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Chapter 48 Curse

After returning to the park numbly, Xiangzi finally felt that she had lost all her strength. She sat weakly on the bench, and then she felt tears slowly flowing down.

She was not afraid of the threats from the Toyokawa family, nor did she care about her own fate, but if Deng and the others were implicated... she really couldn't continue.

Why? Why did the Toyokawa family care so much about this inexplicable child? Was he truly so valuable? And why had their father told them this? Was he truly hiding something from her?

Shoko Toyokawa covered her head in agony. The confusion of questions and unwillingness made her feel that it was difficult to maintain her consciousness, and the pain in her heart was almost unbearable.

"Didi,"

In the end, what woke her up was the alarm on her cell phone. She glanced at the screen blankly, and after a while she remembered that if she didn't go to work, she would probably be late.

…Even if she still had 1 billion yen in her account, she had to suppress her pain and leave quickly, because she would never accept money that did not belong to her, and she would never compromise with this world.

"That's right...I won't..."

She muttered to herself in a crying voice, wiped her tears and ran quickly, and finally arrived at the company.

Her colleagues had already started working, and no one said anything about her scouting. At this moment, she couldn't help but feel especially grateful to the gangster who beat the manager into the hospital. If she were harassed by that man again, she was not sure what she would do.

Taking a deep breath, Xiangzi tried his best to force a smile and started working as usual, receiving the impatience and complaints from one person after another.

Xiangzi numbly tried to sweeten her voice. She felt like she was using cheap perfume to cover up the stench of her soul. But everyone could turn a blind eye to it, and only she had to continue with this ridiculous and disgusting tone.

One after another, questions that were simply not something a human could ask made Xiangzi's head ache. She suppressed the pain, suppressed the anger, suppressed everything and forced herself to continue, even though another part of her began to laugh at her madly for having a huge amount of money but not using it, and questioned why she was so stupid.

In a trance, Xiangzi suddenly realized that it was almost time to get off work. She wanted to breathe out, but found that she didn't even have the strength to do so.

"Didi,"

Another call came in, she answered it silently, and the next moment she heard a rude roar in her ears.

"You're so slow to answer, you don't have any hands?! Do you believe I'll complain to you?!"

"I'm sorry, I'll definitely serve you faster next time,"

Xiangzi closed his eyes expressionlessly.

"Is there any problem?"

"Of course. No problem, why would I chat with you? Do you have any mother to teach you? You are such a moron."

Xiangzi clenched his fists silently.

"I'm sorry, but please try to maintain a normal attitude. Personal attacks won't help you solve the problem."

"What's your attitude? Huh? This product is so bad, can't I just scold you? You idiot!"

The roar in her ears became louder, and at this moment, a flash of blood suddenly appeared before Xiangzi's eyes. She clenched her teeth tightly, no longer caring about her attitude, and her voice suddenly turned cold.

"Sir, you can curse me all you want, but please don't insult my family. That's very uncultured."

"Oh, are you anxious? It seems you really don't have a mother. Is she dead a long time ago, or is she in some fucking brothel..."

After hearing her change in tone, the man on the other side laughed instead. He attacked Xiangzi's mother with more vigor, and Xiangzi trembled under the stimulation of these sounds. Her eyes seemed to be filled with the blood of that day, and the scarlet covered her vision, stimulating her childhood memories that she did not want to recall.

"Hahaha, you're not talking anymore? I was right. Hey, where is your mother's tombstone? I'll go over there and pee when I have time..."

...Mom, why did you leave me?

"Speak! Speak! Are you fucking deaf?! Didn't your mother tell you to speak back? Oh, I forgot your mother died a long time ago!"

Did I do something wrong? Did I hurt you in some way? I can change, so why did you just leave without saying anything?

"Fuck, say something! Your mother is dead! Your mother deserves to die! How could your mother give birth to a bastard like you? She must have been pissed off to death by you..."

"You're the one who deserves to die,"

Xiangzi spoke softly, and the next moment the voice from the other side disappeared instantly.

"It's ridiculous that you're venting your frustrations on a mere customer service representative. Foul language can't change your inferior nature, nor can it make you even the slightest bit superior."

"People like you shouldn't be alive, because you're just wasting other people's time. You should be crushed bit by bit, watching your own blood drain away. This is the ending that belongs to you."

"..."

There was still no sound from the other end. Xiangzi thought that he might have been disconnected. She sighed and calmly said the last sentence before hanging up.

"Goodbye."

Then, she stood up and left her seat. Her colleagues around her looked at her with complicated expressions. Then, as expected, Xiangzi received a text message of dismissal. After all, she had just cursed the client to death, so this was normal.

