Why are you always thinking about dating me?

"it is good."

Su Yuejin drove away at 8 p.m. Lin An went upstairs and arrived home. Xu Qinghuan was doing exercises. She could do the splits and her ligaments were in great shape.

"You're back?" Xu Qinghuan turned around and glanced at him.

"Ah."

"Did you have fun?" she asked.

"...It's alright, I'm quite happy." Lin An answered truthfully. Xu Qinghuan looked into his eyes, and after about a second, she smiled. "It's good that you're happy. Come on, help me stretch my legs, I'm going to do sit-ups."

"Okay, coming."

Xu Qinghuan ran to the bed, and Lin An held down the girl's calves. Xu Qinghuan put her hands behind her head and began to exercise. Her chest rose and fell with her movements. She was wearing a black tank top, which was hot and sexy. Although she was small, it was not enough to resist the temptation.

“Su Yuejin is a very good girl, there shouldn’t be any problems,” Xu Qinghuan suddenly said.

"what?"

"It's nothing, I just wanted to talk."

"Oh." Lin An nodded, then looked into her eyes. "What, are you worried I'll fall for her?"

“I… will worry, but I won’t stop you, Lin An.”

"You also experience fear and anxiety?" Lin An looked into her eyes.

Xu Qinghuan just smiled helplessly, "So you're my brother. Should I stop you from liking someone else without giving you any benefits? If one day you stop loving me, that's my own fault, and there's nothing to complain about."

“I knew you understood, Xu Qinghuan.”

"I understand... but you wouldn't understand even if I told you. I'm not a riddle person, so you just wouldn't understand even if I explained. Of course, you don't need to try to understand my thoughts or guess what I'm thinking. You... just be happy."

"I just hope you're happy, whatever you want, and less sad. I'll always be by your side. As long as you don't send me away, I'll never leave."

As she spoke, she continued doing sit-ups. Then she mumbled that she was a little hot, reached out and peeled off the straps of her tank top, and continued doing sit-ups. The tank top didn't fall down, but it was teetering on the edge.

Her skin was so fair and delicate it was almost dazzling.

Lin An smiled, looking at her cheeks, at the blush on her cheeks, at her continued gentle rise and fall, and softly murmured, "You don't need to worry, Miss Xu Qinghuan."

"Ok?"

"I have always loved you, and that has never changed and will never change in the future."

"Don't make absolute statements. Nothing in this world is immutable."

Xu Qinghuan said helplessly, and a few more seconds passed.

“But I believe you, Lin An.”

Her answer was serious and firm.

Chapter Two: Night

When Xu Qinghuan finished her workout, she went to take a shower. As she sat up, her tank top fell down, and she walked towards the bathroom with her straight and slender back and beautiful shoulder blades.

Lin An returned to his room and lay on the bed in a daze. The images of his outing with Su Yuejin during the day kept replaying in his mind. As he rambled on about his past and complained about the anxieties of life, Su Yuejin hugged him in that instant. In that instant, Lin An was stunned and his heart fluttered.

He looked out the window with a wry smile. Qin Xueming was right. In fact, Lin An understood this principle without her saying it. Everyone has moments of fleeting infatuation, but unfortunately, most of the time, it's just a fleeting moment.

Lin An gradually calmed down and sat by the window, quietly lost in thought. After a while, he mixed himself a drink and continued to sit by the window, lost in thought, until the bright moon hung high in the sky, and the clouds were rendered somber and magnificent by the moon's radiance.

He sighed a moment later, then glanced at his phone. Xiao Chacha was bombarding him with dozens of messages, asking if he really went to the amusement park with Su Yuejin today? Or had they officially become a couple? Or what happened? Why... did Su Yuejin post a photo of them together on her social media?

"What's it to you?" Lin An retorted.

That's a really mean thing to say, the kind of mean that goes straight to the bone.

All of Xiao Chacha's urgency and anxiety stopped in that instant. She stood in front of the screen, suddenly speechless. Yes, what did it have to do with her?

