mygo, but Cthulhu

Chapter 231 Pain under the Rain

"Xiao Xiang?! Xiao Xiang?!"

Sanjiao Chuhua hurriedly called out because of Xiangzi's coma. She hurriedly helped Xiangzi to the bed, and Ruoye Mu observed Xiangzi's condition and shook his head at her soothingly.

"Don't worry, Xiangzi is not in danger. Ruomai probably just gave her a sedative."

"Really? Mu, to be honest, I never thought Xiaoxiang cared so much about Yutenji Wakamu. Xiaoxiang, who values ​​her dignity so much, even knelt down and begged her to stay... Why on earth is that? Aren't you and Takamatsu Deng the only ones she cares about the most? Why would she go to such lengths for Yutenji?"

Chuhua was relieved to hear that Xiangzi was fine, but she soon remembered the unbelievable situation just now. She couldn't help but sigh deeply in confusion and pain. She turned her eyes to Ruoye Mu in confusion, and the latter shook his head helplessly.

"You misunderstood. Xiang cares about Ruomai, but not to this extent... What makes her want to keep him, even at her knees, is the avemujica of all of us. If even one person is missing, mujica will no longer be complete... What she cares about most is our band."

"But isn't Mujica just a band? Isn't it a tool for Xiaoxiang to realize his musical aspirations and gain practical benefits? We no longer need that anymore, so why does Xiaoxiang still care so much about Mujica?"

"Because Xiang thinks she has lost too much, and she thinks it's all her fault."

Ruoye Mu responded softly, and Chu Hua was stunned for a moment before he suddenly realized the key point and could not help but grit his teeth.

"I thought Xiaoxiang had been so calm these days and didn't care about her parents anymore... Damn it, it's all the fault of the Fengchuan family. I'm going to feed them all to the rats right now!"

Chu Hua wanted to turn around angrily, but Mu grabbed her hand first and shook his head seriously.

"If you do this, the situation will become even more chaotic. Xiang also said that the Toyokawa family is a member of the committee. We can't confront Tsuzuki Shifune head-on."

"But... Xiaoxiang is in so much pain, kneeling down to that Yutenji Ruomai, all because of me! This is all my fault!"

Chu Hua rationally understood that what she said was right, but it was difficult to suppress the pain surging in her heart. She tearfully growled at Ruoye Mu, but Mu's expression remained calm.

"Xiang asked you to tell the truth, and you did. You are not wrong. If you are wrong, then I am also wrong."

"I know you're in pain, but you can't cause Xiang more trouble because of your own pain. Sober up and think carefully about how to control your emotions, understand?"

"I……"

Wakaba Mu's words made Sankaku Hatsuka sober up a little. She tried her best to suppress her murderous intention towards the Toyokawa family, knelt beside Xiangzi's bed, wailing, and apologized to her tearfully.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Xiaoxiang, it's all my fault, it's all my fault... If I could have done better, you wouldn't have to go through this, I'm sorry..."

"..."

Ruoye Mu looked at her crying expressionlessly, but she couldn't help feeling a little complicated in her heart. She looked down at Xiangzi, whose brows were still furrowed even though he had lost consciousness, and couldn't help but sigh.

Xiang, why do you think you shouldn't exist? Obviously, I and everyone else love you...

"No, I really can't stand it anymore...Xiao Mu, please stay here with Xiao Xiang. I'm going to calm down outside and won't cause any trouble for Xiao Xiang."

At this time, Sanjiao Chuhua could no longer bear the pain and self-blame in her heart. She hurriedly said something and turned and ran out. Ruo Yemu had no time to call her. When she realized that there were only her and Xiangzi in the room, she couldn't help but sigh.

Why? Why? Why was I so foolish? I clearly wanted to protect Xiaoxiang, but instead I caused her pain... This is all my fault. If only I had discovered it earlier, Xiaoxiang wouldn't have to endure this...

Chu Hua was running desperately in the rain while crying. The next moment, she slipped and fell heavily. While she felt the pain, she accepted it as if it were sweet. Realizing something, she quickly took out a dagger and cut her arm with force. Feeling the obvious pain, Chu Hua couldn't help but curl the corners of her mouth.

