mygo, but Cthulhu

After being stunned for a while, Ozawa Misaki spoke slowly in disbelief, and the boy pursed his lips and continued speaking.

"Yesterday, we signed up for a company event. With the help of soldiers, we used guns to shoot the middle-level managers of the Sanyuan Group. They were blindfolded and cried and screamed. I was scared at first... But pulling the trigger is actually not difficult. After the head is shot through, they immediately become silent. It's very simple."

"You know... what are you talking about?"

"Of course I know, sister. I have always been clear-headed. It was you who kept rebelling against reality for reasons we couldn't understand. Even your current disbelief is still incomprehensible to me."

The boy stared at her expressionlessly, and Misaki unconsciously turned her gaze to Rin, who looked a little uneasy, but she could also see that her sister was not sad about the murder itself, but simply felt guilty for acting on her own.

"I'm sorry, sister. I wanted to tell you earlier, but you were still unconscious at that time, and Xiuxing kept urging you..."

"..."

Misaki Ozawa stared at them blankly, but suddenly felt her heart filled with absurdity and pain. She trembled and clenched her teeth, her consciousness in chaos, and was quickly swallowed by the desperate collapse, making it impossible for her to struggle.

...One of the important reasons why she has been able to hold on until now is so that her family can be safe, not stained with blood, and can have precious peace in this city.

But now, even her brothers and sisters have started killing people, and they even look indifferent to the matter... They are also covered and assimilated by the distorted reality that she hates, and eventually become executioners like her.

If that's the case, then why does she have to endure so much?

As the coldness permeated her body, Ozawa Misaki's vision was once again blurred by tears. She collapsed powerlessly on the bed, trembling and trying hard to suppress the urge to sob. Rin also came over in panic and raised her hand to help her wipe her tears.

"Sister, what's wrong with you? Don't cry, I won't act on my own next time..."

"No, that's not the problem... Rin, aren't you even slightly moved? A life was lost just because you pulled the trigger, aren't you even slightly afraid?! Answer me!"

In the midst of pain and confusion, Misaki tightly grasped Rin's hand. Feeling the familiar tenderness and softness, she found it increasingly hard to believe that her sister would actually kill someone. Her face twisted as she collapsed and screamed.

"elder sister……"

Rin seemed to be frightened by her appearance. She stood there sobbing, tears welling up in her eyes. While Misaki was stunned by this scene, her body was pushed away by Xiuxing. She subconsciously let go of Rin and almost rolled off the bed.

"Ozawa Misaki, what the hell is wrong with you? You killed thousands of people when you raided the Mizono Group's headquarters, and now you're going to get mad at us for killing a few? What makes you question us?!"

The boy roared at her angrily, and Misaki also saw that Rin's slender wrist was even a little deformed... Obviously, she had just lost control of her emotions and accidentally increased the strength. Her sister looked not only scared by her, but also because she could hardly make a sound due to the severe pain.

"Rine... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Are you okay?"

When she realized that she almost broke her sister's wrist, Ozawa Misaki couldn't help but tremble. She panicked and wanted to go over quickly, but Rine subconsciously retreated in panic. She looked at her with eyes full of sadness and fear, which made Misaki freeze in place.

"Sister... I don't understand why you always cling to things I can't comprehend. One day, the world suddenly changed, and you suddenly changed too. Everything is like shattered glass, irreparable, yet you keep trying to piece reality back together. Even if you try your best, you still feel endless pain from the cracks... I don't understand why you keep chasing the past. Isn't the present what's important?"

"Liyin..."

"Sister, I know you're powerful, but you're also vulnerable. You can kill many enemies, but you're just an ordinary person. You can't change anything. Why don't you want to admit this? Why do you insist on fighting a meaningless battle against reality, even going so far as to oppose your friends and classmates?"

The girl looked at her with tears in her eyes, took a deep breath and tried to suppress her instinctive fear, then walked forward, held Misaki's hand, and spoke slowly and pleadingly.

"Sister, accept your powerlessness. It's part of who you are. We've all accepted our powerlessness, and that's why we can ignore guilt and remorse, because we can use this reason to convince ourselves otherwise."

"As long as you can accept this, then you will definitely be able to forget the pain that tormented you, and you won't take risks because of it anymore... Promise me, please, sister."

"..."