But in the end, she didn't say anything more proudly, nor did she deny or ridicule anything. She just blankly replied, "Oh."

Then he stopped sending messages to Lin An.

Even through the screen, Lin An could sense that there was something hidden in Xiao Chacha's "oh," but he suddenly felt a headache coming on. So he called Xiao Chacha, but she hung up. He called again, and she hung up again. He called eight times in a row before she finally answered.

"Why are you calling me again?" Her voice was trembling with tears again.

"Then how do you expect me to answer you? You can see the captions Su Yuejin posted in her pictures. What are you trying to prove by sending me these endless messages? What do you want? Do you love me? Xiao Chacha, are you going to tell me that you love me? Xiao Chacha?"

Lin An also asked her a question, but Xiao Chacha hesitated to answer.

"So what? You're feeling wronged again? You're jealous again? Your possessiveness is acting up again. If I really wanted you to completely obey me, would you listen? Of course not, because that's your personality, and so am I. So what are you upset about?"

"Don't I even have the right to be sad? I... didn't even tell you."

"Since you're going to be sad anyway, why don't we just end it sooner? Why bother? You'll be sad if I go out with Su Yuejin, and you'll be sad if I have someone I like. All you ever do is try to find a way to break my defenses, and then you'll be sad again if I say something to you. You'll cry again. Aren't you annoying?"

"You think I'm annoying, don't you? You're so gentle with Su Yuejin..."

"I'm gentle with her because she's not dramatic. Look at yourself, are you dramatic or not? How many messages did you send me just now? Huh? Thirty or forty? Huh? You're going to explode if I don't reply, are you? Can't you see Su Yuejin's captions?"

Xiao Chacha couldn't speak again, but she just cried, crying into the phone. The sound of her crying reached Lin An's ears, making his mind a complete mess.

"What are you trying to do? What, just because a jerk has come back to you, you suddenly believe in love? You think you should be heartbroken just because you didn't get love? Did you feel the same way about all the girls you dumped before?"

"I was wrong... Waaah... Lin An... I was wrong..." Xiao Chacha sobbed intermittently, her cries sounding inexplicably heartbreaking and pitiful.

"Weren't you so proud just now? Little peacock, you're wrong again after I said a few words to you? Huh? Isn't it me who's wrong? If you just ignore me and don't think about me, you won't have any worries, right?"

"I...I just can't sleep...I can't sleep so I want to message you...you...sob...you don't reply, so I can't help but send one message after another...sob...you, you just ignore me."

“I was thinking about something just now. I can’t be online 24 hours a day.”

"I...I understand...Waaah...Please...please don't scold me anymore, okay?"

"Did I insult you? I was trying to reason with you."

"You...you shouldn't be reasonable...please...waaaaah."

Xiao Chacha's crying was even more unreasonable than Lin An's, and Lin An was defeated by her.

"Can't sleep, huh? Then go out, drink, drink until you can fall asleep, okay?" Lin An asked her.

"Really?"

"Go out," Lin An repeated.

"They're here! Which bar?"

"The one you mentioned last time, I'll be there in half an hour."

Lin An hung up the phone.

He decided to do something; he couldn't just sit and wait to die any longer. If things continued like this, he would either be driven crazy by Xiao Chacha or be completely devoured by her. She was just taking advantage of his soft heart to get what she wanted.

Lin An came out of the house. Xu Qinghuan was wrapped in a bath towel and watching TV. It was a recent idol drama, and she was holding a bucket of popcorn in her hands.

"Perfect timing! Want to watch it together? It's quite interesting," Xu Qinghuan said with a smile.

"I'm going out. Either I kill that girl named Xiao Chacha tonight, or she kills me."

Xu Qinghuan's expression was strange as she looked at Lin An's slightly frantic state. She then gestured for him to sit down and asked, "What's wrong?"

“That guy is a bit of a tormentor, I need to think of a way to calm her down. I can handle it.” Lin An didn’t sit down next to her, but just stood there, explaining to Xu Qinghuan.

