Super Dimensional Injustice Exchange Group

Since I joined the group, I have been criticizing everything. I think I am very smart. I want to highlight my difference. I think I can play with people's hearts.

But that's honestly what a fool would do.

Because he would even run away in shame when he expressed his opinions and argued with others. He thought he was very smart and courageous. But in reality, he was inferior and cowardly. He pretended to be very capable, but he didn't know. That was the manifestation of inferiority.

For example, if he was really smart, would he be able to become what he is now? For example, if he was really outstanding, wouldn't there be people around him who would approach him?

For example, he accused me of being a failure, but even if I failed, as long as I wrote with perfect attendance, my royalties would be higher than his.

It feels exactly the same as before. I will make up a fake persona to show that I am different.

After we met, I seldom looked at that group, because I was afraid of seeing this idiot.

But I won’t block him, I will just block the group, because I hate the feeling of being blocked, so I seldom do that to others.

I have been an excellent student and a poor student. When I was an excellent student at first, I looked down on poor students. Later, I became a poor student myself. I no longer rejected playing with poor students.

So even if I meet some people who are disliked by other people in other groups, I will not hate them, but continue to communicate with them, ask them questions, and understand their interests.

I know that there is no one in this world who is born without parents and is a monster without emotions. So I don’t want to say offensive words. In many cases, I don’t want to tell the truth. Because sometimes the truth hurts people more than the attack. Because reality is like that, there is no way to change it. You can’t curse someone and say "die your whole family" and then he will really die. But a blind person will feel uncomfortable if you are called blind.

I was so compassionate. I didn't say I was so compassionate before. It was only after I was admitted to a mental hospital that I felt such compassion for the world.

If you don't actually live in a mental hospital for a while, living in a first-level care ward, listening to the idiots around you talking to themselves, watching them playing with excrement, and listening to the wailing of other patients, you won't be able to understand this kind of emotion. It's not that if you stay in there for a while like me, you will be as saintly as me. But you will understand why I think and do this.

But I won’t lie completely. I can only lie in part and tell the truth in part.

People are all made of flesh and blood. They all feel sad and have parents. So when others feel sad, I feel sad too. When my brother cries, I feel depressed. When my dad and I were returning to Ningbo from Anqing, we saw a girl squatting on the ground crying. I felt a little sad and stood there watching, not knowing what to do. Then my dad saw me falling behind, so I followed him. That incident also touched me deeply. I should have talked about this.

For example, in the mental hospital, there was a child who was restrained and kept butting his head against me. My dad chased him away, but I actually felt sorry for him.

There was also a young man living in the isolation room with me, who was not very fluent in speaking, but he also had a job.

Everyone is working hard to live their lives. So after I come out, I will be more tolerant of others.

Although I don't really like talking to him, I still say a word or two every time when the conversation is dull. When no one wants to play games with him, I will play games too.

After I appeared and he surfaced again, I would not turn around and leave immediately, but would say a few words to him. Otherwise, if I ran away as soon as he appeared, it would also make people feel very uncomfortable.

Everyone thought that I had a good relationship with him, including himself.

He thought I was quite enthusiastic towards her, but I was actually very enthusiastic towards everyone, saying one thing to one person and another to another. He never noticed that I rarely actually chatted with him privately.

No one noticed that I became less and less active after he joined the group. I used to touch the head of a group pet frequently, but after I peeked into the group and he tagged me, I rarely did that because I was afraid that he would find out that I was looking at the group.

If Hua and Qingliu recall, they will know that I often played mahjong with them during that period.

So, just because he feels he has a good relationship with me, he can annoy me endlessly.

I have a good temper, it seems, but most of the time I just keep it to myself.

He would play games with us, but every time we played games, he would say some disgusting things to me. It wasn't because we cheated him, he would say such disgusting things to me even if he lost in a 1v1 game.

But I will still apologize. Because I don't want to see others upset. I don't want to see everyone being upset because of his temper.

But if you apologize to him every time, he will just go along with it, continue to be sullen, think he is right, and say more hurtful things.

I know this kind of thing.

But I will apologize anyway. But nobody really likes to apologize.

I don't ask others to treat him in a certain way. I just do it myself. Lead by example. I can't ask others to do the same as me. Because I am just self-satisfied.

Speaking of the previous question, others only see me coaxing him, but never think about why I coax him. The reason is very simple, because he is the only one who needs coaxing. He is the only one who criticizes this and that like a giant baby. Others will not play games and run away without saying a few disgusting words.

