I sell Coke in the doomsday

The wheels started moving again, and the wipers quickly wiped away the falling snow. I held the steering wheel, but drove silently towards that familiar place.

I walked through the streets and alleys, passed through the pure white city, and finally stopped in a ruin.

This is the center of the city, and also where Tongtong woke up.

I got out of the car a little nervously and stepped into the ruins, feeling panicky as if I was arriving at this place for the first time.

The sharp, protruding stones pressed against the soles of my shoes, which were both painful and slippery. I stepped on them and before I knew it, I fell several times like a child, as if I had forgotten how to walk.

Even if there are bumps and bruises along the way, this road will eventually have an end. When I arrived at the place where it all began, I saw the scene I had expected.

Amid the heavy snow, fragments of the giant white cocoon fell to the ground. A pure white figure, wearing a white dress, stood in the snow, staring at me quietly.

Bare feet, white hair, red eyes.

The most beautiful scenery on earth.

There is no confusion of coming into the world, nor the gentleness that I am familiar with. It is just like a snow lotus, quietly blooming in the snow. Although it is not dazzling, it is not blinding either.

It seems that everything is just right.

I looked at Tongtong, wondering if she had An's memory, and if she still remembered the promise I made to her today.

But in those blood-red eyes, there was a hint of sadness.

Tongtong suddenly lowered her eyes, looked at her bare feet, her eyes moved but were dull, and she spoke in a low voice.

"I thought you wouldn't come to see me..."

My fingers moved as if struggling, but finally stopped and I just answered softly.

"I... just came here to have a cigarette."

Upon hearing this, Tongtong gently raised her feet, stepped her bare feet on the sharp rubble of the ruins, walked slowly towards me, and asked softly.

"Do you remember the name of the snowman?"

I was stunned for a moment, and a hint of realization flashed in my eyes, the snowman under the pile, and the strange and incompatible name.

Suddenly, I seemed to understand the meaning of this name. I lowered my head slightly, looked at the distance between me and Tongtong, and also looked at the ruins on the ground, and whispered those two words.

"Mountains and seas."

A long time ago, I tried to say a somewhat corny love word to Tongtong. The words sounded so awkward and embarrassing that they made me feel cold all over. I decided never to do such a corny thing again.

But that love word became clear at this moment, and it was still so corny.

The love is separated by mountains and seas, and both mountains and seas can be flat.

In the vast white world, Tongtong was stepping on the flying snow, and her bare feet were leaving some blood in the snow.

Perhaps because she had just been born, Tongtong's body had not recovered to that incredible strength, and was as fragile as an ordinary girl.

You can bleed, and you can be killed.

My eyes suddenly became determined, but I no longer hesitated. I looked at Tongtong who was walking on the moon and walked towards her with big strides.

Sometimes, I can’t help but wonder why An, who was separated from Tongtong’s body, is still so lovable.

But the Mo Li that I peeled off from my body looked so hideous.

After thinking about it, I finally understood that both me and the separated Mo Li were just disgusting and hateful people who were unlikable.

But... I still want someone who won't hate me and can stay with me forever.

I strode forward, and in the heavy snow, I picked up the extremely weak Tongtong by the waist, so that she would not step on the sharp gravel with her bare feet.

There was a strange flash in Tongtong's eyes, but she didn't resist at all from beginning to end. Instead, she put her arms around my neck very obediently and stared at me in a daze.

"Su Li... do you prefer An more?"

The sudden question was a bit petty and a bit funny.

But Tongtong and I have never been great people, nor people worthy of respect.

Our world has always been pitifully small, and the space that could accommodate people has long been filled to the brim.

Listening to Tongtong's question, I looked at her in my arms and said without thinking.

"Aren't you Ann?"

After hearing this, Tongtong continued to ask.

"Ann is a part of me, but you seem to like that part more."

I paused, a trace of helplessness appeared on the corner of my mouth, and I sighed.

"No, why are you jealous of yourself?"

Chapter 125: Split

"I'm not jealous."

Amid the flying snow, Tongtong defended herself very reluctantly, but her red eyes tilted to one side while she spoke, making her seem a little guilty.

I smiled and said nothing, but Tongtong was a little persistent. She shrank into my arms and asked in a low voice.

“Am I heavy?”

I was stunned for a moment, looked down at Tongtong in my arms, then strode forward and said calmly.

"It's so heavy that my arms are almost numb."

When Tongtong heard this, she curled her lips, blinked her eyes and said.

"Then you should walk faster."

Hearing this, I smiled and stopped talking, but my steps actually quickened.

In my memory, Tongtong would never say such things. She was very quiet and gentle, but she seldom acted like a spoiled child in front of me, and she had never lost her temper with me.

But now, when An returned to her original form, she seemed to finally stop suppressing her nature and was no longer so cautious.

Perhaps, she also knew that no matter what the outcome this time was, it would be the last time.

The snow fell quickly. When Tongtong and I returned to the pickup truck, the bullets piled in the car were already difficult to see clearly because they were covered with a thick layer of snow.