Misaki Ozawa looked at her helplessly, and at the same time, she gradually felt a sense of sadness in her heart, as if she could finally understand to some extent this increasingly distorted world, and understand the horrible changes in Genmaki Shin and her classmates.

...So that's how it is. So, the always-smiling blonde girl she knew had also accepted her own powerlessness at the time, which was why she wanted to wield so much power. Her classmates, amidst their laughter and wailing, had also completely accepted this, which was why, in their despair, they could not find any other way out and ultimately became the killing tools of String Heart.

…So, will she accept it? Will she give in to this world? Will she surrender for the sake of her family and get used to this?

Soaked in blood and bones, would she give up everything she had held on to until now?

"Click,"

As these thoughts flashed through her mind, Ozawa Misaki suddenly seemed to hear a crisp sound. She turned her head subconsciously, only to see that she had broken Charlotte's neck, and her body fell heavily to the ground.

"Tear,"

Then, there was the sound of the prosthesis exploding in the flesh and blood, and she saw the girl who volunteered to test Sian Westin fall heavily to the ground, her last sobs and tears swallowed by the flames.

Then, it was Marina and Ms. Rinrinko who sacrificed themselves so that she could escape. They turned into ashes with grateful smiles on their faces, but in the end, she was unable to save those tens of thousands of people.

Countless dead people whom she still remembered appeared before her eyes, rapidly playing and replaying in the blood. Finally, everything came to the starting point of the horrible tragedy.

Ozawa Misaki helplessly watched the crossbow arrow pierce Ikumi's chest. She also saw that the heart that rushed towards the crowd was torn into pieces... Yes, although the changes in the city happened earlier, this place was already the source of despair in her cognition.

But, Xin and Yumei were clearly about to persuade those people, so why... did they choose to take action in the end? They should have known that venting their anger would not be able to undo what they had lost.

As she realized this, Ozawa Misaki opened her eyes wide. She walked closer to her memories in a daze, and saw the eyes of those people filled with pain, despair and hatred, as well as their rationality being consumed by anger because of their own powerlessness.

...Yes, she found out why everything turned out like this, because everyone was tortured by horror, and they accepted their powerlessness in their collapse... Therefore, they had to turn their pain into violence and vent it on others, otherwise they would not be able to continue living.

Violence brings hatred, hatred breeds despair...a cruel cycle begins, and no one thinks about the reason, but just blindly vents.

The murderer who killed Yumei was actually the "powerless" person that everyone admitted to... and she could never compromise with the murderer, she could never surrender.

"I'm sorry, Rinne...but I can't promise you that. I really can't."

After a moment of dead silence, Ozawa Misaki responded slowly and weakly, and the girl was stunned for a moment. She stared at Misaki in shock and confusion, and finally broke down completely and could no longer suppress her pain. She turned around and ran out of the room crying, and the boy quickly chased after her after sighing in extreme disappointment, without even looking at Misaki again.

"..."

Misaki Ozawa sat dejectedly on the hospital bed and chose not to chase after Rin because she knew that even if she did so it would be useless and would only cause her sister to suffer more pain.

Her heart began to ache again, and regret spread uncontrollably. However, even if she imagined the scene just now again and asked herself whether she would agree to Li Yin's plea if she had another chance to do it again, she still couldn't give a positive answer in her struggling heart... Even if it would hurt her family, she still couldn't compromise with "powerlessness", she really couldn't do it.

...It's ridiculous, Ozawa Misaki. Look at you now. Even your family doesn't agree with your ideas. Even if you can't accept this tragic cycle, what else can you do? In the end, won't you just hurt the people who love you?

“Hehehe…hahahahaha, hehehahahaha, hahahahahahaha…”

Misaki Ozawa covered her head tightly, but a moment later she suddenly heard a desperate laugh full of self-mockery and sadness coming from the room. She instinctively looked up to find the source of the sound, but the next moment she looked at herself in the mirror and saw that the black-haired girl was already in tears. Even though her expression was extremely sad and painful, her face was still distorted and she kept squeezing out sobbing laughter. Even if she wanted to stop, she couldn't do it.

"Hahahahaha! Hahahaha! Hahahahahahahahahahaha!"

Then, Ozawa Misaki laughed out loud in the midst of her sober collapse.

Chapter 379 Anxiety and Grief

"..."

Zhu Shou Zhiyou stared at the screen expressionlessly, watching the figure in the video miraculously moving through the debris. After a while, she began to tremble, gritting her teeth and squeezing out a sound bit by bit.