So Xu Qinghuan didn't force herself any further and popped two kernels of popcorn into her mouth.

"Go ahead, if you get serious, there's really nothing you can't handle... Go ahead, go ahead, I'm going to bed early tonight, so I won't leave the door open for you."

"Okay, I'm heading out now?"

"Go ahead." Xu Qinghuan simply waved to him, seemingly unconcerned. After he left, Xu Qinghuan silently chewed the two popcorn kernels in her mouth, gave a self-deprecating laugh, lay down on the sofa, and continued watching the boring idol drama, eating the tasteless popcorn, and watching the second hand of the clock tick away.

....................................

In the bar.

When Lin An saw Xiao Chacha, her seat was not conspicuous, but her clothes were very eye-catching. A white tank top covered her soft breasts, and black hot pants barely covered the girl's small buttocks. She was wearing nothing else and no makeup. She was swirling the wine glass in her hand, as if she had already drunk two glasses.

Lin An sat down opposite her and saw her slightly red eyes.

It seemed that silence was the best option, and Lin An himself didn't know what to say, so he went to get two sets of dice, tossed one to Xiao Chacha, and said, "Want to play a couple of rounds?"

Come on.

Xiao Chacha's voice was slightly hoarse. Then she and Lin An shook dice on the table, pouring one shot glass after another. Half a bottle of wine was gone. Lin An looked into her eyes, and after a few seconds, he said, "It's not your fault."

"What?" Xiao Chacha was startled, but her body was already swaying slightly. She stretched out one hand to support her face, and her open eyes were already hazy with the effects of alcohol.

"I said it's not your fault, because it's my problem. If you think about it from another perspective, I wouldn't reply like that if Su Yuejin or Luo Shuishui sent me a message like that, but it's you who makes me feel a little annoyed."

"Actually, you didn't do anything wrong, Xiao Chacha."

Lin An sighed softly. He had drunk quite a bit, but he looked at Xiao Chacha very seriously. "I want to apologize to you."

"what?"

"Maybe I shouldn't have said those things before, shouldn't have said those rubbish things to you, shouldn't have told you to try to understand what love is. It's okay if you think I'm just a woman looking for sex."

"I've been thinking lately, would things be better if you were still the way you were before? Even though you used to like girls and flirt with pretty young women, at least you were happy back then, right?"

"But now... how many times have you cried these past few days, hmm?"

Lin An seemed a little frustrated. "Are you really happy with me? What have I ever given you? So-called support is something you can do on your own. I'm just a dispensable emotional support. If I loved you, I would be willing to do these things, I would be willing to accompany you as you slowly change, I would be willing to stay by your side. But I don't love you, so I can't give you anything."

"I don't think I should be talking about such serious things, but I don't want to see you cry. It's not that I feel guilty, it's just that it makes me sad... Cha Cha, what do you think?"

Xiao Chacha drank another glass of wine, but she couldn't say anything. The young man in front of her spoke sincerely and passionately, but not a single word was what she wanted to hear.

"So what? Do you regret it? Lin An, or are you scared because you've made me like this? But I didn't do anything. Yesterday I exposed your predicament, made you unhappy, made you think about taking revenge on the girl you love, and then we did it. Other than that, am I really that annoying, Lin An?"

She said this while biting her lip, as if tears were about to fall at any moment, but they didn't.

"No."

"What is that? Do you think that someone like me doesn't understand what love is at all, that I just want to possess everything about you, to control everything about you, and to make you my thing, but I'm stupid and can't do it, so you hate me?"

“...That’s true.” Lin An nodded in agreement.

...Because that's what Lin An was thinking, at least on the surface. Lin An still needs to confirm what the core of Xiao Chacha's actions is.

"Because I really don't understand... Lin An, if I did understand, why would I have spent so much time trying and failing to find the answer with so many girls?"

Xiao Chacha drank another glass of wine, but her eyes remained bright, not because of high spirits, but because of the faint glimmer of tears in them.

"I just don't understand... Lin An, can you teach me? Tell me, what is a hobby?"