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I won't say I can overcome my own shadow just because of a dry apology.

When he apologized, he said he was very tired at the time. But he didn't remember saying that I said I was very tired before I played the game. He said that he was the one who interrupted us when we were playing the game. He didn't remember saying that I was very tired during the game or after we finished.

A dry apology is useless. It is impossible for an apology to prevent things from changing. Even if a nail is driven into a fence, there will still be a hole when it is pulled out.

It's just that I don't want to dwell on it. Because the past is over. I have already had a psychological trauma. If I continue to hold on to this matter, it will only cause both of us to be stressed out. That's why I avoid talking about those things.

He never considered that holding on to something would only make both of them sad.

I really don't mind his bad temper. So when he comes to me, I still won't act like him, but will talk to him patiently and try to dissuade him.

If he hadn't taken those photos when he came to see me, I would have forgiven him, just like before.

I told him that I liked him very much, but I never saved photos of my friends because I thought it would be awkward to get along with them. I also don't save photos from the Internet. I only take photos of the characters when I go to comic conventions, both male and female, and in suits.

I used to like sushi very much. I always fought with my brother for it. Then, during the last few days in Beihai, my roommates bought some sushi but didn’t finish it. They asked me if I wanted to eat it, but I said I didn’t. Then they put it in the refrigerator. I didn’t eat it because I felt annoyed just by looking at the sushi. I said I didn’t care. But I didn’t eat it once when I returned to Ningbo. Because he had the sushi deck.

Also, I said I don’t care.

At that time, I had stomach problems, coughs, and dry eyes. I was almost cured, but suddenly one day, it became worse. Benzi asked me why it kept coming back. I said I didn’t know. How could I not know? I was so angry. Because he added me as a friend at that time. So I went back to Ningbo later.

After he added me, I went to the hospital every day to get medicine and check up. I can remember from my notebook that I just bought medicine at the pharmacy at first.

If you ask Benzi, he will remember that I was fine at first, but then I started vomiting and coughing again.

Then one day, I told Benzi that I would not go back to Ningbo for the time being, because I had deleted him at that time. The situation would become a little better.

When I went to the hospital for a checkup, I would tell him, and he would just say something like "touch it" symbolically. In fact, he didn't know that I went to the hospital because of him. At that time, my esophagus, throat, lungs, stomach, and eyes all had some problems because of him.

My dad came back and asked me why my cough hadn't healed yet. I told him straight out that I was pissed off by an idiot.

Many people think that this is impossible.

But in traditional Chinese medicine, there are depression, lovesickness, and cancer patients who recover because their mood improves. There are also people who have no illness at all and are scared to death by themselves.

The human heart is in charge of everything. The heart is the foundation of a person. My family members have heart disease and neurasthenia, so they are more sensitive to these things. When encountering problems, they will feel more uncomfortable.

If you only look at the actual situation, you will understand from what I said to my roommate Ben Zixiao. I was recovering at that time, but then I relapsed. Even after I went home, I was still taking medicine.

I waited until he fell asleep and then deleted him. If he didn't come to contact me on his own initiative, he wouldn't find out that I deleted him.

He thought I was looking for him every day, but he didn't consider who was looking for me every day in the first place. If he hadn't come to me in the morning, how would he have found out that I had deleted him?

The next day, I found his friend request again and asked him what he did wrong.

I said you did nothing wrong, it’s just that I have feelings for you, so I will delete you.

I did that to other people, but I deleted him because he was an idiot. But I would consider his feelings, save his face, and take the blame on myself. I said I didn't want to hurt you.

But my real thought is that you idiot, stop trying to hurt me. I have a family and my own life. But I still care about his feelings and don't want to make him sad. So I said that to let him know that he is still loved.

He said, can I still be considered a friend if I do this?

He doesn't know that the things he did first are not good friends. He disgusts me every time he plays games, criticizes the books I write, and tags me when he doesn't want to come out, saying things I don't like. He radiates pressure in the group.

He crushed the interpersonal relationships I had patiently put together in the group, and then cried and complained that I didn't consider him a friend. I just didn't want to see him sad, and didn't want to say it directly, so I coaxed him.

Moreover, I have a psychological trauma from this sentence. The person I had with you used this sentence before, and we had a falling out and he was deeply hurt and had to be admitted to a mental hospital.

Also, are we very familiar with each other? I kind of want to ask this question. I just had some good feelings for you because we were familiar with each other, but the good feelings have been lost long ago. He is giving off pressure every day, and he made me quit the group and told me that I am not a good friend for doing this.

I didn't get angry with him. I patiently told him that he has many friends and there is no need to hang himself on me. It is because I regard you as a friend that I don't want to use you as a machine for sexual gratification.

Because I know he will keep doing things that hurt me, and I will always be angry with him. And he won't really help me solve the problem.

When we were in the group, they always treated me as a punching bag. I don’t mind things like being a trash can, but they didn’t even empty it when it was full.

He always pressured me, and later he didn't apologize. The trash can was full, and then there was a problem. I was very disappointed. So I left the group.

I just don't know if he does this to other people. Maybe he would say he doesn't do this to other people. But that's even more stupid. Because I really care about his feelings. So he can mess with me all the time. He only knows how to hurt the people close to him.

