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The Herrscher followed without saying a word. This time she no longer resisted, nor did she pretend not to hear. She wanted to observe the soul of this bastard carefully.

"Which memory is next?"

Lin Wei seemed to really treat this trip as an adventure, and set off for the next destination with great enthusiasm.

The Herrscher followed silently behind him, keeping quiet.

She shouldn't have been curious about the past experiences of a mere human being.

But Lin Wei was different. She couldn't ignore this strange man. This seemingly ordinary human had indisputably defeated her. Because of this, she couldn't ignore the opportunity to explore his soul.

"Hey, a candlelight? What is this?"

Lin Wei was walking forward when he was suddenly attracted by a flickering fire in his peripheral vision. He let out a light exclamation, then turned and walked in that direction.

Anyway, we are all exploring our own memories. In this torrent of memories where time and space have no meaning, it is the same no matter where we go.

Lin Wei silently passed through countless colorless and black and white fragments of memories, his eyes fixed on the warm candlelight, which flickered continuously, as joyful as a child, and was therefore so eye-catching. Lin Wei felt that his heart was also leaping along with the flame.

He walked up to the fire, took a deep breath, and carefully reached out to touch it.

Lin Wei could feel that from here on, he would find what he was really looking for.

As Lin Wei reached out and touched it, the flame was no longer a flame, but turned into a birthday cake with eight candles on it.

After all, this is a world of memory, and everything here is made up of information. It is not surprising that a piece of fragment will turn into a relatively complete memory as a whole. So Lin Wei just glanced at the changes in the objects in his hand and put all his attention on the picture in front of him.

It was the living room of a house. It was already night and all the lights in the room were turned off, but it was not dark because there was a large table in the middle of the room, filled with all kinds of delicious food, snacks, fruits, and sumptuous meals. In the middle of the table was an exquisite birthday cake with eight small candles on it, emitting warm orange light, making the whole room dim but extremely warm.

There were more than a dozen elders crowded around, and they all surrounded the smallest figure sitting in the middle like stars surrounding the moon. That was little Lin Wei. He was dressed up in his best clothes, wearing a paper crown on his head, and sitting in the middle of everyone to accept the most sincere blessings from the elders.

But Xiao Lin Wei's expression did not look happy. Instead, she had a bitter face, which made her look very out of place amid the laughter and joy, and she also seemed very aggrieved.

He had a sad face, facing his uncle who was filming with a camera across the table. Then, as the camera light flashed, Xiao Lin Wei suddenly rubbed his face and smiled triumphantly. Then, as his uncle shouted "One more photo", he immediately put on a bitter face and stood up to face the camera.

"Xiao Wei, you should be happy when taking birthday photos."

The grandmother standing by gently coaxed her grandson after Lin Wei finished taking the photos. She was a little confused about what weird ideas this little guy had.

"Hehe, that's why I did it! Grandma, think about it, when I grow up, I'll show these photos to others. They will definitely ask, 'Why do you have that expression in this photo?' Then I'll tell them the whole story, and their expressions will definitely be very funny!"

"Oh my, it's Xiao Wei after all. This little brain is different from other children. He will definitely be an extraordinary person when he grows up!"

"..."

Lin Wei outside the screen quietly watched this warm family gathering at night, without saying a word, with a trance-like expression, as if recalling a memory.

I was so naive back then, thinking that my family was beautiful, the world was beautiful, and the future would be beautiful too.

Unfortunately……

Those photos that we promised to keep for the future no longer exist!

Looking at the little self in the picture holding the biggest piece of cake given to him, carefully scraping off the cream on it and disdainfully giving it to others, Lin Wei suddenly laughed softly and picked up the piece of cake in his hand, which was exactly the same as the one he had had back then.

Lin Wei reached out and picked up a little bit of cream, then carefully put it into her mouth.

Oh, still so sweet...

Lin Wei recalled that when she was a child, she always thought the cream on the cake was too sweet and greasy, so she only ate the dry cake at the bottom.

Tsk, what a waste...

Lin Wei let out a long sigh, carefully feeling his throbbing heart, and smiled as he explained to the Herrscher who followed him.