Yes, she is so useless that she cannot act rashly, nor can she die directly in case she can no longer help Xiaoxiang. Then the only thing she can do is to punish herself. Only in this way can she atone for her mistakes as much as possible and be qualified to continue to stay with Xiaoxiang.

"That's right, that's right... That's how it should be, Sanjiao Chuhua! You're so stupid, you actually dared to make Xiaoxiang cry like that!"

Chu Hua, who fell to the ground, showed a crazy smile. He nodded vigorously and swung the dagger with all his strength in hatred, tearing a huge wound on the white arm. Blood gushed out, and the severe pain brought by the rain washing the wound made Chu Hua feel satisfied.

"Chuhua?! What are you doing?!"

But as she continued to swing the dagger, her wrist was suddenly grabbed. She turned around immediately with a distorted face and saw Mana looking at her in disbelief. Her whole body was wet from the rain. There was an umbrella hastily thrown away not far away. It seemed that the man ran over to stop her as soon as he saw her.

"Don't get in my way! Mana! Let me go!"

Chuhua roared angrily and tried to shake her hand off, but Mana desperately grabbed her wrist holding the knife and refused to let go no matter how hard she tried. Her expression became extremely painful and she was eager to persuade Chuhua to stop.

"Chu Hua, what happened? Why do you treat yourself like this? Please, don't do this, okay? I really don't want to see you like this..."

"I'm doing this because my stupid Xiaoxiang is suffering! Besides, how I treat myself is none of your business! Get out of my way!"

Chuhua used magic to knock her to the ground, and at the same time gritted his teeth and continued to cut his body. The rain around him was dyed dark red by the blood, and Mana opened his eyes wide because of her self-harm, and hugged her body in pain.

"Don't do this! Chuhua! Please... If you want to vent your anger, just eat me. This is exactly what I want..."

"Don't bother me, Mana..."

Chuhua impatiently wanted to use magic to confine her, but when she met Mana's sad eyes, she couldn't help but be stunned. She thought for a while, then took out a dagger and handed it to Mana, leaving the latter a little confused.

"Chuhua, what are you giving me?"

"Use it to cut open my body, Mana. I want you to do this. I'm too inefficient on my own and it won't cause enough pain."

Chu Hua spoke softly and indifferently, while Mana was stunned for a moment and shook her head tremblingly.

"No, I can't do it, Chuhua, please don't say such things..."

If you don't do it, I will quit sumim

i. "

Sankaku Hatsuka interrupted her, and Junda Mana was stunned. She stared at the familiar yet unfamiliar girl in front of her, unable to believe what she had just heard.

"Wait, Chuhua, you...what did you say?"

"It's a simple request, right? If you don't help me, then I will quit Sumi and never be an idol again. Actually, I've always thought that these jobs are too time-consuming, but Xiaoxiang didn't want me to give up my work for her, so I didn't quit before... But if you don't help me now, then we will have no relationship from today on, understand?"

"Chuhua, you...I...I really can't do it,"

Juntian Mana's face turned pale as she shook her head with difficulty, while Chuhua sneered and continued to cut her own flesh.

"Then go away and don't get in the way here."

"Chuhua..."

"Leave here. I didn't kill you out of consideration for our past friendship. Mana, please stop bothering me."

"..."

Junda Mana knelt weakly on the ground, and the photo of Chuhua that she had tried so hard to reach flashed before her eyes. The beautiful girl with a gentle smile in the photo seemed to have nothing in common with the twisted lunatic now... But she still couldn't give up her obsession.

Because... when she was still a deformed and ridiculous human sacrifice who knew nothing about the world, the first person she saw was the girl in front of her. Her beauty attracted her deeply, making her no longer a simple animal, and made her have a yearning for the first time.

...If she gave up even this initial desire, what else would she have?

After realizing this, Junda Mana couldn't help crying. She trembled and clenched the dagger in her hand. She gritted her teeth and endured the pain to cut open Chuhua's body. The latter nodded slightly with satisfaction, stopped talking and continued to hurt himself.

