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The woman frowned.

Xiao Lin Wei ran very fast, impatiently holding the kitchen knife which was quite heavy for him and ran back to his mother. However, he did not obediently hand it to his mother. Instead, he took a step back, pulled up his sleeves and carefully wiped the handle and the blade, wiping it clean. Then, he grabbed the handle with one hand and threw it hard at the woman's feet and nailed it to the wooden door.

"Hey, I brought it to you. Cut it right in front of me. Cut your wrists or slit your neck. It doesn't matter what you do. I don't care. It will also open the eyes of a murderer you raised."

Xiao Lin Wei's face was full of sarcasm and ridicule, and his tone was extremely cold, and then he suddenly shouted loudly,

"What are you standing there for? Go ahead and cut it! Are you a coward? Are you a wimp? Is this all you can do? Aren't you going to commit suicide? I've got the knife for you, so don't let me down!"

"..."

"Tsk, you selfish, cowardly villain."

Watching the woman collapse and sit on the ground, crying and cursing, saying that Lin Wei's father had no conscience, and then saying that Lin Wei was an ungrateful person. A lot of curse words rolled out of her mouth, but little Lin Wei had lost interest in her and just waved his hand listlessly. The woman and the entire memory scene collapsed like bubbles.

Only the grown-up Lin Wei was left standing there alone, staring blankly at the place where his mother should have stood.

"Let's go..."

After a long time, Lin Wei gently uttered this word, and then continued to move on to the next memory without looking back.

Although he was just behind him, the Herrscher could sense that Lin Wei could no longer maintain the smile on his face, and deep malice and darkness began to emerge from him.

At this moment, Lin Wei seemed to be only one step away from becoming a devil.

The Herrscher looked at his back and followed him.

Chapter 32: Lin Wei said

From this moment on, memories were no longer divided into cold and warm, but began to become entangled into one, wrapping the young Lin Wei in it and constantly rolling and squeezing him, making him become hesitant, fragile, confused, and cautious.

Lin Wei led the Herrscher for a stroll. At first, he said nothing and walked with heavy steps, as if he was suffocating under the weight of these overly heavy experiences.

After a while, Lin Wei seemed to have digested these heavy things, or perhaps adapted to these burdens, and he started laughing again.

"From this day on, the whole world began to change dramatically!"

"She cut her wrist with a knife, and it was bloody, but it scabped over without much bleeding. Then she asked me to buy her medicine... Tsk, she's really haunting me. Why doesn't she find someone else to trouble me?"

"Oh, she only gave birth to me, so it's all right."

Lin Wei analyzed his soul to the Herrscher, exposing the ugliest and most unbearable side of his heart to the Herrscher, sighing and mocking his past.

"Since then, I still go to my grandma's house every weekend, but it has become a different place."

Lin Wei pointed at the memory images that kept appearing and disappearing on both sides and concluded,

"They started calling me 'bastard' and 'evil creature'. I didn't even understand what was happening. Everything had become like this. I was still the same person, the house was still the same house, but the world seemed to be no longer the same world."

"They still keep saying they love me, but the result is so ironic..."

Lin Wei's smile became colder, his eyes narrowed slightly, he raised his head to the sky and took a deep breath.

"Then, here..."

"Half a year later, on a sunny afternoon in the summer, it was a weekend and I was playing at my neighbor's house."

There was a strange shout outside the door, followed by a commotion, as if there were many people. Xiao Linwei felt that the voices outside the door sounded very familiar, so he put down the toy in his hand, stood up, pushed the door and walked out.

Outside the door is the familiar courtyard where I grew up;

There are familiar people in the yard, the adults who have been with me since childhood.

But it was something I had never imagined...

My grandparents and an uncle held my father's hands and feet tightly, pinning him to the ground so that he couldn't move. My grandmother's hands were stained with white lime.

Another uncle took a knife and stabbed my father hard, stabbed, and continued to stab.

The sky is falling...

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!"

