mygo, but Cthulhu

She gasped in pain, urging herself to speed up, and regret continued to rise along with the details she only just discovered.

Her father did say those words, but if you think about it carefully, his voice at that time was obviously dazed. Since there is such a special power in the world, then he might be under control, and that bottle of sleeping pills might be given to himself.

Not only that, the change in the Toyokawa family's attitude was obviously because they knew the origin of the child. They must have suddenly changed their decision because the child was valuable, which means that her father definitely did not do anything to her!

After realizing this, the tears that Shoko Toyokawa had been suppressing began to fall from her eyes again. The strong feeling of regret made her feel as if her stomach and intestines were about to be burned through, and the pain almost overwhelmed her perception.

What had she done? She almost strangled her father to death. She screamed and cursed him. She hurt him like that!

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...Father..."

She burst into tears and ran desperately, wanting to see her father as soon as possible, wanting to do everything she could to apologize to him and make up for the harm she had done to him.

She would never question him again, she would never be angry with him again, she did not expect her father to forgive her, but she must apologize to him, she must express her regret to him.

Shoko Toyokawa staggered to the door. Her fatigue forced her to rest for a while. After she recovered, she pursed her lips nervously, ready to face her father's anger.

"Father, I'm sorry, I..."

She pushed the door open with all her strength, but what she saw immediately afterwards made her voice stop abruptly.

"Father?"

The cold moonlight poured into the room through the window, casting the shadows of the hanging things on the floor. Shoko Toyokawa stared blankly at her father who was swaying in the breeze, and for a moment she felt as if a string in her mind had completely broken.

Ah, it turns out that I have fallen into hallucination, so I saw this scene that should never happen.

Ah, this must be a nightmare. It's so strange, why would I dream about something like this...

Toyokawa Shoko smiled helplessly, lowered her head and patted her face gently, sighed and spoke softly,

"It's time to wake up, Toyokawa Shoko. If you don't get up, Mom and Dad will be angry. This dream has been too long."

"..."

Nothing around him changed, and Xiangzi sighed again.

"What's going on? This technique used to be very useful... I have no choice. It's unladylike, but I have no choice but to do it."

"Snapped,"

She slapped herself hard, and her face felt a burning pain. What made her even more puzzled was that the surroundings remained unchanged.

"Huh? Still not awake? Am I such a sleepyhead?"

She shook her head, picked up a kitchen knife and cut her arm with force. Scarlet blood flowed and dripped, and the clear pain kept repeating in Xiangzi's mind.

"Isn't it time to wake up? Me? You are the eldest daughter of the Toyokawa family, how can you keep sleeping like this?"

She murmured helplessly to herself, but there was still no response from the room. The cold reality stared at her silently.

“…Wake up now!!!”

After a moment, Xiangzi's expression suddenly twisted and she roared miserably. She gritted her teeth and violently tore open her wound. The spurting hot blood splashed on her face, making her shiver with cold.

"Wake up! Wake up! Wake up...you bastard, you damn rotten piece of trash..."

She fell to her knees helplessly, the heavy and suffocating absurdity and pain quickly surged over her, tearing and devouring everything in her, making her burst into laughter.

"Hahahahaha! Look at what you've done! Toyokawa Shoko! Look how ridiculous you are, you pig who deserves to be drowned and crushed!"

"Look, what else can you do besides hurting the people who love you?! What else do you have besides your meaningless self-esteem and pride?! You are nothing at all, and you still have the nerve to call yourself a human being?!"

"Hahahaha! You shouldn't be alive now, you piece of trash obsessed with ridiculous dreams. You're not even a puppet, you're just a filthy, pathetic creature!"

She no longer cared about anything and laughed wildly. She drank her own seemingly endless blood. She cried miserably and tried her best to hug her already cold father, letting tears and blood cover her whole body.

"Father...Father...Where did Mother go? What should I do to get her back...What should I do now?!"

"I can't hug her anymore. You're all I have now, but I've abandoned and hurt even you. Who am I? Why do people around me always encounter misfortune?! Why?!"