Tongtong sat in the passenger seat as usual, but her eyes were a little vague. She looked at my profile again and again.

I touched my face, feeling confused.

"Is there something on my face?"

When Tongtong heard this, she stretched out her fair little hand and gently pinched my face. Then she looked dazed and said in a low voice.

"You... don't look the same as before."

I shrugged slightly, my heart moved, but I said it indifferently.

"After all, some of my characteristics have been stripped away. If I am exactly the same as before, there must be some differences."

Tongtong's mouth corners slightly raised, but she did not retract her hand, but continued to stroke my face.

Her little hands were very cold and smooth, and felt great to touch, but this also made me feel a little amused and helpless.

"Tongtong, why are you acting like a female hooligan now?"

Tongtong curled her lips, and the little hand that was originally stroking me gently pinched the flesh on my face and pulled it hard. After I screamed in pain, she took her hand back. As if she was angry, she turned her head away, looked out the window, and said softly.

"In the past, you sometimes became very extreme and stubborn, but now you don't seem to have that feeling anymore."

I rubbed the side of my face which still hurt a little, my eyes were dazed, and I sighed.

"Perhaps all of my extreme emotions and thoughts have been transferred to Qiqi."

"But thanks to this, without those extremes and obsessions, I seem to be able to see things that I couldn't see before."

Hearing this, Tongtong tilted her head cutely, her beautiful eyes rolling, and she chuckled.

"That's a shame. I quite like your radical side."

What Tongtong said was probably true, which made me feel a little jealous, and I couldn't help but roll my eyes.

On the passenger seat, the clothes that An wore after she disappeared were still there. After taking a look at those clothes, Tongtong changed her clothes in the car without any scruples, as if she preferred the clothes she wore when she was still An.

The white dress slipped off, revealing snow-white skin and perfect curves without any cover. When I looked over, a naked foot pressed against my face, forcing me to turn my head back.

"Drive well."

I was a little unwilling to give up and was ready to stop the car first, but in just a short while, Tongtong put on her clothes neatly and quickly. Seeing this, I could only shake my head and sigh.

"I thought you liked wearing skirts."

Tongtong gave me a cute look, buttoned up her clothes one by one, and said angrily.

"The skirts I wore before were all found by you. Rather than saying that I like wearing skirts, it's more like it's your interest."

Hearing this, I smiled awkwardly and didn't dare to explain anything, but Tongtong asked in a low voice after a moment of silence.

"Do you have any strange thoughts now?"

I raised my eyebrows, but I didn't feel much surprise. In this world, Tongtong is undoubtedly the person who knows me best.

Even though some things have been peeled off from me, she can still see something.

I moved my hands, a trace of confusion flashed in my eyes, and after hesitating for a moment, I spoke uncertainly.

"I've been thinking a lot lately."

"I know that no matter what, I can't be considered a smart person."

"But... I still know myself."

The snow was falling heavily, and countless snowflakes were flying away in my sight. The empty city was covered in white.

Unconsciously, I was staring at the falling snow in a trance, and whispered as if talking to myself.

"But who am I?"

"As far as I can remember, before I was seriously ill, when I was still working, when I was still in school."

"I am a somewhat timid and cowardly person."

"I'm afraid of those students who are like hooligans in the school, who are submissive and just stand by and watch."

"When I was working, I would listen to the orders of employees who were older than me without saying a word."

"I didn't dare to refuse the wine glasses handed to me by my superiors and colleagues at the party. Even though I couldn't smoke, I could only lower my head and accept the cigarettes handed to me by others."

"When something unfortunate happens to others, I just sigh and walk away indifferently."

"I... am just an ordinary, mediocre person."

Tongtong had been listening quietly, her bright eyes moving around, focusing all her attention on me, and spoke softly.

"It sounds like...he really is an unattractive person."

I came back to my senses and smiled, but my eyes became even more confused, and I spoke in a vague voice.

"But, I seem to have some deviations from the me in my memory."

“It’s like I’ve seamlessly become a different person since the end of the world.”

"Nosy, arrogant and extreme, for some people I don't know, I fought so hard that my bones were broken countless times and my brains were almost drained."

"Is this...really me?"

"I used to think that it was the experience at the beginning of the apocalypse that made me what I am now, but when I think about it carefully, I was nailed to the altar and had my flesh and blood cut off."

"Betrayed, abandoned, forgotten."

"It's just some really bad stuff."

"There was absolutely no opportunity for me to transform and for my sense of morality to swell to the point of arrogance."

"On the contrary, after what happened, I should have become a murderous madman, cynical, and blamed all the misfortunes on others."

"At least, I've never heard of that madman saving a group of man-eating beasts."

Having said that, I gave a bitter smile, and my eyes dimmed. At this moment, a hand gently pressed on my palm. When I turned around, I saw Tongtong smiling at me, like the bright spring sunshine.

My heart warmed and I continued.

"Split personality, there is only one explanation for everything."

"I always thought I wasn't crazy, but in fact, I was completely crazy from the very beginning."