Then he threatened me, saying if I wanted to delete it, I could do so. He would remember me forever anyway.

He found those words touching, but to me they were intimidating.

A friend I had known for seven years came back to me and said that I had deleted him because I was writing a novel. He didn’t know that he made me so angry that I had to be taken to the hospital.

I don't want to come back and talk about how I was in the past a few years later. Because this person is different from the one I knew before. At least the person I knew before would still help me do something, treat me to food, play games with me, and have fun together. It's not like the one I know now who always makes me upset.

I remember the details of everything clearly. I know how annoying it is to remember something. I don't even play many games now because I remember some things.

For example, when I came back from Anqing a few days ago, I passed by two girls on the road at night and I remember what they said.

You keep receiving messages that you don't want to remember.

For example, I remember everything he said and did in the group. But it's not just him. I can also remember everything other people said and did, their interests, and the avatars they used.

He had no idea of ​​the seriousness of the matter and just kept talking.

It's like telling an orphan that you are an orphan.

I didn't mock him. I believed him.

I told others that I was deceived by his sweet words and I believed him. But I didn't say that I didn't believe in these few words. What I believed was that he must be a good person at heart.

It’s like when parents hear their child say this is the last time they will buy a toy, they will believe that their child will become an outstanding person.

I said, you have to calm down at any time and always remember that I am thinking about your chrysanthemums.

He still said he didn't mind doing it with me.

I didn't take this matter seriously. I just cared about the fact that he always acted without thinking and always said things when he was hot-headed, such as saying these few words to me that were actually very offensive to me.

Every time I talk to him seriously, he always confuses me.

People on the Internet conceal their gender, open two accounts to make themselves look like they have a partner, and open a lot of accounts to make themselves look like they have a story. Although I can see it, I won't say it because I used to be like that. I will believe them, listen to the stories they make up, and seriously put forward my suggestions.

There are many things I don't want to expose others. For example, when she added me, she said that she had a premonition of something and that he had no other friends in the group. Given his nature of adding people after just a few words, it's impossible that he really has no other friends. But if he really has no other friends, I'm too unlucky.

I also pretended, for example, I really hated people, and I really hated to say obscene words like anus. Everyone who knows me knows that I only asked people for resources before, and I would never really say some obscene lines. The resources I asked for were basically not real people.

I downloaded two resources of real transvestite girls, because this idiot mentioned it to me in the group chat, and I remembered where I saw it, and he said he wanted it, so I looked for it. Later, when I found it, I had already left the group.

I agreed to continue being friends with him and didn't delete him because of these three things. Although I don't necessarily have to do it, although I really hate him sometimes.

For example, the idea of ​​remembering me is a threat to me.

I just want to give him a memory that is neither good nor bad. Because I can't have a good memory by myself. Because he always puts the blame on me and vents his anger on me. I can only try to make a good memory. I plan to wait for him to find a girlfriend or get tired of me in a few years, and then I will retire and do other things. Although I know that if that happens, I will still lose a lot of interests like playing YGO and eating sushi. But I still believe that he can be more mature and understand more. I also think that when I talk to others about it, I will say that I am very happy and proud to have known him. I hide more unhappiness in my heart.

That's how life is. I remember that others were very patient with me because I was immature, so I would also be patient with others.

When I was going home from vocational high school, I took the bus and didn't have any change. I asked someone on the way to change some coins. He gave me a stack of change without asking for anything in return. Later, when I was on the bus, I met a few people who didn't have any change, so I took out some money as well.

I hope to pass on this kindness.

So when I was an idiot in the beginning, others were patient with me, and now I am patient with him.

But when I was in junior high school, he was already working.

I do have feelings for him, but I have never said what kind of feelings I have. I say I love you, and this sentence is not only for lovers. I have said this to many people I know. Love is not just about love.

I originally wanted to say that I treated him as a Tamagotchi, but then I thought, even if it was a Tamagotchi, it wouldn't always make me angry like he does. So I thought I should treat him as my younger brother, because my younger brother is actually quite sensible. To be honest, being with him is like raising a son.

But I still called him my wife, because I didn't want to be friends with him just out of pity for him.

He would think that my kindness was too much, and would not think about doing something to make it less excessive.

I treat everyone the same, but because he did a negative number, I was too nice to him.

He said that he treated me as a friend and family member, but it was useless to say so. The most important thing was how he did it. When I was returning to Ningbo from Beihai, Guangzhou was cheaper and his home was on the way, so I went to see him and celebrate his birthday.

He was guarding against me like a thief.

I forgot to say that he didn't mind doing this kind of thing with me. If he didn't mind, why should he be on guard against thieves? Later, when I wanted to send him a birthday gift, he pushed me back.

He would say that he is not willing to accept gifts from others, but he would not consider it. I also don’t like being scolded by others. I would not consider saying that I want to keep a person I have feelings for on my QQ.

He didn't know that it was useless to guard against thieves. I had his home address at the time. He didn't tell me, but he accidentally posted it in the group. I didn't use the excuse of being a friend to kidnap him and ask me to find him. Because I didn't do anything to him anyway.