When she was finally exhausted and had to fall down, despair engulfed her like a tide. She looked at the ceiling, letting her blood continue to flow, her consciousness shattered bit by bit under the heavy burden.

Before she lost consciousness, Toyokawa Shoko saw a piece of paper with words written on it on the table next to her. She trembled and quickly crawled over. In her excitement, she knocked the table over and the corner of the table hit her forehead, causing blood to drip. However, Shoko did not care at all. She just trembled and held the paper tightly, looking at the handwriting belonging to her father in the hazy moonlight.

"Xiangzi, when you find out this, I will be dead. Although I think you may not come back, I still decided to say goodbye to you."

"I'm a terrible father. I've been a burden to you for the past year. I've let you down time and time again, and I've been offering you useless apologies without stopping.

. "

"Don't be sad because of me. Come back to the Toyokawa family. They will welcome you warmly. You can continue to be a young lady and enjoy the wonderful life you deserve."

"Father's only wish is that you don't try to understand the reasons behind your mother's suicide. It's all my fault, and I will atone for it. Just forget all about it and move on to a new tomorrow."

"I love you, Xiangzi."

Tears mixed with blood dripped onto the paper, staining the words into a mess. Xiangzi held the paper tightly in her arms, trembling, feeling the pain from her soul that seemed to tear her apart.

Then she began to cry hysterically.

Chapter 53 Rescue

My head was dizzy and my vision was blurry. I couldn't tell where I was or who I was.

…What am I doing now? Why should I keep moving forward?

no answer,

Suddenly, she stepped on something and fell to the ground. Her tired and weak body was about to collapse, but she still didn't understand what was going on.

"Tick-tock,"

The cold liquid fell on her face, making her shiver. Soon the water droplets turned into heavy rain, mercilessly nailing her to the ground and taking away her body temperature bit by bit.

And it was in this coldness that she suddenly remembered her name, and she also remembered everything.

She is Shoko Toyokawa, a ridiculous person who caused her father to commit suicide.

"Hehehe..."

Even though she was about to lose consciousness, Shoko Toyokawa couldn't help laughing after realizing this. She laughed at her own stupidity and sin, and laughed at her embarrassment.

She used all her strength to climb up, and then she saw the steps that made her fall. She looked up and continued to look, and unexpectedly found that in front of her was the overpass where she first met Deng.

...I have actually walked here unknowingly. Even at this point, I am still subconsciously missing the warmth in my memory. Toyokawa Shoko, you are really hopeless.

She chuckled softly, ignoring the coldness that permeated her body, and forced her extremely weak body to take a step forward, climbing up step by step with difficulty.

The steps washed by rain were extremely slippery, and she soon fell heavily on them again. The severe pain made her body whine again, but Toyokawa Shoko didn't care about her new wounds. She stood up and continued to climb up after she recovered her strength.

It was a short flight of stairs, but she didn't know how many times she fell. When she felt she was really going to lose consciousness, she finally climbed onto the overpass.

At this moment, even her breathing began to become difficult, her vision gradually became confused, and scenes of memories flashed before her eyes, some belonging to her childhood, some about crychic, and the most common one was Deng's timid face.

What will happen to the lamp after I die?

She suddenly thought of this, but then she smiled bitterly and shook her head.

Even if Deng would be sad because of this, she no longer had the will to go on living. She now just wanted to fall into eternal darkness and put an end to her ridiculous life.

She held onto the railing and walked to the center of the overpass with difficulty. Fortunately, she soon saw the approaching train. It seemed that she was lucky enough at the last moment.

Father, mother, I'm here to see you.

She closed her eyes, let go of the railing with both hands and let herself fall forward, but just when she was about to achieve her goal, an urgent and familiar shout suddenly came from the other side.

"Xiangzi, don't!"

Before she could recognize the voice, she was knocked to the ground. Under the rain, she met amber eyes filled with panic and worry.

"lamp?"

She couldn't believe what she saw, but the girl in front of her was not her fantasy. The next moment, she felt herself being hugged tightly. Deng's body trembled slightly, and she could clearly feel Deng's great relief.

"Xiangzi... please, don't do this. Didn't you stop me here? Why did you choose to end your life again? Why?"

"..."

