mygo, but Cthulhu

"She protects you, and she also hopes that you can have your own direction... Even if it's for her, you should try to break away from Xiangzi and find your own meaning."

"..."

If Ye Mu fell silent, she pursed her lips helplessly, trying to find the answer in her heart, but all she got was confusion and anxiety.

"...I don't want to change, it's too painful. I don't want to find myself either. There's nothing wrong with being a puppet. This way I won't get lost in the chaos, I can always be with Xiang, and I can always stay by her side."

After a moment, she whispered back earnestly, shaking her head slightly.

"I've long been accustomed to all this, and I can no longer imagine what it would be like to regain my so-called self... Stop saying that, Hailing. I don't think there's anything wrong with who I am now."

"But……"

"As long as it's my choice, it doesn't matter what it is, right? This is my path."

Hai Ling subconsciously wanted to say something, but Ruoye Mu calmly interrupted her first. The black-haired girl hesitated for a moment, and after meeting those unwavering golden eyes, she could only sigh.

"Since you said so, then okay."

She said goodbye to Wakaba Mu softly with a complicated tone, and the girl nodded and turned to walk forward. She had confirmed that Hailing would not fall into a depressed mood again, and Xiang would not worry about anything because of it. This was enough for her.

However, under the obscuration of sunlight, they did not notice the unusual twinkling of Aldebaran.

Chapter 383 Crazy Idea

"No... Feimary, that's enough. I really can't stand it anymore..."

Amid the sound of flesh being torn, Mizukuri gasped and tried desperately to push Feimali away, but the latter continued her wanton movements with her hands, smiling and swallowing Mizukuri's hot blood in big gulps.

"It's okay, Lan, don't worry. Your bodies won't break down. My spells can fix you over and over again. And doesn't it feel good? You love it, don't you?"

"I don't like it, Feima Li. Now is not the time to dwell on this kind of thing. We must cheer up!"

Mizukuri tried her best to endure the dizziness in her head, gritted her teeth and tried to squeeze out a sound, and Feimali couldn't help but be stunned at this time. Her originally indulgent smile was tinged with pain. She sobbed and hugged Lan's broken body, her voice trembling and tired.

"Ran...even if we pull ourselves together, what will we gain? Tugumi and Tomoe are both dead. They were in trouble because of me...Even if you didn't hate me, how could I face all this horror?"

"I can't even kill myself, and can only struggle desperately in this cruel world... I persisted for too long, until my madness gradually withered, my pain completely dried up, and no matter how terrible the pain was, it could no longer bring me the joy of atonement... So, I can only indulge in this kind of desire. I have no other choice."

"Feimary, I know everything you've been through. I'm sorry, I've misunderstood you all along."

Mi Zhulan held her face gently, and apologized guiltily and earnestly. Although there was still lust in her eyes, deeper than that was the sincere emotion and the sober self-blame.

"I knew clearly that you couldn't possibly kill Thrush, but I was still blinded by anger at the time... I hurt you so much, I'm sorry, Feimary."

"orchid……"

"I know I'm probably not qualified to tell you to stop, but I still hope you won't indulge in this endlessly. Endless desire will only melt your consciousness... I really don't want us to end up as a broken, disgusting pile of rotten meat. Tugumi and Tomoe definitely wouldn't want to see us like that."

Mizukuri's sincere persuasion gradually calmed the restlessness in Feimali's mind. She gradually regained consciousness, looked down at what she had done, and her face couldn't help but twisted in pain.

"I'm sorry, Lan, I did this to you and Moka..."

"It's okay, Feimali, we do owe you too much, and like you said, our bodies can be repaired after being damaged several times, you don't need to blame yourself."

Mizukari shook her head slightly, then struggled to carry the unconscious Moka to the other side. Her flesh and internal organs were entangled with Lan's body, and under the alienation effect of the spell, they seemed to be squirming as if they had life. She finally managed to separate herself from her friends and repair all the wounds.