I am a traditional person. If I want to live a happy life, I would like to stay with one person forever. I am a bit self-indulgent. I would also think about what he would do in the future if I really did it with him. It’s not that I want to do that. It’s just that I will be mentally prepared for most of the developments.

Do I have desire for her? Actually, not much. Because I have been avoiding him. I don't really want to have any desire for someone I know. Although the reason for avoiding him is that she has been annoying me.

I said I liked him, but in fact, I didn't like him that much. I didn't want to contact him at all, I didn't want to make my family sad, and I didn't want to mess with other people's mentality or my own mentality.

Can't I just try to recall how often I appeared in the group? If I can't remember, I can go back to the group and ask other familiar people. I can ask Hua if there was a time when I often asked them to play blood-drawing mahjong.

I was going to say that I have desires for all pretty people, but then I thought about it and felt disgusted when I had desires for the people around me. It's like the notebook always says that I have bad intentions towards him, but to be honest, I am the one who locks the door every time I go to the toilet or sleep, even if the door lock is broken. People who know each other well say that it is difficult to have desires.

What’s more important is that people make me sick.

But if he really wants to do it with me, I won't refuse.

Later, they always relieved some stress by chatting, and of course he didn't think there was anything wrong with him.

He will hide behind others and accuse the relationship of being heavy, and then forget why the relationship is heavy.

What really weighs the relationship down is himself.

At the beginning, I would try to find some topics to talk about, such as my visit to the hospital, but he said he didn't know how to respond to what I said.

I asked him about his life. At first I talked about his cat, then he said he was not in his hometown and could not see the cat. Then I wanted to see his women's clothing.

He is interested in cosplaying as a woman, but I did not approach him for this reason. If he could be more clear-headed, he would realize that he was the one who approached me in the beginning.

What I like to see is not other people wearing women's clothes, but things like cosplay.

My roommate has dressed up as a woman, but I don't have any photos of him saved. I said I wanted to see his cosplay photos of Chen. He said I was plotting against him.

I said, I just wanted to see the characters, and wanted to see how it felt like when the animated characters jumped into reality.

This statement is indeed true.

If this idiot remembers, he will recall that when he was wearing a swimsuit, I specifically asked, what kind of character is this.

Although I don't deny that I asked him if he had any Lolita costumes. It's also nice to look at a doll.

I saw him wearing women's clothes twice. The first time he just put them on casually, and the second time he said he would wear them on for me after dinner. Then in the middle of the night, when I was lying in bed with a stomachache, he told me that he played games too late.

Although he said that he might be late after dinner that night, I also said that I didn't mind. What I didn't mind was eating, and I didn't mind not wearing it for me to see, but I didn't mind saying that he wanted to eat, and then went to play games and left me alone until the early morning and told me that it was too late. He could have told me while he was playing games that he wanted to play with friends, so I could go to bed early.

I didn't take the initiative to contact him for two days. He thought I was angry, but I was catching up on sleep. I was so angry that my stomach hurt, but I didn't say that I was deliberately angry with him. He didn't see it. He sent a message to say good morning, and I replied.

But this is my limit. I can't really say that no matter how sleepy I am, I will take the initiative to talk to him, and then, like him, say something without thinking, and then make everyone very stiff. As far as I remember, every time I finished playing games, I would go to my room in anger.

Many people don’t know that I have a very serious bad temper when I wake up, which I inherited from a friend.

Then he said good afternoon at noon and said he could show it to me.

I am speechless. Two days have passed, but I still remember this incident.

I just put a period and told him that he didn’t have to wear it if he didn’t want to, and he didn’t have to force himself.

He said it was because he was very busy these past two days. He thought I was angry with him. But I am no longer angry.

Then I was so sleepy that I couldn't open my eyes but I still told him that I wasn't angry, I was just worried. No matter how good friends are, if we don't communicate, our relationship will become less and less. So if you hate something, you have to say it out loud.

I just wanted to let him know that I didn't befriend him because of his photos of him wearing women's clothing. If he thought about it, he would know that he was the one who took the initiative to add me.

I'm friends with him just because he's a nice guy.

I will not force my own interests on him. I will not let him do things that are troubling and troublesome.

After I came out of the mental hospital, I didn't want to get too close to anyone. People are always going to hurt each other.

He didn't even know that I really prefer looking at his two big orange dogs rather than their photos.

Didn't think to ask the cat before I took the picture.

It's not because I hate him, but because I hate people.

Then he said he didn’t know how to respond to my question, and that he also commuted to work, so he didn’t know what to say.

Because of this incident, I kept asking him questions, but he didn't understand them at all. He felt that my questions were offensive. He didn't understand them either, and many of his words were also offensive to me. But I didn't want to care.

But I always stopped at the right time and never made a fuss with him.

When I was with him, my expectation of him was always, don't deliberately mess with my mentality.

I will always consider his feelings, but he actually has not considered my feelings. I don't need real photos or something like that. But if he starts talking about it, I won't hate it. For example, if he talks about flowers, toys, and hobbies, I won't avoid it. I will also remember to ask for information so that I won't be at a loss when we talk next time.