"three minutes……"

"Zhiyou, are you okay..."

"three minutes!"

Sato Masuki next to him spoke with concern, while Tamate Chiyu suddenly roared madly, his face twisted into a ball due to extreme fear and anxiety, and he slammed the table hard.

"From the moment Ozawa Misaki began her operation until the Mizono Group's headquarters was completely wiped out, it only took three minutes... How is that possible? She clearly only had cybernetic enhancements, so how could she be so terrifyingly strong?"

She murmured to herself in disbelief, her breathing becoming rapid. Her red eyes began to flicker. She covered her head tightly and spoke slowly in panic and hatred.

"Yoshiki, I saw it. I saw what Ozawa Misaki will do next. She wants to kill us all. She wants to destroy everything we have to satisfy her ridiculous obsession... Our defenses are no stronger than the Mizono Group. If she can behead Charlotte, she can definitely launch a surprise attack on us... We can't just sit there and wait for death. We must respond."

"Don't worry, Zhiyou. I have also installed prosthetics. I will definitely protect you. I will never let her hurt you."

Sato Mashiki whispered comforting words earnestly, but Tamate Chiyu shook her head vigorously in extreme annoyance. She was not happy at all about her promise, and her expression became more and more ugly.

"Protect? No, Yimu, I've put in so much effort to own this capital and army. How could I be reduced to needing your protection? I should be the one protecting you..."

She responded slowly with gritted teeth, but became more and more agitated because she couldn't think of a way to deal with it. She desperately tore her hair and face, letting the bloody hair fall to the ground. When Yimu hurriedly tried to stop her, she suddenly seemed to realize something and stood up from the chair.

"Oh, I've figured out a plan... Xian Juanxin definitely wants to negotiate with us. She's already gained enough benefits. So, I just need to give her enough bargaining chips, and she should let us go for the time being... But the problem is, how can I convince her?"

Just as her train of thought had made a breakthrough, it hit a dead end again. Zhu Shouzhiyou angrily hit her head hard, and in the pain, she suddenly heard a calm voice.

"I don't think it would be meaningful if you hurt yourself, Tamade Chiyu."

"Mashiro Kurata?"

She was stunned for a moment and quickly turned her head. After seeing the white-haired girl clearly, her expression immediately relaxed a lot and she walked quickly to her.

"You finally came out of the room. I'm sorry for your friend's death... But from your tone, do you know a way to get Xian Juanxin to agree to a truce?"

"It's actually very simple,"

Kurata Mashiro responded softly, then raised her hand to gesture towards the holographic map on the screen.

"Because of that AI's unauthorized actions, the entire world has learned the true situation in Tokyo. However, Shiragi Chisei interrupted her broadcast. The brief global slumber caused thousands of accidents and tens of thousands of deaths. Under such circumstances, the outside world is mostly fearful and wary of us."

“Xian Juanxin actually wants to spend time to confirm

To ensure that her agreements with other countries will not be violated, we only need to threaten her. If she insists on attacking, then we will do our utmost to cause heavy casualties to all countries. With your technology and my magic, this is not just empty talk."

"By then, no matter how much Genjumaki Xin wants to maintain relations with other countries, it will be impossible to succeed. Panic-stricken public opinion will force each country to send troops to occupy Tokyo, and everything she has will be destroyed in the flames of war... She will never let that happen."

"Yes... Thank you so much for your advice, Ms. Kurata."

After realizing that the current situation was not as tense as she had imagined, Tamate Chiyu couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, and Kurata Mashiro continued speaking calmly.

"Not only that, we severely injured Yukina Minato when we fought Roselia before. She is now suffering from the power of Yige. It's only a matter of time before she will be torn to pieces by the snakes. And Genmaki Shin will definitely not want to see her ally die."

"Ms. Tamade, I hope you can give me some autonomy in the negotiations. I want to use this to get something from Genmaki Shin... Is that okay?"

"Of course, Ms. Kurata, I haven't apologized yet for not being able to support you earlier."

Tamade Chiyu smiled and nodded to Kurata Mashiro, but her attention was no longer here. She shook hands with Tamade Chiyu absentmindedly, discussed the details of the negotiation with her, and then turned and came to Nanashi's room.

The snake girl was exhausted from the previous battle and was sleeping quietly on the bed. Ru Wei was sitting beside the bed as if to take care of her, but she didn't realize that she was equally tired and had fallen asleep without her knowing.