After putting on her clothes, Mizukami slowly exhaled, and when she wanted to continue comforting Feimali, a familiar voice suddenly sounded.

"That's really ugly, aftergrow. After just a few days of not seeing you, you've already indulged in such disgusting desires?"

Bai Lu Qiansheng's figure appeared in the room, and when she smelled the rotten smell mixed with blood and wine, she couldn't help but frown. She covered her nose while opening the window and used magic to blow away all the smell.

"It's you again, Bai Lu Qiansheng. You came to us specifically, it shouldn't be just to comment on our depravity, right?"

Mizukuri asked coldly. When she remembered that Ueda Gawabone's death was somewhat related to the girl in front of her, her voice became hostile. Shirasagi Chisei didn't care about her reaction and smiled calmly.

"Of course, I came to you this time to discuss a new round of cooperation with you."

"Forget it. Your plan was directly ruined by the incarnation of Naija last time. Do you still intend to stick to your ideals?"

"Of course I know this is impossible to succeed, and I didn't come here to discuss this with you."

Bailu Qiansheng shook his head slightly, but his next words made Meizhulan frown.

"Mizukuri, you understand why Uehara Himari dragged you into this world of lust, right? It's because she's completely lost hope in this world and wants to escape it by any means necessary... But what if I told you that you actually have someone you can take revenge on?"

"You're not talking about yourself, are you? After all, you are the source of the Blood Cross. If it weren't for you, none of this would have happened."

Mi Zhulan sneered, while Bai Lu Qiansheng just shook his head, his tone still calm.

"If you wanted revenge on me, you would have done it long ago, but you all know that killing me wouldn't change anything. What you care about more now is each other being alive."

"But our world is a fragile thing that can be easily destroyed by those terrifying beings... and the worst of them is the Thousand-Faced God.

He treated us like toys, He shattered the beautiful things that were about to take shape, and He was the one who quietly pushed all this behind the scenes to bring us to this miserable state… All our suffering is inseparable from Him.”

"You want revenge on Naya? Are you kidding me?"

Mei Zhulan was stunned for a moment by her words. After she came to her senses, she felt absurd and frowned and shook her head.

"You should also know what Naa is. How can we possibly take revenge on Him? The gap between us and Him is much greater than the gap between us and ants. We have no way of harming Him."

"You're right. I've never dreamed of harming Him... But He is interested in us. This interest is why He created the avatars. As long as we can make one of His avatars experience any kind of failure, it will be a victory for us."

Bai Lu Qiansheng smiled, then took out the information she had collected about Miyashiro Orie and nodded slightly to them.

"You see, this is the avatar that ruined my plan. She grew up in human society and only recently realized her true nature. I think this experience may have contaminated her to some extent, causing her to even go against the usual habits of a Naarian avatar."

"Usual habit?"

"Naya rarely actively participates in certain things, or uses her power to directly achieve anything. She always prefers to hide behind the scenes and gently manipulate fate, allowing things to naturally become what she wants... However, Miyashiro Orie directly used her power to stop me, which shows that she is still somewhat influenced by humans. This is our opportunity."

Bai Lu Qiansheng finished explaining softly, and Mei Zhulan frowned and sighed after listening to it, then spoke slowly with a look of incomprehension.

"So, you want to drag us into defeating that Naa incarnation in some way, in order to take revenge on Him?"

"That's right, Mizukuri, the deaths of your friends are all blamed on Naya. It's all His fault. I believe you must want to help them..."

"I'm sorry, but I will never agree to such a crazy request of yours."

Mei Zhulan interrupted her coldly, and Bai Lu Qiansheng couldn't help but be stunned for a moment. After he reacted, he asked subconsciously in confusion.

"why?"

"You actually ask me why?"

Mizukari sighed heavily and looked at her as if she were a madman, as if she had just invited them to commit suicide.

"Bai Lu Qiansheng, I know you've been tormented by your abnormal senses, and I also know your mental state isn't very good... But, could you please think about what you just said? That's Naaa. He is Chaos, one of the Three Pillars of Deity, and now you're actually inviting us to actively try to defeat His incarnation? Are you conscious?"

