I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

A guy whose face could not be seen said this in front of a group of people.

"What do you think of this kind of talk?"

As this question was raised, the picture paused.

"Like an idiot, he's just saying irresponsible things to attract attention. He seems to be quite shallow."

I opened my mouth and a string of comments came out.

"Yeah." He nodded affirmatively and then asked me: "If you were there at the time, would you choose to refute him or silently curse him in your heart?"

"I choose the latter. Arguing with such a self-righteous guy will only cause trouble for myself."

He didn't say anything and looked at the screen.

Then the picture started moving again.

"What nonsense are you talking about? Don't you know what war will bring? You don't care about losing your loved ones and family members? Do you think war can be stopped just like that?!"

That’s right, this series of angry roars came from me in the picture.

"You've really changed," he said. "Although our ideas are similar, I'm still slightly better at taking action."

"Heh..." I looked at the paused screen helplessly.

"But now it seems that it would be better for you to give up. As soon as I said this, a series of arguments immediately broke out, and in the end I was the one who brought the trouble upon myself."

"Well..."

"Okay, let's move on to the next one."

【Memories Final Chapter】Disqualification Part 3

monologue:

“I can’t cry anymore because of sadness.

The death of a loved one is always sad, and crying at a funeral is necessary.

However, I didn't feel like crying... How should I put it? Even the feeling of sadness was just a little bit, a little bit lingering in my heart.

Am I being too rational?

If you think about it carefully, your deceased loved ones passed away due to illness.

If you suffer from illness during your lifetime, you will no longer suffer after you die.

So I don’t feel that sad.

I don't think other people are that sad.

She was crying in front of everyone one moment, and then she smiled the next.

Although I don't feel sad, I still can't be happy when facing such things.

So, funerals are not created for the deceased, but for others to watch.

I can't say they are hypocritical, because it is human nature. We should be sad about the death of someone, and sadness means crying.

This is something that any normal person can do, but I can't.

[cold-blooded animal] [emotionless] [monster]

From that moment on, these three labels have been stuck in my heart, in my heart where I can't control my tears.

I don’t mind these labels, because that’s exactly who I am. Even ordinary people can’t do it, so what else can I be but a monster?”

............

"You've been crying lately," he said.

"Yeah, I was surprised too," I replied.

"Do you still think you're a monster?"

“…” I didn’t answer.

"Well," he shook his head, "I'll wait for your answer to this question next time. I'm leaving now."

"Leaving again? When will you be back next time?"

"Who knows? Maybe it will come soon, maybe it will take a few years."

"Well, whatever."

"You should go back too. Aren't there people there who are worried about you?" He winked at me and walked into the darkness without looking back.

The beam of light also disappeared as the guy disappeared.

The surroundings became dark again.

Anyway, how am I going to get out?

.....................

My eyelids feel so heavy...I feel a pain when I open them...The ceiling looks so familiar...This means I am lying in bed now, but this is not the ceiling of my house.

I tried to sit up, but my limbs felt weak, so I gave up.

"Are you awake?" Brother Nan's voice sounded from the side.

"I..." I felt my throat was a little hoarse as soon as I opened my mouth.

"You fainted briefly due to lack of sleep and low blood sugar... Really, how can you not take care of your body?"

"Well..." I was speechless.

"Your classmates are all worried about you. Please remember to express your gratitude when they come to visit you later."

"Yeah." I responded.

Then I started to observe where I was...it turned out to be the health room. No wonder it looked so familiar. I had been here last time when I was tidying up my things.

At this time, there seemed to be some commotion outside the door.

"Hey, you're awake, Sheji."

Liu Yan was the first to open the door.

"I told you, how could a knight like me fall so easily?"

When Lingcan saw that I was fine, he excitedly said to the people around him.

"Let's exercise together now that we're feeling better. I promise you this won't happen again." The squad leader is still promoting exercise as always...

"Oh my, I'm just here to observe the primitive activities of lower life forms." Rinquanchuan said in an impatient tone. What was he really thinking?

