I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

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Only by giving up feasible options

People always unconsciously tend to favor the side that appears weaker.

It is hard to say whether it is out of human kindness or out of concern for those who are also weak.

The party that one unconsciously wants to help may not be the one who is in a reasonable position.

As for the situation that is happening to Lingcan now, I don’t want to stop her from going abroad just because we are classmates and have a good relationship.

Because doing so is just unreasonable.

And if I think about it carefully, I really don’t want to care too much about this matter.

"Anyway..."

I took out my cell phone and skillfully found Ye Jin's number.

I wonder if this guy is interested in chatting with me.

Chapter 10: Only Abandoning Viable Options

When did I start to admit that Ye Jin was better than me... She clearly admired me very much before.

Logically speaking, I am older than her and naturally have more experience than her. My ability to summarize is not inferior to hers, and I have my own unique views on things.

But... since when did I become somewhat dependent on her...

"Hello? Why are you calling..."

Although she always spoke in an impatient tone, she never hung up the phone on her own initiative.

What a strange habit...

"Can't you just call if you're alright..."

As is my custom, I responded with a touch of flirtation.

"When have you ever called without any reason..."

That's a good point...

At that time, I was standing at the door of my house. When I took the key out of my pocket, I suddenly touched the key to Lingcan's house.

"Oh, by the way, the key to Lingcan's house is still with me."

I said as I took it out and put it in my other pocket, then took out my house key.

"Oh...ah, I would have forgotten if you hadn't told me...When will you come back?"

What?... Did you just realize it...

"Ah... wait until I get out of school tomorrow..."

As I spoke, I had already opened the door. As usual, no one was home and the living room was pitch black.

"Okay...is that why you called?"

"Well..." I put the call on speakerphone, "Well...I want to ask you something."

"....What's up."

"That's right... Speaking of which..." I hesitated a little, "Did you know that Lingcan is leaving?"

"Leave? Where to?"

You can tell by her tone...

"Ah...don't you know her mother is back to see her?"

"Of course I know, she even said hello to me... So how did you know that?"

"I went to her house after school..."

"Then why don't you return the key?"

Why are you still worrying about this at this time...

"Uh..." I didn't know what to say next.

"So what? What if Lingcan's mother comes back?"

Seeing that I didn't continue speaking, Ye Jin asked me impatiently.

"From what she said...it seems like she wants to bring Lingcan to live abroad or something..."

There was silence on the other end of the phone and I didn't know what to say.

But it's normal to have such a reaction. After all, the relationship between the two people is pretty good. It's normal to be speechless for a short time...

"Did she really say that?"

Ye Jin suddenly asked me.

"Ah...yes...you said it was to take better care of Ling Shen...it's also out of concern for Ling Shen...haha..."

"So, what's your purpose? What do you want to say?"

This tone... doesn't seem like he really cares... what's going on.

"What do you want to say..." I collapsed on the sofa, feeling the pleasure from relaxing my spine.

"Hey hey...what are you doing?!"

Suddenly, Ye Jin's somewhat nervous voice came to my ears.

"I just lay down and relax..."

"Then stop making those disgusting noises, okay?"

"..." I decided not to bother with her... "I didn't really think that much about it... It's just that after my classmate found out, he seemed to be concerned about Lingcan's opinion..."

"So..." Ye Jin's voice became a little cold, "What does this have to do with you?"

....................

"What on earth does this have to do with you?"

I hear this kind of thing a lot...I should say I hear it very often.

It's true. Other people's affairs have basically, no, nothing to do with me.

The saying "everyone should sweep the snow in front of their own door" is not unheard of.

And this sentence... was the second time Ye Jin said it to me.

I don't know why...why she said this to me.

Because this time is completely different from last time.

The first time was when I was a child. I went to a relative’s house. There were many guests at that time, so they let the children play together.

Then a conflict arose between the two children, and a fight ensued.

At that time, I still had a sense of justice and wanted to step forward to stop the fight, but was stopped by Ye Jin on the side.

It was very strange that Ye Jin, who was only a few years old at the time, said that to me.

"What does this have to do with you?"

I had never thought about this question before.

Whether it was helping people in need, helping the bullied or animals, or even being called a "wild child," I never felt that people in trouble had nothing to do with me.

"..." I didn't answer and went to stop the fight.

Because I want to be a hero, that's all.

But the result was not a heroic ending.

The two men didn't end the fight, but instead dragged me into it, and then...they both cried uncontrollably, but I thought a man should be strong so I held back my tears.

As a result, the adults who came over after hearing the noise thought I made them cry.

Now that I think about it...adults' IQs are really low.

But I still admire Ye Jin at that time. If I had listened to her, would my sad past have been reduced?

"Hello... Hello? Stupid brother?"

Ye Jin's impatient voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Ah... I'm..." I came to my senses and replied hurriedly.

"What are you doing... You haven't spoken for so long, are you asleep?"

"No... I just... recalled some of the past events..."

How long have I been thinking about this...how much phone bill have I wasted...

"...So? Do you have an answer to my question?"

Ye Jin reminded me.

Yes... the question just now...

What does Ling Can's going abroad have to do with me...

If you think about it carefully...this has nothing to do with me at all...

But let me ask myself, what I did before, whether it was about Rinsen River or Kanon, it seems that it has nothing to do with me. If I want to give up, it would be easy to just ignore it...

"Hey..." I started.

I already have the answer in my heart...or rather, I had this answer from the beginning.

"Oh? Got an answer?"

"Probably..." I replied vaguely.

"What does that mean..." She seemed a little angry.

But I chose to ignore it.

"I don't want to get involved in this kind of thing... I'm just asking for trouble if I don't have anyone offering me an acceptable reward. I don't want to get involved at all. After all, I'm past the age of middle school. You're right, this has nothing to do with me."

"...Is that your answer?"

"..." Even though it might offend her, I'll just say this for now.

"That's my answer. Because meddling in other people's affairs not only consumes energy but also brings trouble, so it's better to give up on it."

There was a somewhat eerie silence that followed.

"...Hello...?"

I felt inexplicably scared.

"Waste...no...the country...do you really think so?"

The voice coming from the phone was not Ye Jin's.

But it's Lingcan's.

"...Huh? No...I haven't finished what I'm saying yet..."

What...what's going on...did she hear what I just said? That's really bad...

"No need to say more... If... well... it will bring you trouble..."