nonsense, of course I'm not going. You just want me to die sooner, don't you?" Lin An sneered, then pinched her little face with particular dissatisfaction. Autumn has arrived, and the weather has really turned cold.

"Next time you go out, wear more clothes so you don't catch a cold. It's not a pleasant feeling to have a cold."

"If I really catch a cold... I'll come and kiss you."

"?"

"I'll infect you, hehe."

Lin An reached out and tapped Xiao Chacha on the forehead, then pulled up the sleeve of her coat, making her put it on obediently. He then took her hand and led her out of the slightly noisy bar.

After going downstairs, pedestrians hurried by on the street. Xiao Chacha, wearing Lin An's blue denim jacket, stood under the streetlight. She was slender and thin, and quite tall for a girl. She was only wearing black hot pants, which were covered by the hem of her denim jacket. It looked like she wasn't wearing anything underneath. Her skin was the kind of white that rarely saw the light, with a slightly cold tinge.