"...I thought you guys wouldn't be afraid of death by now."

"We are indeed not afraid of death, but there is no need to do such a stupid thing. As you said, the living are more important to us now, not revenge."

Mi Zhulan responded softly, then her expression became serious. She quickly walked in front of Bai Lu Qiansheng, stared into her eyes and spoke in a deep voice.

"Also, I want to urge you to give up this horrible idea as soon as possible. You're risking the entire world. If anything goes wrong, death would probably be the luckiest outcome for you, or even for everyone. You should understand this, right?"

"I know, but I'm not afraid of any pain or torture anymore. Like you said, I'm just a crazy ant. No matter how hard Nia tries to crush me, I don't care."

"Then you should care about your friends, right?"

"..."

After Mei Zhulan said this, Bai Lu Qiansheng fell silent. She opened her mouth but no sound came out. Her expression gradually became dejected and powerless. After a long while, she responded with a sigh.

"...You're right. I shouldn't have let them take such a risk. I was inconsiderate this time."

"You've finally regained your sanity. If you continue to hold on to such crazy thoughts, I will beat you up and force you to calm down."

Seeing that she had finally changed her mind, Mizukami breathed a sigh of relief. But when she was about to say something, a smiling voice that did not belong to anyone present suddenly rang out.

"I think this is a pretty good idea, why should I give it up?"

Chapter 384 Miyashiro Orie's Game

"..."

The room suddenly fell into silence. After a moment, Bai Lu Qiansheng slowly turned his head to look at the white-haired girl who suddenly appeared beside him. His stiff face couldn't help but turn pale with panic.

"Nia incarnation..."

"I'd actually rather hear you call me Miss Miyashiro. After all, as you said, I'm not very qualified to be His incarnation."

Miyashiro Orie smiled, then walked up to her and stared at her with admiration.

"However, I really admire you, Bai Lu Qiansheng. After all this time, you are the only one who still dares to have such thoughts after knowing Naya... To be honest, just for this reason alone, you are enough for me to remember."

"...You can torture me however you want, but I beg you, please don't attack my friends."

After a moment of silence, Bai Lu Qiansheng took a deep breath and spoke slowly, while the white-haired girl just smiled and shook her head slightly, her voice full of joy.

"Torture you? Why would I do that? You've truly amazed me, Bailu Qiansheng. If everyone were like Meizhulan, convinced they couldn't defeat me and simply wallowing in misery, how boring this world would be... Thankfully, I finally found someone like you."

"It's a shame you couldn't hold on to such a precious passion, and were so quickly persuaded by Mei Zhulan... So, how can I convince you to persist in seeking revenge against me? Perhaps, I should just leave you with nothing?"

She moved closer to Bai Lu Qiansheng, but her gentle words made the latter feel as if she had fallen into an icy cave. She began to tremble, and instinctively burst into anger in panic. However, reason told her that any resistance was useless, so all her anger turned into painful hatred towards herself.

Bai Lu Qiansheng, how could you be so foolish? Don't you know that such arrogant and crazy thoughts are enough to bring disaster? You, a born freak, have dragged Eve and Maya into danger countless times. Now they are even being targeted by Chaos because of you... This is all your fault.

In the midst of painful collapse, Qiansheng bit his lip in despair, and blood flowed from the corner of his mouth. Miyashiro Orie gently reached out to catch a drop of blood, stared at it thoughtfully for a moment, and then shook his head.

"It seems that this won't work. You're still too fragile. If I take away everything you have, you'll probably just kill yourself... That wouldn't be very interesting."

She sighed, thought for a moment, and then seemed to suddenly remember something. She couldn't help but smile happily and gently patted Bai Lu Qiansheng's head.

"By the way, since destruction can't give you motivation, how about hope? As long as you can continue to persist in taking revenge on me and satisfy me, I will bring your Xiaocai and Hina back. How about that?"