................

Let's put this reminiscence to rest for now. As for whether I'll ever have the chance to meet that me again, I'm afraid it's too late to consider this question.

I think we should first consider how to deal with this group of overly lively young people.

Yi Sheji is also a person who will be cared for

Chapter 18: Yi Sheji is also a person who deserves care

"Is everything okay?"

Rinquanchuan asked me as I sat down at my seat after returning from the infirmary.

"Oh, nothing serious, I just missed lunch."

Although I was a little surprised that Rinsenkawa took the initiative to talk to me, I still responded calmly.

"Oh, that won't work. Even lower creatures need to absorb the necessary energy."

"Yes, I will pay attention."

"..."

Rinquanchuan said nothing more and returned to his original sitting position.

Well, if you think about it carefully, it's not strange. Lin Yilingcan and Liu Yan asked me all kinds of questions at once, and Lin Quanchuan on the side couldn't get a word in at all. Then the bell for class rang happily.

That's probably why she'd take the initiative to chat with me whenever I came back, regardless of class time. Well, thank you so much... No, I'm really touched.

But thinking back, was I just talking to my subconscious mind in a dream, or was it hallucination due to my unconsciousness?

Well, even though I don't know why, I realized one thing: my memory is flawed.

Maybe I subconsciously chose to forget. Although I now vaguely feel that that memory is very important, at that time, I must have made a great determination to forget those things.

"Ugh."

I sighed and it took a lot of effort for me to focus on the class.

.........................

"Sheji, are you feeling better?"

As soon as the get out of class was over, Liu Yan turned around and asked me.

"Well, I'm much better. I'm not some fragile young lady. I'm a man after all, so I shouldn't be overly concerned about such trivial matters. Besides, your caring words make me feel sick."

"Ah, that's too much." Liu Yan smiled bitterly, "But I'm relieved that you can still speak so fluently, Master."

"Ah...thank you so much then."

"Useless Knight, have you replenished your energy?" Lingcan's voice came from beside me.

"Ah... not really. I just feel a little better, but I'm still very hungry."

As I looked at Ling Shen, who had a loli figure, I unconsciously touched my belly which was howling.

Tsk, what a disappointing guy.

"Ah... well, I happen to have some extra supplies here. Since you seem to need them, I'll generously give them to you."

After saying that, he handed me a bag of bread with a proud look on his face.

"Well, thanks."

I took it from her petite hands without hesitation...Shame? How could I possibly feel like that? Isn't it a great pleasure to get something for nothing?

"You must replenish your energy in the future. Otherwise, how will you cope with the invasion of evil forces?"

"Yeah." I answered briefly and tore open the package.

"Are you really reflecting on yourself?" Ling Can asked me with a frown.

"Hmm...well, big, probably?"

This question is really tricky, because I don't know what I should reflect on, or what Lingcan wants me to reflect on. If it's about eating well, I'll definitely reflect on it, but if it's about my resolve to fight against so-called evil forces... forget it.

"It seems you haven't reflected on this. Seriously, remember to replenish your energy! Do you want me to use magic to engrave this into your mind?"

Even though I knew this girl couldn't use any magic, her aggressive look really scared me.

"Yes, yes, I remember it." I had no choice but to answer like this.

Then Lingcan revealed a smug look... Such a strong sense of self-satisfaction. Hey, is it true that her inner self is as immature as her outer self?

.......................

There were still two classes left before school was over, and the sky, which had been gloomy since noon, finally started to drizzle.

My eyelids can't help but close again.

"Now I'm going to ask a few students to come up and write down some words, so everyone, be ready."

The English teacher's words ruthlessly drove away my sleepiness.

Alas... Even though there is a one in several tenths chance that I will be asked this question, I still temporarily memorize the words in the book.

"..., Yi Sheji, .... and..."

Haha...I knew it.

..........【Club Activity Room】..........

"It's raining..." Lingcan mentioned it intentionally or unintentionally while playing games.