The scars continued to pile up, and Junda Mana repeated the actions numbly. She was destroying the beauty she longed for. Although she was hurting Chuhua's body, she felt like she was cutting her own heart.

After the heavy rain finally stopped, Sankaku Hatsuka finally felt satisfied with her atonement. She used magic to heal her body and turned to leave. Mana stared at her back blankly for a long time before turning around and walking forward drowsily.

When she came to her senses, she had already arrived in the basement. In front of her was her father tied to a chair with a look of surprise and worry on his face. She could no longer hold on and wailed as she threw herself into his arms, crying hysterically.

"Father! Father! I, I hurt Chuhua. I didn't want to do this, but she insisted on me doing it... Why is it like this! Why does she only care about Toyokawa Shoko?! Why am I not Toyokawa Shoko?!"

"If I was just supposed to be a clueless human sacrifice from the beginning, then why did I have to see that photo? Why did I have to yearn for it? Why did I have to endure all this?! Why is this all happening?!"

"It's okay, Mana, don't cry..."

Even though he knew that most of his memories with her were false, and even though he was imprisoned here by Mana, Junda Sosuke couldn't help but soften his heart. He slowed down his voice and tried to comfort her, and Mana hugged him tightly and cried loudly.

Looking at her tear-stained face, Junda Sosuke realized once again that so much suffering came from the committee. If the committee did not exist, Mana would not have been born as a human sacrifice, and perhaps she could really have become his daughter. He would not have endured the guilt and pain for so long and could have been a policeman with a clear conscience.

…All this is the committee’s fault.

Chapter 232: Danger at Home

"Mother, you should tell me now, right? What exactly is going on? Why did you block my spell before? Why did your men interrogate me like that?"

After entering the room, Bai Lu Qian Sheng asked anxiously, and Fa Dai sighed slowly and tiredly. She looked at Qian Sheng with some complex feelings, hesitated for a moment, and then spoke softly,

"Qiansheng...listen to me, I don't want to do this to you, but all of this is to cure you. Your condition is too serious, so I have to take this measure."

"Sick? My hallucinations are clearly the work of that puppeteer, someone else's manipulation... What gives you the right to say I'm sick?!"

Hearing this word again, Bai Lu Qiansheng couldn't help but sneer and walked quickly to her.

"You clearly know a lot, but you're unwilling to tell me anything. What are you planning? I initially believed you and went to that mental hospital, but you sent someone to inject me with truth serum. Do you think I'm lying? Do you think I'm a lunatic?!"

"Qiansheng, calm down. I just think you need treatment..."

"I told you, I'm not sick!"

Qiansheng roared angrily and slammed his fist on the table, not caring at all even if his skin was broken. His face was distorted and he stared at Fadai's eyes.

"Stop making excuses for me, stop lying. I want you to tell me the truth about all this right now. What's going on with the puppeteer? What's going on with those hallucinations? And what's going on with you? I want you to answer each one of them. If you don't, I'll have to resort to violence."

"...I'm not lying. You've been ill since birth. I've been trying to treat you, but with little success."

After a moment's silence, Bai Lu Fa Dai spoke softly and tiredly. Qian Sheng was about to raise her hand to grab her collar in anger, but the next moment her movement was stopped by Fa Dai's words.

"Haven't you always been concerned about why your father disappeared? He was killed because of your illness. He found the puppet kingdom you created in the dreamland... and was twisted into a puppet."

"I created it? What do you mean? Isn't the puppeteer the master of the Puppet Kingdom? What does it have to do with me?"

Bailu Qiansheng frowned in confusion, while Fadai smiled bitterly.

"That puppeteer is you, or rather, the embodiment of your illness... Others believe the puppeteer is some kind of weapon of the Shirayuki family, but you created it long ago. It has always been completely under your control. I do not have the authority to command it."

"What the hell are you talking about... How could I have created that puppeteer? It attacked us several times and almost killed Hinata. I couldn't even give it any orders!"

"So this is your illness! Qiansheng!"

Fadai's voice suddenly rose in excitement, and he grabbed her shoulders and shouted urgently, his face twisted with conflicting pain and pride.