"Bring them back? But, death is clearly contaminated, and neither Xiaocai nor Hinai can come back..."

"Please don't judge me by your own perception of reality. It's just that you can't resurrect the dead.

, it’s never been difficult for me.”

The white-haired girl interrupted her softly, and Qiansheng was stunned for a moment before an instinctive desire and surprise appeared on her face. However, she still remembered the nature of this terrifying human-looking existence in front of her, and there was still vigilance in her eyes.

"I don't believe you would be so kind."

"Hahaha, correct judgment, Bai Lu Qiansheng. Unfortunately, you have no choice now. If you reject me, then I will let your friends fall into pain that you can't imagine, and you won't even be able to die."

Miyashiro Orie laughed and whispered her threat, and Shiraishi Chisei couldn't help but grit her teeth. She stared at those eyes, and finally could only sigh deeply and respond weakly.

"Okay, I promise you."

"Although I know you won't have any other answer, I'm still glad you said that."

Miyashiro Orie patted her shoulder with a smile and encouraged her cheerfully.

"Actually, I don't think you need to be too discouraged. After all, you only need to defeat me in any one aspect, whether it's a certain skill, pure fighting, or even some vague meaning... As long as you can do it, then it will be your victory. Then, won't you be able to regain the beauty you've always dreamed of?"

"The word 'beautiful' has nothing to do with you. Stop pretending."

Bai Lu Qiansheng responded expressionlessly, and the girl said nothing more but just curled the corners of her mouth. After a moment, she finally turned and walked towards the door. Just as Mizukuri and Feimali couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, she suddenly stopped and turned back to look at them with a smile.

"By the way, Feima Li, Mei Zhulan, now you should understand that the black-brined egg didn't actually deceive you, right?"

"Of course we understand... I'm sorry for being so rude to you before. Please forgive me just once..."

Mizukari nodded vigorously with trembling hands, and the girl walked up to her with a smile and patted her shoulder comfortingly.

"Don't be afraid. I'm only bringing this up to prove my integrity. After all, that black-brined egg and I are both incarnations of Naya. If he were to lie, it would definitely affect your opinion of me."

"However, it's really not a good thing for you to continue to indulge in lust. I'm not some Dark Prince or Thirsty Lady. It's really a bit boring for you guys to do this... By the way, Mizukari, why don't you all join in this game?"

The girl looked up at Lan expectantly, and the latter suddenly felt a buzzing in her head. She staggered back a step and almost fell to the ground. At this time, Feimali's face was distorted with panic and anger, and she subconsciously gritted her teeth and made a sound.

"You can't do this. Even if you are the incarnation of Naa, you still don't have the power of your true self. Besides, I have signed a contract with Kwache Utaus. If you want to kill me, you must fight him first..."

"Who said I must kill you? Uehara Himari?"

The girl glanced at her, and just a glance made Fei Mali's body stiffen instantly. She quickly realized her stupidity and couldn't help showing bitterness on her face.

"It seems you've come to your senses. You should also understand that even if I don't kill you, I still have countless ways to deal with you. Besides, you value your friends more than yourself... I just need to make them suffer."

"…I'm sorry, please forgive my rudeness."

The girl responded softly, and Himari was instantly overcome by panic. She sobbed and whispered an apology, while Miyashiro Orie gently raised her hand to wipe away her tears and smiled comfortingly.

"It's okay, Feima Li, don't worry, I won't punish you for this. I just need to make sure that you really understand what I mean... Now, tell me, will you reject me?"

"..."

It was difficult for Fei Ma Li to squeeze out a sound, but the girl didn't mind her silence. She turned her gaze to Mizukuri, who also understood that she had no choice and nodded silently with a heavy heart.

"I promise you, we will also participate in this game... I just hope you can keep your promise. If we really win, you must revive our friends and never bother us again."

"Forever! You always like to use this word to reinforce your promises, but you never understand its weight... But I can promise that as long as you win, I won't come after you again."