"I was born with a rather strange way of thinking, and I always have all kinds of strange ideas, so I looked different from other children since I was a child. I am the only child of my parents, and they would take me with them wherever they go. I am also the youngest among all the children of my relatives, so my brothers and sisters would give in to me. In addition, I was more sensible when I was a child. Although I was naughty, I didn't make much trouble, so I was more liked by relatives and elders..."

"Over time, it became what it is now."

Lin Wei pointed at the heartwarming scene behind him, but had no interest in looking back.

He sighed again, then smiled and said to the Herrscher, "Look, even I almost forgot that I was so happy when I was a child!"

Although he was smiling, his tone was extremely cold.

It was an undisguised mockery, as if mocking one's own former self-righteousness, and as if mocking the hypocritical nature of the world.

The Herrscher said nothing, for she knew that this was just the beginning.

Ling's literary literacy is not bad. She knows that "to praise something, one must first criticize it" or "to criticize something, one must first praise it". After all, that's often how the story goes.

"So, where are your parents?"

The Herrscher carefully looked around at everyone at the birthday party and asked a very crucial question.

Chapter 31: Ugly Lin Wei

"So, where are your parents?"

Lin Wei was stunned for a moment, and had to look back at the warm scene that he hated again, carefully recalling the situation at that time, then laughed and said,

"My father was probably drinking with friends, or was he at work? I don't remember. I just know that he is usually not welcome at such family gatherings. The whole family you see are all 'relatives' from my mother's side."

Lin Wei emphasized the word "relatives" very heavily, and his sarcasm was so thick that it seemed tangible.

"As for my dear mother, she is probably playing mahjong right now, right? She always has this hobby, playing mahjong all night long. Hey, let me show you a picture."

Memory is magical. Even though it is a mixture of disordered information, there are always some intricate connections. Some of them do not even require a real connection in time and space. "Association" is also a method of retrieving memory.

Lin Wei suddenly thought of an earlier memory scene, smiled slightly, stretched out his hand and pulled it out completely.

This is another small room, just a single room, with a bed, a sofa, a desk, a water dispenser, and nothing else. There is not even a toilet, just like a prison, imprisoning a little boy alone.

This little boy is younger than Xiao Lin Wei who celebrated his birthday before, so it is obvious that the timeline is before this.

"Let me think, I was about six years old at that time, right? If I remember correctly, it should be the May Day holiday. My father was on a business trip during that time, and my mother took care of me alone. Then as you can see, she left me here alone, it seemed to be a friend's house, and she didn't know where to go to play mahjong!"

Lin Weixin walked into the picture, stood on the windowsill and looked down.

"Wow, it's at least six stories high, it's really high! Tsk tsk tsk, look at this window, there's not even any protection, aren't you afraid that I'll fall out of the window and die if I get too anxious?"

Then he exited the screen, pointed at it, and laughed, as casually as if he was introducing his photo album to a new friend.

"Look, there's not even a toilet. I can't even drink water while staying here."

The flow rate of the pictures was accelerated, and a long day was compressed into just a few minutes before the eyes of Lin Wei and the Herrscher.

There was nothing in this room, no TV, no computer, not even a phone. The door was locked, and Xiao Lin Wei couldn't go anywhere. So he lay on the table to do his homework. After finishing his homework, he would be in a daze, then go to bed, then wake up, and then go back to sleep...

The woman who should be called "mother" only appeared once throughout the day. She carried a convenience bag and fed the hungry Xiao Lin Wei a meal. Then she told him to do his homework well and locked the door and left. The next time she appeared was when he came back to sleep late at night.

"Tsk, I'm really easy to raise. You just need to feed me once a day. I can even take care of myself the rest of the time. This is much less troublesome than raising a cat or a dog, isn't it?"

"Are you so obedient?"

The Herrscher's expression was a little strange. You, Lin Wei, don't look like someone who would be obedient at all.