"Ling, did you see that? This is the funniest joke in the world!"

"The mother who gave birth to you and raised you wants you to hand over the weapon that killed her with your own hands. She never considered the terrible consequences that this would bring to a child..."

"And those people who claimed to love you and whom you regarded as your relatives and family members, killed your last relative right in front of you!"

"They don't care about you at all, no one cares about you at all!"

"What family affection? What love? It's all bullshit! Everything is fake. You are just like a wishful fool being played by these guys!"

"And then they ruthlessly threw me aside like a piece of trash to die!"

Lin Wei laughed wildly and waved his arms, going on stage like a clown and giving the craziest performance.

He waved his arms fiercely, and the sunny afternoon turned into a dim hospital corridor. It was already late at night, and Xiaolin Wei curled up in a corner of the corridor in a daze, staring blankly at the closed emergency room.

He was still at a loss, but he just held a pencil sharpener tightly in his hand. If anyone dared to touch him, he would stab that person fiercely.

So no one really touched him anymore.

Lin Wei outside the screen laughed more and more crazily, and his laughter became more and more sad.

"And then?" asked the Herrscher.

"And then? And then my father was lucky enough to survive! And I finally didn't lose my last relative. You see, isn't this story ridiculous? The person you once hated the most and wanted to escape from the most became your last support, and the people who were once the closest to you and who 'loved you' the most eventually became your enemies who pushed you into the abyss."

Lin Wei's voice was a little muffled, and his eyes were dazed as he stared at the operating room door that suddenly opened in the picture. The little boy curled up in the corner stood up with a start, as if waiting for the verdict of fate.

The Herrscher outside the screen also saw that the grown-up Lin Wei beside him also had goose bumps all over his body and his breathing became rapid.

This is his memory, this is his past, this is the self he cannot bear to look back on.

Xiao Lin Wei watched the hospital bed being pushed into the intensive care unit, and finally collapsed to the ground and burst into tears.

Lin Wei outside the screen sighed and said tiredly,

"So I have a chance to live on... It's really ironic that a nine-year-old child would be here thinking about life and death."

"And then?" the Herrscher asked.

"Then, life was relatively peaceful after that. My father was still violent, but it still gave me a place to stay, didn't it?"

Lin Wei's voice was still very tired, as if she had just finished her short life.

"Then, I insisted on living, insisted on growing up, and insisted on not falling into madness. I always thought that days like this would end, and I would grow up one day. So I kept on enduring like this. I always thought that as long as I grew up, I would have the opportunity to walk in front of those people, question them harshly about the harm they had done to me, and then take revenge on them for everything they had done to me!"

"How much I loved them before, how much I hate them now!"

Then, Lin Wei started to chuckle again, and covered his eyes with the arm that was still holding the spear, as if he was laughing to tears, or as if the next scene was too absurd to bear to look at, so he just waved his other hand gently as if to drive away a fly, leading to the next scene.

The Lin Wei in the picture has grown up and his body shape is almost the same as it is now, but his face still has a slightly immature look.

"Ten years have passed like this, and I am nineteen years old now!"

In the picture, Lin Wei meets his "grandfather" from that year. He is now very old and walks on the street with a hunched back.

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!"

Lin Wei laughed out loud again, and his waist hurt from laughing.

"You see, this world is so unfair!"

"Time and years are so unfair!"

"Fate is so unfair!"

"They unabashedly side with the party that hurts others, and stand with them to laugh at those who are hurt!"

"When the weak little fellow grows up and has the strength to take revenge, and can stand before them with dignity to seek justice for his past self..."

"They age so lightly, making you feel that all your efforts and persistence have become a complete joke..."

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!"

Lin Wei completely let go of the devil that was tightly bound in his heart. Although he still had that human face, he had completely transformed into a demon. He was surrounded by deep malice and hatred. He laughed wildly and asked crazy questions.