Shoko Toyokawa was speechless. She wanted to break free from Deng's embrace, but Deng's arms were so warm that she couldn't muster up the strength to refuse. In the end, she could only smile bitterly.

"I'm sorry, Deng...how did you know I was here?"

"Because I saw your situation, but based on my understanding of you, I'm afraid my advice would be ineffective, so I contacted Takamatsu-san through Riki."

Hailing, holding an umbrella, came to their side and gave up half of her umbrella to shield them from the rain. She looked at Xiangzi while explaining softly,

"What happened? Why are you so embarrassed?"

"..."

Xiangzi opened her mouth to say something, but the next moment, her consciousness fell into endless darkness, and she could only hear the faint panicked sound of the lamp.

When she opened her eyes again, the first thing she saw was Deng's slightly tired sleeping face. She was at a loss for a moment, then stood up and looked around, and found that it was already daytime, and this was actually Deng's home.

She frowned and thought for a long time before she gradually remembered what had happened. She couldn't help but sighed with a wry smile.

Was he actually saved by Deng? It was obvious that someone like him wasn't worthy of her doing this...

“… Xiangzi?”

Deng was a light sleeper. Although Xiangzi's movement of getting up was slight, it still woke her up. Deng rubbed his eyes subconsciously. When he saw her wake up, he was stunned for a moment, then hurriedly and nervously explained,

"Well, Xiangzi, you suddenly fainted yesterday, so I brought you back... I'm sorry."

"Why should Deng say sorry? If it weren't for you, I would be dead now."

Xiangzi sighed, and after hearing her words, Deng's expression immediately became sad and gloomy. She carefully held Xiangzi's hand and looked at her seriously.

"Xiangzi... why did you do that? You once told me that you can't give up on your life no matter what."

"...I'm just too tired,"

Toyokawa Shoko shook her head silently, and Deng hesitated and spoke softly.

"Is it because of uncle?"

"Light...how did you know?"

"Yesterday, Hailing went to Xiangzi's house, and then she told me... Xiangzi, are you okay?"

"..."

Looking at her friend who had been hurt by her, Toyokawa Shoko wanted to say that she was fine, but the words couldn't come out when they came to her lips. The pain surged into her heart again, and she was no longer willing to maintain her pride. She no longer wanted to hurt others.

Toyokawa Shoko hugged her and told her everything with sobs, and Deng listened quietly and attentively. She whispered comfort to Shoko, which helped her almost broken spirit recover little by little.

At this moment, Xiangzi felt relaxed and at ease for the first time in a long time.

Chapter 54: Meow Dream's Visit

After the last note fell, the atmosphere in the practice room was not as relaxed as usual. Tomoe Udagawa looked at the others hesitantly, and after thinking, he chose to speak softly.

"Lan, are you okay? You're not acting like usual... Did you not sleep well last night?"

"maybe,"

Mizukari nodded absentmindedly, put the guitar aside silently, and shrugged at them.

肩，

"Sorry, I'm not interested in continuing practicing today. Let's stop here for now."

"Lan...are you in a bad mood?"

"No, I'm just a little listless."

Meizhulan shook her head, and Mocha thought for a moment, then walked up to her and hugged her with a smile.

"Huh, since Lan isn't in high spirits, let Mocha help. How about this? This is Mocha's hug. Can you cheer up now?"

“…About the same.”

Mizukuri sighed after being silent, and the atmosphere became somewhat oppressive. After a moment, Yuze Tsugumi mustered up the courage to clap her hands vigorously, trying to dispel the dull feeling.

"Well, it's necessary to take a break every now and then, Lan, how about we go to my cafe and have something to eat? I've recently developed a new product."

"Wow, is that new bread?"

Moka blinked in interest, and Tsugumi Hazawa smiled and shook her head.

"It's a secret for now, but I guarantee it's delicious. How about it, Lan? Do you want to go?"

"...Thank you, Tugumi, but let's forget about it today."

Mizukari pursed her lips and shook her head silently. Now no one was able to do anything. After the others looked at each other, Udagawa Tomoe asked tentatively,

"Ran, are you still concerned about Eri and the others?"