"What else can you expect a five or six-year-old child to understand? Didn't you see that little guy was still trying to get into that woman's arms at night with a pitiful look on his face? Tsk, but you can't blame him for that. After all, it's an innate instinct for a child to yearn for his mother's embrace, isn't it? At this moment, he still felt that it was because he wasn't obedient enough that all this happened."

Lin Wei made clicking sounds and commented in a sarcastic tone, as if this was not his own memory, in a flamboyant and loud voice.

At the same time, a cold and dark aura began to emanate from his whole body without any concealment, which made the Herrscher stunned and a little doubt whether they had read the wrong script.

Why do I feel like you're more like a guy who can destroy the world than I am?

Lin Wei waved away those scenes, including that extremely warm birthday party.

He did not look back once, but continued walking with the Herrscher, occasionally grabbing a fragment of information, using it as a key to push open a door to memory, and appreciating the scenery behind it as if he was visiting a tourist attraction.

Maybe it was because he was in the right mood, or maybe it was because he had simply become proficient in the operation. Gradually, Lin Wei no longer deliberately reached out to grab a piece of memory, but as he and the Herrscher walked side by side seemingly nonchalantly, one memory after another emerged from the water like a carp leaping out of the water, bringing another kind of appointment to Lin Wei.

"Oh, this is my father. Let me see him lying on the bed... Oh? Haha, he went out drinking again the night before and came back drunk in the middle of the night. The door was locked. He accidentally fell down when he was climbing over the wall and broke his bones!"

"This... I forgot what it was, it seems like he didn't finish his homework and wanted to go out to play? Look, just as he walked to the door of the house, his father kicked him back hard. Wow, the arc of his flight was really round, and the landing point was really accurate, right on the sofa over there."

Lin Wei grimaced as he spoke, and along with the memory scenes that emerged, the suffocating pain he felt at that time also emerged.

The Herrscher looked at him, humming, while still introducing him to her one by one with excitement and a smile, just like a tour guide leading tourists, or an old friend introducing photos one by one and reminiscing about the past.

"Huh? Why is this memory in black and white?"

Lin Wei suddenly let out a light exclamation, reached out and scooped up a black and white fragment that jumped out of the "water", and spread it out curiously.

"Oh, it's this!" Lin Wei just took a look and laughed again, "My father was very violent and an alcoholic. He always had a gloomy face. In my childhood memory, he was always a terrible person."

"This is one of the clips. I was probably only two or three years old at the time. No wonder my memory is all in black and white. Even the table and chairs next to me look so tall."

"I don't know why, but they always have a fight. Look, my mother is lying on the ground again, her dull eyes are so heartbreaking. Look, that little guy over there is trying to hug her, he's really overestimating himself. Look, my father told him to 'get out', but he didn't even dare to fart..."

"Your childhood was really split."

The Herrscher couldn't help but interrupt.

No matter which world the humans are in, they are all so ugly and boring. She had no interest in who Lin Wei's parents were. She just felt that Lin Wei was so sarcastic and mean to herself in her memory.

Obviously, he has always been polite to me, even in the most tense times.

"Split? It's okay. At least I didn't feel that bad at that time. My parents' home is too dark, full of violence and indifference, so I don't like my home. But fortunately, this is in the city where my mother's family lives, so I always have somewhere to go."

The two continued to walk forward, and the picture that appeared was no longer dark and cold, but full of warmth, warmth and happiness.

"There is no choice but to live at home during school hours. But on weekends, holidays, or summer and winter vacations, I always go to my grandma's house first. In my childhood memories, that is my real home. You see, take this taxi and you will arrive when you get off."

"Maybe it's because of my parents that I'm naturally good at reading people's expressions? Maybe it's also because of my young age. Anyway, I'm always the most cared for one by my grandparents and other relatives. My brothers and sisters give in to me, my uncles and aunts coax me, and my grandparents spoil me. In fact, my life is still very happy."

"Look, I'm still very happy, right? It's just that every Sunday night, or the night before school starts, I always cry and scream as my parents come to pick me up and take me back to that cold and lifeless home. But it doesn't matter, as long as I hold on for a few days and wait until the next weekend, I can come back again."

However, there is always a but.