The reason I wanted to play games with him in the same team was not because I really liked him, but because others could not stand his temper.

Later, I was disgusted more and would not do it again. If I really count, I only took the initiative to stand in the same line with him once, and the rest were not voluntary.

But he would think that it is meaningless for me to do this. He doesn't need this.

But he didn't see other people's attitudes. He didn't know how others would feel if they were disgusted by him like this.

Without considering whether he would feel uncomfortable if others looked at him as if he were looking at something strange.

Many people also think that I don't need to do this. But I have to consider everyone's feelings. I will apologize.

Because I, the person involved, don't mind it, and because I'm the one apologizing, others won't think it's his fault.

It's not because he's not an idiot. It's because I'm in the group, coordinating. I don't have to say anything extra, do anything extra. Just standing there can help disperse the fire.

Others will think that I am being self-indulgent, but if you really think about it, after I leave the group, can everyone still play games happily like before?

Many times people feel that things are not as bad as they should be.

The nicer you are to him, the more annoying he becomes. I can remember all the times and things he has made me angry, and I can list them in a list.

Even when I don't want to pay attention to him, he can still tag me.

But I can’t say that I haven’t tagged him, but it was always when he was in the group.

One time, we asked him to download Mahjong Soul to play Mahjong because we were short of players. He came back and didn't play with us and complained.

The second is to ask him to read my book and subscribe to it. I say this to everyone I know.

Others may not read my books, but they are not like him who would criticize my books. But when it comes to other people's topics, he will shrink back.

When I wrote that book, my grades were improving and I wanted to buy a new computer. My mom had a car accident and I sent some of the money I had collected to my dad. It's not that I hate my family. I know I spent a lot of my family's money when I grew up. I'm just talking about what happened at that time.

I didn't buy a new computer because I was thinking about finishing the book. Later, I got the flu and felt uncomfortable with the cold, but I still managed to write.

Later, I had problems with my eyes and the film ended in tatters.

That book means a lot to me.

He knows nothing, but he just criticizes and tries to get others to agree with his point of view.

I listened to some of his criticisms, and incorporated some of those elements the next time I wrote a book. But when it flopped and I didn’t make much income, I didn’t tell him about it.

Third, tell him when you lead the tour so that he knows he is not excluded.

In the end, he kept saying things that made me angry, but I still didn't say directly that he was an idiot.

Then he made me angry for the last time.

That day I tested positive again, and I was very tired from playing games. Then I played a game with someone, 2v2, and we were short of people, so I went in by myself.

Then he came out to play games, and I felt very impatient, but could I just say directly, I don’t want to be in the same team with him, I don’t want to play games with him?

Then he will definitely not be able to save face.

I knew that he would definitely mess with my mentality when he came out, but I would still take his feelings into consideration and take everyone else’s feelings into consideration.

So I actually said at the beginning that I was very tired. If my operation was distorted, I knew he would definitely blame me. In the past, even if my operation was not distorted when playing games, he would still say that I was disgusted.

I don't know if he is unhappy in reality or somewhere else, but he is always under pressure, which can only hurt the people who are good to him.

He thought his habit of speaking was cute, and ignored the fact that he was always criticizing this and that, and ignored the fact that he was always disgusting people. He thought I had a good impression of him, so he could be more willful with me.

Just because you pretend to be cute doesn't mean you can insult people with your cute quirks.

He certainly doesn't think so in his heart, nor does he say so.

In fact, this is a sign of lack of love. He is immersed in his own beautiful dream. But it cannot be said that he did not notice it at all. Otherwise, he would not say that he has a bad personality. Maybe he thinks this is a self-deprecating behavior. But in fact, he is a fool. Everyone knows it. If he really did not notice it, he would not notice that the eyes of people around him were uncomfortable, and he would not notice that I deleted him and would not feel uncomfortable.

Just like I said, everyone saw me coaxing him, but no one thought about why I kept coaxing him. Because he released the pressure.

Just like ordinary depression, it requires the care of family and friends to be conveyed to the heart.

When I was with him, I didn't know who was suffering from depression and who was suffering from schizophrenia.

So, I would recommend the song "Under the Sea" to him.

Later I confessed to others that he was actually using me as a punching bag, but others thought that I was saying bad things about him behind his back because I had a fight with him.

But I can always list every incident and every word that was used to insult me. It is not a judgment based on personal emotions.

After I left the hospital, I stopped caring about my own personal feelings.