Kurata Mashiro walked forward slowly, silently gazing at her only two remaining friends. She couldn't help but recall the despair on Tohko's family's faces when they heard the news. They didn't blame Mashiro, but she could clearly see the incomprehensible pain in their eyes:

Why didn't you protect her?

"..."

Kurata Mashiro trembled, and at this moment she felt the belated great grief surging up. She covered her mouth tightly, crying silently and trying hard to suppress her sobs to avoid waking her friends.

After taking a deep breath, she wiped her tears, turned and left the room, and came to a laboratory she had applied for from Tamade Chiyu. When the door opened, what came into her sight was her lost Touko.

To be precise, it was Toruko's brain. Although it was covered with neat cuts, it was precisely because the cuts were too flat that after Kurata Mashiro put it in Migo's brain preservation tank, he unexpectedly discovered that Toruko's brain was not completely dead, and miraculously still retained some activity.

...She knew that since death was also tainted, all the dead could not be saved, but even so, she still wanted to do something, she still wanted to try her best to save her friends.

It just so happens that Genmaki Kokoro seems to have deliberately preserved Kitazawa Ikumi's body. No matter what she wants to do, at least she has enough research on brain nerves... Perhaps, by curing Minato Yukina as a bargaining chip, she can get a way to save "Touko".

"I'm sorry, Touko. It's all because of me that you died. I'm sorry..."

She spoke softly with great fatigue, and walked step by step to the front of the jar. She raised her hand and touched the quietly floating brain through the jar, touching the last thing her friend left in this world.

After a while, she hugged the jar weakly, feeling the coldness in her arms, and sobbed softly.

Even though she knew that there was no point in pursuing it, she couldn't help but desperately try to piece together everything that was important... She would probably continue like this until her death.

Chapter 380 Death is a Wall

Death is a wall.

Standing in front of the tombstones of Aine, Deng and her mother, Nagasaki Suyo suddenly remembered this sentence. She couldn't remember where she had seen it. She just glanced at it casually at the time, but now she finally realized what it meant.

For ordinary humans, they will never be able to cross this infinite wall in their entire lives. They are used to it and have become powerless because of it.

For those of them who possess special powers, death should not be an insurmountable despair... until death is completely contaminated, and then this wall finally stands in front of them. All that is lost is behind the wall, but they cannot break through it no matter what. They can only become more and more crazy in pain, allowing this wall to extend to others.

...If the essence of the universe is madness and nothingness, then what is the meaning of their struggle until now? They persisted until now, but didn't they still lose more and more?

"..."

Nagasaki Suyo stared numbly at the familiar name on the tombstone. She once used the flesh and blood of innocent people to prolong Aine's sobriety, but in the end, this only gave her more time to indulge in happiness... In the end, the deeper the happiness, the longer the pain, until everything is swallowed up.

"Su Shi? Su Shi?"

A familiar voice filled with worry sounded in her ears, and Su Shi was stunned for a long time before slowly turning her head. When she saw Li Xi, she felt a little dazed.

"…Lixi?"

"Sushi... I know you must be in pain, but I still hope you can hold on. Aine definitely doesn't want you to give up like this."

Shiina Riki grabbed her shoulders and whispered comforting words, while Su Shi looked at her helplessly. After a long silence, she slowly spoke, her low voice full of fatigue.

"Lixi...mygo should only have three exclamation marks left now, right?"

"Su Shi..."

"Aine is dead too. Like Deng, she has left us forever. From now on, no matter where we go, she won't follow us. There won't be anyone constantly sending messages to the group chat. No one will call me Soyorin or you Rikki anymore... She's dead, and there's nothing we can do."

"Su Shi, I'm sorry. If I could have done something, maybe the ending would have been different... I'm sorry."

Li Xi burst into tears because of her words, and apologized with trembling sobs, but Su Shi did not react at all. She watched her friend crying silently, but found that there was not even a ripple in her heart. There was only numb calmness left, nothing else.

"...Lixi, do you still want to leave this city?"

After a moment, she suddenly spoke softly, and Li Xi was stunned for a moment and nodded subconsciously, with a hint of doubt in his pain.

"Of course, this place is no longer suitable for us to live here. As long as Xiangzi solves her problem, we will leave here... At this point, I believe she will no longer be obsessed with killing Kurata Mashiro. That really does not make sense."