She took her things and left the building. For a moment, she didn't even feel the heaviness of life becoming increasingly difficult to hold on to. Only the cold memories of her childhood gradually flooded into her heart.

Toyokawa Shoko rubbed her temples and sighed tiredly.

“…It’s such a headache.”

However, she didn't regret it much.

Chapter 49: Toyokawa Shoko's Childhood

Before the age of eight, Shoko Toyokawa had a happy childhood. Her father loved her very much, and although her exceptionally beautiful mother would show her strict side from time to time, Shoko knew that she loved her.

She had a playmate named Wakaba Mu, who looked like a cute doll, so Xiangzi liked to play with her. Mu didn't like to talk, so Xiangzi talked to her more. In short, she liked everything around her at that time.

However, Xiangzi found that when she hugged her mother, her mother's body would always tense up. When she looked up, she could see her mother's smile, but she would never let her hug her for too long.

"Mom, do you feel uncomfortable when I hold you?"

She asked directly at that time, but her mother looked at her uncle next to her first, and then shook her head slightly after a moment of silence.

"How could that be? Mom is just a little uncomfortable. Mom still likes Xiangzi very much."

"Yeah, I like mom too,"

Xiangzi nodded vigorously without thinking, but she still didn't know why, she inexplicably felt that there was always something dark in her mother's eyes.

很奇

It was a strange idea, and she couldn't understand why, but she just had this feeling. She asked her father, and her father just comforted her that it was an illusion. She asked her uncle, and her uncle just smiled back.

She told Xiangzi about this matter in a peaceful manner amidst her distress, and the doll-like girl's expression changed for the first time. The next day, she held Xiangzi's hand and said not to worry about it, she would always be with Xiangzi.

In her happiness, Xiangzi forgot this fact. When she was five years old, she found that her mother gradually stopped contacting her. Although she would not avoid her when she was hugged, she could feel her mother trembling.

She was worried that her mother was sick, but her father didn't think so. Her uncle touched her head and just smiled and said:

"Because Xiangzi has grown another year older."

"What does this mean? Is it a bad thing for me to grow up?"

"It's not a bad thing, but your mother will have to bear more."

She didn't understand what her uncle said, but she could vaguely feel that her mother didn't seem happy that she was holding her.

From then on, she began to be afraid to hug her mother. If she really wanted to touch her mother, she would hold her mother's hand, while reminding herself in her heart not to go any further.

When he was six years old, his mother gradually reduced the frequency of leaving the room. No matter how Xiangzi begged, she would just smile and apologize softly. Gradually, Xiangzi stopped doing that.

She was concerned about what her mother was doing in the room, but found that she often looked at an old box with a look of complexity she had never seen before, and a depression and pain that she could not understand as she was still young at the time.

When she was seven years old, she found it difficult to even see her mother. At this point, her father finally realized something was wrong. He tried to comfort her mother, but in the end it was of no use.

Loneliness and fear grew day by day, and Xiangzi wanted to understand why her mother had changed like this. She took the box when her mother left the room, and there was only an ordinary small necklace inside.

She tried to put it on, but the next moment she heard footsteps behind her.

When she turned around, she saw for the first time her mother's face distorted like that. Pain and astonishment filled that gorgeous face that looked like a work of art, and she almost rushed over and snatched the necklace from Xiangzi's hand.

"Mother……"

Xiangzi was frightened by her unexpected reaction. She only spoke softly and tremblingly, while her mother held the necklace tightly, looking at her with eyes full of strange and indescribable horror.

"Who told you to touch this?"

"I'm sorry, mother..."

"go out!"

Xiangzi just ran with tears in the midst of the screams that sounded like howling. Her memory of what happened afterwards was not very clear. She only remembered that she was sobbing softly in her father's arms. After her uncle knew about this, he walked into her mother's room, and when he brought her mother out, she had returned to normal.

She whispered an apology to Xiangzi with deep regret, and Xiangzi certainly would not hold a grudge against her. After that, everything seemed to be back to normal.

However, after knowing this, Xiao Mu took the initiative to ask to go to her house to play, and Xiangzi happily agreed immediately. She took Xiao Mu to find her mother, and she also praised Xiao Mu for being cute in a gentle manner.

Xiangzi left for a while, and when she came back, she found that Xiaomu was inexplicably depressed and looked like she was worried about something. She tried to comfort her, but it didn't work.

After a few days, Xiaomu slowly got rid of that state, and Xiangzi was sincerely happy... However, from then on, Xiaomu seemed to start deliberately avoiding her mother.

On Xiangzi's seventh birthday, her mother took the initiative to hug her, which was very rare. While she was surprised, her mother also whispered in her ear and made a request.