Then my operation did go wrong in the middle of the game. I apologized during the game and also apologized after the game. He took this opportunity to say hurtful and chilling words. He thought he could use me as a punching bag to vent his frustration and make me lose face in front of everyone.

Then I left the group and deleted my friends.

I don’t play that game either. That game is called YGO. After I quit the group, I changed the game and changed to MD.

My roommate asked me why I played MD instead of YGO. I didn't want to say that I didn't want to play YGO anymore because I was mad at him. I said I liked to draw cards, but if he thought about it, he would see that I used to play YGO for an hour every day to play Phantom Blast. I prefer to play the best of three games.

My roommate always sees me and says I miss Bing Yuxin.

But he didn't think about it. I wonder what kind of thought it was. If I really liked him, couldn't I take the initiative to return to the group and add him as a friend? Wouldn't I take his phone and take a look at the group?

He didn't notice that every time I said I thought of him, I had to take two pills for depression. But I had stomach problems at the time and the medicine was very harmful to my stomach. My roommate felt uncomfortable for two days after taking one pill.

I was mad.

I met a lot of friends in the group and we have a good relationship, but because he has been staying in the group, I dare not go back.

But I won’t say, “You either kick him out or I’ll go back to the group.” Because Bing Yuxin couldn’t save her face. My roommate couldn’t save her face either.

We are all friends. I just feel bad for myself.

Can I say that I don't consider him a friend? When I didn't go back, it was because I cared about her feelings. For example, I didn't want to tell others in front of a group of people how this idiot had annoyed me again and again and made me quit the group.

How would other people see him then?

Whenever someone contacted me later, I would ask indirectly whether someone had seen what I said and wanted to contact me. I would not tell him the real reason why I did not reply to the group.

I don't want others to know that he is a nuisance and a burden.

I have never been happy once when I was with him. I felt bullied from beginning to end. He is different from all the people I have known before. At least they don't deliberately make people feel disgusted when playing games.

But I still treat him as a friend.

Because I think that people can't keep getting worse, and they can get better slowly. I know very well what the difference is between me and before. So I am very patient.

Later, when I was looking at QQ, I saw his friend list in the filter notification. I took a screenshot of the filter notification before agreeing to his friend request, and when I agreed to his friend status, I took a screenshot and told him that I didn't mean to let his friend request be rejected. He took two photos of himself in women's clothing and showed them to me. I told him that I was happy to see him again.

But I'm not happy at all.

I don't want the life and relationships that I've patiently pieced together to be easily trampled upon. I just think it's a hassle.

But I didn't say it directly. I still treated him with the same enthusiasm and patience as before.

I asked him indirectly if he saw something in the group that made him want to add me.

He said he didn't watch the group chat anymore. So I chatted with him privately. But it was different from chatting with other people. When chatting with him, I locked myself in the room.

I kept deliberately avoiding telling him the reason why I deleted him. Then he still asked.

I just told him that it was because of the last time he pointed at my nose and scolded me while playing games, but I didn’t say that he had been bothering me and making me tired before.

Then he apologized there, and I said it didn’t matter, I forgave him. I was actually quite happy because my wife came to see me anyway.

He asks who it is, congratulations.

I said it was you.

He said no, he likes women.

Then after we said good night to each other, I deleted him.

He doesn't know how stupid what he said and did was. I told others that the reason I was angry was because he knew I liked him, but he still said such things. I knew that such things were still on the list. Don't you know how embarrassing it is?

But the real reason is that he doesn't check what he says and doesn't think before he speaks. He doesn't know that I am trying to give him a way out. He is like this every time in the group before, and doesn't think before he speaks. He only knows how to show off his intelligence. I don't remember shouting like this in the group before.

Because I don't want to reveal the cruel things, I actually didn't have any feelings for him at that time. I just had a pure pity attitude. This is even more hurtful.

Even if he didn't ask me, I wouldn't take the initiative to talk about quitting the group and deleting my friends.

But, it doesn't mean we are not friends. So I will consider your feelings. If you talk to me, I will still be enthusiastic. If you ask me to do something, I will not refuse.

If you really think that I was very happy when I saw him, you can go back and ask Benzi how I spent the last few days I stayed in Beihai. I went out to pet cats by myself, didn't go out with them, had no expression on my face, and locked myself in the room.

I always try to find a way for him to back down. That's how it is in the group.

Have I forgiven him? Yes, but I won't change my lifestyle just because I forgive him.

Psychological trauma is not so easy to overcome.