"Look, this world is such a fucked-up place! It lets fate humiliate you, leaves you covered in bruises, makes you suffer, and even wakes you up from nightmares at night!"

"Then, when you are finally able to take back your lost dignity, it jumps out again to laugh at you wantonly, telling you that it's all in the past and you should look forward, and that all your persistence is meaningless!"

"It makes the victims stronger and the bad guys older! And then it lets them get away with the punishment they deserve!"

"This is the most malicious curse this ugly world can utter!"

"Look, it's just so ridiculous! Now I'm the strong one, and they're the frail old men. If I continue to be aggressive, I'll become the one who bullies the weak, and I'll become the same beast they were back then!"

"I hate to be them, so I have to let it go!"

"But"

"Why! Why!! Why!!!"

Lin Wei's eyes were bloodshot, he screamed, his cheeks were bloodshot, black smoke was rising from his body, and murderous aura was boiling. The Herrscher was so frightened that he couldn't help but take a step back.

The scene reverses and returns to that summer afternoon, the moment when the sky fell.

Lin Wei suddenly rushed into the scene. He grabbed a wood-chopping axe from behind the door and rushed into the crowd that was still strong back then with a wild laugh.

Then, hack, hack, hack...

He hacked and chopped non-stop until flesh and blood flew everywhere, and Lin Wei was still hacking and killing with a wild laugh. He wantonly released the resentment and malice in his heart, and wanted justice for himself, even if he had to turn into a devil!

I don't know how much time had passed, it was as if the entire memory scene had been chopped into pieces by the killing-crazed Lin Wei and disappeared. Lin Wei stood there, breathing heavily, leaning on the spear that he refused to let go of.

After a while, he slowly raised his head and looked at his body. The bloodstains and fragments of flesh that had just been on his body seemed to have never appeared. Then he laughed again, as if he was happy to have avenged a great revenge.

He turned to the Herrscher and said with a smile, "It turns out to be such a refreshing thing to let go of the shackles of morality and the constraints of humanity and to release the craziest side of your heart! Ling, I think I understand your feelings better."

The tone returned to gentle, just like before the two of them stepped into this world of memories.

"…You are indeed a devil!"

The Herrscher felt that he couldn't stand this guy anymore.

"Hahaha, sorry to make you laugh. I'm not a good person to begin with."

Lin Wei showed a devilish smile, and the Herrscher couldn't help but take a half step back.

He is indeed more suitable to be a Herrscher than himself! The Herrscher complained bitterly in his heart.

But it seems like something is missing?

"And then what?" the Herrscher continued to ask.

She was very confused. Lin Wei was clearly a demon who had trapped himself in hell, but why could he still live in the sunshine?

Still struggling to survive?

"Because the world is not that bad after all..."

Lin Wei gave a helpless smile, then stepped into the deepest part of his memory.

The Herrscher's heart moved and he followed closely.

The deeper you go, the darker the memory becomes. But at the end of the memory, there is a beam of light shining brightly in the vast darkness.

"That's it."

Lin Wei muttered to herself, wiped her hands on her clothes, and then reached out to touch it.

The scene flashed, and this was the entrance of the hospital.

Xiao Lin Wei stood beside his father lying on a stretcher, and looked up stubbornly at several people arguing not far away. One side was led by a doctor, and the other side was his father's leader.

"Take it back. Your heart has been injured. Such a serious injury cannot be cured."

The doctor examined my father's wound, then with a grim look on his face, he issued a death notice.

The leader was unwilling to give in and wanted the doctor to think of a solution, so the two began arguing.

After a few arguments, the doctor got fed up.

"Let the family come over. I will talk to the patient's family."

The leader pulled Xiao Lin Wei in front of him.

"He only has this one child, and this is his only father. The child is still young. I am the leader of this injured person. If you have any questions, just tell me."

The doctor looked down at the timid Xiao Lin Wei, a little stunned, hesitated for a while, sighed, and touched Xiao Lin Wei's head.

"Send it in, we'll do our best."

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