The Herrscher thought to herself that she had no interest in the fantasy before her, it was just a false dream, the only real thing was the man beside her who exuded the aura of the evil spirit from the abyss.

She suddenly felt a little sympathy for Lin Wei, because she felt the breath of "the same kind" from him - that breath was not that of a Herrscher, nor was it that of Honkai, but the deep and cold despair that only people who have been hurt by the whole world would have.

Lin Wei did not lie to her.

"Children are always like this, naive and ignorant, and they have unrealistic fantasies and expectations about the world."

Lin Wei looked back and saw that the place he had been walking on was still the colorless black and white ocean, as if nothing had ever happened.

The Herrscher still said nothing, but kept his gaze on Lin Wei for longer and longer periods of time.

She knew that all this was just a prelude and the real climax of the story was about to come.

The two people continued to walk forward, one talking and the other listening; one memory scene after another jumped up from the water and dissipated, some were cold, some were warm, and they seemed so different, but in the end they all merged into that chaotic and complex flow of information and became indistinguishable from each other.

"Oh? This is..."

Once again, I discovered something of interest in the corner of my eye. Things that attract people's attention always flash by in the most inconspicuous places.

Lin Wei walked over. There was a dark red desk with a red-top and white-bottomed desk lamp on it. The lamp emitted bright light, illuminating a notebook and a pen underneath.

Lin Wei seemed to be thinking about something, and gently picked up the notebook and turned to one of the pages. On it was a diary written in immature handwriting, and the Herrer also leaned over to read it together -

"My mother was acting so strange today. She locked herself in her room all day and didn't come out. Is she sick? But the door was locked. She wouldn't go in when I asked her to, and she wouldn't respond when I called her. It was really worrying.

In the afternoon, my mother suddenly opened the door and asked me to go to the kitchen to get her a kitchen knife. It was strange, why would she take a kitchen knife from the bedroom? Was she cooking secretly? Although I was a little confused, seeing her haggard face, I thought it might be for some purpose, so I went to get it for her, and didn't dare to ask why.

After a while, it was getting dark, and I had almost finished my homework. Mom opened the door again, gave me some money, and handed me a note, asking me to go to the pharmacy to buy her some medicine. Those characters had so many strokes that I didn't recognize them, but I saw that Mom seemed to be really sick, so I held the note carefully in my hand and went to the pharmacy as quickly as possible to buy her medicine, hoping that she would get better soon.

......"

Lin Wei suddenly burst into laughter, laughing so hard that he fell backwards, his face twisted, and he slapped his hands on the table, as if he had enjoyed the funniest comedy in the world.

"Everyone says that even a tiger won't eat its own cubs, but why don't I believe it? She let her own son become a murderer, and the most vicious matricide at that? Hahahaha, how could she be so cruel? She is the head nurse of the hospital, hahahaha!"

“Ling, tell me, this show is very interesting, isn’t it? Hahahahahahaha, it’s really very interesting. It’s really very ridiculous, hahahahahaha!”

Lin Wei's laughter became more and more unbridled. The Herrer looked at Lin Wei's shoulders lying on the table from behind and laughed continuously.

Lin Wei's laughter suddenly stopped. He stood up suddenly, smoothed out the crumpled diary in his hand, put it back in place, bent down, pulled out the chair under the desk and sat down on it.

Ripples appeared around her like water waves. The Herrscher looked around and saw that it had turned into a room. She had seen it many times before. This was Lin Wei's childhood home.

Lin Wei beside him had disappeared, and there was only a little boy doing his homework under a desk lamp not far in front of him.

Suddenly, the door of another room not far away creaked open, and a dishevelled woman stood at the door in a daze.

"Lin Wei, Mom is not feeling well. Go to the kitchen and get me a kitchen knife."

The tone was logical and the voice was cold and heartless, like a leader giving orders.

"Oh, okay."

Xiao Lin Wei suddenly revealed a vicious smile and agreed happily in a crisp childish voice. He turned around and jumped off the seat, then walked towards the kitchen in his memory. He never looked at his mother once during the whole process.