"Xiangzi, can you do me a favor?"

"Of course, Mom, is there anything you need me to do?"

Xiangzi nodded vigorously without hesitation, and her mother smiled and took her to the balcony. She pointed to a hidden room, her voice softer than ever before.

"There's a box in the center of that room, and now everyone's celebrating and no one's guarding it."

"It's not convenient for me to leave now. It would be great if Xiangzi could bring the box to me. Can you do that?"

She lowered her head to look at Xiangzi, and Xiangzi saw for the first time the pure desire in her eyes.

In her memory, her mother always liked quietness, and there was not much emotion in her eyes except tenderness, which made her feel as if her mother was not her mother, but a lifeless cold sculpture.

But now, her mother expressed this longing in front of her. Xiangzi only felt her heart beating faster, and joy and determination made her nod vigorously.

"Well, I will definitely help my mother."

The core celebration stage had just ended, and she could leave by simply telling the adults that she wanted to go out and play. She also eagerly took Xiao Mu with her and told her about her mother's expectations of her.

But for some reason, Mu's expression became a little complicated after hearing this. She seemed to be hesitating about something, but Xiangzi, who was very happy at the time, did not notice it.

She told Mu that she would be back soon, and walked carefully across the corridor to the room alone. As her mother had said, there was no one guarding the room, and a box was placed on the table.

After she got it, she opened it curiously and found that it was full of small jewelry for children. Like the necklace, they had obvious signs of aging, but they were obviously well maintained.

She took the box back to the hall and met her mother in a secret corner. Before Xiangzi could hand it over, the box was snatched away in an instant. Her mother's expression was one of urgency and ecstasy she had never seen before. She opened the box tremblingly, took a look, and then closed her eyes.

Just when Xiangzi was about to feel uneasy, her mother leaned over and hugged her gently. For the first time, her tone was not monotonous tenderness, but sincere gratitude.

"Thank you, Xiangzi."

"Don't thank me, mother. This is what I should do for you."

She hugged her carefully, and this time Xiangzi did not feel any obvious stiffness, perhaps because his mother was very happy now.

She felt satisfied at that time, although she was a little surprised why Xiaomu's face was full of hesitation and anxiety the next day. But after asking, Xiaomu just shook his head in the end, so she didn't need to worry about it.

A week after her seventh birthday, Xiangzi returned home from school. Everyone in the family was extremely busy that day, and she couldn't find her mother for a while. In the end, she only saw the light on in the bathroom.

"Mom, are you in there?"

She knocked on the door gently, but unexpectedly the door was opened directly by her. Then, Xiangzi saw that red blood had soaked the bathroom floor.

She walked in blankly and saw her naked mother lying quietly in the bathtub. Her beautiful face showed a kind of relief and peace, the hideous bite marks on her wrists were exposed, and her white body was surrounded by scarlet, which was deeply imprinted in Xiangzi's eyes.

When she was eight years old, Shoko Toyokawa lost her mother, a day she would never forget.

Chapter 50 Questioning

"Cough cough,"

Shoko Toyokawa coughed lightly and opened her eyes. The blood color still seemed to be in front of her eyes. She sighed and tried hard not to continue recalling it.

After the police investigation and the strict family

After questioning, it was finally determined that her mother, Toyokawa Anzi, died of suicide. She tore her wrists open with her own teeth and let the blood flow out.

When she first heard this, Shoko Toyokawa was completely unable to understand it. She cried and said that this was absolutely not true, but in the end she had to accept this reality.

When she was eight years old, she stopped going to school and locked herself in her room, staring blankly at the empty space in front of her. She asked others why her mother committed suicide, but no one could answer her.

When Xiangzi was almost swallowed by despair, her father came out of the pain first. He spent all the time he could to accompany her. Finally, with his help, Xiangzi Toyokawa gradually recovered.

After recalling the warm memories of her father in the past, Xiangzi couldn't help but curl the corners of her mouth subconsciously, but when she realized how decadent her father had become, her smile suddenly became extremely bitter.

Nobuo Toyokawa's determined expression was still vivid in Xiangzi's mind. He found that he could not suppress his doubts about his father. The cold doubts and the vague warmth in his memory intertwined, making Xiangzi more painful.

"Mother...why did you leave us?"

She lowered her head wearily, and after a long silence, she murmured blankly,

Until now, she still doesn't understand why her mother did that, and she can't understand what her mother was thinking when she tore her wrists with her teeth and watched her die bit by bit.

But because of this, she is extremely sensitive to others' behavior of abandoning their lives. A year ago, she mistakenly thought that Deng was going to commit suicide, so she rushed over in panic and tried to stop her.