"I don't understand what disease you have, but your talent in mental magic is by far the best in our family. You far surpass all our ancestors. Only that Sanjiao Chuhua can surpass you in rat-related magic, but she can't arbitrarily distort and control the minds of mortals like you can... You are a genius in this area, Qiansheng, you have been since childhood."

"But... I don't have any such memory at all."

Qiansheng was a little shaken by the genuine emotions on her face. She subconsciously pointed out the doubts, and Fadai also sighed deeply.

"Yes, this is your condition... When you use mental magic, it may also cause damage to your brain. Perhaps it was because I was too happy at the time that I didn't notice your burden... This side effect gradually accumulated, and you lost your past memories.

The puppeteer of your creation also began to slowly lose control until it actually attacked you."

"I'm sorry, Qiansheng. I didn't tell you this before because I was afraid your condition would worsen, but now it seems that it has made you suspicious of me. I'm sorry, I should have told you all this earlier."

"No need to apologize...as long as you don't do this again,"

After finally hearing her explanation, Bai Lu Qiansheng, although instinctively a little skeptical, nodded with a relaxed expression. Fadai also breathed a sigh of relief and hugged her gently.

"Qiansheng, it's so kind of you to forgive me... I'll go look through the books now to see if there's any way to treat you. You can just rest here for a while. No matter what you see or hear, just treat them as hallucinations. Don't pay any attention to them, and don't communicate with them, okay?"

"Yeah, I get it, Mom."

Bailu Qiansheng nodded slightly, and Fadai smiled and closed the door, leaving her alone in the room.

Qiansheng sat in a chair, silently pondering the information he had received. At the same time, he looked at himself in the mirror with some complex feelings.

"I... am a genius at mental magic? Although Mom doesn't seem to be lying, I really don't remember anything at all... My childhood should have been normal."

"She wasn't lying about that, but not necessarily about the rest."

The next moment, she saw herself in the mirror suddenly revealing a sarcastic smile, and Bai Lu Qiansheng was stunned for a moment and frowned. She subconsciously wanted to question but remembered her mother's instructions, so she simply stood up and walked to the window, looking at Tokyo, ignoring this illusion.

"Bai Lu Qiansheng, do you really believe what your mother says? Isn't that too cute?"

She heard her own laughter behind her. Bai Lu Qiansheng gritted her teeth and tried to suppress her anger, constantly telling herself that it was pointless to be angry with the illusion and she just had to ignore it.

"Yes, yes, I am hallucinating. But everything you just saw before I appeared wasn't an illusion, right? Don't you think the atmosphere here is a bit weird?"

"…Will you please just shut up? I've had enough of your crap."

The voice behind him was still talking, and Qiansheng, who could not find peace, could not help but curse angrily, but it only brought him more unscrupulous ridicule.

"Hahaha, if I shut up, you'll be in trouble, Bai Lu Qiansheng. You don't really think your mother is looking for a cure, do you? Guess what she's doing now? Is she doing her duty as she said, or is she preparing something else?"

"Oh, you mean mothers can't be trusted? Should I believe you then?"

Bai Lu Qiansheng sneered, but the girl in the mirror smiled even more happily.

"Why not? I'm in your head. If you die, I'll be dead too. Would I harm you? Instead of questioning me here, I suggest you check the door first to see if you can still get out."

"What a clumsy attempt to sow discord. Will Mother lock me up again..."

Qiansheng sneered as she grasped the door handle, but the next moment she found that she couldn't pull it. She was surprised and her voice was interrupted.

"Hahaha, what were you trying to say? Your mother won't lock you in your room?"

Qiansheng in the mirror laughed, and Qiansheng gritted his teeth in annoyance, and soon found a reason for his mother.

"It's because I'm sick and she's worried about me running around, so she locked the door. It's understandable."

"Really? You're really understanding of her. Then when you walked in earlier, the servants didn't dare look at you, and the atmosphere was so strange. This must be normal, right?"

"..."

As she spoke, Qiansheng also recalled the previous scene. Just as the illusion had mocked him, he had clearly returned home after a long absence, but it seemed that all the servants did not dare to look her in the eye, as if they were afraid of what she would do to them.